Chapter 136: She Doesn't Love Me
Su Xiyan shook his head vigorously again, and then his hand tightened the small ball in his arms.
Of course, Shen Mochen can read and understand the meaning of the other party's actions, Su Xiyan still holds the child to show that the other party does not want to leave the child, Shen Mochen feels that if he forcibly separates them at this moment, he will be like a villain in a storybook.
Obviously, the person in front of her broke her heart, and she made herself sad first, why did she want to do what she wanted?
If Su Xiyan kept jumping around in front of his eyes for the sake of the child, he would definitely not be able to help his desire to possess her again, and when the scene was out of control, he himself was a little scared.
But the other party kept shaking his head violently and then lowered his head, unwilling to make eye contact with him.
Seeing the other party's fierce appearance, Su Xiyan didn't know how sad the other party's heart was, because when someone was extremely angry, his eyes would turn red with grievances.
The other party's appearance is not at all like Shen Mochen's usual style of doing things, Su Xiyan knows that the other party is soft on herself, and she also grasped this point and wants to spend more time with her children.
In fact, today is really my bad luck, first when I came over, I encountered the rush hour of traffic jams, but I didn't expect that Aunt Zhang, who usually came to pick up the children, did not come, but came Shen Mochen.
It's the one I don't want to see the most, and the one I can't see the most.
It seems that if I want to see my child again in the future, the process must be very difficult.
Thinking of this, Su Xiyan felt very aggrieved, why is it so difficult for him to take care of and love his children, so difficult to achieve.
And I just want to be with the people I want to love, is it really that difficult, and I don't deserve the right to love and be loved?
Su Xiyan's nose was sour, and tears couldn't stop escaping from her eyes, and then fell down her cheeks, Su Xiyan saw the other party frowning and stretched out her hand, she was even more scared in her heart, Jin Doudou smashed it to the ground as if she didn't want money.
Shen Mochen couldn't bear it when he saw the woman's appearance, and the little group in Su Xiyan's arms still looked at him with that kind of frightened eyes, as if he had made some big mistake.
Shen Mochen's heart was extremely aggrieved, it was obviously himself who was hurt, okay.
Shen Mochen slowly stood up and looked at Su Xiyan with what he thought was cold, but in fact, the expression on his face was as if he was about to cry.
Shen Mochen held his eye socket with one hand, and then quietly wiped the tears from the corners of his eyes with his fingertips, and then sighed and said in that kind of tone.
"Okay, since you want to see the child so much, then go directly to the Shen family from here and walk with your feet."
Hearing this, Su Xiyan looked up at him in confusion, but found that the other party turned his head sideways, and his eyes seemed to be shining with tears.
Su Xiyan knew that when the other party said this, she was actually very uncomfortable in her heart, she knew that the other party also loved her deeply, and she knew that the other party couldn't bear to do this.
"As long as you walk from here to the Shen family, I will allow you to visit the children here in the future." Then Shen Mochen removed the hand that had been covering his face, lowered his head and looked at Su Xiyan.
Shen Mochen thought that his expression must be extremely cold, but he didn't know that the circle of water around the corner of his eyes looked so reluctant.
"But you can only come to the kindergarten to watch, and you can't step into the Shen family half a step in the future, because that's my last bottom line."
Of course, Su Xiyan understood the meaning of the other party's words, the other party's punishment method was actually quite gentle, even if this place was far away from the Shen family, but he could still go.
In a sense, the other party still gave himself this chance.
Then Su Xiyan stretched out his hand to wipe the tears from the corners of his eyes, then nodded vigorously, turned his head to look at the trembling little ball in his arms, lowered his head and kissed the child's forehead.
In the end, he gently let go of the child in his arms, and slowly stood up with his hand on the iron fence next to him, because he had been squawing for too long, the soles of Su Xiyan's feet were a little soft, and he could only force himself to stand up with the help of external force.
Shen Mochen frowned and looked up at the camera, a trace of inexplicable emotion flashed in his eyes, and then turned his head to look at Xiao Tuanzi standing aside, and motioned for him to leave with his eyes.
Xiao Tuanzi sniffled and closed his mouth, looking very uncomfortable, his tears also frantically burst out, and then smashed on the ground, Xiao Tuanzi stubbornly stretched out his hand, trying to wipe away the tears from the corners of his eyes.
"Daddy is a big fool!" Then he yelled at him, wiped his tears, turned his head and ran back frantically.
Shen Mochen didn't want her to stay by his side, but Su Xiyan's heart no longer belonged to him, and he always thought that his gentleness might be exchanged for the other party's remaining liking for him.
But he found that her heart had already lived in someone else, and Su Xiyan no longer loved herself.
Maybe the relationship between them didn't have any results, Shen Mochen looked at the child who ran into the distance and sighed silently.
Then he saw the woman standing on the side frowning vigorously, Shen Mochen looked at the other party with wide eyes, then looked at each other for a while, and then took all the other party's appearance in his eyes.
After all, this woman will not belong to herself in the future.
Then Shen Mochen turned his head directly and left directly.
Su Xiyan sighed while calculating the distance, it was not a very short distance from here to the Shen family, at least Shen Mochen had to drive for more than an hour to drive, let alone walk by himself.
And he is exhausted now, and in the past few days, he has not eaten much due to lack of money, so he is even more exhausted now, and the double blow of body and mind makes Su Xiyan unable to exert his strength.
He knew that the other party was not ruthless to torture him, because if the other party really wanted to put himself to death, he had a lot of ways to make himself unable to appear by his side again.
But the other party used the gentlest method, because Shen Mochen couldn't be ruthless to himself, and Su Xiyan knew that the other party had always been soft on him, and he couldn't be ruthless.
Su Xiyan knew what the final result was for those women who stayed by his side and wanted to seduce him or frame him.
But when he hurt Shen Mochen like that, he still relented and promised that he could see the child.
Su Xiyan took a few steps forward and then embarked on this journey that took several hours, she looked at the man's indifferent back, her heart was sour, and she couldn't speak.
Night slowly fell, the sun set from one end of the mountain, and the moon rose from the other side of the mountain.
The silver light sprinkled on the earth, and the warm yellow lights flashed next to the streets, making the night scene of this scene very beautiful, Su Xiyan looked at the vehicles and crowds of people coming and going next to him, and suddenly felt lonely in his heart.
They are alone in groups, and although they and their destinations are home, where is the home she is back?
Su Xiyan walked forward step by step, her heels were worn out on her back sports cloth shoes, and until the end, red blood had overflowed, and she hurriedly bought two band-aids from the commissary next to her and pasted them on the root of her hind feet.
This pair of shoes was bought by Xiao He for himself, it was too small, but when he saw the other party's shining star eyes, he couldn't bear to refuse, so it was inevitable that he would grind his feet a little if he walked too much, maybe it was like their relationship was not very suitable, even if it was squeezed too much, it was still a pair of shoes that didn't fit.
Su Xiyan sighed, now she could vaguely see the appearance of the Shen family's mansion, she took a sharp breath, and then took a step on the soles of her feet, it was not far away, it was almost there, and she was about to succeed.
When going uphill, the street lights next to it were broken a few times, probably due to the unstable power supply, and it always went out and flashed to add a terrifying atmosphere to this side, and there were groups of people next to him, and Su Xiyan could only lower his head and wrap his shoulders around him, and walked forward quickly.
In a dark place like this, there are more bad people, and she is just a weak woman, powerless and unable to speak, even if she has been wronged, she can't speak, let alone shout.
Su Xiyan walked to the front of the Shen family's mansion with his only remaining willpower, and looked at the brick-red gate, and Su Xiyan breathed a sigh of relief.
Then the corners of his mouth curved slightly upward, and he slowly walked forward with a smile, taking his own firm steps.
Then Su Xiyan's hand touched the door and knocked on the door hard, as if he had exhausted all his strength.
As she knocked on these two doors hard, Su Xiyan's whole body strength seemed to be taken away by others, and she collapsed to the ground softly and couldn't move.
But then the door was quickly opened, and Shen Mochen's head poked out and saw Su Xiyan lying on the ground.
Shen Mochen subconsciously wanted to reach out and help her up, but as soon as he squatted down, he frowned and retracted his hand as if he had thought of something unbearable, and then returned to the cold attitude just now.
"You're a coincidence and have a lot of willpower." Shen Mochen pursed his mouth, and then complained to Su Xiyan, "But you're still really slow." ”
The woman lying on the ground didn't say a word, just looked at the floor stupidly, then tightened her clothes and raised her head, looking at Shen Mochen as if she was asking him something.
Shen Mochen saw the other party's unbearable appearance, his heart was touched a little, he frowned, the other party's appearance made him feel distressed, even if he wanted to make some excessive moves, but his heart was still screaming.
His heart loves each other too much, but Su Xiyan doesn't love himself.
But before Shen Mochen could say any sarcastic words, a black shadow suddenly appeared behind him, and he frantically pushed himself away.
Shen Mochen was startled, and subconsciously turned sideways to let the string of black shadows pass through his feet.
It's their children.
Xiao Tuanzi rushed to Su Xiyan's face, and then squatted down and hugged her, "Dad is too much for Mom, Dad doesn't let Mom come back, no wonder Mom doesn't come back, it's all Dad who harmed her!" ”
Xiao Tuanzi sobbed as he stretched out a hand and hit Shen Mochen's body softly, he felt the force of being beaten by the other party at his feet, and then turned his face to look at the other side.
Xiao Tuanzi has been fidgeting since he was brought home by Shen Mochen, he thought that his father would bring his mother back, but it seems that this is not the case.
He kept asking his father this question, but he just kept his mouth shut, and now that his mother finally came back, Xiao Tuanzi naturally wouldn't let Shen Mochen drive Su Xiyan away again.