Chapter 7 Trapped by Love, Falling to the Bottom

The motivation given by Lixue made Liu He devote himself to learning with passion, even if there was less eye contact, the hearts of the two people were closer. Lixue's state is also slowly adjusted, perhaps because of Liu He's affirmative reply, or maybe it is the motivation given by Liu He to make his anxiety smaller, and in the face of the pressure of the college entrance examination, the hearts of the two people are closely connected.

However, the water was still calm and the breeze was still rippling.

Liu He's excellent writing and top-ranked Chinese grades have always been the attention of the Chinese teacher Jiang Ping, and the teacher Jiang also frequently called Liu He to the office to talk, and even asked Liu He to go to the playground to walk and chat during the evening self-study, which made Liu He extremely uncomfortable, and the teacher's concern was obviously beyond the norm.

The college entrance examination is approaching, and learning is a race against time, and frequent heart-to-heart talks take up too much time, which also makes Liu He uneasy, but the teacher is a teacher after all, and Liu He can't refuse.

However, just when Liu He was distressed, Mr. Jiang used the evening self-study time to let Liu He go to the playground to talk.

"Liu He, have you been under a lot of pressure in the college entrance examination recently, I see that every time I talk to you, you seem very anxious. You can't do that at this time. Teacher Jiang asked in a concerned tone.

"Yes, Mr. Jiang, I have a request, I wonder if you can agree?" Liu He asked cautiously.

"Okay, okay, anything, you can say it quickly!" Jiang Ping's eyes leaked a lot of brilliance, as if she couldn't wait.

"That's right, Mr. Jiang, my Chinese grades have a certain foundation, I'm afraid the rest of the time will not improve much, I want to focus more on other subjects, especially mathematics is relatively weak, I want to use the evening self-study to do more questions....." Liu He plucked up the courage to say.

"Okay, you don't need to say it, I can see from your absent-mindedness in the past few days, you can go back to self-study at night." Obviously, the cold tone revealed a lot of dissatisfaction, and Jiang Ping turned her head away.

Liu He froze in place, not knowing what to do, for the sake of studying, for the college entrance examination, Liu He simply turned around and ran to the teacher, but he also knew in his heart that he had completely offended this teacher Jiang who had always cared about him.

Liu He finally had the opportunity to study at night with the same peace of mind as other students, but the peaceful days did not last long.

One afternoon, when Liu He was taking his textbook, he suddenly found a note in the hole in the desk: "After the evening self-study, we will go to the back of the West Office Building, can we have a good talk?" Liu He was overjoyed, but looking at this familiar handwriting, there was a trace of worry and incomprehension in his heart.

With a complicated and expectant mood, Liu He trotted all the way to the back of the West Office Building, and a beautiful figure stood under the street lamp in the distance, but Liu He began to doubt - this doesn't seem like snow!

When I got closer, it turned out to be Jiang Ping, a Chinese teacher!

"Teacher Jiang.... You.." Liu He was at a loss and extremely uneasy in his heart.

"Liu He, do you think I have paid too much to you, do you know what I have paid to you?"

"I ....."

"Who but me has noticed that you have a mental disorder, and who cares about you when you are in a mental predicament? Why don't you want to think about who wrote those notes at the time, and who helped you get to normal? ”

Liu He was stunned when he heard this, and his brain instantly boomed, and he immediately understood why this time's handwriting was the same as the previous handwriting, and this was completely different from Lixue's handwriting, but what he didn't expect was that the confession note he received when he had mental hallucinations was actually from his Chinese teacher, and at the same time, he also understood that it was the teacher who was helping him, hoping to use love to warm him who was numb, and use love to help him get out of the spiritual haze.

Liu He is grateful to Mr. Jiang for his good intentions, but also extremely self-reproachful, at this moment, he was full of thoughts, the sudden truth caught him off guard, once supported him out of the spiritual predicament of Fang Xin secretly is just the teacher's care and help, the most beautiful love commitment is just a kind of treatment, and Lixue has always been silently reserved, beautiful crush.

However, in the face of the teacher's kindness, the pressure of the college entrance examination, the promise to Lixue and the beautiful dream he had, Liu He was a little helpless, and suddenly fell into confusion.

"Let's go, you will be liberated after the college entrance examination is over in a few weeks, I can't walk into your dreams, but I still believe in you, your other side will be a clear autumn and a bright winter...."Jiang Ping turned around and walked towards the teacher's apartment.

Liu He remembered the words in the note at that time and stood in place. used to confess that it was "fake", but the passage of time finally made a 24-year-old girl's heart real - even if she was a teacher.

The college entrance examination is approaching, but everything is unusually quiet, but Liu He's heart is no longer calm. When everyone was waiting for the verdict of the college entrance examination, there were calm and turbulent waves.

The head teacher, who never paid attention to Liu He, suddenly notified Liu He to be called out. Liu He was uneasy in his heart, and Li Xue couldn't help but worry when he looked at Liu He who was taken away.

Liu He followed the head teacher all the way to the school conference room. Liu He was stunned when he entered the conference room: the grade director, the vice principal and several leaders of the Education Bureau sat in a row and looked at Liu He together.

Liu He was nervous and a little scared, but he realized that something very important must have happened.

"Please sit down, classmate, you don't have to be nervous, we are just looking for you to understand a problem, you just tell the truth, don't be afraid." The school leader motioned for Liu He to sit down and comforted Liu He.

"Jiang Ping is your Chinese teacher, right?"

"Yes..."Liu He understood something in a trance, but seemed to be even more stunned.

"Has she interfered with your studies, such as interfering with your studies?" The leader continued to ask questions.

"No.., Mr. Jiang has always been very concerned about my studies and has helped me a lot." Liu He became more and more nervous.

"Then did she interfere or affect your life?"

"No..., I'm a boarding student, life is in school, it's eating, going to class and sleeping...."Liu He was a little dazed, not knowing how to answer.

"Then did Mr. Jiang care about you excessively, or caused you mental distress?" The school leaders' questioning was already very direct. Liu He also generally understood the reason and purpose of asking him to talk this time, but he couldn't figure out how the school leaders knew and why they came to talk to him.

"No, Mr. Jiang just paid a lot of attention to my studies, which made my Chinese grades improve a lot, and did not cause me any trouble." Liu He understood the reason for the beginning and the end, and his tone became very firm.

"Are you sure, classmate? You can be bold and say that there is nothing to be afraid of. ”

"Sure, I'm telling the truth."

"Okay, you go back to class. The college entrance examination is coming soon, so you must review it carefully. I wish you admission to the university of your dreams. ”

"Well, I will definitely review it carefully, thank you, teacher." After that, Liu He returned to the classroom with a heavy heart, and the doubts in his heart became stronger and stronger.

Looking at Liu He's solemn expression when he entered the classroom, Li Xue wanted to know what was going on.

"Liu He, which city do you want to go to?" Gong Tingting, a tablemate who had been communicating with Liu He very little, suddenly asked Liu He.

Liu He hadn't come to his senses because he was thinking about Jiang Ping, and he was blindsided when he heard the same table ask him.

"Huh, city? ... You mean... Is the school located in the city? ”

"Yes, I don't feel like I've done enough to be at the same table with you, so I want to continue to be at the same table with you.... But if you study well, I won't be able to get into the school you applied for.... But even in one city. Gong Tingting was a little embarrassed when she said that.

What Liu He didn't expect was that the lively Tingting also had a blushing side, but what made him more worried was whether Tingting had a good impression of him? The two have been at the same table for a few months, Liu He's heart is full of college entrance examinations and Lixue, and he can't tolerate other people and things at all, and he can't afford to face more complicated things, so in the face of Gong Tingting's diligence and enthusiasm before, he has always maintained the boundary, afraid that he can't bear it, and he is afraid that there will be the final injury.

Gong Tingting is beautiful, and her family conditions are also very superior, not only her father is a department-level leader in the city, but her mother is also a senior executive of a large enterprise, so Tingting is a typical second generation of officials and a rich second generation, but as an only daughter, she has always been simple and diligent, lively and capable, decisive and cautious, she observed Liu He very carefully, because she found that Liu He has always been silent about her, but immediately faced separation, she had to take the initiative to break this silent secret and quiet dependence.

Gong Tingting's attitude was already very clear when she expressed it directly, and Liu He couldn't bear to hurt the kind girl in front of her.

"How can I choose, I can go wherever I can be admitted, if I can't do it, I will repeat my ......" Liu He hesitated and answered Tingting's words honestly.

Gong Tingting mustered up countless courages to say this to Liu He, but Liu He's response disappointed her, and Tingting, who had always been mild-mannered, was also a little anxious.

"Is it because Mr. Jiang has annoyed you? She won't interfere with you in the future, you just need to concentrate on reviewing, and you will definitely be able to pass a book. Where you report, I will report it. Tingting said this sentence flatly, but Liu He was shocked.

"Teacher Jiang's business has something to do with you?" Liu He asked Tingting quietly and eagerly.

"It's the right thing to let you review with peace of mind, and it's the right thing for Ms. Jiang to concentrate on teaching the class, and my kind reminder is also the right thing to do." In the face of Liu He's eagerness, Tingting was unusually calm.

"You... How can you be like this, Tingting, you know how much influence you have on Teacher Jiang like this, you are like this..."Looking at Tingting with a calm face, Liu He knew that what he said would be useless, so he simply sighed and turned into silence.

A week later, the results of the investigation came out, and although Ms. Jiang was found not to have harassed the students, it had a huge impact on her, and the teachers in the Chinese group also treated Jiang Ping differently. After that, I heard from the head teacher that Mr. Jiang was on vacation, and he was replaced by the Chinese teacher of the next class for temporary pre-exam tutoring.

The closer he gets to the college entrance examination, the more Liu He's heart is messed up by some unpredictable trivial matters, and the tense atmosphere frequently adds to the waves.

Jiang Ping failed to apply for the teacher's career after graduating from the bachelor's degree, and had no choice but to apply for this private high school, and could have continued to take the exam for three years, but in order to be responsible for this class of students, she chose to stick to this school for three years; The former boyfriend also broke up with her mercilessly because he stayed in the city where he went to college, and the three-year relationship ended easily.

In college, Jiang Ping once refused the pursuit of excellent seniors, and she also refused the confession of the second-generation colleagues in the work unit, just because she was the same person as Liu He, out of pity, she simply wanted to help a student who was ignored by other teachers and her own student to get out of mental disorders and life troughs, everyone always has helpless times in life, and the only way is to support each other - in the concept of love, there is nothing wrong with loving someone, and the only fault will only be to love the wrong person...

All kinds of colorful and complicated episodes followed, but I didn't expect it to be so blunt and direct, and in the blink of an eye, the college entrance examination was only ten days away, and Liu He was on the verge of collapse.

Sometimes in the face of their own pressure, Liu He was a little depressed and out of breath, looking at Gong Tingting next to him, although he was unusually calm, he always felt that his heart was tightly pinched, maybe it was guilt, maybe it was worry, or maybe he was afraid that Tingting would suddenly explode in silence and have something out of line; Thinking about Mr. Jiang, who has never shown up, countless conjectures and responsible emotions are beyond words; Looking at Lixue, who is dedicated to learning, too many thoughts and strong self-control are entangled with each other, the lake is not alarmed, but the bottom of the lake is overturned; From time to time, I still think of my parents' work, and I don't know if my parents' work is tiring or not. There are so many that he only hopes for the quick arrival of June 7th.

It's the last week before the exam, but the "sleeping meeting" in the dormitory is more intense, the roommates are chatting, active and abnormal, the stark contrast is Liu He, who doesn't say a word, sometimes falls asleep early, and sometimes closes his eyes because he can't fall asleep because he is noisy, and listens to their chatting by the way. Suddenly, Liu He heard Chu Lixue talking, and Liu He immediately opened his eyes and listened carefully.

"Chu Lixue is liking me more and more, she is much more beautiful than Qiu Yanmo, why didn't I find out earlier. But it's not too late, she's my daughter-in-law after the exam this week, haha..."Roommate Chen Jinyao shouted loudly.

Liu He was shocked in his heart, I don't know why they suddenly talked about Lixue, and why Chen Jinyao said such things.

"Jinyao, aren't you worried about the college entrance examination, you're still bragging here, it's not good, let's go to sleep." Liu He cautiously tentatively probed.

"Startle me, Liu He, you haven't slept yet. Since you haven't slept, join us to talk, don't sleep there, I've been studying for three years, and it's not bad for a few days. Tell us how you and Bai Fumei in our class are doing? When Jin Yao heard Liu He speak, he became more and more excited.

"Which white Fumei? Who are you talking about? Liu He was really confused.

"Don't pretend, you're about to graduate, what can the teacher do with you when he knows, we already knew, tell me how far you and Gong Tingting have been?" The other roommates also cheered.

"Gong Tingting?? Me and her? What do you think? Liu He was shocked and nervous, completely blinded.

"Tingting dares to confess, and even more dare to admit it, but you are still hiding, rest assured, I have Chu Lixue as my daughter-in-law, and I will not rob you of Gong Tingting." Chen Jinyao felt that Liu He didn't treat them as friends and was insincere to them, and began to be a little impatient with Liu He.

"I have nothing to do with Gong Tingting, I'm just at the same table, I haven't heard you say that you and Chu... Clear.. Lixue's thing, why does she suddenly like you and you? You're not bragging, are you? Liu He couldn't help but ask.

Chen Jinyao heard Liu He's eagerness and shame, so he asked mockingly: "Liu He, you shouldn't have a crush on my daughter-in-law, right?" Don't eat in the pot and look at the bowl, if I can catch up with Gong Tingting, what is Chu Lixue?! ”

Liu He's brain suddenly cleared up, as soon as he heard Chen Jinyao call Lixue like this, his heart was like a knife, he didn't know what was going on, and he couldn't understand why they thought that Gong Tingting had confessed to him, and who spread it. Liu He had no intention of chatting again, this night, he tossed and turned, and couldn't sleep all night.

Early the next morning, Liu He got up early and went to the classroom, but he never thought that Gong Tingting had already arrived in the classroom. The sky was dark, and there were two people in the huge classroom, Liu He and Tingting, Liu He silently walked over and sat down, such a scene couldn't help but remind him of his past with Xu Qingmin.

"Tingting, I heard some gossip about you, which has a bad impact on you, I don't know if you heard it, you are very impetuous when the exam is approaching, don't be affected."

"It's not gossip, it's factual. You may not like me, but I like you. "Tingting is still unusually bland.

Liu He was stunned by Tingting's directness. I didn't know what to say.

"You like Chu Lixue, I'm afraid she doesn't know yet, I'm afraid she doesn't like you, do you think you can compare with Chen Jinyao?" Gong Tingting fiddled with this textbook, didn't look at Liu He, and was extremely calm.

Just a few words made Liu He shocked and frightened, his heart rose to his throat, and his brain rumbled instantly, both overwhelmed and speechless.

"Uh, you... Misunderstanding.., I'm not what you said.... We.." Liu He became incoherent.

"You can't compare to Chen Jinyao, what can you do if you are admitted to university, Chen Jinyao can inherit his father's business, he has reached the top since he was born, we people are not winning at the starting line, but we have already reached the end line since we were born. Chu Lixue doesn't look down on you, and being realistic is better for you. Tingting was still as calm as ever, and her words were straightforward.

Liu He didn't want to believe that he had lost to materialism, and in the age of innocence in high school, he preferred to believe that he was as pure as snow, pure and flawless.

Because of the appointment under the lamp, Liu He made up his mind to prepare for the exam, and slowly reduced eye contact with Lixue, and because of Jiang Ping's matter, Liu He was uneasy, and the pressure of the college entrance examination made Liu He even more unwilling to think about the matter between the two. However, in just a few weeks, everything changed before the exam, and the barrier between Liu He and Lixue was inexplicably increased.

Liu He couldn't help it after all, during the school day, Liu He secretly put a note on the Lixue table when the classmates were all going to eat, and tentatively asked about the Lixue situation, but until before the exam, the note sank like a stone into the sea, and there was no news.

The next day, the college entrance examination was held, the test center was divided into the school, the early morning reading before the exam was quiet, the students were chatting with each other, and the teacher was late in arriving at the classroom. At this moment, Liu He looked at Lixue from afar, and thought about the next day's college entrance examination, he didn't know what happened, let alone what would happen, everything was better than going with the flow, no matter what the road ahead was, it was better to leave the snow, tomorrow will be reinvigorated, start the sprint before dawn, unload the suspicions and worries, and move forward with Lixue!

June 7 arrived as scheduled,

The bus from other schools slowly drove into the school, Liu He was ready to go, quickly adjusted his state overnight, went all out, and walked confidently to the examination room.

"Liu He, this way."

A familiar voice sounded, crisp and steady, capable and pleasant.

Liu He looked around and saw Gong Tingting at a glance.

"Coincidentally, you're here too." Liu He was in the same examination room with the same table, and he was also very happy.

"I'm satisfied with the fact that you're in such good shape today. Hee-hee. Tingting looked at the high-spirited Liu He and said with a smile.

"Satisfied? Why do you use that word? Liu He was a little confused.

"Because you finally got rid of the outside world interference and became a persistent teenager again, haha." Tingting seemed a little happy, and her words changed from her usual coldness to cheerfulness.

"What outside interference, you mean... Teacher Jiang..? Liu He lowered his voice and whispered.

"And Chu Lixue. No one else knows, but nothing escapes my eyes. Gong Tingting deliberately showed a confident and boastful look, obviously still joking with Liu He.

Liu He was stunned, and couldn't help but think of what Gong Tingting had done to Jiang Ping before, and then remembered the abnormality that Lixue had done to him during this time, he seemed to understand something.

"Did you say something to Chu Lixue?" Liu He asked Tingting eagerly.

"You don't care what I told her, when is it, you still care about this. Anyway, now that you're in the groove, you just need to get a good score. Take the test well, don't let all my efforts for you be in vain. Lixue suddenly became serious.

Liu He didn't ask anymore, because he had already got the answer, and Liu He, who was originally in a comfortable mood and was relaxed, suddenly became upset and no longer calm.

Walking into the examination room, Liu He thought about these things, became restless, and began to wander when doing the questions, which made him confused. In the first game, his best language ended in a malfunction. After a few exams,

His mood was getting lower and lower, and he began to feel the fear of failure.

The exam is over. After three years of depression, three years of anticipation, and three years of fear, the high school life and the college entrance examination ended with the handing in of the last exam, which is also Liu He's three-year high school answer sheet.

Countless parents are waiting at the school gate, in this era when the college entrance examination is still very important, people still regard the college entrance examination as a turning point to change their fate, although the times have changed, although the situation has changed, although the policy has changed, but people's backward thinking has not changed.

Liu He walked out of the examination room with a mixed mood, he didn't want to look at the crowd, maybe because there was no expectation in the crowd, his parents might not come back to pick him up; Or maybe they feel guilty about their parents and don't dare to face it. But parents are parents after all, although they did not accompany the exam, Liu He's parents still waited outside the school gate for the first time, to pack up for Liu He's things and take Liu He home.

Liu He's first sentence when he saw his parents was "I didn't do well in the exam".

In the past three years, Liu He has basically spent most of his time in school, gathering less with his family and leaving more, Liu He's parents looked at the thin and depressed son in front of them and were inexplicably a little sad, they didn't know what he had experienced and how much he had endured, but they just wanted to look forward to him coming home.

With a failed heart, returning to the dilapidated family home, Liu He had mixed feelings in his heart, extremely emotional, and his will was depressed to the extreme.

After dinner, Liu He's parents planned to go out for a walk and leave Liu He to rest at home. But the keen-eyed Liu He noticed the abnormality of his parents, whether it was his expression or tone when he spoke, and even his behavior was extremely unnatural. Although he was hesitant, Liu He had no intention of asking at this time.

Just 20 days of results have been waiting, but it is extremely long. The results of the college entrance examination are finally out.

Everything seems to have been doomed for a long time, and it seems that he is used to ups and downs, which is consistent with the result of Liu He's prediction - falling off the list.

The failure of the college entrance examination hit Liu He very hard, but fortunately, his parents did not blame Liu He too much, and Liu He had no intention of asking about others' results.

After a few days of silence, Liu He received a notice to go to the school to get his graduation certificate, and he was shameless to face his classmates and friends for three years, but he had no choice but to endure the pain and go, which can be regarded as a hasty farewell to the three years of high school life.

After a month, in the light rain, Liu He was full of emotion when he re-entered the high school campus, and he couldn't help but think of the self-confidence and high spirits that he came here for the first time when he entered the first year of high school. However, Liu He was suddenly shocked!

There is a big good news sign erected at the gate of the school, which is printed with a huge photo of Sun Qingmin and a photo of the admission notice and admission commemorative card of Tsinghua University - Sun Qingmin was admitted to Tsinghua University without examination because of his sprinting strength!

It turned out that Sun Qingmin was also studying in this school, but because he was a sports student who had been training in the playground, Liu He didn't know it, and the last time Sun Qingmin and his classmates disguised themselves as men and sneaked into the boys' dormitory to smoke, it was because of the identity of the students. At this moment, it was undoubtedly another violent impact for Liu He, who was originally like water.

Liu He hurriedly walked to the teacher's office, and wanted to get his graduation certificate and go home before his classmates arrived, because there are people he wants to see the most but are most afraid to see.

Liu He shuttled through the corridors of the teaching building quickly, and he didn't have time to look back at his former classroom, let alone look at anything on this campus. However, fate played tricks, and when Liu He walked to the hall of the teaching building, Chu Lixue was walking alone!

In an instant, the two looked at each other, Liu He hurriedly avoided Lixue's eyes, didn't say a word, didn't stop for a moment, held up the umbrella, and walked down the stairs.

In this way, Lixue looked at Liu He's back until he disappeared into the vast smoke and rain.

This may be the farewell of youth!

Looking at the road ahead, Liu He felt that the future was as slim as this smoke and rain, and he didn't know where to go in the future. Walking through the intersection of the school gate, in the vast drizzle, Liu He turned around and glanced at the teaching building where he had studied for three years, and turned to leave with regret.....