The machine tool factory launched an open competition for a total of three positions, among which I was interested in the position of production technology chief.

Compared with leading the workers to run the scene without night every day, I hope that I will work in the R & D position, which can stimulate my sense of innovation and realize the ambition of revitalizing the factory with science and technology at the beginning of graduation, and secondly, this job can be done from home and sitting in front of the computer at home, which solves the conflict between my work and housework, and also solves the concern of my mother-in-law, son and wife who can't let go of my family during work, these three people can't take care of themselves.

Not to mention mother-in-law and children. Speaking of my wife Gao Jiangjiang, she grew up wearing clothes to reach out for food and open her mouth, after getting married, I didn't think about asking her to learn to do some housework, because at the beginning I could cope with these things and enjoyed them. She has always relied on me for all the things at home as she did when she was a child, so that if I occasionally tell her to do something, I feel the need to say something to myself. But as our children were born and grew up a little bit, I gradually felt a little overwhelmed, especially the children and mother-in-law, eating, drinking, sleeping, everything needed to be taken care of.

In addition to going to work every day, I also have to take care of the daily life of the whole family of four, and my daily schedule is the same. Get up in the morning and wash up hurriedly to make breakfast for the four people, and then take over the wife to the dressed child, and start feeding, after feeding, the wife washes herself and holds the child to eat, I take care of my mother-in-law to eat while I am busy filling my stomach, and then I wash the dishes and chopsticks and hold the child to nursery. Later, thanks to Gangzi, after I ate in the cafeteria at noon, I could secretly buy a copy back for my mother-in-law, so that I would not have to make it when I went home.

Although my mother-in-law's condition gradually developed from the initial split state to organic psychosis, that is, Alzheimer's disease, as she grew older and for many reasons, she usually only showed mental sluggishness, without the aggressive and manic behavior of the past, and did not need to lock her in a safe and secure room when no one was at home to prevent accidents. But I still can't rest assured that I will leave her alone at home all day, and every day at noon, no matter how busy I am, I will definitely find a way to go back and have a look, and then bring her the food. After getting off work at night, I go to buy vegetables first and then pick up the children, and when I get home, if Jiang Jiang has already got off work, she can watch, and if she gets off work late, I have to cook with the children on my back.

Speaking from the bottom of my heart, I really can't bear to let Jiang Jiang do these swill work, after all, I have maintained my delicate hands for half my life, and I can't bear the smoke and dyeing of oil smoke, so I naturally take care of the washing and scrubbing of the dishes and kitchen after dinner, as well as the washing and scrubbing of my family's clothes.

It's all about these things that keep me busy every day.

Previously, I would have arranged these things and work separately in an orderly manner, but with the knot of the knot by the section chief Wang Fengji, my workload has increased significantly, and most importantly, he has emphasized the need to abide by labor discipline at the meeting from time to time, and explicitly prohibits late arrivals and early departures.

Apparently this was directed at me, because I always had a record of "arriving 10 minutes late in the morning and leaving 10 minutes early in the evening", not because I was too busy, but because the pick-up and drop-off time rules at the children's nursery caused me to start work 10 minutes late and leave work 10 minutes earlier. In the past, unit leaders and colleagues turned a blind eye to this, or made friendly fun of it, and no one ever went online. After all, the labor discipline of the entire unit is basically the norm.

Now Wang Fengji is taking late arrival and early departure as the starting point to rectify labor discipline, and everyone can see that it is aimed at me, and I know better.

I had to transfer my child to a private nursery so that the pick-up time was arbitrary. But from then on, the pace of my life became extremely hectic.

So, when the call came down, I didn't hesitate to sign up.

After staying up all night, I completed the first draft of the competition materials, from self-introduction, work performance, to the purpose of the competition, the advantages of the competition, and then to the work ideas after the successful competition, I elaborated in detail. The next day, I found the political work officer of the unit to help me polish it, and a speech for the competition, which was later considered impeccable by the vast majority of people, was released.

Over the course of a few days, I was well prepared and was able to give a completely unscripted speech.

When the list of candidates came down, most people were very optimistic about me, because I was the most educated, the major was also the right, and I met the specific conditions of working in the relevant position for more than three years, and the most important thing was that I had received many awards and two patents in my position, which is an honor and foothold for a technician. So even though I was given early vaccinations, told me not to care too much about the results, or hinted that I should canvass first, I didn't want to do those small things that were unfair to other candidates, and I believed that I could win with my true skills, and I believed that I would succeed.

So, no matter what others say, I'm still determined to win.

The day before the competition, I rushed to the factory as required and began to draw lots in the order of appearance. I caught the third appearance in this group, and there were a total of four people vying for the position of technical section chief. In addition to me, there is also a deputy who is currently in the technical section, and he has been in charge of that work since the main position is vacant. The other two are the heads of production technology in the two units.

At the drawing of lots, everyone praised each other and seemed to be very modest, but I clearly felt that there were a few people who were more confident and determined to win than me.

The next afternoon, the formal competition began.

I rushed to the factory again in a white shirt as requested.

The competition process is very strict, in order to avoid the candidates and the jury to canvass for votes, we are required to enter the small conference room on the second floor in advance, and it is strictly forbidden to leave without authorization. Only those who have finished their speeches are allowed to move around freely or listen to the speeches of those behind them in the conference hall.

I was supposed to be the third of four people in the second group, but when it came time to officially compete, the last person didn't show up and abstained. So I was the last.

At this time, I really felt the clue, because the one who abstained from going out of the door patted me meaningfully on the shoulder and said, "Section Chief Song, are you still insisting?" ”。

In fact, someone told me before that in fact, the result has been decided, but it is just a formality, and we are the ones who accompany the selection.

But at this point, my sanity and stubbornness made me decide that I would never run away from the battle, even if I lost, I had to lose with courage, and before losing, I had to take advantage of the opportunity to show myself.

At this time, I turned my ambition into self-expression, so my nervousness was much easier.

When I was waiting for the scene, I heard that the previous person spoke well, sonorously and fluently, and the content of the manuscript was clear and hierarchical.

I secretly laughed at my overconfidence, but it didn't affect my heart, but it stimulated my fighting power even more, and I had to be like him, showing the excellent demeanor of the unemployed.

When it was my turn to play, I walked to the stage with confident steps, and glanced at the venue through the lens of my glasses.

There were 37 judges, and I didn't count them, but we knew them in advance.

I put the speech on the stage and lifted the microphone up slightly, because the previous person was much shorter than me. Everyone who takes the stage will adjust the microphone to the right position for them.

"Leaders and colleagues, good afternoon!

First of all, thank the factory leaders for holding this competition, giving us the opportunity to learn and exchange, report work, my name is Song Dongqiang, 30 years old this year, a member of the middle, a bachelor's degree, an intermediate electrical engineer, the current position of technical supervisor of the power supply department, I am competing for the position of the head of the technical section of the factory.

Participating in this competition, through a sober and objective understanding and grasp of myself, I feel that I have the following advantages......

Under the attention of the 37 people in the audience, I did not touch the speech, and completed the speech accurately within the stipulated time, and I thought that my performance was perfect. Finally, amid applause from the audience, I finished my speech and stepped off the podium.

After I came down, my previous speaker called me to sit next to him, waiting for us to divide the votes, and after the staff took the tickets in order next to each other, the third group of competitive speeches began, and we listened to the whole process together. In the end, we all said that the third middle-aged man was very good, and the speech materials showed that this person's work experience, ability and level should be fully qualified for the position he is competing for.

After the last round of drawing and collecting tickets, the meeting will resume with a 10-minute break. A person from the organizational department came to the stage to announce the results.

When the votes of the three people in the first group were 2, 35, and 0 respectively, the venue that had been silent became in an uproar. I was also shocked that such a percentage of votes was unexpected, because I didn't hear the competition of this group, and I didn't judge it positively, but I was very sorry for the people who had zero votes. But I didn't have time to think about it for him, and immediately began to announce the results of my group's votes, which were 34 votes, 3 votes, and 0 votes.

That's right, I clearly heard the voice of "Song Dongqiang 0 votes" coming out of the venue. Not only me, but everyone in the room heard it.

My head and heart seemed to be empty, and I didn't know whether to pretend to be calm or depressed. The 3-vote bidder next to me whispered to me, "Didn't anyone come to your unit to mark the vote?" ”

"Here we are."

"Then why are you zero votes? None of the people in your own unit have rowed you? ”

"I don't know." I smiled wryly.

"My 3 votes should have been drawn by the unit people, and our leaders held a meeting to arrange for them to draw them."

I remembered that during the intermission of the vote counting, I greeted a colleague from the unit who had come to be a judge, and he responded to my enthusiasm with an unnatural face. At the time, I thought that his seriousness was required by the duties of the judges, but now I think it must be an embarrassment.

After the end, I walked back to the office building of the power supply department, and in the face of everyone's inquiries, I hid my inner humiliation and depression, and reported to them the results of my zero votes with a squeezed laugh.

Afterwards, several judges I participated in as an undergraduate or in phone calls or interviews explained to me the helplessness of not voting for me, and I gave me understanding and understanding one by one.

In the workplace, it is always the first principle that people can always stand firm on their feet.

From their words, I roughly figured out a few pieces of information, one is that these positions are actually occupied by people, and there needs to be a formal organizational process to straighten out the organizational relationship, so this competition was held; Second, there is a transmission of will from top to bottom, requiring that the votes should be "fair and fair, and should be in line with the principle of preference for existing staff and work; The third is that the four colleagues who participated in the lottery of our section have repeatedly conveyed the "spirit of instructions" of the factory leaders through Wang Fengji, section chief, not to mix personal tendencies, but to stress politics and the overall situation.

So in such a competition of 37 judges, there were two zero votes recorded.

According to this lineup, even if the performance of our two zero-vote personnel is indeed not good, but based on personal popularity alone, the probability of zero votes is extremely difficult to appear, not to mention that the proportion of other people's votes is obviously not objective.

As a result, this competition became a hot topic of conversation in the factory, and everyone privately passed on the inside story of the competition, and the superiors had to carry out a party spirit education activity with the theme of "stressing politics and promoting harmony".

In this way, a competition that can go down in history, in my extreme frustration, engraved in the imprint of my life, for many years, whenever I think about it, my heart will tremble, that kind of humiliation and frustration, always haunted me, never really let go, only temporarily because there are too many things for me to take care of.