The Throbbing

1，

I seem to want to see you,

I don't know who you are, I just want to see you

……

2

On the way to come, the sun is like silk,

Sprinkled down, wisps,

You come up to you and ask, "Are you okay?"

Yes, I've always been good, mountains have grown inside me,

Dwarf, some shrubs, growing upwards.

3

I seem to have seen her, how splendid she is,

The more brilliant she was, the more I fell into my own melancholy.

4

I'm going to tell you a story, a story about ghosts,

I looked at the light, biting my lip,

The lips seem to be about to crack,

I'm still quite in order, I didn't say the ending directly,

I don't like the ending, it's a story that unfolds slowly,

From the moment the woman stood in the vegetable garden,

Until you sit across from me.

5

Because of the time, I'm not behaving badly,

I should come up with a little more romance, after all, this is a naïve story,

A boy in the middle of the night, fantasizing about the impossible,

It's already very interesting in itself, and there are angels at this time,

Shoot a small Jane and land in the hallway

Lean against the barrel

6

I'm a man of no sincerity,

Watching from the corner, curled up, yes

She noticed, and looked at her gaze, looking away little by little

I was scared

first

times, for the first time in many years

I want to go on like this,

I wanted to be that simple, withdrawn

I suddenly lost my sight and I remembered the first time I saw you

You're smiling at me, I'm scared

For the first time,

For the first time in many years, fear the end

(Maybe not to start?) ）

8

I had to tell her that there didn't seem to be any reason to fix it

Such a puzzle, how do I win you?

I can't seem to get that far

How do I tell them, no

I just need to stand up

Tell everyone I like her

I should have told her that she was the one I wanted to marry

There is no means, there is no need to think

Thinking about it, you will be sluggish, you will be uncertain

You don't need to think, you will be scared if you think

You just have to move forward and pull her

Don't care about anything

It was just now that I suddenly understood this

Just now I lost that opportunity

9

I'm going to tell you, I like you, I figured it out

I don't want to think about anything anymore

I have to come out

And you say

I like you, I thought too much about it before

Wouldn't it be weird, weird,

Is it weird to like you

I don't want to think about it anymore now

I like you, and I even want to be selfish for a while

Let you like me too

It's true that I've not been in love for a long time

It's been so long that I can't remember how to express it

That's not who I am

I just want to say, I like you

10

I said what I thought, and I was waiting for her to think

Wait for her to say, "I'm waiting for you."

11

I wasn't sure what that feeling was.

Do you like someone, or is it an illusion of a moment,

I'm always thinking about what she thinks, whether she likes it or not,

It's all her thoughts, and I ignore what I should face up,

own thoughts

12

I asked myself if I lost her,

Will I be sad, sad for how long,

Looking back on it many years later, will you regret it,

The answer is, there will be regrets, then it is very simple,

I don't want to regret it, I don't want to regret it anymore, I have to tell her,

Even if I didn't get any answers, I wanted to tell her, I

I like her and want to have the possibility of the next one

13

If you don't like it, you feel burdened and stressed

Then in the beginning, don't try to get close to me, it will make me want to approach you greedily, try to enter your world

14

I dreamed that your body was sprouting weeds and green shrubs

I think maybe it's a dream, because the hands are light and the feet are light

In the dream, I talked about love

Who knows

Now I wake up and find nothing but a cold

Nothing was gained

15

I lost the mystery of the cause

For when I was a tree, it grew in darkness

In autumn, I scatter transparent maple leaves

And because of a coincidence, it fell on top of her head

At this time, I was one of the thousands of fallen leaves

I tried to get her attention

Left and right

Just flying, like a skirt, like a play, like a hooligan

Suddenly deep and shallow

I forgot that I was just a fallen leaf, not a love letter

Until it passes by

A snow that melts into the depths of winter

16

Very clearly, I am dancing my teeth and claws, and I am facing you

You have to retreat, I've got that courage

In this steppe I have a purpose, and you, you are a brother,

I dig the dirt under my feet!

It is said that her true heart is inside

I felt the wind behind me

I'm so serious

It feels like it's about getting closer to the truth

The wound on my back was bleeding constantly

You lick. with bleeding claws

You're not a brother, you're a wolf

My body melted into the earth

You turn around and chase another dawn

You want to be split into two bodies

And this war has just begun

17

I met her in the winter of this year,

It's not a very deep winter, it's just silence,

But there is no season of complete sinking,

When I saw her, she saw me, and I didn't speak, but I stole three glances.

18

It's winter now

It's like I can already see the wind in the wind

The meaning of summer faded away, and I remembered some words

Just note, I rarely mention the past

Because in the past, like summer, its meaning is fading away

19

Maybe one day we will be old and arm in arm

It is as if the fallen leaves are tied to the fallen leaves, and they return to their roots together

Bury the memories of this life in the thick loess

The next year they will grow flowers, blue, green, you must be pink

20

It was cold, it was cold, so cold that the wind froze

I thought about it and thought about it alone

It's warm

21

Maybe one day I'll come back to my senses

It's like oh, I see

None of this happened, no bitter cold winds

There are no shadows in my mind

If you have to define it

It's a dream that wakes up and falls

Fell into a goose feather, fell into thousands of snows

Fall into a passerby in your life

22

You, love or not

You say you have a lot of ......

But I have one

One thought is enough

I don't have much desire

Lust is the claw that surrounds your heart

Wrap out the scratches, wrap around the bleeding

But don't be afraid, soon

I'll forget, it hurts

Only in the middle of the night

will suddenly remember,

I was wounded

23

This glass of water is only half as far as possible

It's only half of what it looks like

But I'm full

I'm ready to pour

After all, it's cold, and it's not good to have more

There was no response to many more

I want to call you and tell you

The cup is now empty

If you don't mind

It may be full again after a while

24

The heart is beating

It's a disease, and the heart is not a rabbit

The rabbit still has a tail, and the heart has something

Heart with a long tail?

"Look at you, if you like someone, you will become a love saint"

In the end, I threw my heart away

Because she's weird after all

She rarely talks to me,

It was so embarrassing that I threw it away

Throw it on the road in winter

25

I never left

I've been here, guarding this land,

This thread of sunlight is entwined with silk

You know I don't write about love, because I've never seen it

The green of the West of the United States and the blue of the cebu

26

I've been to a lot of places this day

See lavender and even the transparent sea

Everywhere, there are your footprints, and I hurried by

No sound was left

Because I know it's a fictional memory

I never came out

And how to stay

27

Someone at this time, in a certain corner of the city

Remembering a person

That person's history, all her stories

She may have waist-length hair at times

Maybe there was pain I hadn't thought about

This city she never extinguishes

She won't go out

I won't let go, I won't let go

Just put your hand in your heart first

Strangled the heart

28

I wanted to walk over because she was in front

But there was a river in front of me

When you cross the river, you will meet the ravine

I turn a blind eye, no matter the sharp pebbles

Or small poisonous thorns growing out of the grass

I just want to walk through

Because you're in front

I have to go see you

But I can't see you clearly

You were here before, and I know the way you stand

Recognize your smile,

Now there is only ash as the sun shines through the sky

I've got bushes growing on my body

And he fixed his feet on the ground

All I had left was my teeth, and they gurgled

You're in front, and I can't get past it

29

I'd love to talk to you

But it will take up your time

You also need to talk to others

Because I'm ordinary, I haven't been anywhere

I can't come up with any stories

No one would want to say anything to such a person

Because I just want to say three words

It's too ordinary

Three words anyone can say

I'm looking for a place,

And he buried them under a tree on the side of the mountain

Bloom riotous flowers in the coming year

30

Everything was beautiful when I dreamed

You seem to be coming towards me

Fast-paced, bold, like a fluttering butterfly

And I just need to drink a bowl of soup

Continue to fall asleep

31

And I'm waking up, reality is

Broken glass slag

They reflect a brilliant brilliance

I am convinced of everything,

Including the steps you take towards me

It's all fake, it's the glass reflecting the darkness of the night

32

She won't be like that again, she won't

Not really, I'm sure

She's not coming

The heart can only be empty

But I left the door open

32

No, when she lied

I'm deciding to wander

There is no place to go

There is no one to see

Her heart has no name

Therefore, it is simple, and it cannot hide people

I'm just saying goodnight

That's all there is to it

It's all simple and complex between us

That night, it was just good night

33

They end in chapter 33 without warning

It's over, and he doesn't want to be unfair to anyone

There is only forgetting, connecting memories and feelings

Like a cat with no memories of the past

But in the middle of the night,

Tears rolled down the cracks in the corners of his eyes

34

Although I have the courage to want to continue

But it had to stop

Suddenly fell in love at some point

It has to stop abruptly at some point

35.

It's going on, and there's no reason for it

Because there are no memories

Everything doesn't make sense

But there was still a ray of light that pierced my night sky

Make sense of your shadow

36.

December 14th

The content of life is to work, to eat

The inner world?

But today I don't have a heart or lungs

The weather is wind entangled with rain

At night, someone banged on my window

And along my ribs

Found the scars you left behind

What it looks like after scabbing

37.

I think about it from time to time

At first, the fallen leaves are yellowish

Time is not tired,

The whole memory exudes freshness and vitality

But I didn't pick up that fallen leaf

Fallen leaves don't belong to me

As I passed her

She took a picture of the sky with her phone

38

The smallest story is the one that only has one day

It begins on the day of the beginning and ends on the day of the beginning

And the imagination of the end of that day

I still can't do that

39

You'll have new stories

There is no doubt about it

I am a chapter that has been quietly turned

For example, one afternoon, someone was in a hurry passing by in the rain

In a corner of a coffee shop

A turning kung fu

Me with all my stories

And it passed quietly

40

I'm repeating what happened every day

I met the same people

Same thing

Missing the same story and the same ending

I'm guessing, maybe again

Again, this is how it began

It can be done again, too

And so it ends

41

My shoulder still hurts

I'm not going to apply medicine

It's like I remember all the mistakes

Of course, you have the credit for this

next time

I'll do it again

Because of the confession of too much force

And there are bruises all over the body

42

Keep your hands on your chest

I'm listening to the bells

Twelve rings

I want to wait quietly

Wait until all the time is gone

I'm going straight to the day the mystery is revealed

Straight in front of you

"Oh, it's you, my love"

43

Take love as a little thing

It's too grandiose

If I were her

In the season of falling leaves

I will remember a boy who had nothing

And his love that is too violent

44

Of course, these are just small things

It shouldn't even be brought up

When someone wastes time on this

He was not far from the grave

45

Drunk

It's easy to think

No one knows what she went through today

An apple, a kiss

These have nothing to do with me

I'm not the master of this story

Because I'm the one who holds the pen

A piece of paper, a glass of water

That's all I have

(2017 Christmas)

46

Tomorrow

I will work and eat at the set time

Sleeping, you may dream about people you don't want to dream about

Remembering things you don't want to think about

Of course, these are just small things

It's a little thing that makes my chest hurt faintly

Give me a little more time

One 10,000 years, two 10,000 years

Maybe just forget

47

In the dazzling season of the yellow

Meet someone

The atmosphere quickly became lively

From the past to the present

Until someone opens their hearts prematurely

The window that had been dusty for a long time

Maybe it wasn't what she wanted

Follow the gravel path from which you came

Someone took two steps back

The sunset widened the distance between the two

Until nothing intersects

48

I don't want to use a flat narrative

to illustrate all the stories

I don't want to be seen

Some people

If you go, you're gone

After all, it's a trifle

Two lines of inconspicuous tears

49

I thought about it in my dreams

Fictional future

The sky was slanting and blue

Bluer than anywhere you've ever been

We don't even need to speak

One step back, two steps back

From youth to old age

From old age back to the beginning

It's still that question, it's still that smile

When laughing,

Your body is tilted toward me

50

There are many reasons not to speak

Perhaps

Eat alone today

51

The fog blown by the wind knots in the air

I was blown through my chest by the wind

Something was taken away

I don't keep it

Watch her walk away

52

Maybe happiness is still some distance away

It's not like I stand up and reach out and touch it

It's that I'm doing my best,

Bite your teeth,

Swallowed into the stomach

53

Glass and seahorses

It's December when the wandering winds also have a home

You stand on your tiptoes

Reminiscing about summer

The clock is ticking

Time is running

The mood when I like you is a knife

The heart is sharply cut into three pieces

Fall at your feet

Until the fallen leaves grow wings

Took my love letters

54

I want to talk to you

Today there is rain, strong winds, level 4, level 5

You play the piano

Is the air trembling

Our city, waste in the snowflakes

Open hands at night,

Fly in the sky

The stone hit the foot again

You like the leaves to turn slightly yellow

And the season when the air freezes a little

The movie is about to begin

Still sitting in that position

It's still the same time

You're not going this time?

Do you have to wait?

Wait a year?

Do you remember me

Do you still know me?

55

See you next time

It's still the same place

It's not big enough to accommodate two people

Someone plays guitar, someone sings

The kid who made a bench out of blocks

The coffee exudes heat,

Until twelve o'clock

You talk about the past, and there is him in the story

I'm sitting across from you,

But it's a pedestrian street away from you

56

Wrap the bread with heat

Wildcats in the café

Next to the wooden door

You sit in front of the window

Another world outside the window

The raindrops exploded the flowers

The crowd was chaotic

Of course, the book is still quietly applied to your face

The side of your face

Like a veil, it was blown into the sunset by the wind

57

I'm thinking you and I said him

His thoughts and thoughts

I'm listening to a love song in the night

The sky is leaking, one, two,

Wet the wind brings your message

I leaned against the willows on the side

Fallen leaves are floating

I don't want to count the time

I want to hear you talk all the time

Let's talk about what's going on

Tell us about the people you love

Is there any love for you......

58

We're not going to meet there

It's April in full bloom

The sky is chubby, short

Your white wedding dress is flying

I'm looking at you, I'm looking at you, I'm looking at you

Maybe the whole story doesn't have me

There were only horse-drawn carriages galloping on the road

The pumpkin falls to the ground

It becomes the shoes of the princess

I'll still call you sister once in a while

Occasionally, he will press his chest

Inside, the heart is blooming

59

Are you still alone?

Perhaps, is there love?

The air was still cold, and I was running on Highway 30

I'm listening, the voice you left behind

From the mind

Take out the blurred shadows

In the distance, a bonfire of fireflies

Dancing starry sky

The fog behind me, and the snow that will come after

Is it you, the spring breeze of the following February?

April Clover Is that you

Are you still alone?

Perhaps, remember me

60

The guy said, I like the way I feel right now

It's December and the wind is thinning

The face that I cut hurts

That person, go forward, to your heart

Walk deeper

The night was also late

There is no road