When did it first start?

Already forgotten.

It seems to be after coming back, and it seems to be before coming back...... Haha, how could it be before coming back.

When I first came back, everything was still normal, very normal, and everyone still wanted to be the same as before.

Although I have experienced a lot of things, after seeing them, all the gloom in my heart has disappeared.

But why did it become the way it is?

Hazuki couldn't help but ask herself.

He was sure that he had never done anything to be sorry for them, but why would they say that about themselves?

Hypocrisy? Hypocrite? I obviously never did anything false, why did I get these titles?

I still wonder from time to time if I'm really a hypocrite.

If not, then why do they say that about themselves.

I don't understand, I really don't understand.

It's just that the power is gone, why is it the way it is?

But fortunately, there is a final place of redemption.

Bi'er is still the same, although she is not good at dealing with her, but at least no matter what she becomes, she is still like that, she is still so gentle, and her heart is so pure, not mixed with any falsehood.

Even if you are now, you will treat yourself so gently and sincerely.

This is your last pure land...... That's what it was, but why did it become like that?

"Just because you seem to be close to Lord Bi'er, it's really wishful thinking, get out of here!"

The feet on the face were so heavy, even though I knew they were like this before.

It's just that I didn't expect it to become so excessive after knowing that I had lost my strength, I didn't expect it at all.

But it doesn't matter, as long as you can see Bi'er again, this humiliation is nothing.

That's what I thought at the time, but now it's so stupid, why do you think so?

Perhaps in this world full of falsehoods, Bi'er's real existence attracted me, and I had hope for that truth, and I wanted to get this hope.

But that's impossible, hope is always so tempting. But the more hope you have, the more hopeless you are.

Bi'er is real, everything around her is also real, and the fists that fall on her body are also real.

Hurt? I don't know what hurts. Is it the heart? Or the body?

I don't know anymore, I don't know everything.

I don't know when I realized that the more I looked forward to hope, the more I was hurt.

If I give up that hope, won't it hurt?

Thinking of this, I left the infirmary and stopped going to the infirmary.

As long as you don't see the last hope, then any damage will disappear.

On the first day, it was just an experiment, to see if I would be hurt after giving up hope.

In fact, it is true that it will not hurt anymore, nothing can be heard, nothing can be seen.

Those guys are gone, everything is gone, it's so refreshing.

Since that day, I have been even more reluctant to see her, and I am not even willing to go out of my room.

I knew it wouldn't work, but I couldn't resist my body.

The body has made an instinct, instinctively afraid of the outside, and is no longer willing to take a step out of this room.

I see.

Staying in the room, I couldn't help but sigh.

This feeling, everything around you disappears, and you belong to the world alone.

No more harm, no more hope, everything around me is gone.

What a sense of security, such a sense of comfort, this is something I have never felt before.

I was addicted, addicted to this false sense of security, to the point where I couldn't extricate myself.

My sister's voice rang out outside.

Are you trying to persuade me to get out? It's true that it's not good to stay in the room all the time, but is it okay to go out?

What's out there?! What's out there?! What's good out there!

Don't go out, can't get out, don't want to go out at all.

I don't want to see their faces anymore, I don't want to be hurt anymore, I don't want to ...... anymore Why am I always the one who gets hurt?

I don't know how long it has been, and my stomach is already rumbling with hunger.

The aroma of food was also coming from outside.

Obviously the food is in front of you, just a door away, but I don't know why, why is it so far away? Let's go slightly

What is this door to me now? Is it a door? Or is it a wall? Is it a barrier, a barrier that cannot be crossed?

Who knows, I don't have any strength anymore, and my arms haven't recovered yet, and maybe they won't in the future.

What if it's recovered? Now that I have lost my ability, can I return to my previous life?

It's better to say that living now is a burden, without any ability, and can't make a good contribution, it's a burden properly.

Thinking of this, I couldn't help but laugh, maybe it would be a good choice to end this life like this.

Let's end it, end this absurd life.

How many days have passed? I don't know, when I woke up again, I was already collapsed and couldn't even stand up straight.

The whole body is weak, and now I can't feel hungry.

This may be a good thing, but not feeling hungry means that you don't have to eat again, which is a good discovery.

It's nice that you don't have to eat anymore, you don't waste food, and you don't bother anyone.

"Yo! How does our Great Savior feel now? ”

The familiar voice that came out of my ears was obviously a mocking word, but it did sound so indifferent that it didn't show any interest in anything in the world...... No, it's rather disappointed in everything in the world.

This guy knew it from the beginning, he knew from the beginning that something like this was going to happen, he knew about the human species from the beginning.

Oh, I see, I see, he knew everything from the beginning.

I was so naïve to listen to him and say such innocent words.

Now that I see my former self, I am really disgusted, disgusting and want to vomit.

I still don't know anything after all, no matter what it is, I don't know at all.

It would be so easy to believe in the human species, and it would be so easy to deny an existence that is 10,000 times better than humans.

Now I can understand it, and I finally understand it.

Yu Ling said the words "Maybe it will be happier to be a monster", and he finally understood.

Maybe being a monster will be happier than now, you don't have to think about anything, just focus on what is in front of you.

Maybe the monster is more like a human than a human.

“…… I ......" I couldn't say a word when my throat was already dry, and I used up all my strength just to say a word, which was really miserable.

Maybe that's the retribution I deserve.

Doing such a thing on your own, believing in human beings without authorization, there is nothing worth believing in yourself, but you are still stupid to believe, which is really stupid.

"I ......" Even so, I would like to say the last word to him here: "I ......!" …… Right...... Not great. ”

I'm sorry, I'm really sorry, I did something like that without permission, I didn't know anything but said something like that, I'm really sorry.

I'm not qualified, I'm not qualified at all, I'm really sorry as a human being.

I'm the one who shouldn't be there, and I haven't done anything right.

Tianlan, who was standing aside at the moment, saw that Yuyue shed the most regretful tears, and she didn't know what she was thinking in her heart.

"Why give up? Even though human beings have not done a good thing so far, they still have their own purpose of existence. Do you want to just give up your identity as a human being? ”

It's a good choice, but not for everyone.

Family, friends, yourself. None of this is something that can be given up so simply.

If they just give up, then what are they going to do?

But now Hazuki can't remember that, he has completely lost hope, his body instinctively rejects hope, and instinctively wants to stay away from hope.

Looking at Hazuki, whose vitality was gradually dissipating in front of him, Tianlan sighed and put her hand on his head.

At this moment, a large amount of information converged into Yuyue's mind, and various fragments were constantly playing back in his mind like a marquee.

This is what Bai Zhi has encountered in recent times, as well as some of the things that she has encountered.

Maybe humanity is really hopeless, but there is still hope for them.

Maintaining innocence is impossible to survive in society, and everyone is forced to wear a mask.

But in this sad society, there is still the last hope, and that is children.

They are so pure from birth, they are not spotless, and they are completely a blank sheet of paper.

They are easily dyed with the color of adults, and they are easily broken.

But even so, there is still the last hope in them.

The last hope to put an end to this ugly era.

Hazuki's vitality is slowly recovering, maybe it's all right, maybe it's all wrong.

But what he is going to do next, even if it is wrong for the world, he has to believe that it is right.

There has been no hope for humanity. All the good things are gone in this moment.

In its place, it will be a completely new self.

Now that I think about it, what Tianlan said in the past is quite reasonable, since this is the case, let's do it according to that sentence.