CHAPTER XXIII

I let go of the fourth master's hand. He was busy arranging things inside and outside the palace. The Thirteenth Master also has to accompany him to be busy with these. But I can't. Though my heart is bitter. The body can barely support it. But I still have to get back to my room. Follow the secret passage. Step into the secret room.

Quacks, they are all in the secret room. See me come in. Hurriedly gathered around: "The master is fine."

I seem to have suddenly relaxed. The body is soft. Collapsed in the arms of Willow Shadow. Liu Ying hurriedly carried me to the cot in the secret room and lay down. The quack is on the pulse. Frowning.

"Quacks. What's wrong. Am I serious?"

Quacks don't speak. In a hurry, they scolded: "Quack. You speak."

The quack doctor said angrily, "How can this be...... This medicine ...... This medicine is a bit in conflict with the other medicine that Yu Bing took a few days ago......"

"What will happen?"

"You're going to hurt. Menstrual cramps in the future......"

Butterfly Ying was so angry that she scolded: "Didn't you say that it would be fine. Didn't you say that the master would definitely have children? What are you doing now?"

The quack himself was too annoyed to speak. I hurriedly waved my hand: "Be quiet. I'm going to kill you. The quack doctor will definitely be able to cure me. Don't be angry."

"Master. You're twenty-eight. I don't know how long this recuperation will take...... When will you be able to have a baby with the fourth master......" Butterfly Shadow said. I almost cried out.

I grimaced and scolded, "Is this the time to say this? The emperor died. The Fourteenth Master has not returned to Beijing. Eight masters, how could they give up. You don't have to worry about setting things up. What's the use of thinking about my body? What if something goes wrong. I have no bones left. What kind of children are you going to have?"

A few people fell silent. No more talking. I forced myself to sit up: "Give me a good job. Keep an eye on those people. Remembered. We must let the fourteenth master come back safely. The enthronement ceremony must also be safe."

"Yes."

It's settled here. I stood up. Stagger.

Butterfly Shadow hurriedly helped me: "Master, what are you going to do?"

"I'll go. Wake......

That night. I took off all my jewelry. Put on a plain dress and filial piety clothes. Kneel in front of the spiritual seat of Kangxi Ye Daxing. Empty mourning hall. So quiet. He won't hurt me again. And I. Finally in the dead of night. Talk to him......

"Huang Ama. You see. Tonight. It's just our father and daughter."

"Huang Ama. Nalan Rongruo wrote a poem. You must remember.' If life is only as it first sees. If life is only as first seen...... Amma. If you are between me. It would be nice to see it as it first saw it."

"At the time of forty-six years. Open your eyes. Know that you are Kangxi. I decided that you were my father. I trust you. Follow you back to the cold Forbidden City...... You love me and spoil me. I respect you and love you...... But later. How did everything change?"

"People say, 'Broken mirrors are reunited', but the relationship between our father and daughter. The broken mirror is reunited. Or a broken mirror. Those hurt. Too deep and too heavy. Whatever you are to me. Or am I to you. After all, we failed each other's hearts. You see. Even you're leaving. They won't let me go easily......"

"Whose father and daughter? Will be like us. How do you make a field like this......"

I sighed. Thinking about those pasts. The hall was empty. No one. I sat on the ground. Head resting on his coffin: "Amma. Ama ...... Do you remember. I'm angry. You say that you are my Amma. It's not Huang Amma. It's just Amma...... How much I wish. In this life. You're really just my Amma...... But that's not the case. That's not true...... Look. What did we do to each other in the end......"

I finally cried out in pain: "Amma. Think about it. We've been doing it for more than ten years. What did they do to each other. You count me. Drugged me. Let me die. I'll calculate you. Count your son. Your throne. Pro. You drugged me. I can't get pregnant anymore. I'm snarky and mean to your heart...... If I don't say so much. Will you stay a few more days?"

I asked. But he would never answer me again: "Amma. But you went. Already went...... It's the same as the days I know. The heir is the same as I know. You can go with confidence. Go with confidence...... I hope for the next life. You can be a father who doesn't fail......"

I leaned silently against the coffin. I don't want to say that anymore. I whispered, "I'll sing you another song." You like to hear me sing the most."

"Red dust is ridiculous

Infatuation is the most boring

It's okay to keep your eyes open

This life is not over

but the heart is not disturbed

I just want to get away with it for half a lifetime

Smile at people when you wake up

Forget it all in your dreams

Sigh that it was too early to get dark

The next life is unpredictable

Love and hate are written off

I just want to be happy until I get old

No matter how cold the wind is, I don't want to escape

No matter how beautiful the flowers are, I don't want them

Let me sway

The higher the sky, the smaller the heart

Regardless of how much cause and effect there is

Drunk alone

Cry today and laugh tomorrow

I don't want anyone to understand

Proud

Singing and dancing

The night was long and unaware

Will be happy to find"

I look back on the past fifteen years. and Kangxi Ye bits and pieces. When he looked at me. It's like looking at the most cherished daughter in the world. That kind of feeling. You can't fake it. My father. I'm finally lost again in this world.

Huang Ama. My Amma......

I hope for the next life. You can laugh at the red dust. Don't be so obsessed anymore......

Love too. Hate or not. Between you and me. Just with you. It's all gone......

And I. It's going to get better......

*******

December. The enthronement ceremony is over.

I'm finally barely in control of the Dark Guard. So that the party of the eighth master could not make any trouble before and after the enthronement ceremony.

The fourth master named Yunxi as Prince Lian. Conferring the Shoshu of the Imperial Academy. Yun Xiang is Prince Yi. Yun Yi is the king of the county. Honghui, the son of the deposed prince Yunren, is the king of Lijun. Take Long Keduo as the secretary of the ministry.

The first imperial concubine. They were allowed to leave the palace and live with the prince to enjoy their lives.

But is it really that smooth? How can it be......

The Fourteenth Master is finally about to arrive in the capital. Eight masters, they are getting more and more nonsense. I watched their plans. I made a plan with the fourteenth master. Since they want to make trouble. Let's make a fuss.

So. After the fourteenth master returned to Beijing. In front of the mausoleum, he refused to bow down to the new emperor. It's a mess. Everybody wants to make trouble. Then it's okay to make a fuss. Save them from dying.

That night. I went to see the Fourteenth Master......

"Yu Bing. Today's scene. I'm really embarrassed to do it." He laughed and complained to me.

I smiled back at him, "No way. It's not for you. How could they be resigned. Since they won't give up. Then we can sit back and wait. It's better to just follow them. Let them make trouble. It's almost there. In order to have a smooth chapter. Justified charges."

The Fourteenth Master shook his head helplessly: "It's really annoying. It's better to be quieter on the battlefield."

"You don't have to worry about the battlefield. The fourth brother is reluctant to let you go again."

"You girl. Why do you still call him Fourth Brother?"

"I can't change it."

The fourteenth master is holding a wine jug. Look at me with a smile: "You girl. It's not been a good time lately, right?"

"It's fine. It's better than the fourth brother. He's really physically and mentally exhausted." Thinking of how the fourth master has been recently. I can't bear it in my heart.

The Fourteenth Master smiled bitterly and sighed: "I'm just afraid of the days to come. It's not going to be any better."

I nodded: "Live in this home. Where are the good days......"

These words come out. We all have nothing more to say. Two people drink in silence. Sigh.

Until it gets late. I had to leave for the palace. Then he said to him, "Stay well. After a few days. It is estimated that the fourth master will reward you with a temporary purity."

The fourteenth master nodded: "You and the fourth brother don't be too embarrassed. Really need me to do something. I'm not going to shirk it."

"Don't worry."

I said goodbye to the Fourteenth Master. Return to the Royal Palace.

The fourth master did not want to live in the palace where Kangxi Ye came. He thinks I've suffered too much in that house. Decided to move to the Palace of Nourishing Hearts to live. The carriage slowly walked towards the Heart Cultivation Hall. I remembered that the fourth master said to me: "That place. Not your home. Not even my home. In the future. I hope. The Heart Cultivation Hall can be your home and mine."

Our home......

Ay......

The carriage stopped. Xiao Shunzi knocked on the door of the carriage: "Princess. It's here."

I pushed the door open and walked down. Look at the magnificent palace in front of you. Sighing, "Let's go."

this time. The fourth master must be waiting for me in the Xinuan Pavilion watching the fold.

Walk in. He looked up at me and smiled, "It's back."

I nodded and walked over. He held out his hand to me. He took me by the hand and sat beside him: "You say I am with you every day. You've been out for a while. That's how I miss you."

I smiled and leaned into his arms: "I miss the fourth brother too."

The fourth master hugged me tightly: "My Yu'er...... Without you. How lonely it must be in this house."

"I'll always be with the fourth brother."

The fourth master nodded. Put the fold aside: "Tired. That's it for today."

"Okay."

The fourth master ordered to go down. Have someone stand guard at the door. Blew out the candles. He fell asleep with his arms around me. But I am awake. I'm thinking I'll have to talk to him for a few days. The Dark Guard's business.

All slept. I whispered, "Come out."

Butterfly Seventeen and they knelt on the ground. The fourth master's secret guards, Yun Si and Die Si, also knelt on the ground. I nodded. Shake the fourth master awake: "Fourth brother. Fourth brother."

The fourth master frowned and asked, "What's wrong?" He sat up. I saw a kneeling man on the ground. Eyes wide open and asked me, "Is this ......"

I shook my head at him. Motioned for him not to speak yet. Then he said to Butterfly Seventeen, "Lead the way."

I held the fourth master's hand. Follow Butterfly Seventeen into the secret passage. Enter the secret room. The four of them are all in the secret room. Quacks are also there.

"Master."

I nodded, "Let's get up."

Pull the fourth master to sit down. I said to them, "Introduce yourselves. I'm tired. Don't want to talk." I leaned into the arms of the fourth master. Looking at Fengyun Butterfly Willow and the quack doctor, he introduced the situation of the dark guard. I introduced myself again.

The fourth master was silent for a long time. Make all five of them a little nervous. I squeezed the fourth master's hand: "What do you think. Why don't you speak."

The fourth master hugged me tightly in distress: "Since when did you take over?"

"In the late autumn of forty-six."

"So many years. You're just going to deal with it in the dead of night every night in a secret room like this."

I smiled soothingly, "These are nothing. Fourth brother. If you have something to command. And he made haste and commanded them; It's nothing. Let's go up first. Let them do what they should do."

He nodded. Nothing else was commanded. Instead, he said to the quack, "How is Yu'er's body?"

The quack looked at me. I shook my head slightly. The fourth master found our little moves. With a cold face, he said, "Tell the truth."

Quacks are helpless. Told me about the medicine.

The fourth master fell silent again. After a long time, he said, "Try your best to condition Yu'er's body. Children are not the most important thing. But you must make sure that Yu'er's body is safe."

The quack nodded in response. The fourth master said to the others: "All the things. You all should just listen to Yu'er's arrangement. I went up with Yu'er first."

He dragged me back to the West Warm Court. Sit on the bed. Hold me tightly. Don't speak. Just sigh.

I looked up and asked, "What's wrong?"

He lowered his head and kissed me lightly on the forehead: "You all these years. How much more have you suffered...... Yu'er. I wanted to keep you safe for the rest of your life. But in the end. But you are running and toiling for me."

All of a sudden, my tears just fell. But his heart is sweet and warm: "Fourth brother. It's not a big deal......"

"Why drink that medicine?"

"He wanted me to drink it. to be able to safely enthrone you."

"Even if you don't drink it. The edict has been prepared. I've got it all set up too. There won't be a problem."

I shook my head: "No. Got to that point. I definitely wouldn't want anything to go wrong. Is. In order to ensure that nothing goes wrong."

The fourth master sighed: "My Yu'er...... My Jade ......"

"Fourth brother. Don't feel bad."

"How can I not feel bad. You've suffered so much. Can I not feel bad?" He caressed my hair lovingly.

I hugged him tightly: "Fourth brother. I said it. I won't be a burden to you. And only by sharing your burden. I'm really able not to be a burden to you. Do you understand?" That's right. I myself find the logic confusing.

The fourth master nodded. Lie down with me in your arms. Cover me with a quilt: "My jade. How could I not understand you. It is precisely because of understanding. That's why I feel distressed......"

"Fourth brother. It's fine. It's really fine. So many years have passed. Later. You know me better. That's enough...... Dependent on each other......"

The fourth master patted me on the back: "Silly girl. Won't you complain? To protect me. Guardian Thirteen Brothers. Fourteenth brother. You're so hard. Aren't you tired?"

"Not tired. As long as I can be with you. I'm not afraid of anything."

I looked at the fourth master. He looked at me with pity. Kissed me gently on the forehead. Nose. Lips: "My Yu'er. She is the best girl in the world. You should have been treated gently. Careful protection. How can you suffer like this......"

"Fourth brother. Don't do that. As long as you can share your sorrows; To make it easier for you. I'm relieved." I hugged him tightly. Feel the tenderness of him kissing my neck and earlobes.

"I love you...... Yu'er ......"

"I love you too......"

The night is still very long. He gave me love and warmth. It's going to be long, too......