Chapter 22: You're Worth It
Soon it was the day of the exam.
Tao Tao and Meng Yuqian got up early in the morning, and then arrived at the examination room early.
The two of them tidied up their things and saw that it was still a long time before they started, so they planned to go out for a walk.
After Tao Tao and Meng Yuqian turned around, they were chatting in the corridor against the windowsill.
"I said little peach, you said yesterday that you were going to intern at a friend's company, which friend is it?"
Meng Yuqian played with the hair hanging on her shoulders, and then asked Tao Tao with a smile.
"It's Jiang Jinchen."
She didn't want to hide her good friend.
Tao Tao looked up at the students coming and going in the classroom opposite, and then yawned.
I woke up early, so sleepy......
"I guess so."
Unexpectedly, Tao Tao didn't wait for Meng Yuqian's complaint, she should have wanted to talk to herself about this issue very seriously this time.
"Little Peach, you...... What do you think of Jiang Jinchen? ”
Meng Yuqian straightened up from the wall, then turned to look at Tao Tao and asked with a serious face.
She saw Tao Tao's face change suddenly, and then lowered her head.
She knew that Tao Tao, a child, was actually a little introverted, because when the two of them met for the first time as roommates, Tao Tao didn't take the initiative to say a word to her for a whole day.
Meng Yuqian has been a very outgoing and lively person since she was a child, so from that day on, she looked at her only college roommate and decided to help her change her personality.
Meng Yuqian always told her friends that Tao Tao was the most beautiful girl she had ever seen over the years.
What she said was not only Tao Tao's appearance, but in fact, what Meng Yuqian really meant was actually Tao Tao's interior.
Because before this, Meng Yuqian had never met a girl who could get along with her so comfortably, even if she was a cheerful herself.
Whether the two people have just met, or they have become more and more familiar with each other after they arrived, Tao Tao has always brought her the kind of gentleness, kindness and strength that emanates from her bones.
Meng Yuqian kept saying that Tao Tao would one day be stupid enough to be deceived by others, and then sell herself.
Although the two have been together for three years, Meng Yuqian can still feel that Tao Tao has a different past from others.
Once when the two were chatting, Tao Tao once revealed a secret to herself.
She said she lost a memory when she was younger.
After Meng Yuqian heard this, she suddenly felt very sorry for the strong girl in front of her.
She didn't know what it would be like if it happened to her.
"I never knew I had lost a memory. But as I grew up day by day, sometimes I sat on the windowsill under the starry sky, looking at the busy traffic downstairs, and my heart would suddenly throb. ”
Tao Tao sat on the windowsill of the bedroom, and then looked out at the night sky covered by dark clouds without a trace of light.
"From that moment on, I realized that something was wrong. Because I'm always alone when I'm alone, for no reason to suddenly feel sad and sad. I always felt like I was missing a piece of my heart, a very important part that would keep me alive. ”
"Until then, I would have the same dream every night. In my dream, I was a very small child, and I was running in a dark space in a white dress. ”
"I just ran and ran, I couldn't see anything, I couldn't hear anything, I was tired, but I couldn't stop."
"During that time, I was haunted by this terrible dream. I don't know why, the world in my dreams is dark, but I always look down and see the corner of the white dress I wear. ”
"But then ......"
Time is pulled back to reality.
Tao Tao leaned on the windowsill of the corridor of the teaching building, and then looked at the people walking downstairs in twos and threes, and whispered the next story to Meng Yuqian.
"Later, I met Jiang Jinchen."
"Actually, I can't tell you how it was like to meet him for the first time. I just remember the moment I looked into his eyes, I had a very familiar feeling. ”
Tao Tao had a smile on the corner of her mouth, and then turned her head to look at Meng Yuqian.
"Do you know Qianqian, in fact, Jiang Jinchen told me that he believes in such a thing as fate. At first I didn't believe it, but after a few days, I was convinced. ”
"In the days after I met him, I started having that dream again. It's just that this dream is different from the previous dream. ”
"I was still in that dark space in a white dress and kept running. Only this time, I actually saw a faint light appear at the end of that space. ”
"The moment I saw that light, I cried with excitement, and then ran towards that light without hesitation."
"But as I ran, I suddenly saw a pair of eyes in the light again, and I could be sure without the slightest hesitation, they were Jiang Jinchen's eyes."
"After seeing those eyes, I suddenly felt that my heart was filled with something, I had been wandering outside for so long, and the most important part of my life had finally returned."
When Tao Tao said this, a fog suddenly appeared in his eyes, hazy.
When Meng Yuqian saw Tao Tao Tao like this, her heart was pinched fiercely.
She walked to Tao Tao's side, and then hugged the girl in front of her tightly in her arms.
"Jiang Jinchen told me that we had met before, and although he didn't say it directly at the time, I am now convinced."
"We've seen it before, we've seen it before, we must have seen it."
Tao Tao nested in Meng Yuqian's arms, and her muffled voice came out, and she couldn't hear her emotions.
"I really want to talk to him about it, I want to tell him that I've actually remembered a little bit, and I want him to help me get this memory back."
"But...... But Qianqian, you know, I'm afraid, I'm afraid. ”
Speaking of this, Meng Yuqian actually felt Tao Tao trembling imperceptibly.
"I'm afraid, he's going to hate me now."
"I didn't dare to take the initiative to contact him, and I didn't dare to take the initiative to approach him."
"You know Qianqian, people change, I don't think there should be any intersection between me and him now, even though we used to see each other when we were children. But it was just us when we were children, and at that time, we had no disparity in identity, no difference in status, we were all just children of this world. ”
……
"Momoko ......"
Meng Yuqian heard what she said, and then hugged her even more distressedly.
But she didn't agree with Tao Tao's idea
"Momoko, listen to me, I don't think it's a problem. If two people really like each other, they will not be hindered by these things. ”
"No, Qianqian."
Tao Tao took a deep breath, and then let go of the hand holding Meng Yuqian.
She looked at Meng Yuqian's eyes and said seriously.
"You know what, we're still young. We can ignore everything around us and two people to experience a vigorous love. ”
"But you know, as time goes on, as we mature, we start to think a lot of things, and that's when we re-examine ourselves. We will find out what stupid things we have done. ”
Meng Yuqian looked at Tao Tao in front of her, who was looking at her seriously, she wanted to refute but had nothing to say.
She was right.
Before she and Jiang Jinchen, there were indeed some problems.
Just like Tao Tao said, Jiang Jinchen and Tao Tao may have met when they were young, or they may know each other.
However, if the two of them hadn't experienced anything special between them, Meng Yuqian didn't think that Jiang Jinchen would come up with such a way to meet Tao Tao when he grew up.
And Tao Tao suddenly lost part of his memory, which is not something that can disappear from his mind casually.
There must be a terrible truth in this.
Thinking of this, Meng Yuqian suddenly shuddered.
And what Jiang Jinchen's identity is, everyone knows, but such a noble person can put down his body and face an ordinary girl with his truest appearance.
"Little Peach, you, you really can't remember what happened to the two of you?"
Meng Yuqian pressed Tao Tao's shoulder tightly, and then stared at her eyes with a serious face.
"I don't remember ......"
Tao Tao replied weakly.
"I really don't know what to do right now."
"I thought about it before, I wanted to be good and try to catch up with him and close the distance between him."
Tao Tao sighed heavily when he said this.
"But...... But it's so hard, I don't have that confidence. ”
"Hey, Momoko, I think you're still worried too much."
Meng Yuqian shook her head when she heard it.
"Why do you think so much, and so absolutely. Just like you thought before, you can use your own efforts to catch up with him, to stand on the same level as him, you can do it. ”
Meng Yuqian hated iron a little, so she patted Tao Tao's shoulder vigorously.
"What do you want me to say about you, you stupid girl."
"If you don't try, how do you know you can't do it. Moreover, why did you push Jiang Jinchen away? You can now try to get to know him, and slowly regain your lost memory. ”
"Don't think too much about what you have and don't, you have to remember that since he chose to come back and meet you again, it means that you are worth it."
yes, I'm worth it.
Tao Tao has been struggling with this problem for so long.
Am I worth it?
But if I don't try, how do I know if it's worth it?
Tao Tao seems to have truly untied his heart knot this time.
In fact, no one knows what the future will be, but now there are countless possibilities between them.
Tao Tao smiled at Meng Yuqian, it was a smile that was relieved to let go of everything.
"I see, Qianqian."
Meng Yuqian looked at Tao Tao, who showed a real heartfelt smile, and finally breathed a sigh of relief.
This time, she could be completely relieved.
The two of them adjusted their emotions for a moment, then looked at the time, and saw that the exam was coming soon, so they hurried back to the classroom.
However, at the moment when Tao Tao had just stepped into the classroom, she suddenly heard Xiao Qiong's voice coming from behind her, which was very close to her.
"Hurry up and get in."
Huh?
Tao Tao was startled, and then quickly turned around.
As a result, I really saw Xiao Qiong standing behind him, dozens of centimeters away from him.
……
Such a coincidence?
Tao Tao looked expressionless, as if someone else owed him five million faces, and myocardial infarction was stunned.
She suspected that Xiao Qiong had followed her all the way here, but she had no evidence.
"Okay, okay."
Since there is no evidence, let's slip away.
Then Tao Tao used his fastest speed to return to his seat in a puff of smoke.
The exam went smoothly.
Because Tao Tao has the aura of a scholar, she only took half the time to answer the question.
She turned her pen in a daze in all sorts of boredom.
Tao Tao's big round eyes circled around the front, and then suddenly met Xiao Qiong's gaze standing on the podium.
……
It's embarrassing.
Tao Tao swallowed a mouthful of saliva, and then stared at Xiao Qiong's eyes.
Suddenly, she inexplicably saw a little ...... in Xiao Qiong's eyes Saddened?
What the heck?
Did he take the wrong medicine today?
Tao Tao dared to swear to the sky, she was absolutely not mistaken, Xiao Qiong looked at her gaze, and there was a feeling of sadness and pain.
Did he just hear something?
Tao Tao suddenly had this thought.
Because judging from her experience with Xiao Qiong for a while, Tao Tao can be sure that Xiao Qiong has never given herself a normal face.
Well......
Except for the first few smiling and not laughing.
Now what's going on.
Tao Tao seemed to be cursed by Xiao Qiong, and before she could react, she was unconsciously attracted by his look.
Suddenly, a picture popped into her mind.
In a blur, she seemed to see herself confronting a boy.
The boy's face was buried in black, and he couldn't see the expression clearly, but the feeling he gave himself was unexpectedly familiar.
She tried to see the boy's face clearly, but it was in vain, and slowly, the picture dissipated, and the whole world fell into darkness.
Tao Tao suddenly came back to her senses, and a few drops of cold sweat oozed from her forehead.
Who is that boy?
Tao Tao couldn't help but panic.
She was sure that that boy was definitely not Jiang Jinchen, but who could that be.
The picture and the boy just now are definitely related to the part of his lost memory.
Tao Tao fell into a wave of panic.
What have I lost?
Tao Tao rubbed her head in pain, then lowered her head and gasped violently.
"Little, little peach?"
Meng Yuqian, who was sitting behind her, suddenly noticed that something was wrong with her, and then she stood up with a pout, and stretched out her hand to wrap her trembling shoulder.
Meng Yuqian was just about to open her mouth to call someone, when she saw a pair of hands suddenly appear in front of her eyes.
"Xiao, Teacher Xiao!"
She looked at Xiao Qiong, who looked anxious in front of her, and then said in a panic.
"What should I do, Mr. Xiao, what's wrong with Little Peach?"
However, as soon as Meng Yuqian finished saying this, she saw Xiao Qiong pick up Tao Tao at once, and then walked out of the classroom without looking back.
……
"Teacher Xiao, she's a patient!"
Meng Yuqian chased after him speechlessly, and then complained in her heart that Xiao Qiong couldn't be gentle with girls.
However, just when Meng Yuqian stepped out of the threshold of the classroom, she found that there was not even a shadow in the corridor.
……
Tao Tao was dragged back to her office by Xiao Qiong.
As soon as she arrived at the door of the office, Xiao Qiong quickly took out the key and opened the door, and then threw Tao Tao in.
"Hey, are you alright?"
Xiao Qiong looked at Tao Tao, who had a sluggish face, sitting on the sofa, and then frowned.
"Tao Tao?"
Xiao Qiong looked at Tao Tao for a long time and didn't speak, and then asked tentatively.
"Uh, huh? What's wrong? ”
Fortunately, this situation did not last long, and after a while, Tao Tao finally reacted.
"What's wrong with you just now, it's very uncomfortable."
Xiao Qiong finally exhaled relaxedly, then walked to the desk, picked up the cup and poured Tao Tao a glass of water.
"Ah, I ......"
Tao Tao had just recovered from her panic, and she didn't want to tell Xiao Qiong what was wrong with her.
"I'm fine, Mr. Xiao, just now, I just had a little headache."
Tao Tao took the hot water that Xiao Qiong handed her, and then lowered her head and said this.
After Xiao Qiong heard it, she didn't move for a while.
It took a long time for him to break the awkward atmosphere.
"Well, it's okay, you can rest here for a while."
Xiao Qiong seemed to be disappointed and glanced at Tao Tao, then turned around and was about to go out.
"Wait, wait."
Tao Tao saw Xiao Qiong who turned around and was about to leave, and his intuition told him that he should stop him immediately.
She now felt as if she was being controlled by something, and was forced to do something she would never normally do.
"What's wrong?"
Xiao Qiong didn't look back, he turned his back to Tao Tao and said calmly, and he couldn't hear any emotion in his tone.
"Xiao, Mr. Xiao, we ......"
Tao Tao suddenly didn't want to ask.
But just after she had the idea, she felt her head hurt a few times.
"Have we seen each other before?"
Tao Tao seemed to have lost her soul in an instant, and she couldn't help but ask this question involuntarily.
And the strange thing is that after she asked this question, her head didn't hurt anymore.
What's going on? It's weird......
Tao Tao felt cold behind him, and he seemed to be surrounded by a gust of wind.
“……”
Xiao Qiong didn't answer for a while after hearing this.
Tao Tao tugged at the corner of his clothes and looked at his back with wide eyes.
"Do you wish we'd seen each other before?"
However, Xiao Qiong did not answer this question positively, but asked Tao Tao in turn.
"I ......"
Tao Tao didn't know what to say for a while.
Indeed, do I really wish I had met Xiao Qiong before?
Tao Tao sat down on the sofa with no strength, and then lowered his head to think.
I should...... Not very hopefully.
Tao Tao thought so.
Because...... She didn't want to let herself and Xiao Qiong have too much intersection.
Or maybe for some other reason, she doesn't know.
I don't want to.
Tao Tao was finally silent.
Xiao Qiong seemed to have anticipated Tao Tao's answer, he didn't look back, and then didn't say anything, just walked out slowly and closed the door.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry."
After Xiao Qiong closed the door, she suddenly relaxed her tense body and leaned against the door panel, and then closed her eyes in pain.
"I'm sorry, Tao Tao, I shouldn't have left you to run away in the first place......"