The girl could feel her body, her mind as if it had been manipulated by something. She felt that her body was no longer her own, and even her mind seemed to be manipulated, and her mind was blank.

The girl is no longer herself, and she is no longer a complete, living person.

It's like a girl who has no soul, no perception, no consciousness. The girl didn't know why she was alive or what she was going to do while she was alive, and she felt like she was living like the walking dead who only knew how to keep walking.

But in fact, compared to the walking dead, the girl is still a little different.

The girl felt as if all her body functions and senses were necrotic, unconscious, but there was only one nerve that was tense.

This nerve supports the girl, so that the girl can live purposefully, but at the same time, he is also mutilating the girl.

He is constantly reminding and urging girls to do one thing, and only let girls do this one thing-

"Lose weight".

The girl felt like she was standing on a single-plank bridge, and below the bridge was an abyss. There was a pair of hands behind the girl's back, and they were pushing the girl behind her back to keep moving forward, these hands did not have much strength, but they carried a lot of weight, and the girl had to go forward according to his wishes.

And "weight loss" seems to have gradually become a part of the girl's body, and the girl even feels that "weight loss" is like a terrible medium that can be carried out throughout the body.

He can manipulate his body and mind so that he can obey and blindly follow any instructions he gives him.

The girl doesn't know whether she is consciously trying to lose weight, or if she is actually "losing weight" and controlling herself, allowing herself to "lose weight" unconsciously.

When a girl thinks about it, it feels confusing and scary. But girls will choose to leave these emotions behind, and girls don't have the energy to think, let alone think. The girl is subconsciously avoiding this problem, she doesn't want to figure it out, and the girl subconsciously thinks that the result of this problem will bring a great blow and disaster to herself.

However, the girl didn't have time to think about it. Because a new, looming problem has arisen.

The girl's heart slowly became like a bottomless pit, and it became more and more difficult to satisfy. After reaching a new, good stage, the girl will be happy and excited for a while, and after the girl has calmed down, the girl will want a newer, better stage more.

It's like this over and over again......

In other words, the girl is still not satisfied with her current weight, even if the girl is very happy to lose weight to this extent, and this has reached the body of the average girl.

But the girl still wants to be thin, and she still wants to lose weight.

In fact, many people around the girl have told the girl that the girl is thin, she is in the right figure, and she doesn't need to lose weight at all.

Of course, the girl is also very clear in her heart, and she also understands this, and the girl clearly knows that she is no longer the "fat girl" she used to be, and she has been reborn and renewed.

But as soon as the girl goes out, as soon as she sees the girls with thin arms and legs, the girl will forget about it. The girl will look at her arm, touch the flesh on her belly, and then bow her head with low self-esteem, and she will feel that she is still a "fat girl", and she has not changed at all.

Even if the girl stands in the mirror and looks at her collarbone and emaciated chin in the mirror, the girl will not feel that she is "thin", and the girl will still feel that she is "fat".

Therefore, only the numbers, only the numbers on the body scale, can make the girl soberly believe that she is really thin, and she is a real "thin girl".

This is the only way to be able to soothe a girl.

So the girl wants to lose 90 pounds, and the girl stubbornly believes that only when she loses 90 pounds can she be considered "thin". Seeing the "thin girl" everywhere outside, I will no longer feel inferior, and I will not feel that I am still the "fat girl".

You can let yourself go.

So girls never go to the cafeteria to eat during college. The girls would buy some toast at the school shop and some bread for their meals.

The bread that the girl bought was still the kind of small bread, the kind of pure bread that was not half the size of the palm of the hand, and there were no additives such as cream. Of course, the taste is not so tasty.

The girl ate two or three slices of toast, or two of those small breads every day, and so on day by day.

Sometimes girls are really hungry and want to eat something. I would buy a boiled egg from a breakfast shop near the school to reduce my cravings.

However, this situation is also rare, and even a hard-boiled egg is already considered a luxury for a girl.

In this way, the girl quickly lost weight to 100 catties, 98 catties, 96 catties, and 94 catties......

But when the girl lost 94 pounds, she found that her weight was no longer reduced, and it had always remained the same.

The girl was anxious and unwilling. As soon as she was ruthless and gritted her teeth, she simply bought a pack of toast with only seven slices in the shop, and the girl spent the next week on that pack of toast and boiled water.

For a whole week, the girl felt like a living dead, weak, weak, and top-heavy every day.

As soon as the girl stood up, she immediately felt dizzy, and then her eyes were black, and she was about to faint, so she had to stand hard for a while.

Girls even sometimes look in the mirror and are frightened by themselves in the mirror, and the girl looks at herself in the mirror as if she is not a human or a ghost.

The girl's face was sallow, and both eye sockets were sunken. The eyes are blank, there are only large patches with a little cyan whites in the eye sockets, and even the eyeballs are only small, without expression, and they are dull. The girl's lips were pale and pale, without any complexion, as if she were a seriously ill patient with a short period of time.

That week, even the dormitory people looked at the girl with a little fear.

In fact, at this point, the girl already understands what she is doing. Although this is something that even the girl herself doesn't want to admit, and she feels ashamed and unspeakable.

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Diet.