Chapter 31: Closer to home is more timid
"Are you finally willing to talk to me like that?" The wound in his eyes. It's a needle that I can't get caught up against. Poke in my heart. It makes me want to cry in pain.
I pinched his face: "You know very well. I have my helplessness and sorrow. I am happy. You've grown up like this. Grown into such a good young man. It's no longer the one standing in the Royal 'Flower' Garden. Pretending to be a serious child."
I put my hand down. Seventeen Elder Brother pulled: "Your hand. It's getting rough. Once upon a time when you pinched my face. The fingers are slippery like the finest mutton fat 'jade'."
I look at the thin calluses on my hands. Remembering this period of life: "These rough. It's worth it. All my life. At least I used to have that kind of freedom and tranquility."
Seventeen Elder Brother looked at me. Fell into a long silence. The golden eagle flies impatiently. The two of us looked up at it together." Let's go. It's time for us to go, too."
Turn over and get on the horse. I waved the whip in my hand. Red dates kick up dust. I rode away with Seventeen Brothers.
Thirteen full days. We tried our best to get on the road. Harleen didn't go with her. I left her to take care of the poor doe.
Return to the capital. Follow the Luan of Kangxi Ye into the palace. I was led to the small courtyard of the Qianqing Palace to wash and rest. The feeling of coming back. Something strange. I'm in a mess of myself. Look at everything in front of you that is familiar and yet unfamiliar.
I sighed. Get out of the bathtub. Dried off. Change into clean clothes that you have prepared in advance. Go to Kangxi's imperial study.
Kangxi Ye sat on the dragon chair dejectedly. See I'm coming. He stood up and said, "Let's go. Go to Cining Palace."
People say that being close to home is more timid. That's what I thought at this point. The Queen Mother already knew about my situation. I'm sure the Idiot Master won't hide it from her. It seems to be a tacit understanding between us. I know he's going to say. He didn't explain or inform me.
Step by step. Walk into Cining Palace again. I looked at the eyes of all the eunuchs and palace 'women' I had seen when they saw me. Listen to them whispering 'privately' behind my back. I kept looking ahead. Step by step. Step into this palace that once gave me warm protection.
The old lady is still by the side of the Queen Mother. The Queen Mother retreated left and right. Kangxi Ye invited An. I knelt down and said, "Borzigit Jiya. Say hello to the Queen Mother. The Queen Mother is blessed with Jin'an."
"Come here. Let the mourners see." She spoke to me in 'Mongolian' language.
I got up and walked over. She took my hand." Good. Good. Good. Good girl who mourns the family." He turned his head to Kangxi and said, "Emperor. This time. If there is anything more for the mourning family's Jiya. You can do it. My girl from the Borzigit family. Don't be a concubine. But there is no room for others to do it casually. A little girl. Experienced so much. Poor see."
"My son got it. Please rest assured." Kangxi Ye finished speaking. He said to the Queen Mother again: "The emperor already knows. Son...... I want to abolish the prince."
"Got it. What's going on?" The Queen Mother pulled me to sit beside her.
Kangxi Ye sighed: "Yinren ...... What a disappointment for me...... Grumpy.' Sexuality' is arrogant. No introspection. A piece of hard work for me. I don't appreciate it. So. How can this country be 'handed over' to him in the future......"
The Queen Mother nodded: "That child's 'sex'. Makes you spoiled. You can do it. One. These things in the court. It is inconvenient for the mourning family to ask. Two rules. The mourning family is old. Can't think of those entangled relationships. Other mourners don't bother to care. The mourners only ask you for a little. Mourning Jiya. Now it's Princess Gulun. But you can't suffer as much as you used to. If anyone dares to do anything about her diet and daily life. Mourning is not a family."
"My son obeys the teachings of his mother."
"Go get busy. Let the boy stay with Giya. Talk to the mourners."
Kangxi nodded and was about to leave. The Queen Mother stopped him again: "The previous mansion. These days have been mourning the family in support. From now on. Let's let Jiya live in."
"It's good for the emperor to call the shots."
After Kangxi Ye left. I knelt on the ground and kowtowed, "My granddaughter is not filial. It made the royal grandmother sad."
The old lady hurriedly came over to help me: "Gege, get up quickly. It's good for you to come back. It's good to be back."
I stood up. The Queen Mother pulled me to sit down. Hold me in your arms. Old tears: "The 'jade' ice of the mourning family. Poor child! Why do you have to use this method? Do you know how sad the imperial grandmother was. You bare child. How can you be so ruthless as to leave the mourning family?"
She cried. Pat me on the back. I choked up and burst into tears. In her arms cried: "Imperial grandmother. I'm sorry. Sorry ......"
"If it weren't for the master's letter. I told the mourners about the cause and effect. I'm afraid that I'm going to cry blind in my eyes...... "The Queen Mother was so angry that she slapped me twice. He stroked my back in distress and said, "It's good to come back. It's good to come back. In fact, the mourning family was still thinking about it a few days ago. How nice it would be if you didn't come back. Freely riding horses and grazing sheep on the grassland. It's better than coming back and getting involved in these rights and wrongs. It's sad that the 'selfish' heart is heavy. The mourning family is reluctant to give you up. In the end, I still think you're back. Staying by the side of the mourning family is the happiest thing for the mourning family."
"I've always missed my grandmother. Fortunately, I know that the master will definitely explain everything to the imperial grandmother. Otherwise, I will never be able to forgive this sin that has broken the heart of the imperial grandmother."
"Soul Child." The Queen Mother wiped her tears. Hold my face again. Wipe the tears from my face. smiled kindly: "It's a little fatter. The face 'color' is also much better. It seems that this year has been well recuperated. I'm getting better."
I nodded: "It's much better. Especially in the prairie during this half year. The body seems to be stronger."
"It's good to be sturdy. You can't do that anymore. Got it." The Queen Mother pinched my nose. He greeted the old lady and said, "Go and bring this child a bowl of 'milk' tea. When he returned, he hurried over in the dust. The lips are dry. I didn't drink any water when I saw it."
"Yes. Slave and maid are going."
"You kid. Although it is a last resort. But how many people's hearts have been broken? You don't know. The fourth is for you. What has become?"
"Fourth master, he ...... Didn't you marry a new Fujin?"
"His heart. His love. It's all given to you. The girl of the Nian family. It's just a stone to pave the way for his future. It's nothing. Now favored. It's just appearances. Your mansion. Although it is left behind by the 'selfishness' of the mourning family. But it's the fourth child who has been dotting. He was tired and tired. Go and lie down in your room for a while. Talk to yourself. Occasionally, the mourners brought him in. Speaking of you. He's like that. The mourners couldn't help but want to tell him that you weren't dead. Now it's okay. After a few days. The mourning family is in charge. I'll give you to him as a side blessing." The Queen Mother said with a smile. But every word was cut like a knife on my heart.
"Imperial Grandmother. I...... I can't marry the fourth master......"
"Why?"
"Huang Ama. I won't be allowed to marry anyone. He's already. Told me explicitly......"
"What."