People die like lights go out, and the originally bright space suddenly goes black, and no one can adapt to it. The world that cannot be touched, seen, or heard, some people will soon get used to nature, and some will go crazy.

It's not that I haven't experienced the departure of my relatives, but I haven't personally experienced the kind of thing that I can't do to watch her leave.

"It's getting dark, Ruan Qin, go back, your classmates are all back." I say.

"What about you?"

"I wanted to see her again, and I promised her dad too."

"I'll accompany you, to be honest, I'm a little scared to go back to the dorm." Ruan Qin's voice was very small.

At this time, Lu Sha, Tian Li, He Wen and others came. As soon as I saw them, tears came out again.

He Wen hugged me and said, "Cry, it feels better to cry." ”

As soon as I cried, Lusha cried too. Ruan Qin had met Lu Sha a few times before because of Zhang Yue, and helped her to the side to comfort her.

Tian Li said: "How long has it been salvage? The river is so big and the water is so fast, it shouldn't be easy to salvage. ”

yes, it's really hard to salvage. I used to live by the river, and I often saw salvage. What's more, this is still a big river, so it's not easy to talk about.

Wang Dian said: "So far, more than 30,000 people have died in this earthquake, and there are still many that have not been discovered. And there are aftershocks going on, which is really heart-wrenching. ”

I said, "Thank you for coming, I don't know when I have to get it, you can go back first, I still have to wait for her parents." ”

"What do you mean? You're her boyfriend, so we're not her friends anymore? Lusha came over and said. I am very touched and fortunate to have such a group of friends.

I have met Zhang Yue's aunt, and when she first established the relationship, her aunt knew about it. Zhang Yue's parents are not around, she lives in her aunt's house.

Her aunt and uncle came from their hometown. A province, it won't be long.

"How did you take care of Zhang Yue?" Her aunt slapped me when she saw her, and said, "I didn't object to you falling in love at the beginning, and that's how you took care of her." I cried when I said that.

Ruan Qin hurriedly said: "Yu Xi was not with Zhang Yue at that time, Zhang Yue had already fallen when Yu Xi came, and Yu Xi immediately jumped down to save people, and she almost didn't come up." ”

"Then why didn't you save it, you said, you said... Woooooooooooooo

Her uncle pulled her aunt apart. I said, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."

I don't know what to say, what can I say? People are gone, and no language is pale.

Before Zhang Yue's parents came, she had already been fished out. started to salvage from a long distance, and it was Zhang Yue who came up first, proving that the lonely shadow struggling in the river seen earlier was her.

I don't know if she knew that I was in Jiangzhong at that time, and I don't know if she would complain that I didn't save her first. That distance, that time, I was able to swim through.

She was so pale, her limbs were still struggling, her mouth was still open, and her eyes were still slightly open. It was as if they were looking at me and complaining about me.

Her aunt was crying on top of her, Lu Sha Ruan Qin was also crying, and I also squatted on the ground and cried. My crying eyes were foggy, so confused that I didn't have the strength, and I only heard a voice calling me: "Yu Xi... Fei Xi..."

"Pinch people..."

"Let's take it to the hospital first..."

For the first time, I experienced the taste of fainting, and my mind was empty and white.

When I woke up, I was lying in the hospital on a drip. Ruan Qin, Xiao Wen and Cheng Gang were on the side, and Ruan Qin was talking about the scene at that time.

Seeing me wake up, Xiao Wen said, "Wake up, I'll go get you some porridge." Then he went out.

Cheng Gang said: "It's nothing, it's just that you're overtired, and you haven't eaten, Tian Li and they accompanied Aunt Zhang Yue to the funeral home." ”

"Are her parents here?" I asked.

Cheng Gang replied: "I don't know yet, I'll call to ask about the situation." Then he walked out of the room.

"You don't have to accompany me, go home! You must be afraid to go back to the dormitory. I looked at Ruan Qin and said. She's a local, and her home isn't far away.

"I'll accompany you, I'll sleep with you later, and you sleep on the sofa." Zhang Yue used to say that Ruan Qin had a crush on me, but I still don't believe it, it seems to be true.

"Whatever time is it?" I don't really have the heart to think about anything.

"It's eleven o'clock. You have been lying down for a long time, and the hospital said that you are too tired, dehydrated, and fasting, and hang a few more injections of energy. ”

"Who will pay for my medical expenses?" I asked suddenly.

"Me! If you don't pay it back, I have money, and I will help Zhang Yue take care of you. ”

Well, you have money, I know, I know that you are the second generation of businessmen.

I was silent and didn't speak, and Ruan Qin said, "I'm sorry for making you sad again." ”

"It's okay, how can I let you out the money, my wallet is with you, you take it yourself." I deposited the money that Tian Li returned in the card, and I left more than 3,000 in my hand, which should be enough.

"Believe me so much, I don't need to use it if I say no, I'm really not bad..."

"Zhang Yue's parents got off the plane and are rushing to the funeral home, don't worry." Cheng Gang interrupted Ruan Qin's words.

I can imagine what her parents would have been like, but I can't relate to their pain.

I didn't go during the cremation, I didn't dare to go, it was uncomfortable.

When my hometown was buried, I went, Tian Li, Lu Sha, Xiao Wen, He Wen, and some studio classmates who knew the news also went, and her college classmates only came to Ruan Qin.

Instead of crying anymore, I drew criticism from some bystanders, saying that I had no heart or lungs.

I didn't care, everyone has their own different way of remembering, it's not for others to see

Ruan Qin muttered to me on the side: "What do you care about them, who are they?" How can they see you desperately go into the water to save people, how can they see you crying, and they see you faint in heartache. ”

I said, "Don't care what they say, the real heartache is just the beginning." ”

Tears are not just synonymous with heartache and distress. Sometimes, nostalgia and longing can make people want to cry more than distress and heartache.

After returning to WH, I said to Ruan Qin: "I want to be alone during this time, and I will invite you to dinner another day." Then give her the medical bills.

She pushed away: "Don't, just take it as my accommodation fee with you that day, remember, invite me to dinner!" Then he left.

It's too bad to live alone, it's completely different from being single, quarreling and separating. It is also a kind of broken love: the loss of the lover you love the most, and the loss of the lover's life.

I just don't want to go out every day, and it's useless for others to call me. Is it a person who picks it, reads books, plays games, and shakes his hands, doesn't eat much, thief?

Annoyed by the thief once, I drove out with a kitchen knife for a long time, and if I did, I thought I might hack him to death.

One of Lu Sha's college classmates is named Feng Jiao, because she often goes to Tian Li to play, and she is a fellow villager with Zhang Yue, so we are relatively familiar with each other.

One afternoon, Feng Jiao said to Wang Dian, Tian Li, Liu Wu and Cheng Gang, who were playing a tractor: "What kind of brothers are you?" I haven't seen you for more than half a month, and you don't go to see it, and you don't call it. ”

"You don't know Yu Xi's character, it's a little stubborn, if he wants to stay alone, it's useless to call it." Tian Li replied.

"Then you don't care if you don't ask, and you're not afraid that he will starve to death, or won't be able to think about it?" Feng Jiao said again.

"Yes, yes, yes, go and bring him, and you have to carry him. He is not expected to be hungry alone, and he is also mentally ill. "Lu Sha mends the knife.

These four people really came, and told me the original words of Feng Jiao and Lu Sha.

"Lord Xi, it's not the little ones who forced you, the two empresses have made a holy decree, and the minions have to do it." Tian Li is deliberately funny.

It's all like this, and it would be unkind for me to go again, after all, they are also a lot of painstaking work.

"See how thin you've become?" Lu Sha said: "Vigorously, I'll make some soup for Yu Xi later." ”

"Yu Xi, things are over, don't be too sad, she is looking at you from the sky, you say how distressed you will be!" Feng Jiao said.

"Sometimes it's not me talking about you, it's too impulsive, I heard that you jumped off without saying a word, and I almost couldn't get up! That's the Yangtze River, have you ever thought about your own parents? "Liu Wu is still so realistic.

"Alright! Come on, play the tractor, I like to be in a team with you the most! If you don't do it against me, whoever you fight will lose! Wang Dian pulled me to sit down.

I stood up and said, "Thank you, brothers and sisters! ”

Everyone was silent at this point.

When I had dinner in the evening, it was prepared and delivered by the restaurant downstairs. There is pork rib soup, spicy chicken, boiled fish fillet, boiled beef, scrambled eggs with tomatoes, and hot and sour lotus root.

Even the rice was brought in a basin by the owner, and there was a case of beer.

The shopkeeper said to Tian Li: "It's better to keep accounts, right?" ”

Tian Li said: "Well, I'll give it to you when the time comes." ”

I got up and said, "I'll give it!" ”

Tian Li sat on my left hand side and grabbed me: "It's not just this meal, you just have to eat." Come, drink first! ”

Wine is drinking, food is eating. But I'm very uncomfortable, ask me to eat and drink on credit? How can I swallow it?

I said, "Dali, there's really no need to do this, just eat a little bit, why waste money like this." "He didn't go to work, he didn't open a shop anymore, and he had a mother at home who had to take medicine every day.

"That's it, don't think about it, I don't agree anymore!" Tian Li raised a glass to me, and I drank it.

"Thanks! I still want to say that there is no need for this! ”

Tian Li put down the cup: "I think it's necessary!" ”

"I don't think it's necessary!"

"It's just necessary!" Tian Li raised his voice.

"No need!" I slapped the table.

"It's necessary!" He slapped it harder.

"It's just not necessary!" I screamed.

"Still not brothers!" He yelled too.

I burst into tears, crying and shouting, "No need, no need, no need." ”

I cried heartbreakingly, I cried: "I really miss Zhang Yue." ”

"Woo woo woo ......"

"If I had seen clearly and gone to save her first, she wouldn't have died..."

"Woo woo woo ......"

"If I had gone sooner, she wouldn't have died......"

"Woo woo woo ......"

"I really won't see you again, what should I do? What to do? ”

"Woo woo woo ......"

Lu Sha and Feng Jiao also cried, and Wang Dian on the right kept handing tissues.

Just cry this time, just this time, I don't want to cry anymore, I'm too fragile.

I have lived in this urban village for a long time, and there are too many memories. So I moved to another urban village not far away, and changed my mobile phone number.

I don't want to think about it anymore, it's too painful.