"I'm sorry Yazhi, I'm afraid I can't promise you what you said last time." Although I have firmly established this idea in my heart, I am still a little sorry for saying it after all.

What surprised him was Han Yazhi's attitude.

She just listened quietly, and waited until he finished speaking before nodding softly, "I see." ”

"Yazhi, I'm ......"

"I know." Han Yazhi's smile was very reluctant, I don't know if it was because of her body, or because she heard what Han Ling said.

"I don't want to force you, but ......" Han Yazhi took a deep breath, "Can you promise me one thing?" ”

For Han Yazhi, the guilt in Han Lingyan's heart was indescribable.

Hearing her say this at this time, she naturally nodded immediately: "You say." ”

"I was originally an orphan, and it was the Queen Mother who picked me up on the way out with the first emperor.

Although I was given a national surname, I knew that, in reality, I was nothing, no one.

Since the death of the Queen Mother, you have been my closest and only closest person. ”

Speaking of this, Han Yazhi felt uncomfortable choking in her throat.

It takes a lot of hard work to breathe and not let yourself choke on tears from this breath.

She adjusted for a while before continuing: "Actually, since I was a child, I have only one purpose, which is to stay by your side and help you share the weight on your shoulders, even a little bit.

As a child, I felt that you were the best person for me.

Although the Queen Mother is good to me, she only gives me food and clothing, and it is you who stand up for me and teach me a lesson to those who bully my palace maids, and you are the one who steals the Queen Mother's beautiful beads for me for the holidays.

I'm trying, trying to make myself stronger, more powerful, just hoping that you can get a little better, a little better.

When I was a kid, I just thought, we're supposed to be like this, not why.

Later, I gradually learned some things, and I realized that when I was very young, I liked you, for no reason, for no purpose.

Even though you became suspicious and indifferent during that time because of the pressure of the two countries, even to me, there were few words, but I still liked you and had no complaints.

I thought that in my world, there would only be me and you, and in the same way, in your world, there would only be you and me.

As long as we wait slowly, and at a certain time, we will definitely live happily together, just like when we were children.

But, she appeared, and you changed, little by little.

I believe that I am the one who is most familiar with you, and your frowns can deceive others, how can you deceive me?

You're no longer cold, your smile is no longer pretending, I know, you like her, I can see it, because that's the same as I like you. ”

Speaking of this, Han Yazhi's body moved forward slightly, as if she was a little tired, and lay on the table.

Han Lingyan could see that Han Yazhi was very sad and aggrieved tonight.

She wanted to speak, and he didn't want to stop her.

"I've also wondered if I have to banish her from your life to prevent her from becoming the closest woman to you in my place.

But I can't help it, she has a lot of troubles, several times her life hangs by a thread, and every time her life hangs by a thread, you also remove half a life.

I know I can't get rid of her, because I don't know what will become of you if she dies.

In such a situation, I found that I really had no choice but to watch.

Sure enough, as I thought, you fell in love, you married her, so happy, sometimes, I can see your smile when you stand aside.

It's very contradictory, I am a little happy to see you like this, I think you are so happy, it's very good. ”

When Han Lingyan saw her say this, there was a smile on his face that he had never seen before, quiet, peaceful, and sincere.

Her smile like this made him can't help but bring a hint of a smile, but after all, he was a little apologetic and a little bitter in his heart.

"However, I also began to be afraid, although I don't know Duanmu Qing very well, but I know that she must be a stubborn person, she is your most important person, I don't know where my future is.

So, I went to her, I wanted to ask her for a place, but what I didn't expect was that her refusal was so strong, there was no room for maneuver.

It embarrassed me and angry at the same time.

Why? How long has she known you? And I am the one who has depended on you since childhood, but I have to ask her for an inconsequential position in a low voice.

You are the prince of Dongli, you are the king of Hao, you will have many, many women, I, Han Yazhi, have followed you for so many years, is it really not a little stronger than those people?

I just want a name, I just want to stay by your side, can't I stay the only one? ”

Han Lingyan suddenly remembered what Wu Su said, and when he heard her say this, he lowered his eyes slightly, hesitated, and asked after a while: "Then ...... you?"

However, I don't know how to speak.

The woman in front of her is no one else, as Han Yazhi said, she regards him as the closest person in the world, but in fact, she is not a relative to him, and there are some words that I really don't know how to say.

"I know, what do you want to ask, since you told me about this today, it means that you are actually still suspicious."

With a long exhalation, Han Yazhi seemed to have even less strength, and her whole head rested on her arm: "That's right, I arranged the assassination."

Everything is well arranged, I did block a sword for you, I want to gamble my life on a reputation. ”

Han Lingyan didn't expect this to be the result, he originally just wanted to ask her if she had said something to Duanmu Qing.

His eyes widened, he never thought that this woman would do such an extreme thing.

"I won and I lost again." Han Yazhi smiled bitterly, tears slipped from her eyes, "You promised me, and you regretted it again."

And you, you lost a child, it's all my fault. ”

Han Yazhi raised her teary eyes and looked at Han Lingxi: "I have never been a good woman, but my only bottom line is you, I really didn't know she was pregnant, I'm sorry!" Jun Hao, I'm sorry. ”

Han Lingyan stood up, took two steps back in disbelief, and looked at her with his eyes open.

At this moment, his mood was extremely complicated, and he didn't know whether he was more shocked or angry.

Shocked, is it shocked by this woman's persistent feelings, or is it a resolute decision without hesitation?

Anger, is it anger that she indirectly killed her own child, or is it that she took her life so inappropriately.

Han Yazhi was not surprised by his reaction, she still lowered her eyes, and continued: "From the moment I knew that she had drunk the abortion pill, I knew that everything I thought about was over, and you would not forgive me."

And I can't forgive myself, because I actually hurt you! ”

Han Lingyan didn't know what to say, he could only look at her in shock, unable to say a word.

"But Jun Hao!" Han Yazhi suddenly raised her head again and looked at him with hope, "For the sake of us supporting each other for so many years, will you agree to make me a request?" ”

At this time, Han Yazhi was like a woman who had washed off all the fat powder, and only the truest and truest appearance was left on her face.

Such a woman will still make him feel distressed.

He remembered that when he was a child, when he learned the truth of the matter, he ran to the forbidden place by himself, hid in the corner and cried, and at dawn the next day, he found that she was standing not far away, with a pair of bloodshot eyes.

As if he was afraid that if he accidentally fell asleep, he would be discovered by others.

This woman, he really has no way to blame her.

In the end, he let out a long sigh and said, "Say it! ”

"Anyway, don't drive me away, don't give me to anyone else, okay?"

Han Ling was stunned, his mouth opened slightly, and he didn't know how to answer.

"I'm not going to ask you for anything, I'm not going to try to be your woman anymore, I just want to live my way of life.

In my life, I didn't have any other goals in the first place, so that I would always be like this? ”

Han Lingyan looked at Han Yazhi like this, one of them was standing, the other was lying on his stomach, and they looked at each other in pairs.

Finally, Han Lingyan nodded: "Okay!" ”

Tears poured out, and Han Yazhi's tears fell, and she laughed: "Thank you." ”

He really didn't know how to answer such a thanks.

In fact, she shouldn't have agreed, which seemed to delay her life.

However, from another point of view, this is the life she wants the most, if she is even deprived of this, then what is left of her life?

In the room, silence returned, Han Yazhi lowered her eyes, and her head was still resting on her arm: "Okay, you should rest early!" Tomorrow, there's tomorrow! ”

On this day, there were too many things that happened, and Han Lingxi's head was also chaotic, he didn't say anything anymore, and he didn't know what to say, he just nodded lightly and walked out of her room.

After a long time, Han Yazhi slowly straightened up from the table, but she couldn't help but snort in pain, her pale face seemed to be two points whiter.

Under the light, a large patch of red blurred appeared on the white shirt on her chest, which was shocking.

She gritted her teeth tightly, took out a bottle of medicine from her sleeve with trembling hands, and only then slowly untied her clothes and applied the medicine.

In the pain, a smile slowly overflowed: "I can still live!" ”

For her, this is another gamble, if he doesn't even agree to this request, what difference is there between living and dying? 638