In her new family, her life is heaven and hell compared to the original.

With a new father and mother, I also gained more family affection and realized the prosperity of the vast world.

Until one day in 03, her world collapsed again. Mom and Dad who went on a business trip to GZ couldn't come back, and the SARS epidemic that year was so serious that it swept the country.

Those newly harvested family affection turned into a wolf-like beast, accusing her of being a "harmful spirit" and a "disaster star", and drove her out of her new home.

She knew in her heart that those people were actually for the house, and for the property.

She was nineteen years old that year, and her new father and mother, who had lived together for six years, passed away, but she could not attend the funeral. Due to the late study, even if she worked hard, she was only in the second year of junior high school that year. Although he knows some laws, he has no money and no way, how can he fight those who have the intention to rob the family business.

The tears were dry, and she was alone.

At the age of nineteen, she was already slim and slim, and when she went in and out of the campus before, others thought she was a teacher. There are even many young teachers who have a crush on her, and some even pursue her secretly.

One of the suitors, knowing about her condition, took her home and promised her to study and be kind to her.

She's not a child anymore, but she wants to read. She knew what the teacher wanted, and she gave her body that night. That night, she also truly experienced the joy of the sport.

It's just that this kind of life is also lived secretly, and if it gets out, it will have a great impact on the reputation of the young teacher.

She secretly went out in the morning and secretly came home in the evening, which lasted until she graduated from junior high school and found out that she was pregnant.

At this time, Xu Hui remembered her former home, and remembered her second sister and younger brother.

It was impossible for the child to be born, and she still wanted to study. But the young teacher threw 500 yuan at her, told her to beat the child herself, and proposed to break up.

The first time she experienced the loss of love, it was so painful, much more painful than being an abortion. Can body pain be cured, but heart pain can be cured?

It is not expensive to do that kind of surgery in a small hospital, she saved the money for injections to reduce inflammation, and only asked the doctor to prescribe some medicine.

While her heart hurts, she wants to go back to see her sister and brother.

never thought that it was this decision that made her embark on the road of wind and dust.

When she got home, she saw ruins, and the neighbors around her didn't recognize her.

She also didn't want people to recognize her, just told others that she was a distant relative.

After she escaped, her father was furious and took all his anger out on her second sister. How could such a young child withstand a severe beating, and he was beaten to death.

In the end, my father was sentenced to prison, and two years later he committed suicide by jumping off a building. And the youngest brother, after her father was imprisoned, was adopted by relatives and died of illness just because of a cold and fever.

At that time, Xu Hui wanted to cry, but she couldn't shed a single tear. She has become a real orphan, and in her heart she thinks that she is a "harmful spirit".

After paying homage to her mother, two younger sisters and younger brother, she returned to the small county town to leave by car the next day. Although she didn't know where to go, she didn't want to stay in this place either.

Homeless and with nowhere to go, she thought of drinking. This drink, something happened, and the person who came to talk to him was drugged.

That night, in the grove, she was dazed, and she didn't know how many men had been.

When she woke up, it was already dawn, and a middle-aged woman was smoking a cigarette, looked at her and said, "Put on your pants, come with me." ”

In a small restaurant, Xu Hui asked the woman, "Who are they?" I'm going to call the police. She was very angry that she had just finished a minor operation, and those brutes had taken turns playing all night and taking all the money from them. The most hateful thing is to make her lie naked in the wild all night, covering only her own pants.

"I don't know about yesterday, so don't ask me. I just want to say, it's one thing to call the police and not catch it, but what do you get? The middle-aged woman said seriously.

Yes, what do you get?

"If I don't invite you to this meal, you're still hungry, where can you go?" The woman seemed to know a lot about her. She remembered afterwards that she had drunk last night and told the past to a few people she was talking to.

"What do you want to say?" Xu Hui asked.

"I just want to introduce you to a job and let her make money. Women have nothing to rely on in this world but on their own. As long as you have money, you have everything, you say yes? ”

Xu Hui thought: Yes, if you have money, you won't end up like this.

In this way, Xu Hui was brought by a middle-aged woman to WH and signed a two-year contract with a small KTV, including food and accommodation and a commission. And the middle-aged woman who was the introducer took a commission of 10,000 yuan just like that.

In the past two years, she has slept with many guests, and she doesn't know how many times she has been to the hospital, and she has even fallen in love with guests and horses.

After the contract ended, she was free, and she also learned many, many things, unknown things.

It wasn't until 06 years that I met Ding Lao Ghost as a part-time job in a nightclub and followed him.

…… ……

I listened quietly without interrupting. The story is depressing and makes people want to drink and smoke. It's just that you can't smoke here, that's how life is.

Sometimes there is smoke but no fire, sometimes there is fire without smoke, sometimes there is smoke and fire and there is no place to smoke.

"How?" She took out a lady's cigarette, lit it and asked me.

Belch...

I looked around and asked, "Why are you smoking?" Don't you see 'No Smoking' posted everywhere? ”

"You're too honest." Xu Hui blew a puff of cigarette at me and said, "The cigarette box is marked with 'smoking is harmful to health', so didn't the manufacturer slap himself in the face?" Living people can still be suffocated by smoke, so I'll kill them when someone prompts me. ”

As soon as Xu Hui finished speaking, a waiter brought an ashtray over and put it on the table.

Your uncle, why can you smoke and put that wall sticker, I put up with it for more than an hour.

"You haven't answered yet." Xu Hui said again.

"Whew..."It's so refreshing to take a puff of cigarette: "Uh, I don't even know what you mean." ”

"Am I bad?"

"Bad?" I don't understand what she meant: "You are pathetic, this kind of thing happens to you like this; You are very strong, but most of them are probably suicidal; You're lucky again because you're still alive, compared to the people who died in this year's earthquake. ”

Xu Hui spat out a circle, and the action was very similar to that of a stumbling woman sitting on a stool waiting for a customer in an alley.

"You're so comforting, like I deserve to die."

Headaches, I'm afraid of picking out words, and I love to think about girls. It's good that it's not a girlfriend, otherwise I have to explain.

"Why didn't you say it?" She asked.

I looked at her, still smoking the cigarette in my hand.

"Don't you think I'm dirty and don't want to talk to me anymore?"

What can I say? Her psychology is a little distorted, and the dark area is too big.

I don't like such people, who have experienced too much pain and torture, and if there is no good guidance from others, they will become extremely dangerous people.

Just looking at it, a green line suddenly appeared on her forehead, and it was still a very dark one. I fidgeted a little, and looked around, back and forth, left and right, but I didn't see anything non-living.

"Have you ever had a human life on your hands?" I asked suddenly.

"What do you say?" She smiled mysteriously and took a sip of her cup of coffee. He beckoned, handed a card to the waiter, and said to me, "Let's go, let's go grocery shopping." ”

I didn't want to go, I was afraid that something would happen as soon as I went out. Some things can't be avoided, they are predestined, even if they change their lives, it's useless.

took a backpack and cigarettes and alcohol from the Wang Hall at the front desk, and followed her cautiously.

I don't want to take care of the affairs of the Wang Ting family, I'm not the chivalrous warriors and demon hunters with a strong sense of justice on TV and in novels, just an ordinary ordinary person.

"What are you doing after me? I'm wearing a coat and you can't see the curves of my hips. She turned around and said, "You men are like this, you are a decent man and a gentleman in your mouth, and your heart is dirty and dirty. ”

Your uncle, who wants it. I don't lack women, it's too late to hide now, do you think you're different? It's not the last few seconds for me, it's a lot of thinking.

"Don't be funny, where do you live? Far from it? "I really didn't look at her anywhere, but I didn't want to get too close, for fear that the flying disaster would affect me.

"Maple Leaf Village, what's wrong? It's not far from you, right? ”

It is indeed not far from where I live.

"How do you live there? Isn't it going to be demolished? I asked. It's an urban village, and there are universities around, and I've been there a few times before, but I haven't gone deep. It's just that on her terms, she could live in a better place, I can't believe it.

"Now it's just planning the place to be demolished, and the demolition is also in order." She came up and took my arm and said, "It will take at least two years, maybe longer, to be demolished." ”

I tried to break free, but I couldn't find a reason to convince myself. Others have just told such a miserable story, and now they leave or refuse, they have the smell of disgust.

Grace and safety, I chose grace, a very unwise choice.

When I arrived at Maple Leaf Village, I walked into an alley, a very deserted alley. It has nothing to do with the demolition, it's just that it's the Spring Festival, and the tenants who work are almost gone.

At a fork in the road, I asked, "Which side?" ”

"I live on the left, but now I'm on the right to buy groceries." She pulled me into the road on the right.

It's a curvy alley, first right and then left, in an "S" shape.

"How far away? It's so secretive. I asked.

"The alley on the left is the same as this, and the place where I live is the same as the vegetable market, in the innermost part."

I just passed a kindergarten, and as far as the eye can see, it is a circle, and it is written in the middle of two roads.

A gust of wind blew, extremely cold, in addition to feeling cold and depressed, there was also a deep chill, cold into the heart made people panic.

"Why don't you rent a better place." I still asked what I was hiding in my heart.

"It's true that you can live in a better place, but then you don't feel solid and insecure, and you may be poor."

Are you used to living a poor life? Perhaps, or maybe it's too dark in my heart.