Chapter 35: The Bond
No one in the Foundation could have imagined that Momo, who was silent and hardworking, would hurt himself. Ai Mo, who was highly nervous and strengthened his mental training, rolled down the stairs in a trance. I finally met with An Ju, but it was on the hospital bed.
An Ge was really scared by Momo this time, since she sent Momo to the Foundation, every time she saw Momo's change, Anmo would be really happy for her. In the same way, Ai Mo will also be infected by this relief, and from An Cheng's emotions, Ai Mo seems to have rediscovered the value of her existence.
It wasn't until Anju discovered that Ai Mo was overly dependent on herself, and suddenly realized that she was too close, which made the child forget about himself again, in other words, the center of the self was shifted, and the attention that was distracted by everyone around him was transferred to Anju alone.
She said more than once that An Ju's decision was her own decision, and this dependence made An Ju question her behavior.
Now that the problem has been discovered and naturally needs to be solved, Anju decides to withdraw herself from Aimo's life as much as possible, this method may be applicable to others, but it is a disaster for Aimo.
"Xiao Ai, what kind of life do you want to have?"
An Yu sighed, sat on the edge of the bed, and asked in a gentle tone.
Ai Mo still didn't look up, she could clearly feel An Qiu's disappointment, and tears fell like beads with broken threads.
"I'm sorry to disappoint you." Momo's voice was a little choked.
"Yes, I'm a little disappointed, you can feel it clearly, but do you know why I'm disappointed? You've improved a lot, you can distinguish between many different emotions, but you still can't see where those emotions come from. That's why I want you to study psychology, a lot of things don't just look at the results. I'm disappointed not because of you, but because of myself. I've been reflecting on whether it's some of my actions that make you not you again. ”
Ai Mo looked up in astonishment, and hurriedly waved his hand to explain something.
"No, it's my fault, I'm too stubborn, I remember what you said, you said I have to learn to rely on myself, I can't rely on you for everything, you said I want to be stronger, I have to learn to protect myself, you say I have to find myself before I can find the future. I'm doing it, I'm trying to do it, but I haven't done it, and I still want to find my value in you. I'm useless, I've never been able to do what you say, and it's not your fault. ”
Seeing the moxa foam wrapped in bandages on her head and tears streaming down her face, An Ying was a little unbearable. She was originally in a meeting abroad, but she received a notice from the Foundation, and they said that Ai Mo suddenly fainted and rolled down the stairs due to lack of energy.
The news startled Anju, she couldn't imagine how life in the Foundation could make Ai Mo so hard that she couldn't do it physically, and the only possibility was that she was gradually cold to her. After returning to China, An Ju knew how hard Ai Mo worked, just to be able to get good results, so that she could go and see her. It's like a child who has a saffron and looks forward to the praise of his parents, but he is disappointed again and again.
Anju thought to herself, isn't Ai Mo a child? Her past has been controlled by others, and her true self-growth may have started from entering the Foundation, and An Xuan is undoubtedly doing things that help the seedlings, and determines the development of Ai Mo at her own pace, and thinks that this is letting Ai Mo decide her future direction, and not everyone can become the lucky one among the seedlings.
This is the first time that Anju has a sense of bond, different from the fetters between family affection, this bond is invisible, it is Anju's intervention that reshaped the foundation of Aimo's life, and now I want to withdraw, which is undoubtedly to re-push the spiritual home that Aimo has built so hard. If you push it down again, I'm afraid Ai Mo will never be able to stand up again!