In the evening, when the children were playing with Shi Tong, I took a shower and went back to the room to see that Kong Ma had just come out of the children's room, I stopped her, thought for a while and said softly: "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to do it in the morning." ”

"Madame's words are serious." She was reserved and polite.

"Mother Kong, please forget some things in the future, you have to believe it, and you have to let Liniang believe that she is my own child."

She looked at me fixedly, and I looked back at her, not provocatively, but please.

"The child is still young, I don't know what her mother is like, but I still hope to replace her to bring up Li Niang Qiang happily, Li Niang is very kind and gentle but a little weak, I hope she can be as strong as Mei Niang, and I also hope that Mei Niang is as gentle as Li Niang. There is one more thing, Mei Niang is not born to me and my father-in-law, she knows it herself, understand? ”

"Second Miss......" She was really shocked and dumbfounded.

"These three children are the same for me, I won't really be biased, so you too, don't use my biased mentality to affect the children." I took a deep breath, "You love Liniang and Qiang very much, and I kept you because of this, but you have to listen clearly, if one day I find that your love exceeds your boundary, you should know what I will do." ”

After she looked at me deeply, she bowed and retreated, this is my first head-to-head confrontation with Kong Ma, I hope her love does not go beyond her identity line. I can't let this affect my absolute status in the hearts of my children, and I hope that her loyalty will turn to me.

Back in the room, the children were already asleep, Mei Niang and Li Niang slept at one end, they looked like two beautiful children, but the beauty of the two was so different, even if they fell asleep, Mei Niang made me feel that she was hard enough to smash stones. I sighed, I knew I would be partial, even if the three children were not biological, I would love Mei Niang more, but from now on, I had to hide this love.

"You're a good mother." I was wrapped in a hot embrace, hot lips resting on my shoulder.

"I'm afraid I'll be biased."

"Ten fingers have lengths and shorts, not to mention children, you are just afraid that people will say that you are a mean stepmother." He had already picked me up and was ready to go back to the room, and I put my arms around his neck and looked at his face.

"Do you think I will?"

"No, it's not that you're kind, it's that you're sanity." His eyes were full of smiles, and with intense lust, I stopped talking and let him take me back to my room.

After we were together, it didn't take much time for us to go from the beginning of mutual temptation and adaptation to the current full-fledged devotion and release, as if we had tried countless times, and he and I quickly fell in love with the intimacy and enthusiasm between the beds. No one told me what to do with the ancients, so I let myself do whatever I wanted. Anyway, the only thing they ask me is not to have children, yes, a child I gave birth to, is it an ancient or a modern person? More than a thousand years old at birth? So I deliberately pay attention to my safety period and don't let myself fall into unnecessary trouble. And at this time, what I thought of was that if I didn't give birth, then it meant that Shi Tong would not be able to have his own biological child in this life, and I couldn't help but feel deeply guilty, and gently kissed his lips and looked at his beautiful eyebrows.

"What's wrong?" The faint gasp that followed his passion was incomparably sexy.

"If I don't have children, will you blame me?"

"If I had a son, I would be born with an official." He didn't answer me positively.

"Will you take a concubine and bear you a son?" I laughed, looking at him playfully, and he raised an eyebrow, and then laughed and shook his head. I propped up my head and looked at his face, "Afraid I'll be angry?" ”

"No, I just said, you are very sensible, just like your education of Mei Niang, I believe that Mei Niang will be a good wife and mother like you in the future, and even a good housewife. But you also said that you are gentle but not weak, and if I dare to really go out and give birth to a son and come back for you to raise, I don't dare to think about what the consequences will be. Yes, an unimaginable consequence, how dare I do something that has no consequences? ”

"What if I agree?" I looked into his eyes with a serious expression. But there is still a struggle in my heart, can I really let him take a concubine and have children?

"You won't say yes, and I just want to be with you now." He smiled faintly, "You are not my first woman, I am doing business outside, and then many things are inevitable in Chang'an, I like you, and I started because I am very comfortable with you, spiritually." And now, I know you're unique. ”

I stopped talking and told him that I loved him.

The deeper my relationship with Shitong, the more uneasy I felt in my heart, and I was in pain at the thought that he would leave me at an unknown moment, and I even wished that I wanted to change all this, like the girl in the novel I had read, and I wanted him to live.

After a love affair, I leaned into his arms and listened to his powerful heartbeat, and after a moment of thought, "Are you afraid of death?" ”

"Of course, aren't you afraid?" He chuckled.

"What would you do if you knew that one day you might die? Will you find a way to escape? ”

"How to escape? Whoever wants to get sick will get sick wherever he wants? ”

I couldn't help but laugh when I thought about it, yes, I don't even know how Samurai died nine years later, maybe he got sick? If he really dies of illness, won't he die wherever I send him?

"What if it's an evacuation? Maybe you'll offend the royal family, so ......"

"Like you sent your second brother away?"

"It's different! Because the second brother is silent, as long as he leaves, if you want to get out safely, you may only have to cheat to death. I thought about it and said.

He didn't speak, so long that I thought he was asleep, and when I got up to look at him, his eyes were open, and he looked at the top of the tent with some blankness. Did I scare him? I propped my head and watched him quietly. His hair was scattered on the pillow, looking a little strange, yes, I had never looked at him seriously at this time, gently combing his long hair with my hands, caressing his eyebrows with my fingertips, he finally looked at me.

"I don't want to be like my second brother."

I was stunned for a moment, I just said that he won't run away like the second brother, but think about it again, in fact, the form is the same. He's gone, and we're still here.

"You are alive, you can watch Mei Niang grow up, and you can accompany me to old age."

"Nope." He smiled and shook his head. He didn't explain, but the look in his eyes told me his answer. He didn't want to be a dead man just to live. What he has pursued all his life is to raise his head and live, and now he has finally succeeded, and it is an insult to him to bow his head for the sake of his life. I nodded and kissed him softly on the lips.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have asked."

He smiled and took me into his arms.

After that day, we didn't talk about it again, and sometimes when I was alone, I would think that I was letting him run away if it was for him or for myself. In the end, I realized that I was actually making decisions for them, and the ultimate purpose of these decisions was for myself. I asked my second brother to leave because I was afraid that someone would be able to secretly help the children after Shi Tong left. Now I want Shi Tong to live, it's just because I'm afraid of being a widow, but I never thought about whether he wants to live a stolen life like this, unless he doesn't want me, he doesn't want children, like those who change his name and surname in the novel, go to live in seclusion overseas, and start from scratch, but is that possible? I put myself in a dilemma, I was reluctant to die, but it was more uncomfortable for him to live than to die. Because he is already in history, his life and death cannot be easily changed. Can I really watch him die in front of me? I shook my head, maybe this is not something I can control, let's talk about it that day!