I never thought that I would be remembered by anyone other than my parents, and my heart was a little warm, but more than that, I was apprehensive. Maybe it's because of my low emotional intelligence, maybe it's because of my personality. They have grown up to 22 years old, but they have no experience in love, and they have never thought of falling in love.

When I put my phone down, I couldn't sleep. His appearance always flashed in his mind: a tall and thin boy, with a little curly permed short hair, a little long sea in front of his forehead, bright eyes, and a shy but handsome smile.

A stranger I met on the train was unreliable when I heard it. And I'm ...... Do you have the ability to like others and be liked? It's unlikely. The probability of this kind of thing happening to me is too low.

Lying on the bed, I looked at the text messages on my mobile phone, and the blessings of several junior high school classmates, which pulled my thoughts back to the past that I didn't want to look back. Since childhood, the situation in the family has become famous in the yard, one to ten, ten to hundred. In school, I often walked with my head down, reluctant to look up at other people's eyes.

I finally changed schools in junior high school, and I thought that everything could start from scratch. But in the second week of school, everything went back to the prototype.

Because they are basically students from elementary school to junior high school, there are only three or five students in the class like me who have gone on to enter their school. Therefore, they have known each other for a long time, and they all have their own small groups, and each small group almost does not have much intersection with other circles. In addition to me, there were a few boys, and they soon formed a small group of their own. I'm the only one left, and I don't seem to fit in with them. New arrivals are always seated in the last row. No one saw me, and it should have been a good fit for me. But I don't want to look at the back of everyone's head, as dispensable as an abandoned person. The class committee that arranged the duty always bullied the new students, and it was my turn in three or two days. I was always ostracized in an unfamiliar environment, and I began to hate the school.

There was a girl named Zhao Mai, and on the first day I arrived, I knew that everyone rejected her, and everyone almost didn't want to talk to her, as if she had a super germ. I'm new to the house myself, so it makes sense to blend in with her quickly. However, no, because I happened to be on duty as a freshman, I often saw her doing bad things to others after class, sometimes by stepping on classmates' stools, and sometimes by tearing up classmates' books. I can't get used to her behavior, so naturally I won't be with her.

I was on duty that day, Zhao Mai took the initiative to ask her to lock the door, so I left first, but when I came out of the toilet, I saw Zhao Mai throwing her classmate's books into the trash can in the school playground. The next day, my classmate disappeared and asked me if I had seen it, and I saw Zhao Mai staring at me with his eyes.

I said, "I wasn't the only one here yesterday, you can guess how I didn't see it." ”

The classmates naturally knew who they had had a disagreement with before, and they had a big quarrel with Zhao Mai. Zhao Mai pushed it all away, and lied in the court: "I think this newcomer is the most likely!" ”

This time I was forced to be anxious, and it was just a matter of being ostracized on weekdays, if I gave me an insidious villain inexplicably, I couldn't bear this grievance.

I didn't know where I got the courage all of a sudden, and shouted at her: "Red mouth and white teeth lie, you can tell it!" Do you want me to tell me how you do it? ”

"You want to know that clearly? Didn't you do it? If I did, you would be an accomplice too! "Zhao Mai's triumphant look like he was mocking, I can't explain it.

I was angry, I was wronged for no reason, and I still carried the black pot, I was really angry.

I don't know how the head teacher knew, he called away Zhao Mai and the classmates who lost the book, but he didn't ask me to go over for questioning.

After class, Zhao Mai blocked my way, she was very small, but her momentum was very big, and she said viciously: "Either you come with me, or you will carry the black pot in the future!" Otherwise! Do I find someone to beat you up? I can follow you home. ”

I was completely enraged! Barefoot people are not afraid to wear shoes, I already hate this school, and I have to be threatened, and I don't know where the courage comes from, and I salute her: "Hmph! Then give it a try! If you want to fight, I will accompany you, whether you have more people or more people who have mine! "At that moment, my mind was racing, and I quickly filtered through who I could find, and there were a few better ones in elementary school.

Her scolding was so ugly that even I, the one who listened to the quarrels a lot, couldn't say those words.

After my argument with her, we broke up unhappily. In fact, I was still a little apprehensive on the way home, and I always looked back to see if I was being followed by her.

At night, my mother saw that I was absent-minded, and I actually told me about it. My mother was silent, and when I finished my homework, she went out of the room, gave me a hard beating, and even punched me a few times.

"None of your family members will get along with anyone! You can't get along with anyone! What's the use of you being alive? I can't read well, and I don't have many friends! "The reason for her crazy accusations is incomprehensible to me.

The eyes of the helper turned to my father, and my father seemed to think that I was not taking advantage of me, so he glanced at me a few times and shook his head.

My mother actually trained like this for several hours, and the next morning I started training until I left the house, and I didn't forget to scold a few times before going out: "You are a loser!" You can't read a book! Just don't come back! ”

This matter has bothered me for a long time, but fortunately, Zhao Mai didn't dare to really do anything with me, and things didn't develop. It's just that I was scolded by my mother for a week, and I can only live every day with trepidation, for fear that if I make my mother angry again, I will find out something wrong with the fire and it will be involved in this old thing, and all the scolding will come again again.

After a parent-teacher conference, I regressed in the middle of the grades. When my mother came out of school, she gave me a slap in the face despite the fact that I was with my classmates, and even when the parents of my classmates were also present! Pushing me forward, ignoring the dissuasion of other parents, he shouted at the top of his voice: "Look at her! What's the use! Reading, you can't read! I can't do anything! We don't let her work at home to help! Just read a book! Nothing! I broke my bike while riding my bike the other day! Shame on you! ”

I covered my fiery face and walked with my head down, and it happened that Zhao Mai was also behind me.

I could only hear her say, "That's it!" If you don't progress, you will regress! I didn't get good grades though! But I improved. And Auntie, I've been riding a bike for a long time. "She actually showed off to my mom.

I didn't bother with anyone, and I ran away from the environment.

The next day, people in several circles knew that I couldn't ride a bike and got beaten on the way home.

I hate this environment even more.

Now Zhao Mai is definitely not in touch, but there are still a few junior high school classmates who have their numbers, but seeing their names, except for reminding me of the unhappy past, it seems that I can't stir up other half of the waves.

Fingers slid back to the top of the page, and at the top of the list was Mu Liang. Click on it and gently swipe through his text messages, his concern is revealed between the lines, but the more he reads the text messages, the more uneasy he feels. I didn't dare to accept this enthusiasm, I was a person with nothing, I was afraid of tasting the sweetness, after tasting it, how should I swallow the rest of the bitterness? People like me don't have the ability to like people.