59, despair (2)
Adam walked down the street again, and there were fewer people in the city, and even fewer people like Adam who did not lack his body, and for a whole morning, there was no one walking on the street except Adam, who lay numbly in every place where they could rest and wait for death, and then become someone else's ration.
The able-bodied men, who had regained a little strength in the afternoon, began to forage for food again, and this time many people turned their minds on Adam's head, and Adam did not choose to kill them after forcing them back, but watched them kill each other with cold eyes.
At night, the exact same scene appears again, siege, mage, evil magic, and then dawn.
This cycle lasted six times, and Adam's hunger grew stronger and stronger, and it became more and more difficult to evade capture by the soldiers.
Adam had the illusion in his mind that if he was still not chosen next time, and still did not die because of it, he could get out of this illusion, and this feeling became stronger and stronger as soon as it appeared, so strong that he couldn't help but believe it.
On the seventh day, the soldiers came to Adam, violently trapped him in both hands with ropes, and drove him out of the city with swords and spears.
Adam was so weak that he had no ability to resist, and he had to let the soldiers capture him.
Adam and the rest of the civilians formed a human wall outside the city, suffering heavy casualties from the fangs and claws of the beasts, and then the magician appeared for the seventh time, this time blasting the civilians to smithereens along with Adam by ancient magic.
"Is it just dead?" said Adam.
But in the blink of an eye, he found out that something was wrong, if he was already dead, how could he still have ideas?
Sure enough, in the next second, the illusion shattered into fragments, and every scene in the seven days quickly reappeared in Adam's consciousness, and then reassembled again.
Adam was back to the beginning, still the ruined city, still the clothes that could not be covered, and the people who were still insensitive all over the place.
The active lack of reason is getting worse and worse, this lack makes Adam's consciousness blank, he has no concept of instinct, if he must find one, then Adam's instinct is to survive, but survival is useless in this illusion, because Adam has no ability to control his own life at all.
And so another cycle began, and nothing changed, men like beasts, soldiers like beasts, mages who were indifferent to humans, and death again on the seventh day.
After many reincarnations, Adam was left with only the last sanity maintained by the telekinetic force, which controlled him not to kill, not to eat people, not to resist.
It's not that Adam has any moral bottom line in his heart, it's just that he feels that if he follows the will of the desperate monster, maybe he will fall into a situation from which he will never recover.
When the exact ending was repeated hundreds of times, Adam suddenly realized.
Since he wanted to observe despair, and then experience despair, since he omitted the theory and went directly to the clinical stage with himself as a test subject, then this act of maintaining his sanity was undoubtedly stupid, and he knew that he had to make a change.
Nothing can be obtained without paying a price, the reason why Adam took the initiative to enter the illusion is to tear the magic gamble with the desperate monster and the soul, the stake is his life, this is the stud he initiated on his own initiative, it is a game that must be broken to win, he must follow the rhythm of the enemy, otherwise he will definitely lose, and it is stupid to think about keeping his hole cards at this time.
Adam threw away his sanity.
......
"What are you going to do?"
The man crawled on the ground towards Adam, and his mouth was full of unspoken words: "Hungry, hungry, eat, eat......"
"Stand up, I'll take you to find something to eat. Adam lifted him up and whispered.
The man didn't expect to hear such words, and he was helped up in a daze, and looked at Adam in a daze, "Eat?
"Well, eat. Adam nodded to him seriously, and then said aloud to the few people hiding behind the wall, "Come out, I'll take you with you to find food." ”
This is probably the feeling of climbing high and waving his arms, and in despair, people's moods are full of numbness and hesitation, but suddenly a light appears, and even if the power of this light is small, it is enough to warm people's hearts.
Adam was followed by nearly ten scrawny men, and they walked down the street together, and they followed Adam's example, and they lobbied to everyone who was lying on the ground, and to everyone who was about to commit violence: "Stop, come with us, let's go find something to eat." ”
And so the crowd grew, and they were either skeptical, convinced, or expectant, and followed Adam, taking everything that could be put into their mouths from the corners, from the cracks in the stones, from every corner where they could reach out, and gathered together to wait for distribution.
Of course, some people did not believe it, and they viciously stopped the persuaders and tried to kill them, but Adam gathered too many people to frighten people with their ferocity, but Adam stopped the killing of his 'companions' and let the distrustful leave.
The group had no weaklings to bully, no source of food, and they started killing each other, some got food, some died in the fight, and finally there was no food, and they had to join Adam's team.
Adam gathered all the civilians in the city, gathered all the food he could, ordered the people to cook the food and divide it equally among everyone, and he didn't have time to care if the food would be mixed with something that challenged the moral bottom line of mankind.
Night fell.
The soldiers who had disappeared during the day reappeared, they did not pay attention to the gathered crowd at all, and still violently drove the crowd away, but this time, there were voices of resistance in the crowd.
"You can't do this, we're defenseless and no match for the Monsters, you're soldiers, why don't you protect us? Someone shouted.
The man walked out of the crowd, and the many companions behind him gave him infinite courage, and he said: "Soldier, I think we need to talk, we are not capable of resisting the monsters, why ......"
The soldier in front of him looked at him fiercely, raised the long knife in his hand, and slashed at him in the face with the back of the knife, "Untouchables, who allowed you to talk to a knight's descendant like this, you untouchables usually live like parasites in the city, enjoying the rule and protection of the nobility, shouldn't you contribute your strength now?"
Adam stepped out of the group, looked at his companions with compassion, and said to the soldiers, "I ask to see Master Mage, and I ask for the rights and interests that are due. ”
The soldiers looked at Adam in amazement, and then burst into laughter, laughing and tearful: "Hahahaha, what did I hear, the untouchables want to meet the noble and great mage, hahaha, you dirty bastards, why?"
Adam's eyes were still compassionate, he silently waited for the soldiers to finish laughing, and wanted to continue to persuade, but before he could speak, the soldier's face suddenly changed, and he said coldly: "I will only say once, now, immediately, go outside the city, otherwise," he picked up the long knife, cut open the body of the civilian who spoke at the beginning, and said cruelly: "You all have to die." ”
The crowd began to stir, and they all stepped back behind Adam, looking at Adam with hopeful eyes, and Adam said, "No, you can't do that, we also have the right to live......"
"Kill me!"
The soldier shouted violently, raised his sword and spear, and began to kill his kind.
The civilians could not resist at all, they screamed and ran, and then kept begging for mercy, Adam stood still, his eyes were still compassionate, still trying to persuade the soldiers, but the soldiers hit the ground with the barrel of a gun: "You are their leader, right? You will regret what you did." ”
The blood flowed like a river, and the soldiers showed no mercy, and suddenly there was a voice from the crowd: "Don't kill me, I'm willing to go outside the city, I'm bewitched, it's him, everything is his idea!" The soldiers stopped killing and watched the man point at Adam and screamed hoarsely.
The crowd was silent for a moment, and then they came to their senses, blaming Adam for all the blame, and in order to show their minds, they rushed forward and punched and kicked Adam on the ground, as if Adam was the devil who had lured them to fall.
The soldiers watched this scene with satisfaction, and the sergeant chief clapped his hands to stop the killing, and then ordered: "Take them out of the city, and as for this man, stay here." ”
The hatred of the people was aroused at once, and they looked at Adam with disgust and viciousness, and the intentions of the soldiers were not sinister, which put Adam in opposition to the people.
The sergeant was at the end, and he crouched down and said to Adam, "What do you think you'll do tomorrow? I hope to see you alive in front of me tomorrow night, hahahaha!"
Adam lay down in place, quietly looking at the silent night sky, listening to the sound of fighting outside the city, not knowing how to describe his feelings. He lay like this all night, lying down on the surviving crowd outside the city and returning to the town with bruises, each of them looking at Adam with hatred, gathered around him, and after the silence someone picked up the gravel around him, and someone rolled up the sleeve that didn't exist.
"Kill him, it's because of him that we will be abandoned by the mage and the nobles, he is the devil, kill him!" With such a call, all the survivors frantically rushed towards Adam, bursting out with a force far beyond their physical strength.
Adam did not resist, and allowed them to attack him, to tear at his flesh.
The breath of life became weaker and weaker, and Adam was still motionless, no longer having eyes in his sockets, but he was still looking at the sky.
There was a dim light in the empty eyes.
Adam's kindness was replaced by despair.