01005 Here and now
It's not funny.
It's true.
It's not funny at all......
The boring may just be the component of words, and the inner meaning is so empty that it does not contain the slightest hope.
I don't have a small stone hammer in my book.
So...... Even if it's been a decade...... Twenty years......
You will only grow old and will never be saved.
……
Zhuo Zhiwen put down the book.
The book has no name, and she doesn't remember when she started reading it.
Passers-by on the streets were in a hurry, most of them bowing their heads and frowning, and only a few of them were talking and laughing, occasionally glancing at each other.
……
"I've read this book."
Zhuo Zhiwen turned her head when she heard this, and then found that there was a person sitting opposite her.
Somewhat unfamiliar, but a very beautiful, and temperamental woman.
"I'm sorry, you...... What did you just say? ”
The woman sitting across from her smiled, "I said, I've read this book." ”
She reached out and took the book in front of Zhuo Zhiwen, and the moment her fingers touched the cover of the book, there was text on it.
Zhuo Zhiwen saw it and saw it clearly...... It's "Free Enlightenment".
But...... She...... I don't remember a paragraph at all.
"I used to like it, but when I saw this part, I suddenly realized...... This book may not have been left for others to read in the first place...... But...... Memories that belong to the author's own. ”
Zhuo Zhiwen frowned, she looked around, the afternoon sun fell on her body a little restless, she felt thirsty, but she didn't want to drink water, because it felt a little jerky, to be exact...... It's instinctive, the body's jerkiness to the world.
"Have you finished reading it?" The woman asked.
Zhuo Zhiwen frowned: "What? ”
She smiled: "I mean, have you finished reading this book?" ”
Zhuo Zhiwen looked at the cover of the book, she hesitated for a while and nodded: "Hmm......"
"Do you like it?"
Zhuo Zhiwen shook her head, this time she did not hesitate.
She smiled.
"I don't like it either, like ...... I don't like my old self ......"
Zhuo Zhiwen felt very inexplicable, she asked, "...... Who is it? ”
She didn't answer, and looked at the book quietly with her head down, as if she was suddenly immersed in it...... But a few seconds ago, she said she didn't like the book.
Zhuo Zhiwen felt very uncomfortable with this unfamiliar atmosphere, she wanted to get up, but suddenly felt that her body was falling.
The space around her was converging, but when she stopped trying to get up, everything was normal again.
And then she reads: "If a man commits a crime, he will be put in prison and deprived of his liberty, which may be ten, twenty, thirty years...... At first you hated the wall, and you longed to break through it...... But slowly...... You will find that you can't do without it, it's no longer a bondage, but a protection...... Yes, for most people, this wall will eventually wear out all your hopes, and you start to get used to it and rely on it. ”
Zhuo Zhiwen listened silently.
After reading this paragraph, she was silent for a while, then smiled, then raised her head to look at Zhuo Zhiwen and said, "In the place where I live, even if I am not a criminal, I will still live within the high walls...... You said...... What is this kind of wall to us? ”
Zhuo Zhiwen didn't know how to answer.
She struggled to remember how she got here, but the memory felt like it had been disconnected.
No matter how much she combed it, she couldn't find any trace of the way she came.
Even this consciousness is slowly disappearing.
Before she knew it, she was sinking deeper and deeper, and she had begun to get used to it, and the environment was no longer strange to her.
"In ancient times, in order to prevent foreign invasions, people would also build high walls, and at that time, everyone's ideas were relatively pure...... I think...... The wall can be pure to you, too...... Of course...... No words of hope and freedom. Zhuo Zhiwen replied.
She listened carefully, then nodded: "What you said makes a lot of sense...... Maybe the author is too pretentious, and silence is also a good reality in purity, isn't it? ”
Zhuo Zhiwen didn't know why, so she didn't answer again.
The woman in the opposite seat put down the book and introduced herself: "Hello, my name is Han Kongwen. ”
Han Kongwen?
The name is not at all impressive.
But Zhuo Zhiwen felt that the other party was very familiar.
That familiarity...... It's like ...... It's like ......
"Hello...... I...... My name is Zhuo Zhiwen. ”
Han Kongwen smiled, she looked around and asked, "Do you like it here?" ”
Zhuo Zhiwen looked around, the passers-by who were in a hurry before were gone, and now most of the strangers who appeared on the street were moving slowly, and their faces were full of smiles and vitality.
The tall buildings in the distance were replaced by turquoise bays, and several sailboats were sailing into the distance under the white clouds.
Zhuo Zhiwen felt refreshed, and her mood seemed to be infected, and the haze gradually dissipated.
"It's nice here."
"Well, that'...... Do you want to try a skydive here? ”
Zhuo Zhiwen was stunned, so suddenly?
But she still nodded his head: "Okay." ”
……
About an hour later, Zhuo Zhiwen, who had a parachute on her back, followed Han Kongwen to an altitude of 4,000 meters above the ground, which was a relatively good altitude.
Coupled with the current normal wind speed and good weather, it is the best time to skydive.
Zhuo Zhiwen was professionally trained while serving in the U.S. Special Forces, so skydiving at this altitude was a breeze for her, so she opted for a solo skydive.
Han Kongwen has a professional to assist in the skydiving experience.
After the plane arrived at the predetermined skydiving area, the captain signaled that the hatch could be opened and ready.
Zhuo Zhiwen didn't think much about it, and came to the door very skillfully, but when she opened the hatch, she suddenly felt dizzy.
That's a situation that a battle-hardened special forces shouldn't have.
Seeing this, the crew on the side hurriedly asked, "Can you do it?" ”
The dizziness was very short, and Zhuo Zhiwen nodded: "It's okay, I can do it." ”
"Alright, you're ready to go."
Zhuo Zhiwen took a deep breath, and then jumped out of the cabin.
……
The process of falling is fast, but when falling up and down at a certain height, as in the present.
Zhuo Zhiwen, who fell from a height of 4,000 meters, felt that the whole sky was embracing her.
The initial palpitations were gone, the excitement flooded her brain, and she could clearly experience the feeling of being grabbed by gravity.
But before she touched the ground, it was like she had the whole world in her hands.
Obviously can't fly, but Zhuo Zhiwen still experienced the feeling of flying.
Her speed was fast, and her body was expecting to keep her balance, but at some point she received a command to turn around.
Zhuo Zhiwen realizes that she is facing away from the ground, and this action will most likely cause her to miss the optimal opening height, and then she will fall to the ground and fall to pieces.
But she was surprisingly not afraid.
All the tiredness in her mind was disappearing, and it was as if she had emptied herself.
Before she knew it, she closed her eyes as if she had sunk from the sky into the sea.
Sunlight is replaced by icy waters.
The process of falling is slowing down.
Time is slowing down......
……
I don't know how long it has been.
When Zhuo Zhiwen woke up again, she was already lying in the hospital.
But the body is intact, only I feel a burst of chest tightness.
got out of bed and came to the window, Zhuo Zhiwen saw the endless sea, and her heart was a little inexplicable.
What's going on here.
Why am I going through all this?
Think about it carefully.
There is no trace of it.
The reality of the accident made Zhuo Zhiwen a little hard to believe that she would actually make such a crazy move that was tantamount to suicide when skydiving.
She looked down and noticed a mirror on the windowsill.
And when she saw herself in the mirror, her breathing suddenly accelerated.
This is......
……
"Bang!" The door was slammed open.
Zhuo Zhiwen turned her head in surprise, and then saw a woman rushing in, and then ......
"Smack!"
Zhuo Zhiwen was slapped and knocked to the ground.
She was much more vulnerable than she thought......
Hurt...... It hurts a lot...... The real pain made Zhuo Zhiwen realize that the corners of her mouth were bleeding.
"You give my husband back to me!!!!!!"
The woman roared wildly as she was pulled away.
Zhuo Zhiwen sat on the ground for a while before she could see the person who helped her up.
……
It's crazy to turn your back to the ground and close your eyes while skydiving...... And this madness comes at a great cost......
Zhuo Zhiwen is alive.
It means that someone paid the price for her.
But Zhuo Zhiwen has now come to her senses, and she has also found traces of all this.
……
This is not her real experience.
It's a wanderer.
You Gege, who once chose to immerse himself in skydiving, chose to end his life in this way, but he didn't really die.
This woman is so infuriating.
……
Back on that street corner.
The person sitting opposite Han Kongwen is still Han Kongwen, but at this time, the person sitting opposite Han Kongwen is no longer You Gege.
It's the real Zhuo Zhiwen.
……
"You...... Why should I be asked to watch this memory? Zhuo Zhiwen asked.
Han Kongwen said: "Because I want you to feel the unusualness of the lower grade. ”
Zhuo Zhiwen was stunned when she heard this, and then smiled, a little inexplicable.
You Gege is very different, but it's just an unfortunate difference...... She is self-willed, egoistic, pessimistic...... The existence of such a person will only dim everything around them.
can look at Han Kongwen's eyes, Zhuo Zhiwen seems to realize it again.
She was wrong.
Han Kongwen said differently.
It is not this disgusting difference.
But.
"This ...... Not really? Zhuo Zhiwen asked.
Han Kongwen asked rhetorically: "At this moment, all of this is true, and when you look at it from the perspective of that moment and then, to you, all this can be regarded as fake. ”
It's so incomprehensible.
But Zhuo Zhiwen understood.
"Is that what makes her special?"
Han Kongwen nodded: "Yes, this is the power of You Gege after his transformation, it is a gift from the door, and it is also the only power for us to break through the nightmare." ”
The Transformation of Yougege......
A gift in the door?
Zhuo Zhiwen synthesized everything she knew, but she still felt that she couldn't sort it out smoothly.
Because the most critical link is still unanswered.
That's where all of this comes in and what it means.
The vague concept of human destiny is always talked about...... Is it really possible to discuss such an ungrounded topic?
If there is.
Is that an act of God or **?
Who brought this nightmare on the ground?