"Girl?" Zheng Yecheng turned around, looked out the window, and asked suspiciously: "There is no girl!" What does it look like? ”

"No...... But there she was. Xing Ruyi pointed out the window: "Long hair, melon seed face, single eyelids, but big eyes." The shape of the nose and lips is beautiful, but the face is a little paler. Well, right behind you, in a white dress. Dress? Isn't this girl afraid of the cold? ”

Xing Ruyi finally noticed that something was wrong, she leaned down and asked Zheng Yecheng, "Are you really unable to see it?" ”

Zheng Yecheng's face was quite ugly: "Did you really see it?" ”

"I really saw it."

"I didn't see anything."

"Oh my God, it won't be so decaying, come out on a blind date, and you can meet ghosts." Xing Ruyi lay on the table and quietly gave Zheng Yecheng a look: "Let me tell you, I've been very unlucky lately, and I always see some things that shouldn't be seen inexplicably." ”

"Ghosts?" Zheng Yecheng lowered his eyelids: "You mean you can see ghosts." ”

"I'm not sure, based on how educated I am, I think I'm mentally wrong and hallucinating. From what I know about myself, I know that I really see things that I shouldn't see. ”

"And what is she doing?" Zheng Yecheng asked in a low voice.

Xing Ruyi looked up: "I didn't do anything, since I saw her, she has been standing there, and then her eyes have been staring at you." Zheng Yecheng, tell me honestly, do you know her, does she know you too? ”

"Wait, you can help me see if it's her." Zheng Yecheng made a swallowing motion, then turned on the phone, rummaged for a long time and then turned the screen towards Xing Ruyi: "Is it her?" ”

Xing Ruyi repeatedly confirmed, "It's her, it's her." ”

Zheng Yecheng's face became even more ugly.

"Is it your ex-girlfriend?"

"Yes, her name is Gao Lu, and she was my girlfriend from college."

"She had an accident?"

"No, she killed herself."

"Suicide? Because of you? ”

"Seriously, it has something to do with me." Zheng Yecheng clenched his hands and tightened his back: "Gao Lu is a senior sister who is one year older than me, and she is also from the student union, and we met on the first day of college." I am a freshman who reports to the school, and she is responsible for receiving new students. As for me, you can also see it, the personality is more cheerful, Gao Lu is the opposite, she doesn't like to talk, but she will listen carefully when you speak.

Because of Gao Lu, I also joined the student union. To be honest, I didn't think about what to do with Gao Lu at first. I like Xiaoxiao, and since I was very young, I knew that I liked Xiaoxiao, but like we just said, sometimes I'm not sure if I'm a brother and sister or a man and a woman.

It should be after the final exam of the sophomore year, on the eve of the Spring Festival, when the school is on vacation. Because Gao Lu's family is out of town, it is not very convenient for a girl to drag a lot of things, so I automatically asked Ying to send her to the train station. Before getting into the car, she suddenly hugged me, said she liked me, and asked me if I liked her too. I was stunned, and by the time I came back to my senses, she had already gotten on the train. ”

"Why did you let her be your girlfriend when you knew you didn't like her?"

"It's a very contradictory selfishness. You can also see that Xiaoxiao still can't figure out my feelings for her, and I want to prove that my feelings for Xiaoxiao are different from those for other girls. Gao Lu is a gentle, beautiful and very good girl, and to be honest, such a girl is very suitable for a girlfriend.

When the winter break started, Gao Lu messaged me and asked if I would pick her up at the station. I understand that if I go, it will be assumed that I like her too. If I don't go, it will be equivalent to refusal, and it will be a little embarrassing for everyone to meet again in the future. I thought about it for a night, and I didn't think I hated Gao Lu, and even liked her a little bit. Besides, it is normal to fall in love in college, and you don't necessarily have to get married when you fall in love. My dream wife is a little one, but that doesn't stop me from having a brief relationship first. I know it's a scumbag, but at the time, I wanted to only be in love, and I would never have anything to do with Gao Lu, and I would never do that kind of immoral thing.

I went to the station, picked up Gao Lu, and didn't start with an appointment, so naturally we were together. Gao Lu is a great girlfriend and we have a lot of fun together. Most of the time, we just like a normal couple eating, watching a movie, or walking along the school path. Occasionally, we would hug and kiss, but I swear I didn't want to hurt her because I knew there was no future between us, and I couldn't give her the future she wanted. ”

"But you still hurt her."

"I was a junior and she was a senior, and because of her excellent coursework, she started to go out for internships very early. I thought at the time that when she worked, she would definitely know a better boy than me, and I was slowly separated from her. I think it was the second month after she passed her internship, and she used her salary to buy me a gift that I really liked. Of course, I gave her something of the same value in return. Not long after, it was Gao Lu's birthday, and I went. I was going to wait until she was done for her birthday before I mentioned the breakup. But we all drank, and then she gave herself to me in the rented house in Colou. I'll admit I'm a jerk, but under the influence of alcohol, I really can't remember anything.

The only thing I remember is that when I woke up, when I looked at Gao Lu's shy expression, I was angry, and I felt that I was completely calculated by her. If you think about it, a girl who has never drunk alcohol actually prepared a drink for her birthday party, and I think it was all premeditated, she planned it, and she wanted to force me to stay with her all the time.

I mentioned breaking up, and she hugged me and cried, saying that she had long seen that I was absent-minded about her. She loves me, so she wants to be with me. She cried sadly, but I only felt nasty. And then I left, angry, slamming the door and leaving. ”

"And after that?"

"When I came out of Gao Lu's house, I blocked all her contact information, and I didn't even go to school. It was probably more than half a year before I heard that Gao Lu was gone, and that she had committed suicide. ”

"Because of a broken love?"

Zheng Yecheng acquiesced.

"I also found out about Gao Lu later. She cried for a long time that day after I left. At first, she frantically looked for me. But what she didn't understand was that when a person deliberately tried to hide from another person, that person could not be found anyway. Later, Gao Lu found out that she was pregnant, and the child was mine. ”

"You're such a scumbag!"

"Yes! I'm really scumbag, but I don't know anything about the child, and I didn't think that we just had a child once. If I knew, I would have shown up, I would have taken care of her, and I would have been responsible. ”

"Will you marry her because of the child?"

"I don't know!" Zheng Yecheng's hand clenched tighter: "I have asked myself this question many times, and the answer is, I don't know." Perhaps, I will marry Gao Lu for the sake of the children, but this marriage will not last long, because I know that I only like Gao Lu a little. Like, not love, a marriage without love cannot last long. Perhaps, I will convince Gao Lu to let her kill the child. After all, in this society, only a few people marry their sons.

No amount of assumptions is just assumptions, and none of us can change what has happened. Just like I didn't expect Gao Lu to get pregnant, I didn't expect her to stubbornly want to keep the child, I didn't expect her parents to react so violently after knowing about it, I didn't expect her parents to force her to kill the child, and even wanted to marry her off in a hurry. I didn't expect that Gao Lu would use suicide to say goodbye to this world and punish me for the mistakes I had committed.

If, if everything could be done all over again, I would never have anything to do with her life again. Because, I don't want to hurt her anymore. ”

"Have you ever been to see Koro?"

"Hmm!" Zheng Yecheng nodded: "I found out about the cemetery where she was buried from my classmates, and I secretly went to see her a few times in private." ”

"She should love you very much, that's why she will always follow you."

Xing Ruyi noticed Zheng Yecheng's collar. On his collar, there is a string of special embroidered symbols. When she first saw it, she thought it was ordinary embroidery, an ornament for a shirt, but when she got closer, she realized that it was a symbol of a charm. Zheng Yecheng should have felt something very early, and even found a master, and asked the master to leave the charm on his body in an embroidered way. The reason why Gao Lu looked at him through the window was also because of the charm on his body.

"Ruyi." Zheng Yecheng suddenly held Xing Ruyi's hand: "Since you can see her, can you help me say something to her." You let her leave me and let her go where she is supposed to be. What was once there, right or wrong, is in the past. She's dead, I'm still alive, and I have the rest of my life to live. I know she's unwilling, and I know that she must love me very much, and she must be reluctant to let me go, but I can't stay with a ghost I don't like. If, if there was a next life, I would definitely let myself fall in love with her. ”

"I should be—" Xing Ruyi wanted to refuse, but before he finished speaking, he felt his legs cold, and then something grabbed his ankles. She looked down at the table, just right, to a pale, bloodless face.

Blinking, blinking again, Xing Ruyi, who thought he would scream out loud, asked another sentence in a daze: "That, how did you get in?" ”