0043 Wilderness: I'm not reconciled
ChineseQiang Qing seemed to be beaten like this for the first time, and he didn't slow down, but he just looked at me in a daze, looked at me for a long time, and slowly reached out and touched his cheek, like the gurgling voice of a stream, with a trace of puzzlement: "Since ancient times, emperors have been empty and lonely, and the road of emperors is the loneliest, I advise you, why are you so angry?" "I stepped back and pulled away from him, this person doesn't understand, this person doesn't understand love at all, he won't fall in love with me, he will just push me into someone else's arms.
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"Don't you get used to it? Aren't the people you come into contact with royalty? Why can't you get used to it? What should you see? Qiang Qing, what are you doing when you come back? Find me someone to marry? Co-managing Ran Wei? You are really great enough, I broke my heart for ****, I really thank you..."I have no regrets about giving birth to a child, this is my own choice, he is now high up in the sky to choose my life for me, why?
Who is he mine? Why are you pointing fingers at me? The vivid five finger prints appeared on his face, and he sighed slightly: "I'm just casually, I don't know how hard you have worked in the past eight years, I just feel ......"
"What do you think?" I coldly interrupted him: "You think it's your business, not mine, don't impose your own disgusting thoughts on me, I don't need you, you can get out now!" Qiang Qing looked at me deeply, a complicated light flashed in his eyes, and he twisted his head: "I also want you to be happy, really...... In my limited time, I hope that everyone I care about can be happy......" He jumped up and disappeared into my palace.
I hurried to the direction where he was standing, where he had just stood, what was he? He, I am the one he cares about?
Am I the person he cares about? was already dead, why did he say such misleading words?
What exactly does he mean? What is the purpose of disappearing like this? I didn't see him again, he disappeared for eight years, came and went in a hurry, and with some ambiguous words, he disappeared completely.
I closed the door in the palace, and for three days, Chu Lanzhan opened the door and opened the curtain, and the sun shone in, shining on me with a completely decadent atmosphere.
Chu Lanzhan dragged me up from the ground and said with some annoyance, "Look at what you have become?" Or is it the king of a country? Is the king of a country like you? "This man has always scolded me for being shameless, and has always thought that I am not a good king, and now he comes to ask me what has become of me?
Who knows what has become of me? I have long been unrecognizable, and I don't know myself. Suddenly shook off his hand, the dazzling sunlight made me can't help but cover it with my hand, and I got used to it: "Chu Aiqing, is this a thorny problem?" Do I have to let me go? "I feel that I always have the aura of being abandoned all over my body, it's ridiculous to think about it, I'm an emperor, who can abandon me, if it's comfortable, I'll die, and the more I live, the more I go back.
Chu Lanzhan swooped onto my dresser, took down a bronze mirror, and put it up in front of me: "Look what the hell you have become?" Ran Wei Because of the support of others, did you feel unscrupulous and feel safe? It's good for you, hiding here for three or three nights without anyone to deal with state affairs, do you really think that your civil and military officials are so good, and you are the first to look forward? ”
"I tell you, you are not in the early dynasty, your country, you can move the Lord anytime and anywhere, everything you get now will become someone else's bag anytime and anywhere, pray Jiuling, aren't you unscrupulous to achieve the goal? What is it that makes you so devastated? In the bronze mirror, my hair was messy, my face was full of tears, and the rouge on the corners of my lips was wiped into a mess, I reached out and touched my cheek: "When did you cry?" Isn't there a water leak in the house? ”
"Bang!" Chu Lanzhan let go of his hand, and the bronze mirror was thrown on the ground: "Your appearance is really pathetic, you don't even admit that you are crying, what do you want to do?" It's hard to stabilize the situation, are you going to do it? "This man is really weird, didn't he always want me to be better?
What kind of false compassion is there now?
"Who I'm not going to ask for?" It's not as good as the broken bones of the copper mirror all over the ground under my feet, my feet are directly stepped on it, the copper mirror scratches my feet, and I don't feel any pain.
Before I walked over, my body was light, Chu Lanzhan stopped me by the waist and hugged me directly, and directly hugged away the fragments of the bronze mirror.
I struggled in his arms, and he blushed and threw me on the couch with a rude movement.
It hurt a lot, and I laughed coquettishly: "Chu Aiqing really doesn't know how to pity the fragrance and cherish the jade, you don't know that women are like flowers, they need to be cherished to live!" ”
"Need to be cherished to live? That's another woman, not you! Chu Lanzhan grabbed my foot directly with one hand, I struggled, and his eyes looked cold: "If you want your feet to be wasted, you should be honest!" "This threat, with a very ridiculous connotation, how can I worry that my feet are useless?
I am also the queen of the wilderness, Her Majesty, the only queen of the wilderness, this name is enough to make me famous for the ages.
I wanted to pull my foot back, but he grabbed my foot and took off my shoes and socks, my foot was bloody, looking at the blood dripping all over the ground, I really didn't feel pain...... It turned out that Qiang Qing had such a great influence on me unconsciously, and for him, the heartache could outweigh the physical pain.
"What do you care about me so much? Didn't you always want me to die? Watching him carefully bandage my feet, I asked Chu Lanzhan funny: "Are you slapping yourself in the face now?" Don't want me dead? "Chu Lanzhan's bandaging movements were extremely light, which simply flattered me, he was such a person, and he had such a gentle side.
"I want you to die, but I don't want you to die like this!" Just returned him gentlely, his action of tying the knot can be described as rough, the pain made me grin, he raised his eyes slightly, with a cool wind: "Now you know that it hurts?" I thought you didn't know about pain? His feet were bandaged by him very well, and he snorted: "I really don't know the pain, your head of the family is back, have you seen it?" Do you know what your head of the house said to me? Chu Lanzhan knelt on one knee, his hands were stained with blood, and his eyes drooped slightly: "I haven't seen him yet, I don't know he's back, but now I think he's gone!" ”
"You're pathetic!" I suddenly sympathized with Chu Lanzhan,
"You treat him as the master, he didn't tell you when he came back, it seems that my face is greater than your face, at least he is still worried about me when he comes back, and he wants to find a family affair for me, do you know who the object is?" Chu Lanzhan suddenly stood up from the ground, with a cold expression: "I don't need to know who it is, these have nothing to do with me, the reason why I'm here is because you have too many things to deal with, I'm just your courtier, not a willing courtier, as for Qiang Qing's words, what does it have to do with me?" ”
"Do you think that because he is the head of my house, I should listen to him in everything? You may not know our family, our family, the attachment to **** is deeper than anyone else, not easy to fall in love with a person, and will not be manipulated casually because of ****! "Their family is a height that I can't touch, and maybe for them, I'll be like an ant in the dust, humble and pitiful, and don't deserve anyone's sympathy.
I don't need the sympathy of others, I am Her Majesty the Queen of the Wilderness, I have thousands of miles of rivers and mountains, and now the whole wilderness sends me a single branch, why not take advantage of the situation to pursue it?
Exhaled a breath of turbidity and stood up directly on the ground with both feet, only then did I feel the pain in my heart, but this pain made me more awake and made me more aware of what I should want.
My son has become the crown prince of Xiliang, and I, who is a mother, want to be his backing, the strongest armor, in case something happens to him in Xiliang, only I am strong, I can rely on him.
"Aunt Huanpei!" I called, and Huanpei answered, and I whispered, "Prepare to bathe and change clothes!" ”
"Yes!" Aunt Huanpei left in response. walked out directly, and every step of the pain in my heart will hurt a point, and every pain will remind me that in this world, the mountains will fall, the water will flow, and the only one who can rely on myself is ...... If you don't cherish yourself, if you don't love yourself, who else will.
As the days passed, pondering how to invade other countries, and how to maximize the interests of other countries, such days passed much faster, calculating, conspiring, and cunning...... General Han of Xiliang, I regarded him as a guest, and he and General Song Yu discussed the war and the deployment of troops, and even trained the new army.
When General Song Yu returned to the palace, he was full of praise, and he couldn't wait to let Han Jiangye stay in Ran Wei, but I replied to him with a smile: "People come to help us, but you covet people to stay here, let people leave their hometowns, in case people have wives and children, are you letting people abandon their wives and children?" General Song Yu scratched his head: "General Han has no wife and children, he is an orphan, do you want to keep it, your majesty, maybe General Han will stay in Ran Wei?" I even laughed dumbly: "General Song Yu, where is this, such a character, of course I want to stay, you get along with him a lot, don't you have more confidence in advising him?" Song Yu slapped his thigh,
"Why didn't the minister think of it, the minister went to persuade him, hoping that he could stay and serve my Ran Wei!" It turns out that General Song Yu is hot, Han Jiangye has been returning to his heart like an arrow, and he has a fiancée waiting for him, Han Jiangye did not shy away from facing me in front of Song Yu and said: "Han, as a foreign minister, has always hoped that Ran Wei can really become strong, Han has made a military order to my king, and let Ran Wei's powerful foreign countries invade within two years!" ”
"My king has already received Han's military order, and Han's fiancée has been waiting for Han for more than a year, and Han doesn't want her to wait any longer!" I glanced at Song Yu, his eyes were full of disappointment, and he stepped forward and smashed Han Jiangye: "It seems that Song is going to prepare a big gift, and I wish you a happy wedding when the time comes!" Han Jiangye's eyes were full of smiles: "Be polite, give me your portable sword, go back and brag about it, and take down General Ran Wei's sword, what a mighty thing!" Song Yu laughed,
"Okay, I'll give it to you then!" Men's friendship is sometimes more crisp than women's. At this time, I paid special attention to the side of the mountain, and I also sent someone to the side of the mountain, on the one hand, to inquire about the scarlet matter, on the other hand, to inquire about Qiang Qing, desperately telling myself that this person had nothing to do with me, but I still couldn't help but inquire about him.
He is on the other side of the mountain, the Four Kingdoms are standing, and he is also a top figure, the emperor of Southern Xinjiang, the Great Situ of Xiliang, yes, I got the news that he accompanied the Queen Mother of Southern Xinjiang to return to her Jiang Kingdom... Calculating the time period, it was probably after leaving me that he went straight to Jiang Guo...... I looked in the direction of Jiang Guo, I don't know what I'm looking at?
Or maybe I have too much luxury, I already have everything, just like I have more, and now I called Chu Lanzhan over in a broken way, because in the near future, Han Jiangye will return to Xiliang, and I have no chance.
The concubine smiled and filled the table, and Chu Lanzhan asked very puzzledly, "What are you going to do here?" A glass of wine releases military power? Unloading the mill and killing the donkey? "I pried open the sealing mud from the jar,
"The word unloading and killing donkeys, you have already passed it once, why are you still there?" The wine was handed over, and Chu Lanzhan was even more suspicious: "You don't like to drink, and suddenly asked me to drink, which makes me have to wonder what you are thinking about with your cunning psychology!" ”
"You're really looking at me!" I found that fighting with him like this made me feel extraordinarily calm, like the way I got along with him, it could only be like this, squeezing each other, looking at each other unpleasantly, killing each other, not murderous......
"It's just that I'm just looking for you to have a drink, no poisoning, and no cunning psychology, I've always been very simple, I can't even argue with you, don't you think?" Chu Lanzhan was still suspicious of me just now, but when he saw me push the wine over, he took a sip of it, and unabashedly pierced me: "It's not that you can't quarrel with me, it's not that you don't want to kill me, this is my great use to you, for you, you don't need to be suspicious of people, my value as a person is stronger than that of a dead person!" Holding the hand of the wine jar, he gave him a thumbs up directly: "You who know me, you must work hard, otherwise when you are useless, I will kill you, and the sentence of the Central Plains, the cunning rabbit is dead and the lackey cooks, a truth!" Chu Lanzhan grunted again, put the wine jar on the table heavily, and stared at my eyes: "Let's beat around the bush, you won't just come to invite me to a drink, what's the matter, straightforward, more like you!" I was slightly surprised: "When did I become straightforward in your mind?" I've been labeled by you as a shameless sign, and I've been doing it all the time! Chu Lanzhan stood up from his seat suddenly: "It seems that the two of us don't have to talk about it, you continue, there are still things to deal with, so I won't drink and chat with you here!" ”
"Chu Lanzhan!" Seeing him go without hesitation, I shouted behind him, deep as water: "I want to go to the other side of the mountain, I want you to come to the prison country!" Chu Lanzhan paused at his feet, and turned around directly: "You are the king of a country, let me come to supervise the country, are you not afraid that I have two hearts?" When you come back, has Ran Wei become mine? Swallowed his saliva, opened the wine, took a sip, the concubine's smile was a little spicy, and there was a hint of sweetness in the stamina, and her head shook very slowly: "I won my life, lost my life, since I have chosen to become yours, I can only accept it!" ”
"What are you going to do on the other side of the mountain?" Chu Lanzhan stood a few steps away from me, and asked coldly sincerely: "You are going to find Scarlet's father, his father is Qiang Qing, you are going to find him?" "Mention him...... I can't get out of the depression and sourness in my heart, and I exhale fiercely, so that I can vomit out this sourness.
"I just want to look at the other side of the mountain and see how the outside world governs the country......"
"Pray for Jiuling!" Chu Lanzhan cut off my words, and his words were extremely harsh: "You lie like this, don't treat me anymore, if you want me to supervise the country for you, I must listen to the truth, otherwise, what does your country have to do with me?" With my ability, I can at least do the post of secretary in any country in this wilderness! "He's right, many countries in the wilderness have thrown branches at him, as long as he is willing to go, all of them are the position of the secretary, under one person, above ten thousand.
Biting his lip flap gently,
"I'm going to take a look at the Queen Mother of Southern Xinjiang, I heard that she is a woman he feels sorry for, I want to see what I am inferior to her!"
"He doesn't love her!" Chu Lanzhan's dark brown eyes also became cold: "If the scarlet father is Qiang Qing, he doesn't love the Queen Mother of Southern Xinjiang, even if he feels sorry for her, he won't be with her!" I frowned slightly: "This is the **** supremacy in your mouth, if you don't love it, you won't be with her?" Chu Lanzhan stared at me for a long time, and said with melancholy: "In our family, in our family, our ancestors, they love each other very much, their stories affect each of us, a life is very long, a life is very short, look at what kind of person you live with, so ...... If you look for an interesting person, you will feel that your life is very short, and if you look for an uninteresting person, you will feel that your life is very long! "A life is long, a life is short...... With an interesting soul, you should feel that your life is very short, and with someone who is boring and doesn't love, it will feel very long.
Sighing more and more, I slowly walked in front of Chu Lanzhan, stretched out my hand on his shoulder, his gaze squinted, fell on my hand, I smiled sincerely at him: "I think my life should be very long, so I want to take a look at the side of the mountain, and I will come back when I die." I have nothing but Ran Wei in this wilderness, and my son will not come back, believe it or not, after countless thoughts, I feel that you are the person I trust the most! ”
"Maybe you think my words are a bit hypocritical, there is no way, the truth is so, except to entrust this country to you, I can't find a second candidate, if you don't want to, maybe I will regret it in my life!" Chu Lanzhan suddenly stretched out his hand and pressed it on my hand: "You can not go, I can protect you for the rest of my life!" His hands were very hot, my fingertips were very cold, I couldn't stand the sudden warmth, I jerked my hand, and flatly refused: "I don't need anyone to protect me for the rest of my life, I just want to have no regrets in this life!" Chu Lanzhan slowly circled his fingers, and his dark brown eyes calmed down: "When are you leaving?" ”
"As soon as possible, I want to be back early!"
"I'll arrange everything for you, go early and come back early!" He threw down the sentence, turned and walked away. Looking at his back, I wonder when I fell in love with me, a shameless woman.
He was just going to protect me for the rest of my life, and I really didn't notice when his impression of me changed, when the way I got along with him changed.
He quickly got everything for me, and I took someone to the other side of the mountain, because Chu Lanzhan helped me, I don't know where he came from, and told me that Qiang Qing had gone to the south of Mobei, a place called Qionghua Town.
Qionghua should have bloomed in the south of the Central Plains, but I didn't expect that south of Mobei would be full of Qionghua, and there is a Qionghua forest in Qionghua Town, like a fairyland.
I saw the distressed woman in Qionghualin, she was extremely beautiful, with a pair of beautiful eyes, a shallow pear vortex, and a smile...... Qiang Qing's meticulousness to her is something I have never seen before, Chu Lanzhan is very rough and disguised, which makes my face look like an ordinary woman.
Especially let people lure Qiang Qing away, I went to greet the woman myself, that woman is very smart, she recognized me in a few words, a smart woman, always makes people feel good.
Looking at her belly, I believe in myself, when a person gives birth to a child, she is fragile and painful, and she bears it alone, and Qiang Qing didn't know where she was at that time.
The woman's name was Jiang, because I had secretly observed them many times in advance, and she was eight months pregnant, and she was about to give birth, I don't know if it was brain twitching or something else, I had everything ready, everything for having a baby.
I don't know what the psychology is, ginger...... The eldest princess of Jiang Guo, a woman who died a long time ago in the rumors, stood in front of me alive, about the same age as me.
I looked quiet and asked her: "Jiang, the eldest princess of Jiang Country in the Central Plains, the queen of Northern Qi, shouldn't she be under the loess?" She smiled lightly: "How many things are true in the history books?" How many things are fake? The winner is the king, the loser is the villain, seeing is believing, hearing is false, one thing, one person is one thing, ten people are another, but your Excellency. I didn't even dare to reveal my real name, and when I was entrusted by someone, it turned into an elaborate conspiracy! "I used a stupid method to tell her that I was entrusted by someone to take care of her childbirth, but in fact it wasn't, I just wanted to see what the woman who was distressed by Qiang Qing was like?
Her face, her few words, I can feel that she is more ruthless than me, she is more ruthless than me.
Qiang Qing is not wrong, I have always had my brother's protection, I don't know what it means to be really sinister.
Jiang knew what it meant to be sinister, and even if I lowered my posture, she was still wary of me. Qiang Qing quickly came over, he recognized me at a glance, he called Jiang Liao His Royal Highness, his words were full of too much distress, and the tenderness for her was something I had never enjoyed.
There is a feeling of jealousy, crazy in my heart, Jiang Liao is a top smart woman, it seems that in an instant, she can detect the undercurrent between me and Qiang Qing!
Qiang Qing asked her to leave, she just lived, Qiang Qing because in front of her, because I came without self-confession, I was very angry, like a fairy-like look, like the white of the fallen mortal, stained with colorful colors, very good-looking.
I think I'm getting a little closer to him, at least I've seen the other side of him...... I got along very happily with Jiang Li, Qiang Qing ignored me, I came for more than half a month, he didn't say a word to me, and the disgust in his eyes was overflowing.
The two of us, he and I, have been competing to see who will be the first to hold their breath, and the first thing I said was that obviously I won this time, and Qiang Qing urged me to leave quickly, and let me go back to the wilderness.
It turned out that he was a coward himself, and he felt sorry for his fiancée, Jiang, but he never told her about his relationship with her.
It's really funny, the person I originally envied has become the person who Qiang Qing is about to destroy with his own hands, Jiang Liao is really a poor person, living in the calculations of others all his life, and the person who calculates her is still the person I want to get...... Sure enough, envy others, and find that others are worse than they imagined, and they are more sympathetic, Qiang Qing is a complete bastard...... Everyone calculates, and calculates mercilessly.
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