In the end, in order to maintain her last dignity, Su Ying could only stand at the door and watch Qin Shaojing leave from her eyes step by step.

At this time, she suddenly wanted to get drunk, although it was said that she was more sad to drink away her sorrows, but after getting drunk, she could at least forget all those unpleasantness for a short time, didn't she?

She has always been a straightforward person, who she likes and dislikes will say it very directly, and of course she will do it directly when she thinks of what she wants to do.

As soon as she thought about going to the bar to get drunk, she called the agent, and her tone was full of impatience: "What itinerary do I have these days, if there is, you can either postpone it for me or cancel it for me"

When the agent heard Su Ying's words, his tone was a little low, and he asked with some concern: "What's wrong with you?" Uncomfortable? ”

Hearing his agent's worried tone, he smiled, how nice would it be if he was the one who cared about her so much? She shook her head vigorously and said lightly: "I'm fine, you just need to tell me if there is any itinerary in the past few days."

"You haven't had any travel these days, are you really okay? You've been tired enough in the past few years, and you're fine these days anyway, so you should take a good rest! You can take this opportunity to play and relax. ”

Although he heard Su Ying say that she was fine, as her agent, he still knew her character quite well, and he was a little uneasy in his heart, thinking that maybe let Su Ying go out to have a good time, and his mood would be better.

"I see, thanks." After Su Ying finished speaking, she hung up the phone and went to the parking lot to drive her own car, intending to find a random bar to get drunk.

On the way to the bar, she kept thinking about everything in her past, she still remembered that when she was very young, her father was Qin Shaojing's father's bodyguard, and her mother and Ye Jinlan were also good friends. Since she was a child, she has been brought over by the Qin family to live.

Back then, his father sacrificed in order to save Qin Shaojing's father and Qin Shaojing, and his mother was depressed because of his father's departure.

It may be that the Qin family feels that the Qin family owes the Su family and Su Ying too much, so because of guilt, Ye Jinlan will always regard herself as a daughter-in-law. Because Ye Jinlan felt that only in this way could she make up for it. Probably only in this way can I make myself feel less guilty.

In fact, during the period after Su Ying's father and mother passed away one after another, she hated the Qin family a little in her heart.

If it weren't for the Qin family, he wouldn't have become an orphan, although Qin Shaojing's father and mother were very good to him, and he loved and cultivated himself as a future daughter-in-law.

But that love is more of guilt, because of this guilt, Su Ying knows that she has no real Qin family, and she is still an orphan without a father and mother, but later ......

Because she fell in love with Qin Shaojing, Su Ying at that time forbears Qin Shaojing every day so that she doesn't hate the Qin family, and she doesn't want to complain about the Qin family. And he also worked very hard to do it to the standard of the daughter-in-law of the Qin family.

Qin Shaojing also took good care of Su Ying when he was a child, and took care of her as his treasure.

Slowly, Su Ying grew up and became sensible, and she learned to be relieved, coupled with Qin Shaojing's care, she slowly accepted it......

After growing up, Su Ying has become more and more beautiful, more and more beautiful, more and more excellent, and has a lot of suitors.

Because Su Ying once heard someone say that the most beautiful and unforgettable love in a girl's life is her first love, in order to leave the best self to her favorite Qin Shaojing, Su Ying rejected all suitors.

When she was in school, she often saw some lovers on campus, and her friends were also in love one by one, and she often sprinkled dog food on herself. But she was steadfast.

Su Ying also fantasized that one day she could stroll around the campus hand in hand with Qin Shaojing, and when she was fine, she could also show her affection in front of a few of her friends.

You can also go to dinner, watch movies, go shopping, if you are tired from shopping, you can lie on Qin Shaojing's back, let him carry himself home, and let the sunset pull his and Qin Shaojing's shadow very long...... So how wonderful is everything...... But these are fantasies after all.

Later, when Su Ying worked hard every day, she did something that the Qin family liked and what the Qin family liked, rather than what she liked and what she liked.

She thought that as long as she did this, Qin Shaojing would like herself, but when she grew up, no matter how hard Su Ying tried, she felt that Qin Shaojing was getting farther and farther away from her, and even with the closeness of childhood, she began to slowly disappear.

Su Ying has been comforting herself and cheering for herself: It's okay Su Ying, don't be discouraged, don't be sad, as long as you work hard, Qin Shaojing will definitely like you, so, for Qin Shaojing, you have to work harder tomorrow, come on! Su Ying, you can do it, come on! Come on! Come on!

Because Qin Shaojing said that she was beautiful and suitable for being an actor, she gave up her favorite art without hesitation and went to the entertainment circle that she despised the most.

But no matter how hard she tried, Qin Shaojing still fell in love with someone else, and that person was Xi Lingyan.

Whenever Su Ying saw Qin Shaojing and Xi Lingyan showing affection in front of her, her heart ached as if she was going to die. It felt like my world had collapsed.

Later, when the two of them successfully divorced because of their own plans, Su Ying was very happy, and the person who had been waiting for so long finally divorced, so she had another chance.

But it wasn't until later that Su Ying found out that even if Qin Shaojing and Xi Lingyan divorced, their relationship would always be there, and she would never be able to live in his heart.

But Qin Shaojing, when you are sad for Xi Lingyan, do you know that there is a girl named Su Ying behind you, who has liked you since she was a child, loves you very much, likes what you like so much, and loves you so much that she loves you and loves you so much.

When you are sad, the girl named Su Ying will be a thousand times more sad than you, ten thousand times more sad than you, she will be sadder than you when you are sad, and when you are happy, she will also be very happy.

In the past three years since Qin Shaojing and Xi Lingyan divorced, Su Ying worked hard to film every day, because when filming, he occasionally came to pick her up, even if it was just a short time together, she was very happy in her heart.

...... during filming Sometimes she will be so busy that she can only sleep for an hour or two for a few days, or she will not have time to sleep for a few days, but even so, Su Ying will miss him very much every day, his figure has always appeared in her mind, whenever she can't hold on, thinking of him, she is immediately full of energy.

Although she has filmed so many scenes, every kiss scene is either borrowed or found as a stand-in, because Su Ying, who likes Qin Shaojing, only wants to leave her first kiss to Qin Shaojing. Her liking for him can be said to be very persistent.

Su Ying casually found a bar, parked the car, and simply cleaned up the makeup that was crying. Wearing a hat and a mask, he walked in.

The bar was full of people, the men and women on the dance floor were very selfless dancing, no one would care about a woman who had just come in, Su Ying wore a hat and a mask, found a corner position, ordered a lot of spirits, and then found a corner position and sat down, and began to drink cup after cup.

In fact, Su Ying has always felt that a person with such a noble status as herself has really lowered her slight and grade by coming to this kind of place, but even if she disdains to come to these places, she is here today, and this is a good place to treat her injuries.

But no matter how much wine she drank, she still couldn't bear the resentment, the sadness, the sadness, and the sadness in her heart.

People say that life is like a play, drama is like life, everything does not have to be too serious, and life itself is a colorful stage.

Su Ying had seen such a sentence in the book "'Xi Murong"-

Actors are required to play a variety of different roles every day. Under the shining lights, in the passion of the soundtrack, reciting lines that don't belong to you, you can't cry when you're sad, you can't laugh when you're happy, the plot of the script has already been arranged for you, so ......

Even if you are grief-stricken, you have to force your face to laugh, and you are so elated that you squeeze tears to cover it. On the stage, we performed so realistically, so wonderful, as if fascinated, who knows, flowers bloom and fall, grass grows warblers fly, and the scene has been laid out with the change of seasons.

On stage, we are always just acting out other people's plays, performing happiness and heartbreak. But offstage, when the curtain has ended, neon and flowers no longer exist, the audience's long-lasting applause still lingers in my ears. Change into luxurious clothes, wash off your delicate makeup, and you are still alone, carrying loneliness alone......

The sentence she suddenly remembered made her feel that this passage of 'Xi Murong' was very much in line with her current self. Because no one will know that only Su Ying, who does not have to face the audience offstage, is the most real Su Ying.

Only tonight's Su Ying can let go of all pretenses, forget herself and get drunk, without worrying about the identity of the big star Su Ying, I am the most real me now, and only now I can cry when I want to cry and laugh when I want to laugh.

"Qin Shaojing, I'm Su Ying, don't like you in the future, you're a big villain, a negative man, I Su Ying won't believe it, I can't live without you, there are so many good men in this world, I Su Ying still don't believe that I will not like other men in my life except for Qin Shaojing, you big villain, negative man. I, Su Ying, still don't believe in this evil! Su Ying drank cup after cup, occasionally saying something sadly.

After drinking most of the time, I suddenly wanted to go to the toilet, and then I stumbled to the bathroom to go to the toilet, washed my face, and after washing my face, Su Ying felt that she was a lot more sober, and went back to the corner, and asked the waiter in the bar to bring some of the strongest drinks in their bar.

The waiter at the bar saw too many people who were hurt and came to buy drunk, so he could only shake his head at Su Ying helplessly, and then go to bring the wine.