is separated, and it seems that they can't even be friends, which makes Xiaomin sad. Many times, Xiaomin doesn't know how to face Zheng Yan, and Zheng Yan didn't come to spend her birthday with her, but just sent her birthday wishes and gifts. Xiaomin didn't care what kind of gift he gave at all, what she cared about most in her heart was that she hoped that he could accompany her. It's just that she was the first to talk about the breakup, and she heard his calm to desperate tone on the phone, and her heart was full of self-blame. He suffered, and so did her.

Half a year ago, Xiaomin received Zheng Yan's WeChat: I think clearly, we are still best friends.

is another friend, and they can't seem to escape the fate of the word friend.

With tears in her eyes, Xiaomin replied, "It's best friend." ”

"I'm going to get married." Zheng Yan's words made Xiaomin's heart numb.

"Who is it?"

"I don't know yet, marriage is a state of mind, if you want to get married, you will naturally get married, find a suitable person, and live together for a lifetime."

"Then I wish you happiness."

Zheng Yan seriously considered the results of the two, after all, it was impossible to be together, he knew that she was full of guilt when she first said that she broke up, so if he didn't get married, she wouldn't get married. Rather than always working hard, it's better to really let go first, there is no fate between each other in this life, it's better to be friends, although you can't hug her anymore, kiss her, but you can still accompany her as a friend after all. Zheng Yan also thought about insisting on going to her for countless nights and telling her to be with her. However, every time he thought of the past, the barriers of his family, and the girl who was a little cowardly and his most distressed girl, he gave up.

Another half a year passed in a flash, Xiaomin received an invitation, and Zheng Yan got married.

Looking at the invitation, Xiaomin cried for a day, she originally thought that she had promised her mother to let go of her feelings first, and her father would be able to change his views slowly through time. But this year, my father has introduced several objects to himself through various channels, although everyone's family conditions are very good, and one or two are also very good-looking, if there is no one in the heart, maybe he will be impressed. It's just that there is a person living in his heart, a person who can never be forgotten in this life, although he is still his best friend now, but no matter how good a person is put to compare with him, it seems that he will be eclipsed. For more than a year, the family has gradually stopped talking about her relationship with Zheng Yan, and Xiaomin no longer begged for her parents' consent, but just fought according to her method and built a castle in her heart, and only one person lived in the castle, Zheng Yan.

From the time he said he was going to get married, she knew that he would do what he said he would do, and he was really going to let go. Returning to the position of a friend, Zheng Yan occasionally contacted her and asked her about her current situation, although in the plain words, he no longer mentioned the short and deep love that had been, but they both tacitly buried their love deep in their hearts. In the end, in exchange for a sentence: Perhaps, we are destined to be best friends, and in the position of good friends, we can better protect each other.

However, over the years, it has been Zheng Yan who has been guarding himself, what did Xiaomin protect him in addition to hurting him again and again? Perhaps, it is really time to let him go. Xiaomin was crying, and put it down in pain as if she were cutting meat.

In these days when he was separated from Xiaomin, Zheng Yan worked day and night, as if he put all his enthusiasm into his work, which is an incomprehensible behavior in a state-owned enterprise. The work achieved good results, and in the hypocritical applause of his colleagues, he fell more and more into loneliness. Many young colleagues ridiculed him behind his back for having too strong a desire to progress, deliberately showing it to the leader, and sarcastically mocking him for not being able to do anything about himself. In the face of gossip, Zheng Yan was always unmoved, for him, his crazy work was just to forget her, and he didn't want to stay alone in the empty dormitory. He didn't care about other people's opinions, and gradually became an alternative in the eyes of others, and finally became a loner.

Zheng Yan's mother looked at her son, who was busy with work and was getting thinner and thinner, and didn't know how to comfort her. She believes that her son will be able to face the setbacks on his own and wait silently for him to pick himself up again. It's just that one day when Zheng Yan went back, his mother carefully opened a box, took out a passbook, and took out the passbook with a trembling hand, and tears suddenly flowed into a river.

Mother's eyes are full of tenderness, as if returning to the time when she was young, although her eyes are no longer bright, but at this time her eyes are shining brightly, she said softly: "When you were in the second year of junior high school, your father died in a car accident, and there is 300,000 compensation in this passbook, I raised you all these years, and I didn't spend a penny, so I thought it was for you to marry your daughter-in-law." Since my father left, our family has not been as lively as it used to be, and it has been deserted, and I think that this money will have to be spent on marrying a daughter-in-law. If the family wants to be lively, it depends on you, and when you marry a wife and have children, the family will be lively again, and your father will be happy to see it in the sky. Xiaomin is a good girl, but she is not suitable for you, you are too different, don't blame your mother for not having the ability in your heart, after all, your mother is just a rural woman with little education, and she can't understand what others always say, if you don't take the money to buy a house early, you can still appreciate in value. Mom just knows that this is the money that your father bought with his life, and he will take another person home when he leaves, so I will also explain to your father. ”

Zheng Yan couldn't cry anymore, and snuggled up to his mother's lap like a child: "Mom, you are the most capable woman in the world, we don't need this money, it feels like Dad is by our side." I can make money, and next year I will be able to buy a house on my own. ”

Mother shook her head and said, "In the two years when your father just left, I secretly cried behind your back, and I really thought the sky was falling at that time, and I didn't know what to do?" Holding this passbook in your hand is like holding your father, thinking that I will survive first, and I will raise you well without spending a penny in it. You have also been very sensible over the years, you haven't spent a penny on studying, and you can always get a scholarship in school. Over the years, I have saved 100,000 yuan myself, which was originally reserved for you to study in college, but your family didn't spend a penny in college, so my mother saved it for you and kept it for you to marry your daughter-in-law. Xiao Yan, put Xiaomin down, you still have to live after all, you are people from two worlds, let it go as soon as possible, it's good for both of you. ”

That night, Zheng Yan sent a text message to Xiaomin: I think clearly, we are still best friends.

Looking forward to the future in tears, this is the truth that Zheng Yan has known since he was a child.

Wedding, she went.

Zhu Peng also came, Zheng Yan asked him to pick up Xiaomin, Zhu Peng came down, in the car, Xiaomin asked, "What is the name of the bride?" ”

"Lin Shanshan."

Without waiting for Xiaomin to continue asking, Zhu Peng said: "She works in the Forestry Bureau, and she was introduced by someone half a year ago, and they have been together since then." If I want to see the photos, I don't have them on hand now, but I'll be able to see them at the wedding later. ”

Xiao Min lowered her head, as if in deep thought.

After more than a year, Zheng Yan and Xiaomin met again at his wedding, Xiaomin looked at him from a distance, looked at him, and until she walked in front of her, she deliberately told herself to show him the best side of herself. Time seems to have gone back to the past, and the greeting is still the same: long time no see.

Xiaomin praised the bride for being very beautiful, and then took a photo with the bride and groom generously, and naturally the responsibility of taking pictures fell on Zhu Peng. Seeing this scene, Zhu Peng's goosebumps rose, which seemed to others to be a normal move, but Zhu Peng knew that no matter how peaceful the hearts of the two of them were, they must have made huge waves.

Xiaomin felt that she had behaved very well and was very calm, she no longer looked at him with admiring eyes, kept a polite distance like a friend, and saw Zheng Yan put on a handsome suit and walked into the palace of marriage, no matter what, she was still happy. In the photo, her smile is not a disguise, but a heartfelt blessing. However, Xiaomin still couldn't help but look at the bride secretly, she was very fair-skinned, looked polite, sweet-looking, and had a pair of shallow dimples, which were particularly cute. Although she is not as beautiful as Li Shiwen, she is also very compatible with Zheng Yan.

Zheng Yan and Xiaomin's relationship was very short, and only Zhu Peng was known among the classmates, and when Zhu Peng walked into the venue with Xiaomin, Zhu Peng said softly: "If you want to cry, cry for a while." ”

Xiaomin pursed her lips tightly and asked rhetorically, "Why am I crying, I'm happy for him when he gets married." ”

Zhu Peng didn't bother to pay attention to this soft-hearted and hard-mouthed girl, but because of Zheng Yan's entrustment, he had to take care of it more.

Zhu Peng took her to the table designated as a high school classmate, Xiaomin saw a lot of familiar faces after a long time, especially Zhao Dandan also came, she enthusiastically pulled Xiaomin to her side and began to gossip. Zhu Peng also found a place to sit down casually, his duty tonight is to take care of Chu Xiaomin, and he didn't even let him be the best man Zheng Yan, which shows Xiaomin's status in his heart.

Xiaomin was surprised to find that many of her classmates had worked in X City, and she had almost never contacted her classmates, so she didn't even know about it. Zhao Dandan also works in X City, and the two made an appointment to go shopping together when the time comes. The students in X City naturally said that the housing prices in X City are really super expensive, and it is difficult to have their own house in X City.

Xiaomin is still the same as before, she is not good at talking, she only listens quietly.

Zhao Dandan secretly said in Xiaomin's ear: "Zheng Yan is really getting more and more handsome, I just thought he was handsome and good-looking when he was in high school, but now he is becoming more and more manly, and the more he looks at it, the more handsome he becomes." He still liked you at the beginning, but unfortunately you didn't like him, otherwise would it be you the bride at night? ”

Zhao Dandan obviously didn't know what happened between Xiaomin and Zheng Yan, and told the funny things in high school as a joke, Xiaomin silently hid his thoughts, just lowered his head and smiled silently, as if he hadn't heard it.

Zhao Dandan sighed a few times and said: "Actually, I think you are quite a match for Zheng Yan, I heard that he is now working in the state-owned enterprise in P City, and he is treated very well in all aspects, and sure enough, Xueba's life is much better than that of me, a scumbag." ”

Xiaomin, who had been silent for a long time, said quietly: "His talent does not stop there, it is a pity for him to do such a job." ”

Zhao Dandan's eyes looked at Xiaomin slyly, and said softly: "You have always been in contact, it seems that the relationship is very unusual." ”

Xiaomin said indifferently: "It's just a friend." ”

Zhao Dandan said again: "Then have you found a boyfriend?" ”

"Nope."

Zhao Dandan sighed: "Indeed, it is not easy to find someone who loves each other these days, I also fell in love in college, but I broke up after graduation." ”

Xiaomin's fingers drew circles on her thighs boringly, her mood gradually calmed down, looking at the familiar and unfamiliar classmates, the years are in everyone's; The face has left indelible marks. The boys' increasingly bulging bellies and fat faces reflect the hardships of life, and the thicker makeup on the girls' faces can't hide the passing youth. I can't help but sigh that the power of time is really a miracle, turning magic into decay, and the once high-spirited teenager has gradually become what he didn't want to be. Thinking of these, Xiaomin couldn't help but sigh, if there was no Zheng Yan in his life over the years, how boring his life would be. I sincerely thank Zheng Yan in my heart, although I couldn't be with him in the end, but his appearance made my original unchanged life a little different, and at this time, witnessing his happiness, I seemed to be happy and sad.

The wedding took place with the celebrant full of festive voices.

Xiaomin picked up her mobile phone to record the process of the wedding, this may be just her own cover-up, she didn't dare to look directly at the wedding scene, looking directly at the face that she never got tired of seeing, through the screen of the mobile phone, this feeling seems to be weakened a lot. In the emcee's funny language, the scene sounded joyful laughter from time to time, and Xiaomin also laughed, and the corners of her eyes moistened when she smiled. Watching Zheng Yan take Lin Shanshan's hand from the bride's father, Lin Shanshan held Zheng Yan's hand and solemnly walked forward step by step, at this moment Xiaomin found that he was farther away from him with every step he took, step by step, far away from the place he couldn't see.

The bride and groom came over to toast, the classmates raised their glasses, Zheng Yan also drank happily, and then introduced the classmates to Lin Shanshan one by one: "This is my best brother, Zhu Peng; This is my best friend, Chu Xiaomin ......" The bride's eyes unconsciously stayed on Xiaomin, and immediately, she smiled, and the two shallow dimples were as beautiful and moving as flowers blooming in spring. can't help but remind people of the poisonous chicken soup: girls who love to laugh will not have bad luck.

After Zheng Yan left, Xiaomin quietly got up and left, Zhu Peng shook his head and followed, in the surprised eyes of his classmates, he thought that Zhu Dagongzi and Xiaomin had a leg.

Although he didn't drink, Xiaomin staggered as if he was drunk, Zhu Peng followed not far away, and couldn't stop sighing: "People who are tricked by fate." ”

Xiaomin vaguely heard Zhu Peng's muttering, and suddenly remembered what Zhu Peng said to him back then, so he took Zhu Peng to a nearby café and dragged him to chat. Zhu Peng shook his head helplessly, regretting why he agreed to Zheng Yan to undertake such a hard job, it is better to be the best man, it's a big deal to get drunk like mud, and still be able to play with the bridesmaids, isn't it beautiful.

Xiaomin asked softly, "What did you mean when you said before that if I didn't get to know him, I would eventually lose him?" ”

Zhu Peng put away his cynical appearance and said seriously: "For so many years, I am the only one who can really be regarded as a friend, Zheng Yan is the only one, maybe he doesn't know me, but I know him very well." He has many advantages, but there is a fatal flaw, that is, he always thinks too much about others and does not think about himself. Do you remember when I was in high school, I especially liked his arrogant appearance at that time, there was a light in his eyes at that time, and he was not afraid of your jokes when he said it, and I even admired him a little. However, gradually he lived into the ordinary way he is now, and I am not worth it for him. When he liked you in high school, I was very surprised, and I had a premonition that your relationship would not end up after all, because he always thought about you, and you never thought about him, and as a result, you were doomed to miss each other. Having said that, only those who know his experience can understand him, after all, he is not like us, and in a way we are the same kind of people. He could have gone to X City when he graduated, and he was as happy as a fool during those days, I said that even if he went to X City, he might not be able to be with Xiaomin, so what are you happy about? He just said lightly that I would be happy to be in the same city as her. Later, his place was taken by people in connection, and he has been suffering from all kinds of injustices. At that time, I persuaded him to stay in City B and start a business with me, and I didn't want to go back to manage the boring hospital, but he insisted on coming back, and I knew that there were people in his hometown that he cared about, one was you, and the other was his mother. He chose that job to make his mother feel at ease and think about his mother, in fact, I don't think he will be happy when he works, after all, he is like a dragon trapped in a shallow conversation, and he can't display his talent, where will he be happy. We are more or less relying on family relationships, which may occupy a lot of opportunities that are not easy for helpless and talented people like Zheng Yan, and most of us will not cherish these hard-won opportunities in the eyes of others. Therefore, the scenery you and Zheng Yan see is also different if you have different positions, if you don't understand him, you will eventually lose him. Because no matter how much he likes you in love, he is not a person who will go forward and love you together, he is a person who cares too much, but this can't be blamed on him, he is too difficult. ”

Xiaomin remembered when he was in Zheng Yan's hometown, remembered his mother's words, and suddenly tears blurred his eyes: "You're right, I really don't know him too well, everything is my fault, if I can know him a little more, maybe I will be more determined, maybe we will be together." He was always protecting me, and I wanted to protect him, but I never did, not even once. After speaking, Xiaomin cried, not crying for herself, but crying for Zheng Yan, crying for the grievances he experienced, in front of her he always smiled like a sunny and warm smile, as if the journey of life was full of light, she always didn't know that there were so many scars behind his warm smile, and she knew that she must stand by his side to protect him, at least stand closely with him, and face the ups and downs together.

Zhu Peng said calmly: "Let me tell you one thing, when I was in City B before, one day I invited him to a tavern to drink, and the two big men were bored and drank while watching TV. I don't drink well, it seems that every time I drink, he carries me back, but I still remember that time. The TV is broadcasting an interview between Stephen Chow and her mother, Xing Ye's mother used to work very hard with three children alone, and worked several jobs alone, and her mother talked about Xing Ye when he was a child and was very sensible in all aspects, but he was very naughty when he ate, and when he ate, he dropped the chicken leg that he had bought with great difficulty to improve the food and fell to the ground, and his mother thought that Xing Ye might not remember this matter. Unexpectedly, Xing Ye said, Mom, I have always known, if I don't do this, how can you eat chicken legs? Seeing this, Zheng Yan burst into tears, and since then I have understood that he is different from us, and I may not agree with many things he does, but I will understand. Not everyone has the same childhood, he didn't take a penny from his family after he went to college, and he worked on his own to earn tuition and living expenses. Maybe you don't know that he didn't go home during the Spring Festival in the four years of college, and stayed in school, just so that he could stay in City B during the winter vacation to earn more money. ”

Xiaomin listened carefully to everything about Zheng Yan, the other side of Zheng Yan that she didn't know, she knew that Zheng Yan's family was not well-off, but she didn't know that Zheng Yan's college life had too much sweat that she couldn't see. She also understood why he was so moved when Li Shiwen stood up to speak for him, maybe at that moment, Zheng Yan also needed a shoulder to lean on.

Time passed little by little, Xiaomin couldn't wait to know everything about Zheng Yan, she didn't think it was too late, she listened to Zhu Peng's narration little by little, she also laughed with Zhu Peng when she heard funny things, and when she heard sad things, she seemed to be deeply immersed in Zheng Yan's story and cried. It wasn't until the café was about to close that Xiaomin was reluctant to slowly leave with Zhu Peng's footsteps, in her heart she felt that she was going to be reborn after tonight, and from now on she would be independent and be a truly independent person, a person who could be relied on. Perhaps, one day in the future, when someone needs her, she can stop running away. Perhaps, it will take a long time, but Xiaomin has decided to change herself and make herself stronger.