I don't know who gasped, Zhou Guanzhao stood in front of the door of the side hall in amazement, as if he was frozen in an instant, maintaining the action of striding out, and did not make a sound for a long time.

Fan Rui didn't dare to go in in advance to report under the holy authority, and at this moment, the hind feet of the adults in front of him followed, and there was an immediate "buzz" in his head after seeing everything in front of him.

It's over, my lord was offended by the people he brought over in front of the empress.

Fan Rui is very attentive to his master, even if he wails and sighs in his heart, he subconsciously uses the word "offense" that has a lot of meanings and leaves a little dignity.

The offended Yang and Hou himself were very calm, and when Chen Tongsheng didn't know what was wrong again, he suddenly stepped back and turned his head to look at Zhou Guanzhao, he pressed Chen Tongsheng's head, turned her head around, and skimmed back, and then pretended to straighten the collar, and when he got up, he quietly stopped Chen Tongsheng behind him, and smiled very dignified in a tone that sneaked out of the banquet halfway and would be caught by someone, and said: "Why did Your Majesty suddenly come here, and there is not even a letter." ”

If you want to say that Song Chuanbai really has any intimate relationship with this beautiful girl, it is nothing, after all, everyone can understand that it is normal for two serious white people to look at each other when they look at each other, not to mention that Song Chuanbai is still the Hou Ye. Not to mention that there is only one Chen Tongsheng in this room now, even if the ministers push the door in and see a bunch of warblers and swallows in the house, and Song Chuanbai himself hugging left and right, it is not a shocking event. At most, I can sigh at the chic of this Hou Ye, and those parties that have always been against Song Chuanbai on weekdays still have reasons to bury him.

But the moment you enter the door, everyone is strangely silent. In retrospect, perhaps it was because Zhou Guanzhao's behavior expressed the embarrassment after the surprise, so that everyone was embarrassed.

And the beautiful girl behind Song Chuanbai, who was extremely sharp, slowly showed half of her head behind Song Chuanbai, first looked around with a vigilant and critical gaze, and then cast her eyes at the crowd, and then her eyes switched back and forth between Zhou Guanzhao who was the leader and Jiang Liyan beside her, revealing an obviously puzzled and unhappy gaze.

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......

What's wrong with me?

Chen Tongsheng felt as if her consciousness and body were strangely separated, as if her soul had suddenly been pried up from her body, and fluttered lightly, so that although she could see and think, she could no longer control any movement of her body. A huge and irresistible force drove her consciousness away from nowhere, so she had to shrink herself into a small, finger-sized corner of her body, and she couldn't even digest the explosive message that she had just kissed Song Chuanbai, so she had to open her eyes and watch everything that was happening outside.

However, soon, she realized that there was a person standing beside her, standing straight, with an unrivaled posture, and there was silence for a moment, and the person silently turned his head to look at Chen Tongsheng. That was the appearance of Galahia in Chen Tongsheng's dream.

"You are ......," Chen Tongsheng said, "You are Galahia." ”

"Galahia." The other party repeated the name, seemed to smack it, looked very emotional, and then laughed and said, "It's me." ”

"What's going on? How did I end up like this? Why do I always dream of you? Chen Tongsheng asked, "Who are you......?" ”

"Or something, right?" Galashia said casually: "Actually, I have died a long time ago, but some people don't want me to die, some of them love me, some hate me, some worship me inexplicably, and that's it." They tried every possible way to get me back, but in the end they couldn't do it. ”

"But......" Chen Tongsheng wanted to say, then what are you? Gods, or ghosts?

"Look," Galashia glanced at Zhou Guanzhao, who was pointing at the ten thousand people opposite, and said, "If she is successful, it will also be Galaxia." She glanced at Chen Tongsheng and continued: "Galaxia, it's not a person's name. It's a common name for people like us. ”

"Who?"

The question seemed a little difficult to answer, and she never seemed to think of answering the question to others, so Galahia squinted for a moment before she spoke, "Do you know ants?" ”

"There are so many ants in the nest that there are too many to count. There were so many of them that it would be impractical to name each of these little pinpoint-like animals one by one, so we collectively referred to them as 'the ants of this nest', and we, you and I, were one of the many ants in the nest, and Galahia was the name of the nest. Do you understand when I say that? ”

Galashia looked down at her: "As for me...... I don't remember my name when I was myself. I won't be myself anymore. ”

"What do you mean?"

"We are one nest, we are one." Galashia said softly, "We don't have a distinction between you and me, and naturally we don't need the 'self' thing. ”

She said and walked towards Chen Tongsheng, and Chen Tongsheng subconsciously retreated.

"Aren't you coming?" Galashia said, "You don't want to come with us, you don't want to have memories that last for thousands of years, don't you want to always have a hundred times more powerful skills than you are in the ring today?" ”

Chen Tongsheng looked at her and shook his head.

Galahia pointed in the other direction and asked, "Don't you want him too?" ”

Chen Tongsheng turned his head and saw Song Chuanbai standing beside her, she opened her mouth: "I...."

She wanted to say that I didn't want to get him, in fact, what Chen Tongsheng was thinking about Song Chuanbai at this time, she didn't figure it out herself, she had the need to be close to Song Chuanbai, but it was definitely not for the purpose of getting it.

So Galashia reached out and tapped her forehead, then looked at her with an almost pity in her eyes, and said, "I didn't know that your feelings had become so blank and confused. ”

"You can't tell the difference between family affection, the friendship between master and apprentice, the affection with the person you love, you can't distinguish between pity, affection, dependence and sympathy, you are overwhelmed by the empathy with others. You are a ...... with huge flaws Defective products. "But by learning and imitating others, you disguise yourself as normal, so normal that you have almost no real thoughts of yourself." I ask you, do you really know what you want? ”

Chen Tongsheng felt a little ridiculous, of course she knew, she didn't even have her own thoughts, wasn't that a fool?

"Then why are you so easily changed, so easily shaken, and so often so ...... Confusion? ”

Galahia smiled and said, "You have only learned the way of thinking of ordinary people in your long life, but because you have learned too many people, you will not learn the same thing, and there are many contradictions in learning. ”

Chen Tongsheng frowned and didn't speak, so Galaxia looked at Zhou Guanzhao again, but said, "Do you remember when Mitiansi was not born yet, and you were just a little disciple of Mitiansi?" Do you still remember what you thought at the time? ”

What do you think, what else can you think?

On the night she met Jiang Liyan, she remembered a little, and she remembered that she had been silent and patient until people lost interest in her.

Galahia looked sarcastic, and then said, "So, do you know who you learned from this kind of response? ”

"Before the Yatensi was built, you were raised by a man from a poor family with an unusually cowardly personality. She was wantonly oppressed by everyone around her, her family and friends, her biological parents, her husband, her biological son, everyone slandered her and looked down on her, but she almost never resisted. Perhaps because she didn't dare, or because she resisted in her early years to no avail, she grew into a self-pitying, cowardly and patient woman of premature aging. Naturally, she has never told you about her set of crooked reasoning that her life is not good, but you have also learned her silent and unreasonable patience by her side. You have copied this behavior for more than ten years, and accepted it obediently, until you trusted Fang Heming again, and then began to relearn his behavior pattern and began to resist. After Fang Heming's death, you quickly found the object of study again and began to imitate him. ”

Chen Tongsheng wanted to say something, but Galahia made a silent gesture faster than her, and said, "Shhh, let me finish." ”

"But that's when you notice something is wrong."

"You find it difficult for you to imitate him, you can't understand what drives his behavior, and that makes it difficult for you to imitate. The person you followed in your early years was cowardly, and Fang Heming was combative and aggressive, and you learned all these obvious characteristics. But when you get to this person, you suddenly find that he is a contradiction in himself, and he does not reveal himself to the outside. You can't get a glimpse into their hearts, you just imitate their most superficial behaviors, such as 'calculating' people and 'betting' on things. When you don't get the information you need about your behavior after doing these things, you start to get confused. Isn't that so? ”

Galashia lowered her eyes and said, "You're just a dodder flower clinging to others." ”

"What is the real you like, Chen Tongsheng, do you remember?"

"I remember you......," said Galahia, thinking about a long memory, "I remember that you once went to the emperor of the Northern Dynasty in order to get a little thing that was love at first sight, and killed two innocent ladies, and after you got it, you just played with it for a while, and then threw it to the ground very boringly, saying, 'I thought it was a good thing.'" Later, when your father asked about you, you replied, 'It's not a rare thing, but after this experience, if I want anything in the future, no one will dare to refuse me.' That's how it should be'. ”

"It's in your nature to be that purposeful and unscrupulous person to achieve your ends, but now you don't even understand what you want." Galashia sighed a little as he spoke: "This was originally a confinement set up to allow us to better imitate the Gala in our memory, but today, it has become like this. ”

Chen Tongsheng's head was buzzing, and he almost didn't listen to the last few words.

I don't understand......

She thought low, unconsciously.

I don't understand......

Time went back to Shuo, Chen Tongsheng's consciousness suddenly returned to the moment when she first met Song Chuanbai in Fang Heming's courtyard, and then it flowed away quickly, frozen in Li Cheng, the moment when she reached out and stroked Song Chuanbai's face.

At that time, the vigilance and confusion at the first sight, behind Li Cheng's surprise and inexplicable emotions, there was a more straightforward thought, like the head of a sea snake, slowly floating to the place near the water, as long as the slightest bit of it, it could break through the deep sea of consciousness and come out of the water.

The straightforward, almost vicious thought was:

If a beautiful person who is so desirable cannot belong to me, then what is the point?

The sea snake spat out a cold core, and Chen Tongsheng stroked Song Chuanbai's face.

Scorching, sudden, uncontrollable...... Desires.

I like him so much, why can't I get to know him? Why is he not willing to obediently and obediently teach me to understand him?

Chen Tongsheng gasped and curled up with his head in his hands.

Why can't he, like all those who love me, all the people I want, cut open his chest and let me review and choose?

Why can't I be the closest and closest person to him?

Of course I do.

I want to.

I have to.