My name is Xue Guangxuan, my parents died early, and I depend on my grandmother for my life.

Grandma is a resolute temperament, wise and foolish woman, always inadvertently, teach me some of the most simple principles of life, when I was a child, I didn't understand too much, but with my grandmother's training, I was smarter than my peers.

However, my grandmother was not in good health, and when I was young, I went south and north with my grandfather and fell into the root of the disease, and from time to time my whole body hurts, and when the pain is severe, I can't even get out of bed, and I am always afraid that my grandmother will throw me down.

I was afraid of being alone, very scared, so I skipped school and went to the mountains some distance from home to catch some game for my grandmother and make up for her, hoping to relieve her pain and hope that she could stay with me for a longer time.

However, I didn't know that this time in the mountains changed my life.

I met the bright and dazzling sun.

Well, maybe it's not appropriate to say that the scorching sun is not suitable, she is more like the stars at night, slightly cool and slightly drunk, warm and distant.

After falling into the hole, I was so desperate that I couldn't call for any cry, until I was exhausted and couldn't bear to faint, and the stars appeared before my eyes and pulled me out of despair.

I never told her what it was like for her to first appear to me.

In the darkness below, surrounded by sticky tides, and on the verge of emotional collapse, I lay there, like a frog at the bottom of a well, and she, with her back to the skylight, tore the thick shade with her hands, like a mountain elf, easily rescued me from the collapse and fell asleep peacefully.

Since then, I have crossed paths with her.

I took her home and honored her as a benefactor.

Because, grandma often said that the grace of saving lives must be repaid with all their might, so that they are not born in vain.

I want to give back with all my might, but I have nothing but this kind of life, so I want to give it away and serve it.

But I didn't know that she was not a real little monk, but a little girl, and I didn't know that this little girl was deeply rooted in my heart in the end.

The aunt and uncle next door are very nice people, take good care of us, and lead us to escape together when the Hu people come to attack, but grandma is unwilling to leave, I know that she is reluctant to grandpa.

I couldn't persuade it, the pain was unbearable, but I was forcibly sent away by my grandmother, and when I left my grandmother, I saw my grandmother solemnly asking the little monk to take care of me.

The little monk agreed, and the grandmother was visibly relieved.

Because the little monk is very powerful, with a smart head and powerful fists, no one can beat him.

When I got on the ox cart and left the house, I couldn't see my grandmother anymore, I broke down and cried, but the little monk thought I was noisy and told me to shut up, at that time I thought the little monk was too hateful, I was sad to be like this, he also scolded me, and felt that the little monk had no human touch at all!

Later, I was convinced that she was not impersonal, but lacked certain emotions, life and death, joys and sorrows in her eyes, just like the picture books she loved to read, just one story after another.

She can watch, she can face it, she can be there, but she can't empathize.

Like, I desperately suppressed my liking, for fear that he would hate it, but when I knew that she was actually a little princess and a girl, I told her that I liked her.

However, her expression was still as usual, gentle and gentle.

Obviously, I didn't say a bad word, nor did I show any other contempt looks, but it made me suddenly feel like a clown, ashamed and embarrassed, difficult to hurt, and I wish I hadn't said it!

But she told me bluntly in my mood.

[It's not a heinous thing that you like me, so you don't have to be so ashamed and embarrassed. 】

These words made me stunned.

The joy just wanted to come up, but it was smashed by her next words.

[However, I don't like you, as for whether you want to like me or not, it's your business, I won't interfere, and I won't force you to stifle your liking, but, don't have illusions, thinking that I will like you one day, this won't happen, so——]

[Xue Guangxuan, the fact that you like me is fruitless, you have to understand this. 】

Ah, I never knew, just a few words, but it can make people feel like a thousand arrows piercing the heart, and the pain is unbearable.

This person, she didn't even say a little tactful, and she didn't even leave a way out, so she simply cut off his thoughts, which was extremely cruel.

Even let me give birth to one, why don't you lie to me?

It's good to lie to me-

In this way, I will have the strength to go on.

But she didn't, won't, and won't.

Later, because of her rejection, I almost went to the point of no return, after all, I was hit too hard, I couldn't bear it, and I didn't want to bear it.

It wasn't until a hundred years later, when I was in the ground that I looked at the little girl who still looked the same and had not changed a bit, I was suddenly relieved.

She's not the same as me.

In a word, she is a god, I am a mortal, my hundred years of life, in her eyes is only the sunrise and sunset, the way she looks at me, the eyes of others, and even the heaven and the earth, and all things are one look.

is obviously gentle and gentle, gentle and long, but nothing is embedded in her eyes, making her more nostalgic and greedy.

She may not only be missing certain emotions, but she has never had them.

What a pity-

The moment I closed my eyes, I thought with a sigh.

Throughout my life, I still couldn't make her like me, and I really did what she said.

[Don't have any illusions that I'll like you one day.] 】

[The fact that you like me is fruitless, you have to understand this. 】

Well, I really didn't like it from beginning to end, and it really didn't work out, but I don't regret it.

Because, you have taught me to be tolerant and relieved.

Like a person is not a heinous thing, you may not be able to control your emotions, but you can restrain your behavior, do not bring trouble and trouble to the person you like, from time to time to look at it, read a thought, think about it, recall memories.

Sweet and bitter, but also a happy life.

"Muyu——, in the next life, let me meet you."

Xue Guangxuan, who was already an old grandfather, looked sideways at the little girl standing by the bed, bent his eyes and smiled.

This little girl still has a smooth little braincase, and the ring scar on the skull is as round as her little head, which is very beautiful.

His cloudy but delicate eyes made Wang Tiedan'er, the white-haired general of Zhenguo who was guarding his bedside, red-eyed, snot and tears.

"I'm not ashamed, I've never seen someone as dead-eyed as you! There really isn't even a woman in this generation, just guarding this stinky monk, what do you say you want! ”

Xue Guangxuan chuckled, sighed, thought about it seriously, and then said:

"I think I don't really like Muyu much, it's just that no one else looks down on her except her, so I create an illusion for myself or you that she won't marry, I'm just-"

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