Chapter 54: Believe I Am
When I got home, Mu Liang sent me to the door of the unit.
got out of the car and took my hand and said softly: "We can all be fine, believe in me, believe in the relationship between us." Maybe I'm not usually good enough for you, so you don't have confidence. β
Mu Liang said while choking up slightly while gently rubbing my hand, shaking it gently like a child.
His tone struck me in tears.
Just as I was about to lean against the wall at the door of the unit, Mu Liang suddenly took a few steps forward and rushed over and stretched out a hand to cushion the back of my head.
Although the lights were dim, the wind was blowing, and there were rats scurrying around outside from time to time, Mu Liang was not so scared when he was by his side.
"Trust me, I'm here. There are things we face together, don't make up our minds easily. We can ...... well," Mu Liang's voice became softer and softer. The exhaled breath tickled my cheeks and kissed softly on my lips.
It made my heart skip a few beats.
A light cough, I don't know whose footsteps are getting closer and closer, I blushed and embarrassed and my heart beat faster, and I hurriedly pushed Mu Liang away. A figure passed through the doorway and walked in the direction of the back unit.
When the people walked away, Mu Liang tried to get closer again.
I shook my head, lowered my voice and said, "No, I'm really not as beautiful as you say, let's be realistic." I have a lot of pressure, and while I can't say mom is my stress, it's really part of it...... And ...... later"
Mu Liang stretched out his arms and stepped forward, and when he surrounded me, the cold air was blocked by him.
It's so warm in his arms. Tears flowed out of his clothes, and I felt the heat.
"Don't talk about it, okay? I know, I also know a little bit about Auntie's personality, it's okay, it's okay. Mu Liang's hand brushed my hair, like comforting a child, "Lu Hao, he knows your situation, he can accept it, why do you think I can't accept it?" β
"It's not that you can't accept it, it's not that you don't believe it. It's me...... I'm afraid of dragging you down and making you work too hard...... I can't bear it. β
Tears have broken the banks.
"I know I know, why didn't I get involved in your past, when Lu Hao told me, do you know how jealous I was? He knows everything, he knows everything! Mu Liang accentuated his tone, "However, I must be involved in your present and future, our present and future." You can rest assured...... There's nothing you can't get by...... It's not fair to sentence me to death without anything happening...... Believe me! β
Mu Liang's fingers gently lifted my chin and kissed gently on the tear stains.
yes, why not try to trust him? If you give up Mu Liang and give up what you love in your heart because you are still uncertain, isn't it even more wasteful to go through the world? Won't I regret it?
Whatever!
I suddenly let go of the defense line in my heart, here in Mu Liang, I really have no way at all, at this moment, I don't want to think about anything else except in response to his kiss.
When I got home, my mother was nagging me to come back too late, the nature of my work was simply too bad, and those few cocooned swear words came out again. But at this time, my heart was calm, my pressure was less, and I was not even as resistant to these words as I usually was.
I know there is a person who will run to me desperately, stand with me, and say that love seems clichΓ©.
When lying in bed, his words tonight still rang in his ears: "We are all ordinary people, and everyone has a side that he can't choose in life, but we can choose to be brave and choose to be kind." β
Falling asleep with tears in my eyes, I couldn't choose where I came from, but I could choose how I went far away.
Although the next day I still had red and swollen eyes, my mentality was different.
Fortunately, my mother didn't care about my changes.
"Aunt Shen is going to travel again, this will be brought by her son-in-law, the unit is good, and the organized tours will bring the mother-in-law every time. Alas, Aunt Shen is just lucky, and the old lady downstairs is not as good as us, and she also travels everywhere. Alas......"
I knew that my mother had something to say, but I didn't answer.
"Alas, our family is like I live alone, are you air? Is this a vase?! Don't you understand what I mean?! β
Mom is angry.
"Mom, you also know how old Aunt Shen's daughter is, and the people she is looking for are of different ages, so at a certain stage, she naturally has that time and free time to travel. We are different, we are all at work, there is no vacation and no leisure to travel, it is meaningless to do this. β
"Huh! Then you didn't want to look for a similar size! Let you find someone with social experience and ability, you don't listen! What now?! The work is not as good as others, even the people around me can rely on their daughters to enjoy a blessing, what can I rely on? I'm ashamed to say it! If I'm not afraid of motion sickness, my body can't bear to be taken care of, do I need you to go with me?! I'm going to talk to you here! It's not that no one goes with me, even your dad has changed his sex now, and he said that he would go with me for money! β
"Then I'm not free now, since my father is willing, I'll go with him."
"I don't want to go with him! Don't I know him yet? Now that I'm taking medicine, I'm not in good health, who will take care of whom? You can't rely on me when you turn around?! Since they have been living apart for so long, why do you want to get closer at this time? Don't expect me to serve yet? I'm not going to do it! The more my mother talked, the more excited she became.
He took a sip of water, paced a few steps, and continued: "I know you, Xiang Wan...... You're actually holding a grudge! You resented that you came back from your last trip and scolded you, so you didn't go with me, don't I know you yet? You are all virtuous to your family! It's all hidden in my heart! It's not like me, forget what you say, don't hold grudges, and let it pass! You are the master of holding back your heart! "My mother pointed her finger at me and rushed in front of me and roared, her saliva splashing.
"You have changed, you are now bright, and you are even more proud, you don't want to be a mother, I tell you, if you don't weigh my heart, I will turn into a ghost and give you a dream when I die in the future!" Mom began to curse madly again.
I've been listening to these words for many years, and every time I hear them, I still feel heart-wrenching.
Why can we quarrel every time when we can't get better for a few days? But after every quarrel, I still can't help but want to be nice to my mother, and when I see her gray hair, her sigh still touches my nerves. Despite repeated events, my kindness to her is nothing compared to other people's daughters in her eyes. I still can't help but continue to be nice to her?
After reconciling with Mu Liang, I heard him say that the fish in Y City is the most delicious and there are several special dishes, so I asked my mother to drive there together on the weekend.