After Lin Ran slept for a while, she didn't have time to worry about Wang Wenmao's words, and she didn't even have time to think about how to ease the relationship with Mo Zhi - although she didn't know why she wanted to ease it - because the teacher arranged an assignment that required group cooperation the next day, Lin Ran took on the job of going out to send out questionnaires in the group, and when she came back from a round trip, her brain was not very tired.

Knowing that Wu Ziping was such a No. 1 person when he arrived in Yancheng, Mo Zhi was absent because of something, Lin Jinghe naturally took over the role of her guardian, in order that the previous "kidnapping on the street" would not happen again, he asked Lin Ran to never leave the school alone.

Therefore, when she returned from the questionnaire survey, she was in Su Mingyi's car, and Lin Jing and a buyer over there came to buy paintings, and he couldn't get out of it for a while.

When the car entered the city, the string that had been stretched in Lin Ran's mind was loosened, and it was not until this time that the fatigue she had neglected seemed to be intensifying.

Su Mingyi, who was driving, saw her slumped in her seat with her peripheral vision: "You said before that you had a roommate who wouldn't go back tonight?" Is that to send you back to school or to simply send you back to Lin's house to have a good rest? ”

Lin Ran thought about it, anyway, Yu Mixia, who also went out to send out questionnaires, told herself that she probably wouldn't be able to go back today, and she also casually told Su Mingyi about it, and made a decision considering the distance: "Go back to school, the road is relatively close, and I have to tell Uncle Cheng if I will go to the old house, it's not troublesome enough." ”

Su Mingyi answered, and then asked the question he had always wanted to ask: "What is the matter between you and Mo Zhi?" ”

When he asked, he was ready that Lin Ran would refuse to answer this question, but to Su Mingyi's surprise, after the girl was silent for a few minutes, she turned her eyes to the light of the street lamp that flashed in the darkness outside the window, and said a little overwhelmed: "I...... I don't even know what's going on. ”

A person who has been lonely for too long always has something to say to others, and this kind of saying does not expect anyone to give you the answer you expect. I just want to say what has been piled up in my heart for too long, to be honest, if these words are not said for a long time, they will ferment and fester, and eventually become a quagmire that even I can't look at.

The person listening to these words does not have to bear any resemblance to the speaker, basically just a familiar human who can hear the voice.

Lin Ran knew in her heart that she was going to die, but she still chose to let those things become a thorn in her heart all the time, and it was the kind that would cause rivers of blood to flow if she touched it lightly.

Because knowing in your heart and not being able to do it are two different things.

And Lin Ran is even more afraid that once she speaks, she will expose her weakest state inside, and the experience of these years has left her with a bunch of sequelae that she doesn't know how many years she will accompany her, including never exposing her vulnerable side to others, who has the most clever disguise, who can sit for the longest time, and who can laugh until the end and become the real winner.

But on this night that made Lin Ran feel physically and mentally exhausted, she suddenly had the desire to find someone to talk to.

She started talking about Mo Zhi's sudden appearance at the family banquet in Suzhou City to relieve her, talking about the things before and after Qiao An'an's coming-of-age ceremony, the two of them getting along under one roof, and finally talking about the conversation just past.

just hid all of Mo Zhi's ambiguous expressions to her, as well as Mo Zhi's two confessions about feelings.

"You don't understand what the hell is going on?" After listening to Lin Ran's words, Su Mingyi asked after a while.

He stopped the car at the gate of the wild goose, but he had no intention of getting out.

Lin Ran was also too lazy to move in the passenger seat because of the tiredness of his whole body: "Yes, but this can't change anything." ”

"This has changed you," Su Mingyi unbuckled his seatbelt and lit a cigarette for himself, "Do you mind?" ”

Seeing Lin Ran shake his head, Su Mingyi put away the remaining half of the box of cigarettes, he took a hard puff, and then watched the smoke swirl up in the small space in the car: "Although I don't want to say this, but because of this incident, you finally have a little popularity." ”

Lin Ran blinked: "I don't quite understand why you use this word, do you mind explaining it to me?" ”

Su Mingyi sighed, and when he spoke again, he still tried to explain to her why he used this word: "This makes you more like a human than a machine, which is a good thing." ”

"Probably not." Lin Ran retorted calmly, and then tightened her coat, Su Mingyi saw that she was indeed a little frozen, so he reached out and turned on the heater in the car, "I don't need to be like a person, I just need to do what I have to do and achieve the goal I want to achieve." ”

To be able to make one's life worthwhile is worthy of one's heart.

Lin Ran just wanted to do this.

She had been going very smoothly on this road according to her own plan, until Mo Zhi appeared.

After Mo Zhi really appeared in her life, she unconsciously messed up everything.

"I don't know why you have changed so much," Su Mingyi took his flat mirror from her hand, covering his eyes and the emotions in his eyes, "But Lin Ran, I'm actually very happy when you mentioned him...... The whole person lit up and came to life. ”

"You don't believe in feelings, maybe part of it is because of what happened to you back then. But you know in your own heart that Mo Zhi and your stepfather Qiao Jingyi, as well as the irresponsible and blinded kid of the Qin family, are not the same kind of people, never have been. Su Mingyi looked at Lin Ran's eyes that were shining because of the light, and said seriously.

"But what can I do," Lin Ran's voice was still quiet, she lowered her head slightly, and the lines of her side face were demure and graceful, "I know that one day he will know everything...... But what can I do, if I don't say it, I can probably still get along with him like this, and if I say it, what will happen? ”

Lin Ran never thought about the consequences of this incident.

Or maybe she didn't even dare to think about it.

Su Mingyi looked at Lin Ran like this, as if he wanted to say something, but he didn't say anything after all.

He just stretched out his hand, took Lin Ran into his arms, and gave her a hug.

Like her brother.

It was as if it were her brother.

Hurricanes can blow at any time on calm seas, such as the 2008 financial crisis. But after all, it finally subsided with the stabilization of housing prices in the United States, just like no matter how big a storm is, it can't be tossed all the time.

In the sea, the most terrifying thing is always the reef hidden in those invisible places, hidden from people's sight, deeply pressed to the bottom of the sea, like a monster that devours people's souls in legends.

Lin Ran sat in the dormitory in a daze, this was a quiet moment that she finally had, Hu Ting and Ji Xin were doing group homework in the library, Yu Mixia did not come back, after calming down, she could feel that Wu Ziping and what was hidden behind him were like a shadow that could not be shaken off, lurking in a dark place, slowly moving over, waiting for the opportunity to kill him with one blow, and he couldn't prevent it.

She sat blankly by the window, the lights were brightly lit, and the city was still bustling even if it wasn't completely away from the cold season.

However, it is such a city that people die every day.

Her profession has exposed her to too many shady cases beyond imagination, and has also made her feel disappointed in many things.

The accumulation of negative emotions is the root of evil.

Lin Ran never believed that she was a person who was easily manipulated by emotions, she was cold and calm, and she could maintain the most rational side in any scene, not that she was fearless, wise and brave...... It's because of the desolation of her heart - because of what happened to her, she has begun to stop believing in feelings.

I don't even believe in feelings...... She doesn't have to be expected to trust others.

Someone pushed the door in, and Lin Ran had no intention of looking up at all, but asked lightly, "Are you back?" ”