Chapter Forty-Seven: I Hate Such Feelings
"Good! Walk! What do you say is good to buy? Toys to eat? Let's pick together! β
Lan Gongye said with a smile, he had already swept away the unhappiness just now, he firmly believed that Mu Li would be moved by himself one day, and they also put a lot of seats on the trunk, and he hinted that Sister-in-law Zhou should not go with the two of them!
He wants to be alone with Mu Li, and Sister-in-law Zhou needs a lot of daily necessities for herself, so she has to choose for a while! After a while, she took a taxi back, and Lan Gongye was taking care of her, and then Mu Li was dragged into the car by Lan Gongye, and promised to take care of her.
Blue Palace Night and Mu Li went to the Meishi East District Welfare Institute together, this is the welfare home where Ping's mother is, Blue Palace Night, Mu Li first went to find the current new dean, the new dean and the new dean's surname is Wu, she naturally warmly received Mu Li and Lan Gong Ye.
Mainly due to the Blue Palace Night, Mu Li handed over the things to the children, and asked Ping's mother about her current situation, only to know why Ping's mother didn't answer the phone!
The new dean recalled, "That night she had dinner with the kids a few months ago, and had a little fun! Suddenly dizzy, she didn't say uncomfortable, and went to sleep! The next day, Li Li saw that half of her body couldn't move! She had a cerebral thrombosis! β
"So where is she now? Did she leave the home? Mu Li asked with tears in his eyes.
"Don't be sad, your mother Ping is fine now! She is doing rehabilitation training at the senior activity center and is now able to move on crutches! She said that when she was almost recovered, she would come back to take care of the children! We all take turns looking at her! β
"What activity center is she in? I want to see her! Where is the location? β
"That's it! I'll go with you to see her now! β
"No more trouble! You're so busy! You tell us the address and we'll go ourselves! β
"No busy, no trouble! Let's go together! I promised to go to see her in the next few days, and if you don't come, I'll go. β
"Good! Dean Wu, let's go over now, let's wait a while! "Lan Gong is afraid that Dean Wu hasn't taken care of the work at hand yet.
"Wait! I'd like to see the new arrivals here, little brothers and sisters! And the old sisters! β
When Mu Li arrived at the place where she had lived for nearly fifteen years, she must take a look at these children who were the same as herself, and even pitied the disabled.
"Okay, you guys go and see, I'll prepare, there's still a little work at hand, just a while! I'll go to you later, and I'll go see your mother Ping! β
"Good! Thank you, Dean Wu, for your convenience! See you soon! β
"Then let's take a look!" After Dean Wu finished speaking, he left to get busy with the work at hand.
Mu Li and Lan Gongye looked at the current orphans, some were in infancy, some were more than a week, some were three or four years old, and some were seven or eight years old who were born with disabilities and could not go to school, and finally some disabled people with cerebral palsy who were unable to take care of themselves in their teens and twenties, Mu Li also recognized the two, they had fun playing together many years ago!
Mu Li towels wiped their hands and mouths, and said some words of concern to them, and they couldn't understand and smirked! They giggle when they see someone coming.
Mu Li's kindness and gentleness Lan Gong Ye looked at it one by one, he was a little bit clean, and he endured the discomfort and Mu Li walked out of the room after seeing the children, passed through the corridor to the staff restaurant and came out of the courtyard, she looked at the new building and Lan Gong Ye and said.
"Although the orphanage is still the old site, the environment here has changed! It has become new, it has become better, and the national policy has improved! The house is also newly built, the staff dining room is still next to the children's room, and it has changed from a dozen people to more than 30 people, and the simple medical equipment is much more complete, which was not available more than ten years ago. β
"The society is progressing in the era of development, and the living conditions of the children in the welfare home are indeed much better than before, and their suffering can be alleviated a lot."
Blue Palace Night comforted Mu Li, who was more relieved.
"They should be happy now! Unrestrained sea and sky, no one restricts their ideals to control their decisions, and you don't have to care about your parents' ideas and requirements, one person eats enough and the whole family is not hungry, it is really chic! β
Blue Palace Night continued to say that the orphans should be fine now! Even envy their unrestrainedness.
"You don't understand! Maybe you think so! Dashing? Self-deprecating! What else can I do? Whether it is a successful orphan or an orphan in an ordinary life, in their deepest part, they must be eager to be loved, eager to have their biological parents to love, I don't know how many times they have dreamed! β
"And you don't know, this lonely life to follow, the shadow will not forget for a lifetime, it will affect them for a lifetime! No, I'm just like them! Lonely and unable to extricate themselves! I don't know how to get rid of the feeling of drifting in this life, and I will never find a lonely boat to dock in the harbor. β
"But don't many good people and many caring people come to see you often?"
Lan Gong Ye wondered that this parent was only in name, and his parents didn't often see the dragon without a trace? But it's not as terrible as Mu Li said! I also think that they can't find anyone in their business, and a lot of crooked rules are very troublesome!
"You! You! In ancient times, he was like a faint king! You and I are simply the difference between cloud and mud, you are high, you feel that you deserve it, and you still think that your parents owe you, right? I'm like a starving person, and you're still hungry? I'm drowning and I want to grab a straw, don't you think the boat is beautiful enough? What a bastard! β
Mu Li listened to Lan Gong Ye's words, laughed angrily, and didn't let Lan Gong Ye get out of the way and continued.
"I don't know how you got here! There must be a lot of pain and suffering! But I also have my troubles, do you think I'm happy? I'm no different from an orphan! Lan Gongye didn't know why Mu Li had always hated himself, and he was a little angry!
"You're hypocritical, do you know why I hate you?"
"Why? Do you hate the rich? I am not the cause of your troubles! You can't be so paranoid, can you? β
The strange return of the Blue Palace.
"I don't hate the rich, the rich because they have a shrewd mind! I hate that you are in the midst of happiness and do not know the blessings, I hate that you have everything and are still free of illness and moaning, you are hypocritical, you are the most shameless show off! β
Mu Li said mercilessly that the little childhood regrets in Lan Gongye's heart were just as insignificant as the grains of sand in the eyes of these people.
"I'm moaning without illness? Am I showing off? That's how you thought of me? You saw it that year! My mother only gave me money, a lot of money, she didn't spend a few days with me from childhood to adulthood, you don't understand my pain, and you laugh at me! Are you justified in being miserable? I still think I'm miserable! β
Lan Gongye was naΓ―ve like a child at this time, arguing with Mu Li's face and neck, arguing with reason, Mu Li was really annoyed when he saw him, but he was not angry at all! Go on.
"In this special growth environment, although there are many loving people and caring people, come to visit us, but they don't know that they have hope, and no matter how disappointed they are, they are repeatedly tortured, and they come and go to gather and scatter is a gift or love, and it is also pity and compassion for us."
"Deep down in our hearts, we are grateful for the pity and care of these good people, but after they left, it was a desolation, not contentment, but fear, and they felt like relatives for several years in a row! Suddenly, I don't know why I can't see them anymore. β
"Everyone has difficulties in one way or another, and we understand and pray that the good people who love us are all well and well! But in the end, you will find out! An orphan is an orphan! You can only rely on yourself forever, you have to do it, you have to do it, you have to do it! We don't have our closest relatives to encourage us, we only grit our teeth and swallow blood! Even if your head is broken and bleeding, how can a person like you, who is used to being rich and arrogant, know the difficulties of ants! β
"When I was a child, when I was unhappy and conflicted, no one cheered me up, my grandfather often told me big truths, but he was not my parents! But I know he loves me, and you'll know when you see him later! Seemingly serious, he is actually a kind old man with a very soft heart, and he will also like you to be good to you! It's also you, my grandfather. β
Lan Gongye suddenly wanted Mu Li to know that her grandfather could share half of her, so that she would no longer be alone.
"Who said I was going to marry you! Don't think that far! β
Mu Li thought to himself whose relatives belonged to whom, if he could be the same, his mother-in-law and himself would not become like this.
"Let's go! Let's go to Dean Wu to see your mother! β
"Good! You see, the current staff are all from the younger generation, I am not familiar with it, Ping's mother used to be thirty-five years old, everyone else is older than her, and that generation is retired! Only Ping's mother is left, and she is a few years old before she retires! I didn't expect her to get a cerebral thrombosis at such a young age, she is so strong, how sad is she? β
Mu Li said that he couldn't wait to fly to her!
"You're here? I've got it covered! Let's go! β
Dean Wu just came out with a bag on his back.
"Good! I'll drive you guys! Lan Gongye hurriedly said.
"No need! I'll drive over, and you guys will follow you, remember the route, and you can see her at any time in the future." β
Dean Wu was very understanding, she felt that if Mu Li had something to leave for a while, she would not bother them to send it by driving over.
Lan Gong Ye said, "It's better to be respectful than to obey your fate!" Dean Wu, please! We follow. β
Mu Li got into the car, Lan Gong followed Dean Wu's car at night, the car was very stable, and after less than half an hour, they arrived at the elderly activity and rehabilitation center, Mu Li's heart was beating excitedly, her hands were trembling, and tears were rolling in her eyes!
Lan Gong hugged her at night, comforted her, and calmed her excitement, saying that Ping's mother must like Mu Li who was smiling.
"There it is! Are you there? Go surprise her! β
Dean Wu led Mu Li to the outside of the room and pointed to Ping's mother who was sitting and reading.
"Ping's mother! I just hope you don't blame me! Mu Li muttered to himself and opened the door and walked in.
"Guess who I am? What are you reading? Mu Li smiled hard to protect Ping's mother's eyes.
"Who? Who gave me this stupid trouble? Don't guess, don't guess! Let go! Let go! β
Ping's mother said with a trembling hand, she should have guessed who it was! She had a blood clot though! But fortunately, the mouth is still not tethered, and he speaks flexibly, which is good, and he can call someone if he needs help.