After a long time, the mother's voice came again: "Nannan, haven't you gone to the hospital for an intravenous drip?" Mother's voice was still trembling as always, and the barrel could even be heard breathing in a disordered and rapid manner.

"Well, I'm going to go." Nan Nan is also the first time, her heart is beating wildly, it is so wanton and forgetful that she has been encouraged by hope, and her hand holding the mobile phone is also trembling slightly, and she almost fell to the ground. But Nannan's tears are no longer flowing, they have dried up, there are no tears, some are just shining, shining excitement, excited eyes, full of incredible and indescribable joy.

"Okay, okay, you have to go, you have to go, you have to go, go quickly." After the mother finished speaking, she didn't wait for Nan Nan to reply, but hung up the phone in a hurry. Some of the mother's words were indistinct and indistinct. But Nan Nan knew that her mother must be crying after hanging up the phone.

Nan Nan thought that in the past year or so, her mother had boiled her head white for herself, but the corners of her mother's eyes were full of wrinkles when she was less than forty years old, and her mother's eyes were red and swollen every day, covered with bloodshots, and her mother's figure was getting thinner and thinner. But the mother is more meticulous to herself, she never complains, never blames, the mother will smile to herself as before, even if her eyes are full of bitterness, but the mother will still make a table of dishes for herself, even if she always can't eat a few bites, but the mother still refuses to give up, she is not angry, just do her best to make more mouth-watering dishes for herself, even if the mother's face is full of exhaustion, But her eyes were still full of anticipation when she looked at her, although it would always come to naught in the end. But her mother would always hide it, but she would still say some comforting words, revealing her distressed and worried look.

This is what her mother has done for Nan Nan in this year, and it is everything she can do. She knows that her mother's tears will wet the pillow every night, and she also knows that her mother will sigh when she doesn't care, and she is even more willing to burn incense and worship Buddha from time to time.

This is the mother's love for herself, bit by bit into a vast ocean, moisturizing things silently surrounding Nannan, nourishing Nannan's heart that has long dried up and is full of dry sores. Nan Nan wanted to break her life several times, and wanted to stop at it several times, wanting to use that sharp, cold glass to cut her wrists, so as to drain her blood, cold her body, and stop her heartbeat.

But Nan Nan didn't do it in the end, she just saw her mother's forced smile on her face, felt her mother's meticulous care for her, and heard her mother's sobs at night. Nan Nan also let go of this thought, she thought, to live, even if it is painful, even if it is difficult, but she has to live, just for her mother, for the mother who loves her deeply, just live like this.

"It's going to be okay, I'm going to be okay, it's going to be." And now, Nan Nan put down the phone, looking at the phone that was already black, she muttered to herself, her heart was filled with hope, that was Nan Nan's hope for life. After she ate the half bowl of mung bean porridge, she noticed that her body was no different, and Nan Nan had such hope, she wanted to live.

Nan Nan stood up, wiped away her tears, and walked to the door, intending to go to the hospital. But just as she was about to stand by the shoe cabinet to change her shoes, Nan Nan glanced over the kitchen, where there were two glass doors separating the kitchen and the living room, and it just so happened that one of the glass doors was facing the doorway.

In this way, it reflects Nan Nan's appearance at the moment, thin, but he is dressed in white, with a high horse-colored tail, which is very energetic, and at this time, Nan Nan remembered that this was his former self and his former self.

At that time, Nan Nan was still a "fat girl", she had not yet entered high school, and she had not suffered all the harm and exclusion she had suffered in those three years. At that time, she knew that she was "fat" and not liked by others, but she was unwilling to change herself in order to cater to the public, she was stubbornly insisting on herself. She wears bright colors every day, especially the most beloved white, she wears a high ponytail, although she is still not welcomed, but she is growing silently, and she is tenaciously living her truest, most calm, and most comfortable appearance.

Nan Nan looked at the appearance of the glass door, and for a moment, she was in a trance, as if she had suddenly returned to the past, she had become her past self, no longer the appearance of being "thin" now, but still suffering from torture, but "fat", but still stubbornly wanting to become the purest self.

But Nan Nan knew that it wasn't, she was still skinny, but her heart was warm for some reason, her heart was beating very lightly, and even her body was floating, it was very relaxed, and it would fly if she wasn't careful.

Nan Nan lowered her head, and what she was holding in Yu was a pair of white shoes, which Nan Nan found out unconsciously and in a daze. At this moment, a flying heart was filled with joy, and the chest was swollen with this joy, as if it were stuffed with a ball of feathers, very light, weightless, but very full.

Nan Nan bent down, changed into shoes, and in the reflection of the glass door, she looked at her whole body and the boy carefully. Nan Nan looked at it and grinned, the corners of her mouth slightly upturned, but the glass door could not clearly show her face. But Nan Nan knew that she was smiling, and she was still smiling very easily, very bright, and quite happy.

"I'll be fine." Nan Nan looked at herself in the glass, and whispered these words again, her voice sounded hoarse, but inside, it was full of firmness, and it was an undoubted tone.

Nan Nan took the change box placed on the shoe cabinet, took out two coins from it, and went out. She walked to the elevator door, and realized that her steps were very brisk, usually walking dozens of steps, but now, she had not walked a few steps. Nan Nan pressed the elevator, and the door just opened, and the neighbor who was on the door happened to walk out. It was an aunt who carried a basket of vegetables in her hand, an umbrella, and a large windbreaker in a colorful windbreaker, and that aunt had yellow curly hair, a chubby face, but a very healthy body.

The aunt took a look at Nan Nan, her eyes first turned from doubt to surprise, she strode out of the elevator door, stood in front of Nan Nan, blocking Nan Nan's way, and the two doors of the elevator also closed gently behind the aunt.

"Nannan, it's you! I almost didn't recognize it. The aunt kept a distance from Nan Nan, and as she spoke, she still tilted her head up and down, looking at Nan Nan suspiciously.

"Aunt Huang, it's really me." Nan Nan was a little embarrassed by Aunt Huang, and she was a little overwhelmed, Aunt Huang has always treated her well, although she didn't know why Nan Nan was studying at home, but she never asked. On the contrary, she would often meet Nan Nan from time to time and tell her to eat more, and sometimes even make soup and put some special for Zhan Nan Nan to taste.

"Yikes! I'll just say it! Nannan, you have to wear such bright clothes like this, how beautiful these white clothes look on you. Like what you usually wear, it's all black, it looks lifeless, there is no young look at all, your hair is ......tied up, it's good to tie it up" That Aunt Huang seemed to have been suddenly opened into a conversation, and actually began to chatter.

But Nan Nan didn't show an impatient look, but looked at Aunt Huang, looked at her eyebrows and danced with her expression, and listened to her words one by one.

If it weren't for Nan Nan coughing again, interrupting Aunt Huang's work, I'm afraid she would still continue to talk endlessly, in fact, Nan Nan wanted to cough a long time ago, her throat was sore and itchy, but Nan Nan endured it at first, she didn't want to disturb Aunt Huang's self-care words, but after a long time, Aunt Huang's words were still not finished, but Nan Nan's chest first surged up, and suddenly surged upward, blocked her throat, and coughed again. Nan Nan hurriedly turned her face away, turned sideways, covered her mouth, and coughed. This time it wasn't that serious, just coughed a few times, and my throat was no longer oxygenous, but it hurt a little more.

"Nannan, are you sick?" Aunt Huang asked, her tone full of concern.

"Well, I have a fever and I'm going to the hospital now." Nan Nan told the truth, but when she spoke, her throat was even more stinging, and the foreign body in her throat seemed to be even more swollen.

"Oh, you girl, I didn't say it earlier, I've been talking to you here for so long, you go to the hospital, go quickly." Aunt Huang said as she pressed the elevator button for Nan Nan, and after the door opened, she gently pushed Nan Nan into the elevator.

Just before the elevator closed, Aunt Huang stood in front of the elevator door, as if she suddenly thought of something, her body trembled, and she shouted loudly: "Nannan, remember to eat more, you are really too thin now."

As soon as Aunt Huang's words were finished, the elevator door was closed, but it was clearly transmitted to Nan Nan's ears.

Nan Nan was stunned for a second, and then laughed shallowly, Nan Nan only felt that her heart was warm.

"I will, I'll eat more." Nan Nan couldn't help it, and whispered, her throat was still very painful, but for Nan Nan at this moment, it didn't seem so obvious.

She was thinking, it seemed, everything, was getting better.