Wangshu Lou is located in the most prosperous boundary of Pingkangfang, the signboard of gold characters, is the great poet of the previous dynasty to mention. The 10,000-character lattice door painted with gold painted with vermilion lacquer is wide open, facing the heyday of Chang'an City. In front of the door, there is a large vermilion lacquer pillar that can only be embraced by two people, which is engraved with a pair of Han Li couplets inlaid with silver powder, on the left is "relying on the column in vain to spend the fairy Shu shadow", and on the right is "across the river is still familiar with the beauty fragrance", which is full of fragrant words.

It's been a long time here, and it's commonplace to send it off at night and night, and there's nothing to be sad about. How many amorous sons and grandsons buy smiles, and how many beauties are easy to grow old. The woman in the wind and dust survives in such a crack, smiling like a flower in front of people, and knowing her sorrow after people. There are two sentences in a poem in front of the hall that I don't know who inscribed, but it is very reasonable: "The jade man is looking forward to the sky at night, looking at the person in the dream of Jiang Xin." ”

I've been coming to Wangshu Tower for some years. In the past few years, the bustard's mother began to call me out more and more frequently to welcome guests. If it weren't for the fact that I still had some talents to make money for my mother, I would have been forced to pick up customers like other sisters. But even so, I am sixteen years old, which is an exaggerated age among the children of the church, and there are not many pure days left for me.

I will soon be like my sisters, dressed up to flirt with middle-aged men who are obscene, and when I am old, I will find a master who can make me live and eat without worry, and I will be a servant and a concubine, or I will be alone and desolate when I am old and decrepit.

My name is Wei Taozhuo, Wei is a famous surname in Chang'an City, and countless high-ranking officials and nobles are from the Wei family.

In fact, I also had a very prosperous time.

My grandfather's name is Wei Jian, and he used to be a Hubu Shangshu, which is a very fat errand. My aunt was a crown princess and married Emperor Suzong, who was still a crown prince at the time. When I was a child, we lived in Shangshu Mansion, I was a veritable daughter, and my grandfather once hugged me on my knee and taught me to read and write. It's just that he never expected that these things that he taught me at the beginning would now become my capital for performing and laughing in the workshop.

Later, Grandpa was killed by traitorous ministers, and Shangshu's house was raided, so I became a dependent of the criminal ministers and was confiscated into the church. Bustard's mother probably saw that I had a good foundation and could read and write, so she asked my master to teach me to play the pipa, sing and dance, and train me to be her cash cow.

The peach is dying, scorching, this is the first song I learned. Because my name comes from this, I love peach blossoms. The peach blossom is also called Xuandu flower, on the surface it is red and gratifying, and there is some charm to seek perfection, but this other name gives people a kind of coldness that has seen through the red dust, like a helpless sigh under the charm of our forced smile.

That day, when I stood in front of the window and looked out at the market, I saw a general riding a tall horse, extremely imposing. I envy him, if I were a man, I would rather be assigned to a general's mansion as a slave, maybe there would be a chance to follow my master to the battlefield and make contributions.

I stared at him for a long time, maybe it was meant to be, and he turned around. His sword eyebrows slammed deep into my heart, and I smiled faintly, like a condensed March morning, so bright that it could almost illuminate my entire life.

Later, the Anshi Rebellion broke out, and the rebels rushed into Chang'an City. The sisters in Wangshu Lou all fled in all directions, and I met him again with my cousin Wei Mingyu on the way to escape. He came back with his troops, and together with his father, recovered Chang'an City and saved us. He descended from heaven like a god, and perhaps from that time on, he dwelt deeply in my heart.

His father is the famous Fenyang County King Guo Ziyi, and he is Guo Xi, the third son of Ziyi Gong. Later, the rebellion was put down, and the emperor was welcomed back to Daming Palace, and I followed Xilang to live in Fenyang Mansion. I don't care about my reputation, on the surface I am a lowly teaching girl, but secretly I am the daughter of a criminal minister, and my identity is absolutely impossible to ascend to the hall of elegance. But I know he likes me, so ...... That's enough.

The time by Xilang's side was the best day of my life, and later, when I spent my time alone in the alleys of Yangzhou, as long as I recalled the beauty of the year, thought about his smile, and his every word, I felt that I was still alive. For the rest of my life, until that child arrived, remembering him was the only point of my existence.

I don't have children of my own. In the nightmare years of my life, I had a child, but I died before I was born, and I completely lost the ability to be a mother. I hardly dare to recall that painful life, I was caught up in love with the wrong person at the wrong time, and I was involved in the strife of the court.

I will never forget how sad and helpless Xi Lang looked at me at that time. For many years to come, the thought of his gaze on that day would bring tears to my eyes.

But I can't bother him, I can only choose to leave. Xie naturally took me out of the East Palace, left Chang'an City, and accompanied me through the darkest years.

She was a friend I made when I was in Shangshufu, and she has been helping me for many years afterward, and she is the only friend in my life.

Maybe it was because my love was too painful, the experience was too cruel, and I watched me being tortured to death, so she broke through the red dust early and became a female Taoist priest. She was extremely intelligent, and she soon became enlightened after becoming a monk, and I don't know if it was lucky, and she soon became famous, and was respected as a goddess by the people of Chang'an City.

I've always felt that she wasn't a goddess, but she did something tricky. When she was a child, she learned medicine from Lang at home, and it is really not incomprehensible that she can cure several patients.

Probably because I was too lonely after I left Chang'an City, and the only fun left for the rest of my life was to remember Xilang, so she brought back Konoha for me to raise. Konoha's identity is unusual, she is the princess's concubine, and I believe that she must have relied on the abduction of the pit to get the princess to hand over the child to her.

Xie naturally said that she just wanted a noble girl, and when the child was raised, she would be sent back to Daming Palace. Didn't Daming Palace ruin my life, she said, then let Konoha kill it for me, take back all the things that should belong to me, and let Wei Mingyu, who has entered the palace and become a concubine, spit out all the things she gets, and let the entire Daming Palace become hers, so that her mother is the world, and it is best to follow the example of Empress Zetian.

She is the proud daughter of heaven who is destined to return to Daming Palace, but from the moment Xie Tiantian brought her back, her fate was destined to have many tribulations.

Xie Nature's bureau is too grandiose, counting the emperor, concubines, princesses, and even the entire Chang'an City. No, maybe she is calculating the entire Tang Dynasty.

In the summer of the eighth year of Zhenyuan, on that sweltering evening, there was a knock on the door of my house, which had been closed very early.

Not slow, not fast, not light, not heavy, but extremely firm, the voice seems to come from a distant country. I asked who it was, and outside the door was a middle-aged man's voice: "Does the lady need incense?" Fine white sandalwood, white cloves are also available. ”

It seems to be a merchant. It's not coming, the sun is about to set, but it's coming to sell.

I wanted to ask him to go back, because I had always disliked incense, but the merchant suddenly said, "Agarwood incense is also available, and can you still have a decoction of the nails?" ”

I suddenly understood that this was an old man. The palace likes to put the best agarwood crumbs in a special gilt small incense burner, the incense burner is placed at the bottom of the water, and the fragrance is filtered by water, which is extraordinarily delicate and sweet, called agarwood incense.

There are also small eunuchs of the Shang Palace Bureau who pay tribute to dozens of precious spices such as incense, agarwood, sandalwood, Suhexiang, Zelan and so on with the secret method in the palace carefully concocted for several months, to get two inches of lipstick, the concubines in the palace are used to paint the lips, the smell is fragrant and rich, the color is bright and full, very delicate and lovely.

Akane is even more of the best, very precious, only the concubines with higher status in the palace can be used, and it is very rare outside the palace, only the favored ministers can be rewarded by the emperor, and ordinary people and even officials are not blessed.

When I was a child, I saw it in Shangshu Mansion, and later in Fenyang Mansion, De Xilang gave me an inch of half-pipe fried lipstick in the palace, which was my favorite variety back then.

It was Xilang's fifth brother, the fifth brother of the Guo family, Guo Yu, I vaguely saw the appearance of the year from between his eyebrows and eyes, and recognized him. I remember that when I left Chang'an, he was just fifteen or sixteen years old, and he always followed Xi Lang, and when he saw the purse belt I gave Xi Lang, he always pestered me to make one for him.

On the first day of the first year, Guo Yu was a little restrained. But for me, I don't feel that these 30 years have caused any barrier, because I still live by memories every day, and they are alive in every corner of my memory, as if they have never left.

I asked him, "Are you alright?" ”

He straightened his shirt and said, "Remember, everything is fine." After many years, Mrs. Wei looks like she is doing well. ”

I smiled faintly, "There's nothing bad, it's much cleaner than Chang'an." ”

He groaned slightly, and only said after a while: "The third brother is not very good. Two years ago, because the eldest prince was convicted, he resigned from the post of secretary of the school inspection department, and now although he has been used again and reappointed as a guest of the prince, it is a blow to lose his son in the end. In recent years, his body bones have not been very good, and the knife wounds and arrow wounds that fell in the early years of the battle often recurred, which was quite a bit of a hardship. ”

I know that Xilang is not doing well, Xie naturally goes to Chang'an every once in a while, and every time she sees me, she will bring news of the Guo family.

I said, "I've heard it, and I'm sorry." ”

Guo Yu looked at me for a while, and then said, "You still remember the third brother, and the woman who the third brother really loves in his heart is afraid that you are the only one." Now that the third sister-in-law has passed away, there is no one to be interested in around. Why don't you go back with me, it can be regarded as a long-cherished wish? ”

I bowed my head in silence, as if decades of time were passing by like water in my eyes. There are too many things between me and Xi Lang, even if the third lady is no longer there, how can the more than 30 years be counted?

"The green silk turns gray, and the peach blossoms turn into dry bones. I have been away from Chang'an for thirty-six years, and when I go back, how can I go back! ”

Guo Yu was also full of emotion, and his smile seemed to see the Qujiang smoke willows and poplar flowers flying from a distance through the misty mist, and he lowered his head and sighed: "The third brother took me to see you for the first time by the Qujiang Pond, and I was shocked." It's been thirty-six years since I didn't want to. ”

I looked at him with a smile, "Oh you remember." ”

He showed a childlike cunning look, with a slight coquettishness like back then, "Why don't you remember!" In another thirty-six years, I remember my bones turning into mud. Since you refuse to go back to see the third brother, how about going back with me? I went to find a good house in the southern suburbs of Chang'an with you, and I can watch the flowing water of Quchi and the weeping willows every day, and I don't have to deal with Guo Fu. ”

In fact, I don't know what he wants, but I have always regarded him as a little brother. It's been more than 30 years, and I think he's just talking. This time, he didn't come to see me specifically, but the time had come, and he came to pick up Konoha.

"Let me spend my old age in Yuezhou."

I raised her for thirteen years, and on this day, she bowed to me three times, kowtowed, and at that moment I knew that I would never see her again in this life. Chang'an City, that majestic palace, has been waiting for her for thirteen years, and that is her world.