I looked at the mature man in front of me, and I felt a little strange.

I don't remember how long it was, but he slowly and completely disappeared into my world.

No news of the ......

When he was a child, he was so beautiful and innocent, and he called "Luoluo" and "Luoluo" behind me every day.

I don't know when this boy walked into my ignorant heart.

The first time I saw him at home, he glowed white.

Standing in the backlight, the sun shines through his hair, his face is red, and his smiling eyes are crooked.

From that day on, he became the most important person in my life.

I didn't know what I liked, I just remember, that day under the peach blossom tree, a boy like a spring breeze took my hand, I saw me in his eyes, and he said to me: Luoluo, we will be together for the rest of our lives.

I simply thought they were lifelong friends.

I said, "Okay."

Suddenly, one day, the boy never appeared again, and it seemed that there was no such thing as him in my life, only a memory of my own.

He, don't you remember saying that you want to be together forever?

I haven't even written about it, and I don't understand your deep affection.

I don't even know if I'm missing the peach blossom tree or the smiling face under the peach blossom tree.

He's gone, and there are so many empty days and nights that I miss him and miss him.

I often think that if you hadn't said that, I wouldn't have burst into tears every day when I dream back to midnight.

Why didn't you leave and tell me?

Even if it's a quick goodbye.

I can't even forget the last time I saw me, which day it was.

After a long time, I gradually got used to this kind of life, I grew up, there are always people in my life to stay, and gradually I also saw it, maybe you only regard me as a childhood friend......

I really want to see you, I want to ask you: Leng Yan, do you remember me?

I really want to see you and say to you: Leng Yan, I like you.

When I confirmed my intentions, I didn't tell anyone, but I stayed with my brother every day, and it seemed that I had caused him a lot of trouble, and if you were there, I would definitely help me solve it.

My brother is so busy every day, and my parents travel around like a fairy couple.

When I needed someone to keep me company, a boy who looked like you when you were a child appeared in my life: He Shengyu.

I turned my thoughts about you to He Shengyu, I don't know if it's because the light on his body is like you, or what.

He was very gentle, responsive to my requests, spoiled to the extreme, and slowly, somehow, became him in my world.

I'm also used to his presence, and I'm in love with He Shengyu, not like you.

He Shengyu is so gentle and elegant, a gentleman, sunny, humorous and romantic, and the label of a good man is attached to him.

I sank.

Gradually forgetting the pain caused by your departure, he fills my lonely world.

……

It's been ten years, goodbye to you, everything has changed.

On the day of the party, you were as arrogant as a lion among your friends, and the boy with the stars in his eyes was gone.

The way you look at me, there's something complicated that I can't read.

I'd love to ask you why you didn't say goodbye at the time, but I couldn't.

"Long time no see."

yes, it's been a long time.

This sentence is light and breezy from your mouth.

No one saw my clenched hands, and no one saw my nervousness and helplessness.

I was a little angry, deliberately holding He Shengyu and coquettish, deliberately mentioning marriage, I want to see your reaction.

But you don't seem to care.

I pretended to be nothing, and slowly digested the fact that you came back, digesting the changed you, and you who didn't have me in your eyes.

It turns out that you've always been in touch with your friends, but I don't know.

Is it deliberately hidden?

I didn't even know that you and Seungwoo were friends too.

It's like there's no me in your world.

You're back, and the place I left for you in my heart has long since changed.

I thought that Shengyu and I would get married smoothly, have a baby, and then go white.

But it backfired.

He Shengyu still hurt my heart that loved him completely.

Leng Yan, you know what? I was stunned when you said you love me in front of everyone.

This sentence, why didn't it be said earlier.

Even if you come back three years earlier, the person in your heart must still be you.

Fate made us miss it.

It turns out that you like me too, why didn't you say it? Didn't show it either? Why did you like me or leave?

I saw a question post:

"What does it feel like to suddenly not like someone?"

One answer is:

"He was covered in light. For a moment, it suddenly dimmed and became a speck of dust in the universe. I tried to remember how light he was, but I couldn't remember anything. Later, I found out that it was the light in my eyes when I first met him. ”

You were gone when I loved you, and I was tired when you loved me.

I'm scared of feelings, and I'm afraid that one day you'll say goodbye.

Leave me alone.

Before I saw the news about you, I was still thinking, what have you been through in the past ten years?

You've changed a lot, you don't talk much, you don't like to laugh anymore, and your whole temperament has changed.

Is it because you have grown up and matured?

You became so cold that you barely spoke, just sat there quietly, with no waves on your face.

You hide yourself, wrapping yourself in thick armor.

When I knew that you were taking drugs, the image of your warm male brother in my heart was gone.

I've been looking forward to you for a long time and you're so unbearable, just like He Shengyu said, you're no longer clean.

I was disappointed, I was a little painful, I was a little scared.

Have you become as terrible as He Shengyu?

Looking at you who are tormented by illness, looking at you lying on the hospital bed lifeless, I don't dare to care about you.

I don't even dare to ask you if there is a girl in your life who has always been with you and accepted everything from you.

I've known you for so many years, and it's the first time I've seen you cry so heartbroken.

Sometimes you go back to the way you were when you were a child, some childish, some cute.

More often than not, you're still so cold and unstoppable, with a look of rejecting everything.

Sometimes the viciousness in your expression makes me feel strange, you are like another person, someone I don't know.

It's as if you're a friend of a friend, introduce me to me.

That day, I got to know a whole new you.

I thought I liked you and kept it in my heart.

That day, I wanted to tell you.

I did that, and I was so happy when you know it, maybe I'll never forget it for the rest of my life.

I am no longer the Liluo I once was, as pure and clean as I once was.

Maybe from the day I fell in love with He Shengyu, I didn't deserve you.

You said it would make me like you again.

You're so determined.

I flinched.

Can you still accept me now?

A broken, incomplete me.

……

"Brother Leng Yan, my mother hit my ass with a broom again!"

I still remember that when I was a child, I would run to you every time I got into trouble and complain to you.

You've always protected me.

It doesn't matter if I've smashed my dad's favorite antique vase or spilled my mom's expensive perfume.

You're going to take the blame on yourself.

Do you know? I grabbed your hair and kissed you that day because I saw the plot of Huanzhu Gegeri, Xiaoyanzi kissing the fifth elder brother.

I thought we were like them.

I thought that if I kissed you, you would always be mine.

It was Li Luo's cold words.

Later, because of this incident, you were beaten by Leng's mother for three days.

Hahahaha, you were so cute at the time.

I was so ashamed that my fingers were red.

You ignored me for days after that.

……

Leng Yan, I liked you so much before, I liked you so much.

Now I can give you only my former intentions.

……

Actually, I'm a little grateful to He Shengyu for his betrayal,

Although he hit me and hurt me.

But I've got your return in exchange,

There is also a brief time for the company of my brother.

I haven't seen my brother in a long time.

A year? Or two years?

He was always so busy and mysterious.

I never knew much about what he was up to.

I only know that he is burdened, and the glory of the Li family for generations is on his shoulders.

He sheltered me from the wind and rain outside, so that I had a stable life.

My brother matured very early, and my father seemed to have consciously cultivated my brother since he was a child.

I knew my brother was tired, so I didn't want to cause trouble for him, and I didn't want to tell him even if I was injured and hospitalized.

I'm afraid that my brother will worry, and I'm afraid that it will make him stumbling.

I want to be a sensible girl, to be quiet, and to be a troublesome spirit who no longer drags her feet.

But I'm still causing you trouble.

The victim's cold words are seriously ill and the company is in crisis, the victim's brother takes time out to visit when he is busy, and the victim's friend has to take care of me when he is not skilled.

I'd love to say sorry to you.

I am a little envious of the love between Murong Ran and Ye Yiyi, although they have also experienced a lot of ups and downs, but they only have each other.

There was no betrayal or parting between them, and they loved each other carefully.

When I look at their happy appearance, I also fantasize that one day I will sit with Leng Yan and my brother and sister-in-law and laugh and talk about family life.

My sister-in-law and I were making dumplings in the kitchen, and my brother and Leng Yan were watching TV in the living room.

But this time my brother came back, and he had a great prejudice against Leng Yan.

He hated Leng Yan's dark experiences, and I knew he was afraid that the dangers in Leng Yan's life would affect me.

Actually, after listening to Murong Ran's story, I was not afraid.

Leng Yan was a little pitiful, although he was gone, but he had a bad life, and the seemingly understated experience was actually a thorn in his heart.

Leng Yan is a perfectionist, even if he has grown up and matured now, it is still difficult to hide his love for beauty.

The day he went to the amusement park was the day he smiled the most truly when he came back.

Getting off the roller coaster, he looked a little funny as he stood by and straightened his hair and clothes on his phone.

It's completely different from his usual personality.

So a person who cares about his details, how scared he should be when he encounters those tainted experiences.

Looking at him with a rare smile, I felt distressed.

He seemed to creep back into my heart again.

is no longer the simple and cheerful boy in his memory,

is a mature and stable man, who values love and righteousness, and is dictatorial.

If it seems to you, loving me and companionship are never two different things.

Then it seems to me that even if you are covered in blood and mud and step through the darkness, I will protect you.

There will be no more scumbag He Shengyu in my life, I just want to have that affectionate cold words.

I'm not going to change you, to change you back to what you used to be.

And I'm going to try to accept you now, a devastated and scarred and fragile you.

I just hope that

someday

You will let go of the obsession in your heart,

Forget the past that was unbearable,

Stand under the peach blossom tree again, smile and be your truest self.

Eventually, one day, I will make up my mind to guard you instead.

Leng Yan, wait for me, okay?

When my heart becomes as pure as it was in the early years, when I completely remove all traces of He Shengyu,

I will give you back the softest part of my heart......