"Even though a few days have passed, it is difficult for my heart to calm down repeatedly......"

It was late at night, the train was still moving, and the destination was still out of reach, but Li Qi was lying on the iron shelf where sundries could be placed, with a pen in his hand, and he was writing in a notebook.

When there is nothing to do, time will become very slow, in the past few days, Li Qi has found something to do for himself, reading books, but now, there are no books, Li Qi can only look out the window in a daze with nothing to do today, or sleep, boredom is today's theme.

As for eating, just like these days, as long as the time comes, someone will bring the food over, and when Li Qi finishes eating, and there is no need for Li Qi to do anything, someone will immediately clean it up.

On this day, Li Qi didn't feel how good or comfortable it was, but felt that it was illusory and unreal!

Because of this, Li Qi couldn't sleep, and he had insomnia.

Tossing and turning, Li Qi still felt that he should do something, so he began to write a diary............

I don't know what I'm thinking now, the other day, I could focus entirely on those books and force myself to have something to do, but until today, sitting on this otherworldly train, with nothing to do, and feeling that everything is so boring, I realize that my heart is extremely empty now!

Actually, I could have talked to them, and I could have better understood the world, but I didn't do that, put aside all all the excuses and quibbles about the subject, and looked straight into my own heart, because I was scared!

I was scared, really, not to deceive my heart, I, with a pen to write out word by word, I was scared!

Why am I afraid? Why should I be afraid?............

Writing this paragraph, Li Qi's pen paused, and then, he put down the pen, said nothing, covered his eyes with his hands, and after a while, he picked up the pen and continued to write.........

I am still confused about the future! I am confused because I know that the future is very confused, but I don't want to work hard but go with the flow, and I feel confused about the powerlessness of letting him go! I still have a trace of fantasy in my heart, and I am even more afraid of hoping for something else!

Writing this, the pen in Li Qi's hand trembled slightly, but he continued to write.

Ever since I was a child, I have never fought or fought with me! No matter what I suffer or eat, no matter what it is, I will let it go and let it go.

And it's because of my idea of leaving everything to fate, otherwise, how could I be............

Writing this, Li Qi's hands were already trembling to the point that he couldn't write, he couldn't write a word, he wrote about the bitterness and sorrow that had been hidden in his heart for a long time!

After taking a few deep breaths, Li Qi tried to calm down his excitement, and then, after that paragraph, he put an ellipsis after that paragraph and did not continue to write, he was afraid that if he continued to write, he would not be able to control himself.

And turned around, and began to write the story of what happened to him in just a few days from time travel to the present.

And all of this, on that day, five days ago, to be exact!

On the day of the crossing, I remember that the weather was good, it was a sunny day, and I was wearing my work clothes to go to the training class held by the factory, and I was walking on the way to the class........................

Li Qi is like writing a novel, and he writes everything that has happened in the past few days, everything in detail, until .........

......... And tonight on the train, I was so irritable that I couldn't sleep. Since I couldn't sleep, in order to find something to do, I troubled the staff on the train, asked them for pens and notebooks, and began to write a diary that I hadn't written in I don't know how many years.

And Li Qi, who wrote here, couldn't help but look at the words on the notes and couldn't help but be a little funny, what is this, is it a running account?

Li Qi, who wrote this, was not only amused, but the pen in his hand also stopped, and his brows were slightly furrowed, as if he was thinking about something.

After a moment, his furrowed brow furrowed, as if he had figured something out, before he began to continue his journal.

I could have stopped writing at this point, but although I had vented a lot of my frustrations in the past few days through words, there were still remnants in my heart, and I couldn't help but think about it.

Sure enough, it was still the disbelief in my own heart that was the majority, and in the past 20 years, although I had nothing but anything, I had cared about everything, so much so that I wanted to fight for everything, but I cared about those and didn't fight for anything, but in the end, I didn't care about anything.

However, I've already crossed over! Think about it another way, even the people I care about and those things have disappeared, just like, that sentence, dust to dust, dust to dust! Everything has dissipated in a blink of an eye, why can't I start my own life?!

Writing this, Li Qi had stopped writing his diary, stood up, and looked at the dark and light outside the window, and the mirror image of himself outside the window was silent.

"Crossing is like another kind of death, living another kind of rebirth, but whether it is death or rebirth, the past cannot be reborn with you. It's the same with crossing!"

"Yesterday can't go back, so why don't you cherish the present?! Why can't I, or the past me, die with the crossing...... Or, to be born again?!!!"

At this point, Li Qi's somewhat cloudy gaze in the original mirror image illusion suddenly lit up!

Too much irritability, troubled confusion, and questions that I can't understand, at this moment, at this moment, disappears!!

Li Qi looked at "Li Qi" outside the window, laughed, laughed silently, and while laughing, Li Qi wiped the tears that flowed from the corners of his eyes...............

"Why am I crying? Shouldn't I laugh?" This thought just surfaced in Li Qi's heart, and it was immediately dispelled, and that was because.

"I'm still me, but the old me is no longer me, I, already, reborn! And being reborn means saying goodbye to the past! Goodbye, the past, this time it's really goodbye!"

Late at night, the train is still running, it hasn't reached its destination yet, so it can't stop, and even if it does, there will be another destination waiting for it, and so on until it can't work anymore.

And when the train is running, there is no noise around except for the rhythmic sound of the carriages because of the running.

And in this environment, there is a person who, after writing a diary, has a thorough understanding of his past self...........................