19 The secret of the heart
"You can still run for her, right?" Han Ziqi didn't believe it.
I glanced at her, pinched my hand and silently recited the incantation, "The wind fairy resists the wind, the deer fairy leads the way, and the four goddesses listen to the order, lift!" After reading it, he pointed to Yang Yang on the field with his hand trick.
Han Ziqi stared at Yang Yang with wide eyes for a long time, "Why didn't you react?" ”
"I haven't started running yet, what's the hurry," I smiled confidently, "just wait and see." ”
The guns rang out and the game began.
Yang Yang ran very easily, always staying in the first echelon, looking at ease and effortlessly. Han Ziqi looked at it stunned for a while, and then slapped my hand, "You can do it, there is still this means." I wish I had asked you to help me when I participated in an aerobics competition last year, isn't that too godly? ”
"It's okay, you tell me in advance this year, I can make it easy for you to win", I said.
Han Ziqi glanced at me and smiled slightly, "I won't participate this year, I'm going to Beijing in a few days." ”
"To Beijing?" I looked at the arena and said, "Why are you going?" Tourism? ”
"No, go filming", she said lightly, "Last week, a crew came to our school to select actors, and I was selected, and I will go to Beijing to report tonight, female number three." ”
I was stunned, "You also play the third female?" ”
Han Ziqi glanced at me, "I'm just a student, am I qualified to pick a show?" There is a lot of competition pressure in this industry, and many girls have just entered the industry, so they can only mix with the masses and run special contracts. As soon as I came up, I was able to play the third female lead, and I was already very content. If I perform well, the investor may be able to sign me, and maybe I can become a star in the future. ”
"It's too sudden," I paused, "what time is the train at night?" ”
"Half past nine", she looked at Yang Yang on the field, "Let's gather in the evening, one is to celebrate you, and the other is ...... It's also a send-off for me. ”
I nodded, "Okay." ”
I have known Han Ziqi for more than three years, and our relationship has always been good, and it can be said that she is the most trusted friend of the opposite sex in my college days except for my girlfriend. Now that we are suddenly separated, I can't help but feel a little lost, but this is life, we are all about to graduate, and it is a matter of time before we separate. No matter how good the relationship of friends is, there is no endless feast in the world, I can only silently bless her, hoping that she can find the sky she wants in the bizarre entertainment industry.
Speaking of graduation, I couldn't help but set my eyes on Yang Yang, who was running in the breeze. I'm one level above her, and I'm supposed to be looking for a place to do an internship in a few months. Master said that my real girlfriend will not meet until after graduation, which means that I don't have much time left with her.
Since we have been together, I have cherished every minute I have spent with her, and the love is strong and willful. Life can't be perfect, but fortunately, we have lived up to our youth, and in the future, looking back, there will be nothing to regret.
"Hey pony, what do you think is wrong with Yang Yang?" Han Ziqi hurriedly patted me, "Why did she stop?" ”
I came back to my senses and looked, and sure enough, Yang Yang stopped running.
"No, could it be that last night was consumed a lot, and the spell didn't work?" I said to myself, "No! ”
"Why are you still stunned? Go see her! Han Ziqi reminded me.
We left the stands and ran to Yang Yang's side, "Yang Yang, what's wrong?" ”
She looked at us and smiled, "Not really." ”
"Then why don't you run away?" Han Ziqi panted, "It's obviously the first, why stop?" ”
Yang Yang smiled, "I'm tired, I don't want to run." ”
"Impossible", I took her hands and looked up and down, "what the hell is wrong, is it uncomfortable?" Tell me, what the hell is going on! ”
Yang Yang stopped talking.
Han Ziqi understood, "What's that, it's okay, Yang Yang, I'll treat you at night, Quan Jude, come together!" She winked at me and turned away.
I looked at Yang Yang, "Why are you uncomfortable, are you cold in your waist?" ”
She looked up at me, "I'm not sick. ”
"Then why don't you run away?" I asked.
"Tired", she sighed.
"Impossible!" I said, "I know ......."
"You helped me, didn't you?" She looked at me, "I knew it was like this, I wasn't tired at all when I ran, you're making me cheat, okay?" Is it fair? ”
"I don't care if it's fair or not, if you want to win, I'll let you win", I gently pressed her waist, "Is it cold?" This is what I hurt you, and I have to be responsible, otherwise you can win by yourself with your strength, and I won't help you secretly. ”
"Pony, I've never cheated, and I don't want to do it this time", she said silently, "Thank you, I know you're good to me, but you can't help me like this for the rest of my life, there are some things I have to face by myself, do you understand?" ”
"Understood," I smiled calmly, "go take a shower and change your clothes." ”
She nodded, turned and walked away.
Looking at her somewhat lonely back, I suddenly had a premonition in my heart that maybe the day when we were separated was not far away.
That night, we had a good meeting in Quanjude, and basically everything we could go to. Han Ziqi is very happy, she drinks a lot, she has always been very good, I haven't seen her drunk for more than three years.
Yang Yang looks similar to usual, when I am staggered with others, she is silently staring at me beside me, but when our eyes meet, she will consciously or unconsciously avoid my gaze. I knew she had something on her mind, so I wanted to take her hand several times, and I wanted to feel it, and she knew that I had this ability, so she always avoided me during the whole banquet, and she didn't let me succeed once.
After eating, I walked out of the hotel, and I stopped a car to take Han Ziqi to the station.
After opening the car door, Han Ziqi stretched out his arms with drunkenness, "Pony, bless me!" ”
I smiled slightly and hugged her gently, "Bless you, big star, you will be popular in the future, don't say you don't know your old classmates." ”
"I forgot who I am, and I won't forget you......" she whispered in my ear, her voice a little choked.
I was stunned, "Ziqi, you ......"
She let go of me and waved her hand at the classmates on the side of the road, "I'm leaving, everyone cherish, remember my words, whoever goes to Beijing to develop in the future, don't forget to contact me", after saying that, she got into the taxi and drove away slowly.
I subconsciously glanced back at Yang Yang, and she once again avoided my gaze.
On the way back, neither of us spoke, and I sent her downstairs to the girls' dormitory as usual, ready to watch her go upstairs. After taking a few steps, she turned back to me and took my hand.
"Don't you want to know what's going on in my mind?" She looked at me, "See for yourself." ”
I thought for a moment and brushed her hand away, "You better tell me, I can see everything so clearly, I'm too tired." ”
She hugged me suddenly, "Pony, let's break up." ”
"Why?" My heart ached.
"My mom and dad have already gone through the immigration formalities, and they are going to take me to France", her body trembled with excitement, "I have already completed the withdrawal formalities, and I have to leave tomorrow." Pony, I don't know when I'll be back, don't wait for me", she cried.
I smiled calmly and hugged her emotionally, "Aren't you going to come back?" Isn't it just going to France? Do you have to go? Besides, if you go, I can go to see you, why do you have to break up? ”
"I don't know what to say, you grab my hand, you understand", she let go of me, wiped her tears, and stretched out her hand to me again, "The answer is in my heart, I can't tell, don't ask me, you can see for yourself." ”
I hesitated for a long time, and instead of holding her hand, I hugged her into my arms again, "I don't ask, as long as you're happy, you can do anything." ”
"But I'm not happy......," she cried, "I can't bear to ...... you."
"If you are destined to be a passerby, the separation is only sooner or later", I held back my tears, "Yang Yang, thank you for giving me such a beautiful love, I have no regrets about the days I am with you." ”
"Hold my hand, please", she looked at me sadly, "you have no regrets, but I will take this regret with me." Pony, don't do that to me, please......"
I smiled tearfully and looked down to kiss her quivering soft lips.
This is the second time I have fallen out of love, the first time I was dumped by Zhu Hong, this time I ...... It can be regarded as breaking up with Yang Yang peacefully. In the end, I didn't open the secret in her heart as she had hoped. It's not that I don't want to, it's that I'd rather keep it in each other's hearts. It's time for two people to separate, if there are no regrets, there will be no thoughts. At that moment, I chose to be selfish, I want to always remember this girl I love so much, and let her remember me forever.
Yang Yang left the next day, this time I didn't fall, but life in school was not interesting to me anymore, and I didn't want to stay here anymore.
I told Master about this, but this time Master didn't comfort me, but just took a taxi and came to our school.
"Don't you want to stay here?" When he saw me, he said, "Pack up, come with me, and find you a place to stay." ”
"So fast?" I kind of couldn't believe my ears, "Where?" ”
"Don't ask, hurry up," the master said and went back to the car.
I went back to the dormitory and simply packed my luggage, left the quilt and the like, told Rhubarb that they showed me a good look, and then went downstairs to get in the car and followed Master out of school.
Master took me to a house far away from the school, which was the real city center and more prosperous. The house is not big, one bedroom, one living room and one bathroom, which has already been cleaned up, and you can move in with your bag.
"Is this your house?" I asked, puzzled.
"It's been renting for more than a month," said Master, "I've already prepared it for you, just waiting for you to break up with that girl." ”
I was embarrassed and moved, so I sat down across from him, "Master, have you been waiting for this day?" ”
Master glanced at me, "Yang Yang is gone, are you uncomfortable?" ”
"It's okay, I've been mentally prepared for a long time," I said with a wry smile.
Master nodded, "It's time for you to find a place to intern, tell me, do you want to stay in the provincial capital to be a history teacher, or do you want to do something else." ”
I thought for a moment, "You said that my life is the combination of the four righteous yin and the water in the world, and people with water life should find a fiery occupation. It's not impossible to be a teacher, but that kind of life is a bit monotonous, and it may not be suitable for me, so I want to try to do something else. ”
"That's good", Master took out a document bag from his bag and put it on the coffee table, "You will report to the provincial station tomorrow and be an intern choreographer." ”