Zhang Jin sat quietly on the hospital bed, his eyes empty.

In early spring, the grass is already green, and countless shoots are pulled up from the solid soil. It was originally a season full of vitality, but Zhang Jin was like a bud trampled on by pedestrians, dragging his broken body to gasp.

Li Wan held Zhang Jin's hand, her eyes slightly reddened. She couldn't see Zhang Jin's smiling face anymore, Zhang Jin's entire head was wrapped in gauze, and that beautiful face was buried forever.

The weather was a little foggy, and Li Wan's heart was even more gloomy.

She can already accept the darkness in this world, but when it happens to the people around her, the pain and hatred in her heart always linger.

Zhang Jin turned his head and looked at Li Wan. Zhang Jin's expression could not be seen under the gauze, but Li Wan could see that there were tears in the corners of Zhang Jin's eyes.

"Xiaowan, he said I was too beautiful......"

This sentence became an eternal pain in Li Wan's heart. She wanted to get up and hug Zhang Jin, but she didn't dare. She has not yet avenged Zhang Jin, and the suspect has not been caught.

Standing up, Li Wan saluted Zhang Jin.

"Xiao Jin, wait for me ......"

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A light rain fell in the sky, and Lan Qing stood in front of the vegetable stall and selected the ingredients.

"Little brother, why haven't I seen you? New to the house? "The vendor aunt was very welcoming,

"Come on, come on, get more tomatoes, and young people eat more vegetables."

Auntie put a big tender and bright red tomato into Lan Qing's pocket, Lan Qing nodded, took out a large handful of money from his pocket, and asked Auntie again.

"How much, please?"

"Twenty-one, just give twenty, come to us to buy more vegetables in the future, and Auntie will give you a cheaper."

Lan Qing looked at the money in his hand, looked for a long time and didn't know which one to use, so he took out a card with the largest denomination and handed it to the vegetable seller. The aunt looked at this young man, he looked good, but he was a little sloppy and thin, and he was a handsome young man if he shaved and dressed up.

"Here, find your money."

Lan Qing took the money, turned around and wanted to leave, and then turned around and said "thank you" to the aunt. He knew it was called the human touch.

The smoke and fire in the streets and alleys, the chatter and laughter of the neighbors, these are all things that he has not been exposed to. He has been out of society for too long, and he is not even familiar with the most basic way of life, only knowing that it costs money to buy things.

Lan Qing looked at the dishes in his hand, these were the same things he bought when he cooked for Lan Lan last time, and finally made a table of indescribable things, but Lan Lan still ate them.

"I won't eat what you make is unpalatable......"

Lan Qing thought of this sentence and shook his head. Both of them are the same, and they are not honest at all.

Walking downstairs in the community, Lan Qing was about to go to the supermarket to buy some seasonings, and when she pushed the door, she saw a familiar figure, it was the woman she knocked down yesterday.

"Xiaowen, there's no bread on the shelves."

"Officer Li, the bread is in the box under the shelf, you can take it yourself."

Only then did Lan Qing know that the girl who was the cashier was called Xiaowen. Listening to Xiaowen's meaning, this woman seems to be a policeman.

Lan Qing took some basic things from the condiment shelf, turned around and saw Li Wan squatting under the shelf picking bread, so he walked over to him.

Li Wan deserves to be from the police academy, and when she felt someone approaching around her, she immediately stood up.

"Is that you?"

Looking at the man in front of her, Li Wan showed a strong sense of vigilance. Listening to Xiaowen's description, Li Wan was afraid that this person really had a mental problem.

Lan Qing was not surprised by Li Wan's reaction, after all, she was a stranger, and the other party was a police officer.

Putting down the things in his hand, Lan Qing bowed slightly,

"I'm so sorry I bumped into you yesterday......"

Li Wan was a little puzzled,

"This sloppy young man went out to take medicine today?"

Thinking like this in her heart, Li Wan still showed a high level of professionalism and nodded to Lan Qing.

Lan Qing picked up her things and went to the cashier to check out, Li Wan smelled the smell in the air, and there was a faint smell of smoke, but it was not as strong as the smell of smoke yesterday.

"How much?"

Lan Qing took out the money from his pocket and prepared to settle the bill. Xiaowen was also a little surprised that this young man asked herself the price for the first time.

"Twelve pieces in total."

Lan Qing scratched her head, and finally gave Xiaowen a lot of money and asked Xiaowen to help him calculate.

Xiaowen handed the money to Lan Qing neatly, Lan Qing smiled wryly, took the things and left.

"He's so weird......"

Li Wan walked to the cashier with bread and milk,

"It feels like a different person."

"Maybe something happy happened."

Xiaowen smiled and took Li Wan's things,

"I saw he came in with a bag of vegetables, and he looked like he was going to cook."

"He's supposed to be a normal person, just a little troublesome."

Li Wan took out her wallet to checkout,

"Officer Li, you should also eat a little less bread, how good it would be to buy some food and cook."

"No time to ......"

"Are trainee police officers so busy?"

Li Wan's eyes dimmed, it was still raining outside the supermarket, and it was getting heavier, it began to fog, and pedestrians on the road hurried to and fro with umbrellas.

"Xiaowen, do you remember what I said yesterday?"

"Ah......h

Xiaowen scratched her head, a little embarrassed.

"There was a rapist recently, but he hasn't been arrested yet, so you have to be careful when you go out alone."

"Oh, okay Officer Li, don't worry."

Li Wan smiled, took the things and left.

Lan Qing didn't rush to cook when she returned home, she still stood on the balcony and smoked. The balcony was much cleaner, and Lan Qing put away the cigarette butts on the balcony. He also took out the beer bottles at home and threw them away.

The whole house is much cleaner, but it still lacks a little human touch.

Lan Qing specially bought an ashtray, but with his smoking speed, such an ashtray is estimated to fall in half a day.

The smell of tobacco filled Lan Qing's mouth, he knew that he was addicted to smoking, but there was no way, no one had appeared in the family for too long, and he hadn't dealt with anyone for nearly half a year.

If it weren't for going downstairs to buy vegetables today, Lan Qing doubted that he would still be able to speak.

The window grille on the window has faded color, this window grille was still pasted by Lan Lan the year before last, there is only one drunk in this family during the Spring Festival this year, how can anyone go to paste such a thing as a window grille.

Lan Qing took it off and wanted to fold it up and save it, but because of aging, it was broken by Lan Qing when it was opened.

Looking at the red and white window flower fragments in his hand, Lan Qing's heart was inexplicably touched.

I don't know how Lan Lan lives alone.

Walking into the kitchen, Lan Qing began to wash vegetables and prepare for cooking.

"Remember to put oil, remember to put oil ......"

Lan Qing muttered as she made preparations. The vegetables were cut in a mess, Lan Qing sighed, fortunately he didn't buy meat, otherwise he would definitely not be able to cook it.

With a taste that was not too unpleasant, Lan Qing took the "food" she had worked so hard to make and prepared to taste it on the table.

"Ahem......"

Lan Qing could only say that his mouth was not picky, at least he could swallow it.

Outside the window, the rain had stopped, and it seemed that the birds could still be heard.

"Sister...... Spring is here......"

Taking out the beer from the refrigerator, Lan Qing poured two glasses, felt that something was wrong, and washed another cup.

"I almost forgot you ......"

Listening to the sound of birds outside the window, Lan Qing was drunk. I don't know how many people in this world still remember Li Er, at least Li Er lives in Lan Qing's heart.

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Lan Qing slept for a long time, and it was already midnight when she woke up.

He wanted to continue sleeping until dawn, but he couldn't sleep. Lan Qing walked out of the bedroom to pick up a glass of water, and the taste of beer in his mouth made him retch.

At noon, the rain began to fall again, and the whole room was filled with moisture.

Rainy nights are not easy for people to come into contact with. Listening to the cosy sound of the rain, it is easy for people to fall asleep, hoping for a good weather tomorrow morning, but going out with their families.

The street lamps seemed to be flooded, flashing and flashing. There is always an incomprehensible darkness on the street corner, and you don't know what's hidden inside.

After drinking a large glass of water, Lan Qing finally felt less disgusting in his mouth. The sound of the rain made him feel lonely again, and with a sigh, Lan Qing walked to the balcony again and smoked a cigarette.

He used to think that he was very mature, but when he was really lonely, Lan Qing found that he was not as mature as those children who had just become adults.

I will be afraid of loneliness, afraid of the night, afraid of the sound of rain, afraid of ......

The cigarette in Lan Qing's mouth fell, and he suddenly felt a strange feeling, and that familiar and unfamiliar feeling made him appear momentarily sluggish.

"Goodbye ......"

Memories that I didn't have before appeared in my mind.

A complete stranger stood on the roof of the building, staring at Lan Qing strangely, as if he wanted to see through his soul.

The man was wearing a woman's skirt, stockings, and high heels. But the stubble on his face had not yet been shaved off, and his short and neat hair and countless masculine features proved that he was a man.

The man raised the gun in his hand, aimed it at his temple, and pulled the trigger without hesitation.

Blood splattered, seemingly on his face.

Lan Qing touched her face, only cold sweat was flowing down. It's early spring, and it's not hot enough to sweat, not to mention that it's still raining outside.

Lighting a cigarette again, Lan Qing couldn't calm down for a long time. He didn't know why he had such strange memories.

He suddenly remembered Lan Lan's sleepwalking, would he be like Lan Lan and try to commit suicide in his dream?

Shaking his head, Blue leaned to sober himself up. He didn't hesitate to attribute these memories to drinking too much. He doesn't want to be a god of death now, he just wants to be an ordinary person.

Lan Qing didn't go over to visit the grandma downstairs before she died, he knew that the grandma wanted to see her son before she died.

It's a pity that in the end, Grandma passed away alone. Only one letter to his son remained.

It's not that he doesn't want to help these people, he's just afraid that his presence will cause more changes.

Her head has been filled with too many tragedies, and Lan Qing doesn't want to waste any more extra tears to see through the injustice of this world.

Lan Qing is not God, it rains when she wants to cry.

Spring, summer, autumn and winter, Lan Qing just wants to live this life like an ordinary person. It's just that he doesn't know if he's going to die of old age.