After the arrival of the feather moon, Bai Zhi's territory became lively.

Especially Zhang Huiling, when she saw Yu Ling, she was so excited that she almost couldn't speak.

And Yu Ling doesn't hate this woman who snatched her son, but it's also a difficult thing to like it instantly.

After all, Zhang Huiling's age is not much different from Yu Ling, and letting a person of her age call her mother-in-law or something, Yu Ling can't accept it for the time being.

And on Bi'er's and An Jie's side, Bi'er can't accept An Jie's existence no matter what.

Especially after knowing that An Jie had part of Tianlan's memories, this made her even more unacceptable, and she couldn't get used to Anjie's various places.

An Jie is not used to Bi'er, and she is also very helpless, but she doesn't care, after all, if you want anyone to like her, it is impossible.

However, if Bi'er wanted to get close to Tianlan during this time, she would definitely intervene to stop it.

This made Bi'er very angry, and even wanted to fight An Jie.

It was clear that the person was in front of him, but he couldn't talk to him, and he couldn't even meet him.

In the end, Bi'er cried out aggrievedly.

She didn't understand what she had done wrong, she knew herself so well in the past, why didn't she talk to herself now, and she didn't even want to look at herself?!

Tianlan's reaction made Bi'er extremely lonely, as if she was the only one who had been abandoned.

When she saw the crying Bi'er, An Jie was also a little upset in her heart.

The reason why she has not allowed Bi'er to see Tianlan is also for her good.

She didn't know what the situation was with Tianlan now, but his mood was definitely not good.

If she asked Bi'er to go to Tianlan's side to annoy him now, then she didn't know what Tianlan would do after that.

But even if she told Bi'er this fact, Bi'er couldn't accept it, Tianlan was obviously such a sane existence before, why would she do something irrational now?

Although a lot of things have happened in Tianlan, in essence, it should still be the previous Tianlan, but why don't you just ignore yourself?

Bi'er is very lost, and the people around her hardly have a good relationship, and Tianlan, who was once really a friend, also turns a blind eye to herself, which makes Bi'er feel devastated.

Did you do something wrong? Do you want to apologize to Tianlan, so that maybe you can return to your previous relationship?

During this time, Bi'er thought about a lot of results, but when it came time to implement them, she gave up.

The current situation may be considered good, at least I can think that Tianlan is just in a bad mood, and when Tianlan is in a good mood, I can chat like before......

In fact, the main thing is that Bi'er is afraid, she is very afraid of saying the nasty result from Tianlan's mouth.

If even Tianlan hated herself, then she really had nothing.

In the past, Bi'er's family was not as happy as Tianlan.

Her parents divorced when she was a child, and at that time, in order to fight for the custody of Bi'er, the two couples who were once so harmonious and harmonious fought fiercely.

This led to her relationship with her parents not being very good, because she was afraid, afraid that she had done something wrong and would be abandoned by her parents as she did at that time.

So she has been acting as the existence of a good girl.

In the end, her custody was awarded to her mother, who would never have won the lawsuit.

But in the end, she obtained the custody of Bi'er, and she was very clear about what dirty means her mother used behind her back.

But she didn't say it, and continued to play the role of the most perfect child in her mother's eyes, trying her best to please her mother and let her not hate herself.

I have lost my father, and I don't want to lose my mother anymore.

However, no matter how hard she tries to play a good child, adults always can't understand the pain points of the children.

Obviously they used to be children, why did they become the adults they used to hate the most when they became adults?

No matter how hard Bi'er tries to maintain the family relationship, in the end, her relationship with her mother is constantly estranged.

My mother always used work as a reason and spent very little time at home every day.

As for whether it was work or not, Bi'er didn't know, and she didn't want to know, only by not knowing anything, which could make her pain a little lesser.

But after she reached high school, her mother didn't even go home, and even if she did, she would come back with a man.

This made Bi'er's heart crack, obviously she worked so hard to maintain the current family relationship, why are adults always so simple to destroy?

When she arrived at college, she chose to leave this home without hesitation, and she didn't want to stay in this sad place anymore.

Life alone is very hard, but she works very hard.

As for why she didn't go to live in a college dormitory...... Hehe, that kind of sad place, she doesn't want to mention anymore.

But it's really ridiculous, obviously I used to hate my mother's actions so much.

But when I became an adult, I became the adult I used to hate the most, and I couldn't help but want to laugh.

What a filthy woman she is.

Sometimes Bi'er wonders, should I end my miserable life like this?

I tried hard, but I also despaired.

What is the meaning of such a life, every time you have a good hope, the reality always crushes this delusion mercilessly.

And it was during this low period that Bi'er met Tianlan.

At the first glance of Tianlan, Bi'er was attracted to him.

The other party exudes the same aura as himself, but compared to himself, the other party is cleaner and more pure.

Why? Obviously we are all the same existence, why is he so pure? Does he want to be the flower that emerges from the mud in this filthy world?

I don't know, but Bi'er wants to know what she did wrong and why did it end up like this?

"You didn't do anything wrong."

This sentence was a saving word for Bi'er, but Tianlan didn't say that.

"You're wrong." This sentence directly shattered all of Bi'er's hopes, especially when this sentence came out of Tianlan's mouth.

is the same Tianlan as herself, which makes Bi'er feel like she has been rejected by herself.

Are you really wrong? What went wrong? …… I didn't have time to ask.

Maybe it's a good choice to end like this, I thought about ending it from the beginning, and the reason why I was able to live until now can be regarded as gambling with Tianlan.

Bi'er wants to prove to Tianlan that she is not wrong, even if she has become the adult she hates the most, she still has to live enough, so that Tianlan knows that the person who is really wrong is himself.

Now that she realizes it, Bi'er feels really stupid.

Who are you gambling with, it's just gambling with yourself, you don't want to admit this reality, hypnotize yourself as much as possible, this is the most correct result, that's all.

Bi'er: "No, you're wrong. ”

“…… What do you know about me?! It's not your turn to say this! ”

Bi'er, who was angered by An Jie's words, grabbed An Jie's collar and asked.

"You don't know anything, why should you deny me!"

An Jie was frightened by the fierce Bi'er, but this time she didn't back down.

"I don't know, I really don't know anything, but I still have to say this, this is what Tianlan's memory tells me!"

"Tell me, then...... What the hell was wrong with me......" Bi'er cried as she lay on An Jie's chest.

She wanted to know, she wanted to know what she was doing wrong.

Tian Lan said the same thing at the beginning, but in the end, he didn't ask Tian Lan about it.

An Jie looked at Bi'er like this now, and her heart was extremely distressed, but she still said: "You haven't done anything wrong, it's just that you are working in the wrong direction." ”

"Trying in the wrong direction? What is that? ”

"The relationship you want to maintain, no matter how much you value it, if the other person doesn't pay attention to it, it will collapse sooner or later. Although I don't know anything, Tianlan's memories tell me why bother with relationships, no matter who they are, if they hate them, then they hate them, if they don't value this relationship, then why should they care. ”

An Jie didn't know what this meant, she just directly expressed what Tianlan wanted to express at that time.

Even if the relationship is important, if both parties don't pay attention to it together, then why bother to maintain this awkward relationship.

Maybe the person concerned thinks it's nothing, but the people watching from the side feel embarrassed.

And Bi'er is too much of a bull, bent on maintaining that false family relationship.

When this false existence was finally broken, it could be regarded as shattering everything about her.

Tianlan may have known this, which is why he did not maintain any false friendships, even though it had always kept him alone.

But at least he tried, trying to find his companions, but it was so slim to really know his companions.

Words cannot be communicated, and such existence cannot be called friends.

Maybe Tianlan and Bi'er are similar in some ways, but the two are indeed two completely opposite existences.

Even if Bi'er is a false friendship and affection, she wants to work hard to maintain it.

And Tianlan's words, false things are false after all, and they can't fill the emptiness in their hearts at all, and in the end, they only get more damage.

That's why he doesn't maintain those false friendships.

Bi'er laughed after listening to An Jie's words, but this smile looked even more ugly than crying.

"Haha, sure enough, you don't know anything, I chose to ask you, and I also have something wrong with my brain."

If Bi'er didn't maintain those at that time, what should she do? Isn't that how it ended in the end?

"So why not just smash these false existences."

"Huh?" Bi'er looked at Tianlan who was passing by, and her brain didn't react for a while.

If you take the initiative to smash those falsehoods...... Maybe it's going to feel good.

When Yuyue killed those people in the support group, Bi'er's heart seemed to be relieved.

It's as if all the feelings that have been suppressed on me have been dredged, which makes people very comfortable.

But what's the use of saying that now, it's already too late.