Chapter 60: Firm Hearts
"How do you know? There's no need to be so troublesome, I'll just stay at school for a few days, and I believe that things will be fine after a while. ”
An Xiaoran was very surprised that Jin Beichen knew what happened at school, but after calming down and thinking about it carefully, he didn't feel strange, after all, this man was the boss of the Jin Group and the funder of a certain campus of Yenching University.
Just his identity, what else does he not know?
It is because of his identities that this series of identities has led to the fact that the originally simple things have not been solved until now, which is what An Xiaoran finds funny and curious.
She felt a little powerless, when would this matter become clear, she really couldn't decide for a while, although she didn't believe what she said, but An Xiaoran didn't want to trouble Jin Beichen so much, after all, he had helped him so much, it was impossible for him to come to Jin Beichen every time he had something.
Looking at the sky outside the window, An Xiaoran couldn't help but think of Jin Beichen's man, he was like a chosen son, everything he had was so good, his appearance, family, talents, and all aspects were enviable.
But such an excellent man actually fell in love with such an ordinary her, which is definitely like a dream for An Xiaoran.
During this period of getting along, An Xiaoran felt that she gradually couldn't control her heart. At the same time, she was more insecure.
She was afraid, afraid that after she was tempted, what would Jin Beichen do if she left her in the future, just like these things that are happening now, Jin Beichen can solve them for her, but if there is no Jin Beichen in the future, who else can you count on? So from the very beginning, it is necessary to avoid this dependency of hope.
Jin Beichen's voice on the other side of the phone kept coming, which made An Xiaoran's impetuous heart gradually calm down, a light flashed in her mind, and she was immediately glad that now she and Jin Beichen are completely unknown.
So she doesn't have to worry about the final result with Jin Beichen, as long as she works hard and strives to be able to compete with him and become a woman who can really match him, then it will be fine.
Thinking of this, An Xiaoran's eyes became more and more determined, since this is the case, she should investigate this matter carefully,
What's more, now that she has decided to be the woman by Jin Beichen's side, she can't always rely on Jin Beichen's side, and she has to learn to solve problems by herself.
Although An Xiaoran's heart flashed a little shaken when she heard Jin Beichen say that Grandpa Jin was sick and missed herself, but in the end she resolutely refused, for what Jin Beichen said, she thought more in her heart that it was Jin Beichen's reason to think about in order to let her go to their house.
"An Xiaoran, you are a girl, sometimes there is no need to fight so hard, so stubborn, you should be supported by me behind you, you don't have to think about it so much, after all, we are now in a boyfriend and girlfriend relationship, and we may be husband and wife in the future, there is no need to be so xenophobic."
Jin Beichen didn't know what An Xiaoran was thinking, and when there was no reply on the phone, Jin Beichen became anxious, and he said to An Xiaoran a little anxiously.
"I have no ill will towards you, you must believe in me and accept me, only in this way can we go further, don't you now have the heart to live with me for the rest of your life?"
Jin Beichen was a little nervous in his heart, he felt strange that An Xiaoran had been so entangled, and he was unwilling to let An Xiaoran reject him like this.
Especially the words he asked just now, in fact, they were reflected in his heart, he always felt that in getting along with An Xiaoran, the only one who really wanted to be together was himself, and An Xiaoran seemed to have never been ready to be with him.
Now in his heart, he has regarded An Xiaoran as his family, so Jin Beichen has become in control under An Xiaoran's refusal, and he does not allow An Xiaoran to refuse him like this.
And An Xiaoran, who resolutely refused just now, immediately couldn't control her tears after hearing Jin Beichen's words, she really didn't expect why Jin Beichen would be so good to herself, and she was really moved by saying this.
An Xiaoran has always felt that she is a person who is not very likeable, although she is very cheerful on her face, but in fact, her inferiority complex has reached the bones, so An Xiaoran never dared to expect others to be good to her.
Growing up, her mother said that she was a nemesis, because she was born to her, she was a girl, and her father didn't like girls. is also the reason for hesitation, An Xiaoran has always been very strong, she feels that girls are no worse than boys.
She studied hard and tried her best not to spend her family's money, even if their family started a business later and their lives gradually improved, An Xiaoran still worked her own.
The purpose was to make his father like him and make him be better to his mother when he came home, but it was not as she expected.
The relationship between father and mother has always been not very good, even if she is excellent, in the eyes of her father, girls are always girls and will eventually get married, while her mother has always felt that it is because of her that her father doesn't like her.
In the end, her mother's mood became worse and worse, and the whole person began to become gloomy, at that time, An Xiaoran didn't know that there was a word called "depression".
As she grew older, the relationship between An Xiaoran and her mother became more and more sinister, and she later began to live on campus, choosing to return home once a week.
The last time I saw my mother was on her last day of graduating from junior high school.
Because everyone in the school has gone home, there is no way, An Xiaoran must also go home. At that time, she was very reluctant, and she didn't expect to see such a scene when she returned home.
In the master bedroom in the attic, the door was open, An Xiaoran felt a little strange, the servants at home were not there, and the door of her mother's room was still open, with a hint of indescribable weirdness.
At that time, she felt that something seemed to be happening unconsciously, An Xiaoran felt her heart beating fast, she hurriedly ran up the stairs, but she didn't expect to see her mother lying on the bed with her eyes closed as if she was asleep.
At that time, An Xiaoran looked at her, stared at her for a long, long time, she felt that something was wrong, walked up and touched her nose, only to find that she was no longer breathing, this matter has always been a stalk in An Xiaoran's heart.
The police gave that her mother committed suicide, but An Xiaoran always felt a little weird in her heart, but she didn't find any other dramas that could prove whether it was suicide or not.
This matter has always been pressed on An Xiaoran's body, her inferiority complex was brought by her mother, but it was also left on her by her mother.
Jin Beichen's words now made An Xiaoran think of her mother without knowing what was going on, she wanted to cry a little, but she still held back.
That is, just now, the strength turned into foam in an instant, she is just a girl and wants to get the distress of others, since the accident at home to now, she has not been very good.
Although the situation has been alleviated now due to Jin Beichen's help, there is still a lot of pressure in his heart, which is why, even after Jin Beichen helped solve the affairs at home, An Xiaoran is still working so hard and still so hard.
She has been insisting on working in several different jobs in several places, the purpose is to relieve her life and economic pressure, and she doesn't want to rely on Jin Beichen for everything.
In An Xiaoran's world, she felt that although she and Jin Beichen had established a relationship, they were not a family after all, so there were not so many reasons and excuses for Jin Beichen to do so many things for her, even if Jin Beichen felt that there was nothing in her heart, she still felt that she couldn't get by.
"Thank you Jin Beichen, I know you are for my good, but the current situation is indeed not very suitable, I, I really don't want to drag you down."
Although she was very moved by what Jin Beichen said, An Xiaoran still planned to stick to her principles, and she didn't want Jin Beichen to fall into an embarrassing situation.
Just now, I decided in my heart that I wanted to try it with Jin Beichen, so I must start doing it.
She should learn to grow up, try to solve these problems by herself, and not trouble Jin Beichen. She felt that what Jin Beichen's side lacked was not a girl like her, and since she decided to be with Jin Beichen, An must work hard to grow up.
There weren't many opportunities for growth, but this time it wasn't, so why couldn't she seize this opportunity? Therefore, An Xiaoran resolutely rejected Jin Beichen.
Hearing An Xiaoran's words, Jin Beichen felt that he was about to be blown up now, he didn't expect this little woman to be so stubborn, although he also knew that she was quite tough and had her own principles, and it was precisely because he fell in love with these places that Jin Beichen liked An Xiaoran so much.
And now at this moment, Jin Beichen only feels that An Xiaoran is a bull, he can't wait to break all these principles, he is a little hateful.
"An Xiaoran, now is not the time to be willful, you must figure out the current situation, okay? If you don't come down then I'll go up, I'll go up now and help you pack your things. ”
Jin Beichen was tired of the silent scene now, he didn't want to say these things to An Xiaoran every day, he knew that he would refuse whatever An Xiaoran said, since this was the case, it was better to be tough and threaten the other party directly, because An Xiaoran was like this before.
If you don't eat soft, you have to eat hard, and before, Jin Beichen had always reserved the soft place in his heart for An Xiaoran, so he wanted to be very good to An Xiaoran, and he always asked the other party to discuss with her, but now that An Xiaoran is like this, he must be stronger.