Chapter 62: My own arrogance
Aska, who ran away from the church, felt that he was a very irresponsible person.
If he didn't know anything before, then he could still keep it the way he was.
But now that I know it, it's impossible to keep it the way it was.
But he still wanted to keep the old relationship with Lucy, because he was afraid, afraid that once the relationship was broken, they would never be friends again.
I said I wanted to help Lucy, but I didn't do anything, and I was really an irresponsible friend.
Aska was extremely confused at the moment, not knowing the direction, or even the direction of going home.
What exactly is the hero of the present to Ascar?
I'm afraid he can't answer that himself.
It's the hero who hurts Lucy, and can he, as a hero, really comfort Lucy?
I don't know, Askar doesn't want to go back for the time being, doesn't want to see heroes again, doesn't want to see weirdos again.
Although it is shameful to escape, the current Askar has no other choice but to escape.
Go back pretending you don't know anything? He couldn't do it, he couldn't do that at all.
Askar, who was extremely confused in his heart, moved forward aimlessly.
And at this moment, a figure appeared in front of him and said, "Young man, you seem to be very troubled, do you need my help?" β
Aska, who raised his head suspiciously, saw a man in a handsome heroic suit.
At this moment, I don't know why, Azkar almost threw up, but when he saw the hero, he was extremely disgusted in his heart.
But Aska still resisted the disgust in his heart, and said very politely: "I'm fine, thank you for worrying, please get out of the way." β
"Don't say that, as a hero, people who are in trouble should be helped."
"Sorry, I don't want to see heroes just yet."
Regarding the other party's words, Askar also said what he meant directly.
But the other party did not give up because of Aska's words, but asked, "Aren't you also a hero?" Don't you want to see yourself, too? β
"You! Don't bother me, let me be alone! β
"Are you having a problem? Don't hold back if you have something on your mind, it will feel better to say it. β
"Even if you say it, what can you do to help me?!"
Askar got impatient and wanted to push the other away and get out of here.
However, with his current human strength, he couldn't push away a man who was stronger than himself.
The other party obviously didn't give up, and continued to stalk and asked, "Don't say that, what if I can really help you?" β
"I don't need help!"
"But you look like you're about to drown, it's really reassuring."
......Listening to the other party's words, Askar was silent for a moment, and said, "I'm useless, I can't even help my best friend, and I don't even know about it." β
Although Aska doesn't know if it's the right thing to do, he can only ask for help now.
The other party looked at Aska again and said, "Well, it's really useless." β
ββ¦β¦ Never mind! I won't tell you, let me go! β
"Eh! Don't, I just made a mistake and accidentally told the truth...... Wrong! In short, don't give up. β
Looking at the other party's appearance, Aska didn't know what to say, so he could only continue: "I ran away when my friend needed help the most......"
"ββ!Uhh The other party put on a look of disgust, after all, no matter who abandoned his companions, no matter who he was, he would not be used to.
But looking at Ascar's appearance, it must not be so simple.
"Let's talk over there." The other party dragged Aska to a park, then handed Aska a can of canned coffee, and asked, "Can you tell me more about it?" β
"I don't know what to do, I don't know how to deal with that guy?" Askar was remorseful.
I feel very powerless about my current self, and I don't even know what to do.
Aska told the other party everything, but not everything, such as Lucy's identity and the real situation.
"Well, I already know the general situation, anyway, you just don't know what kind of expression you should face your friend now, right?"
Askar nodded and said, "Can I really help her?" β
"I'm afraid not."
"Huh?" Told so bluntly that it would not work, Askar was a little overwhelmed.
"Gaia-kun, you think too highly of yourself, too much of your friendship."
"This can't be, we're so friendly, how can we afford to think too much? We were best friends. β
"No, you've never seen each other as your friend, and your friend values your friendship so much that he didn't implicate you. And you? It's too arrogant to think about how to help her, how to forgive her, and how to pretend that nothing happened. β
"Arrogance? I? "Askar doesn't understand, the president said the same thing before, where is his arrogance?
"Where am I arrogant?! I just want to help her, I want to be her strength, is this arrogance?! β
"Yes, if you want to help her, why don't you forgive her?"
"That's because...... What did she do...... It's unforgivable. β
So far, I don't know how many people have died because of this incident, and how many heroes have died, which makes Aska unacceptable and unforgivable.
"You see, that's your arrogance. You take yourself too seriously, you never trust your friends, and the friendship between you is simply worthless. β
"No...... That's impossible......! We ......"
Askar tried to refute his words, but he didn't know how.
Are you really that arrogant?
He patted Askar on the back and said, "Don't pay too much attention to it, didn't you just say that your boss has forgiven the other party, so why can't you forgive?" β
"But...... She's done a lot of things that hurt everybody, and I ...... Can't forgive her for everyone......"
"Alasββ!" He didn't even know what to say about Aska: "How can you represent everyone, that's why you are arrogant." If you can't forgive yourself, then you can just cut off your friends and save your troubles. β
"But ......"
"It's nothing, since it's a friend, she has already repented, can't you, as your best friend, forgive her?"
"I can! But what is ......?"
At this time, Askar realized that maybe he was indeed too arrogant, he was just himself, and he couldn't represent everyone at all.
Even if everyone can't forgive her, if she can't forgive herself as a friend, then it's really a friend who is disqualified.
But is that really good? Forgive a bad guy for destroying the city?
While it's not wrong for Lucy to be killed, it's not right to destroy the city......
But when you think about it, it seems to ...... In addition to Lucy's accident, the president of their city himself often destroys the city.
With Aska's small head, he couldn't understand the truth at all, he only knew that the people who destroyed the city could not be forgiven.
But a situation like Lucy's makes him very confused about the identity of a hero.
Forgive, sorry for being a hero.
If you don't forgive, you're sorry for your status as a friend.
It is this entanglement that allows Aska to escape from reality.
"I ...... I wanted to forgive her, but I ran away, escaping from reality, and running away at what the guy needed most. β
"It's nothing, anyone will run away, there's no shame in running away, after all, it's a biological instinct, but what are you going to do after this? Do you want to keep running away? If that's the case, I'd suggest you just break it off. β
"No, I'm not going to run away."
"Uh-huh, nice looks. So what are you going to do next? β
"Do nothing." Askar replied truthfully, "Since that guy doesn't want me to know, then I don't know anything, just do as usual." β
Askar figured it out, if it was arrogance, it was.
Always thinking about helping others, but having no idea if others are willing to let them help.
Since Lucy didn't want him to know now, he could just pretend that he didn't know anything.
Although it was very unhappy, Askar would wait, and when Lucy told him everything, he would not be persecuting Lucy for anything.
"Well, good choice, don't do anything, just wait, if the friendship between you is real, then everything will be fine."
"Hmmm! Thank you, uncle, after telling you, I feel a lot better. β
"That's a good thing, don't hold it in your heart, find someone reliable to share it with, maybe there will be new discoveries."
"Hmmm! Then ...... "Ascar, who was going to leave, suddenly lost again.
It's just a matter of solving Lucy's problem, and there are still many problems that have not been solved.
Askar felt like he knew too much that he shouldn't know at his age.
The world of adults is so scary.
Now in addition to Lucy's affairs, there are also heroic things, so that Askar can't face heroes for the time being.
"Uncle Na, what do you say is a hero?"
"Of course there is justice." The uncle replied without hesitation, allowing Aska to see his former self.
But now after knowing this, he can't answer so briskly as his uncle.
"Since heroes are righteous beings, can heroes who are only dedicated to fame still be considered heroes?"
"Of course it's a hero, whether it's for fame or whatever, as long as it's for the protection of the people, it's a hero. Of course, it is necessary to stop in moderation, otherwise human beings will easily be swallowed up by honor and do many things that go against common sense. β
"Can a hero who has made a violation of common sense still be a hero?"
"No, that's a wicked person who has treacherously betrayed justice, and he can't be considered a hero."
Then the uncle added: "But the heroes now are very good, more like heroes than the heroes of five years ago." β