Chapter 194: Mother
"Mother, what is that?"
The gentle female voice replied, "It's the idol of Gala." ”
The young toddler grabbed the hem of his mother's skirt, shook his fleshy little short hand, grinned, and walked towards the idol of Gala step by step, but was picked up by his mother.
The first-time woman kissed her child's face and said softly, "Don't go, don't come near her." ”
The child did not understand what his mother meant, giggled ignorantly, and opened his clear eyes wide with joy.
Chen Tongsheng's eyes widened, and there was a gurgling sound in her throat, she should have spoken out, said something, called for help, but all the words were stuck in her throat, her head was empty, her whole body was tense, but only a strange hoarse sound in her throat was stuck.
She seemed to remember the years when she could still giggle in her mother's arms when she was a little ignorant.
It's really strange, Chen Tongsheng is precocious than other children, the earliest to walk, the first to learn to speak, babbling and calling her mother, she can talk so early, but like other ordinary children, she can't remember things in her mind, and she easily forgets things when she was young.
Chen Xinlan finally failed to cover his daughter's eyes, which were corroded and melted under her tearful gaze, and the bones supported a semi-thick skin, and the mother's head was supported on it by staring at her.
Her mother seemed to have melted into her, and Chen Tongsheng was also stained with the deadly liquid, and Chen Xinlan's pus and blood were dripping down from her body, and it seemed to be flowing down from her.
Chen Tongsheng was not completely frightened, she looked at Yu Su, who was tall and tall, and didn't know where she got the courage, she got up from the ground with her hands and feet, turned around and crawled over the corpse on the ground, opened her mouth and screamed quickly, her throat was dry and painful, but she didn't make any sound at all.
It was at this time that Chen Tongsheng lost the ability to speak.
She crossed the long steps covered with blood and corpses, ran through the palace road filled with white mist and didn't know the way forward, forgetting Song Chuanbai who was following closely behind her, she didn't care about anything, she couldn't care about anything, her ears were full of whistling wind, and her ears were full of weak and noisy whispers.
My baby.
My baby.
There are no nursery rhymes to put to sleep, there are no interesting stories, Chen Xinlan sat on the corridor with the baby in his arms, hugged her tightly in his arms, and kept kissing the child's immature eyebrows. She just shook slowly, and Chen Tongsheng fell asleep in her arms.
Every priest has the obligation to offer himself to Gala in exchange for Gala's re-incarnation, and Chen Xinlan is a rare priest in the past who cannot empathize with Gala after taking office and has spiritual vision.
In the Northern Dynasty, such a priest was considered to be derelict in his duty and dishonored the position of a priest, so in order to make up for his sins, Chen Xinlan was forced to give birth to a son with the temple host, who had the most bloodline inheritance among the three surnames.
Chen Tongsheng was originally born to make up for his mother's lack of priesthood, which was a sacrifice to Gala.
And if Chen Tongsheng is an ordinary child, even if he can empathize with Gala, he is just a priest who can see his head all his life and take over from Chen Xinlan.
However, Chen Tongsheng was extremely talented, and he directly developed spiritual vision early, and was regarded by his biological father as the best container for Gala to return to the world, and the Chen family had other expectations for her.
Chen Xinlan was the most unacceptable to this result.
She grabbed the young Chen Tongsheng and asked, "Didn't I tell you not to go near her?" Didn't I tell you not to enter the temple? Why are you disobedient? Why can't you be obedient! ”
Chen Tongsheng's shoulder was pinched painfully, and he cried.
"What is Gala? Generations of priests are going to give her their lives just to get her back? What if she comes back, what if she doesn't?! I have my own life, you have your own way to go, you want to go to them and die! You're going to die! ”
Many years later, Chen Tongsheng recalled that it was not that Chen Xinlan was unable to produce spiritual vision, but that she was unwilling to accept Gala, and she did not want to repeat the fate of the priest being spiritually invaded by Gala from generation to generation.
Just like Chen Tongsheng after waking up, he began to constantly recall the life deeds that belonged to Gala and perceive her mood, it is said that people who can accept Gala's power and fully accept Gala's memories can become Gala and invite Gala to the next world.
This behavior is no different from suicide.
Even if Chen Xinlan wants to be a priest for the rest of her life to die, she is never willing to let others encroach on her spirit, and she does not hesitate to destroy her future for this, but she is forcibly given an order to give birth to offspring.
She was unwilling to let Chen Tongsheng repeat the mistakes of the previous priests, but she couldn't stop Chen Tongsheng from revealing his extraordinary talent.
Chen Xinlan was simply devastated, she kept studying the ancient books, and made a decoction to stop Chen Tongsheng's vision, forcing her to drink it, but she was afraid of causing fatal injury to Chen Tongsheng, so she grabbed her neck and made her vomit.
She once ignored Chen Tongsheng's crying, cut her arm, and buried something under the thin layer of flesh.
"Mother is with you, let Mother be with you."
Chen Xinlan kissed the child's bleeding wound and kept muttering.
You are not a sacrifice, you are not a priest, you are .....
You are my child.
She once gave all her heart to look forward to and love the child when she was pregnant, and she had kissed the child with a young face countless times in her infancy, but in the end it couldn't be hers, and it couldn't even belong to the child herself.
After Chen Tongsheng noticed the change in his mother's mind, kept crying, resisting, and struggling hysterically, Chen Xinlan seemed to slowly calm down.
She gradually accepted the fact that Chen Tongsheng was not close to her mother, and she accepted the similarities between Chen Tongsheng and Gala, and Chen Tongsheng seemed to be born to be Gala.
Chen Tongsheng often has uncontrolled spiritual vision and falls into illusions, so she is more and more unable to remember the things in front of her, and she is more and more unable to distinguish between reality and illusions. If no one forced him, Chen Tongsheng would not feel the slightest feeling of starvation for two days in a row. Her sense of time was completely confused, one moment today, the day after tomorrow, and the other time pointing to the sun outside to say that it was dark.
Most of the priests who couldn't withstand the spiritual invasion of Gala were so crazy, but they had poor qualifications, so they went crazy very late, and Chen Tongsheng went crazy very early, and her life had not even begun, and it was going to end so deliriously.
During the period when Chen Tongsheng's condition was good and bad, and he was going crazy or not, Chen Xinlan seemed to have completely given up on this child, and she didn't even leave the hall to take a look at Chen Tongsheng.
To the surprise of everyone in the palace, in the end, Chen Tongsheng not only survived, but also lifted his crazy and chaotic state, his temper became more eccentric, and he became more unapproachable, but he regained his previous intelligence.
When Chen Tongsheng had just recovered from a serious illness and stepped into the hall to find her mother, Chen Xinlan turned around and said something that stunned everyone present.
She said, "You are not my daughter, but the next priest born through my belly." ”
The people present were stunned and not what Chen Xinlan said, after all, this sentence was actually recognized by many people, and everyone thought that priests should be full of divinity, so they could no longer have their emotions and normal families like ordinary people. If so, it only proves that the priest is not qualified.
In their eyes, Chen Xinlan is such an unqualified priest.
Most people who are too high in divinity can't live well, Chen Xinlan's mother is like this, she died early, Chen Xinlan was still very ignorant when she became a priest, no one dared to love her anymore, and no one loved her.
So when she was first pregnant, she looked forward to and loved the new life in her womb, and she couldn't wait to give all her strength to the child, so that the palace people who served her felt very strange when she saw it.
How could a priest who spoke with divine powers care about the flesh and mortals as much as mortals?
What priest didn't dedicate his entire life to Gala, to the point of dying?
Chen Xinlan was criticized and reminded by the elderly and temple staff from all sides during the pregnancy stage, and even when she just gave birth to Chen Tongsheng, someone came to ask for a child, thinking that Chen Xinlan was neither qualified nor capable of raising this baby.
Chen Xinlan has never wavered under the oppression of all parties, whether it is day or night, Chen Tongsheng will never leave her sight and leave her embrace. Chen Tongsheng's diet and materials when he was a baby were also asked by Chen Xinlan one by one, and he couldn't wait to go to the dining room to make snacks for his daughter for every meal. I don't want to let my subordinates intervene to help take care of it.
However, such a love of licking calves, not only did not look at the child when she was seriously ill, but also said such things after she recovered, no matter who saw it, they would be surprised.
However, Chen Tongsheng and Chen Xinlan's mother and daughter were the most calm, Chen Tongsheng felt so bored, and turned around and left quietly.
Later, Chen Tongsheng finally understood the reason why Chen Xinlan became so cold to her, and after surviving the first stage, she could be regarded as having initially accepted Gala.
This means that her flesh and blood relatives, her children, are gradually dying.
Even if she had less hope for Chen Tongsheng's birth, she would not be like this today.
Tired of the priest's doomed fate, she turned to see her daughter into an even more horrible quagmire.
Chen Ke and Kiryu's biological father hopes that Chen Tongsheng will bring Galahia, and the Chen family hopes that Kiryu will be a powerful pawn for himself.
And Chen Xinlan did not agree to any of the requests, but used her best ability to keep Chen Tongsheng by her side.
They maintained this mother-daughter relationship and not mother-daughter, and they held grudges against each other for a long time.
Until Chen Xinlan died.
In the end, she followed the traces left on Chen Tongsheng's body at the beginning, found Chen Tongsheng in the heavy white mist, saved Chen Tongsheng, and left her own life.
Maybe in the end, she stayed at the door, did she hate me, Chen Tongsheng thought, or hated Gala, hated Yu, hated this repetitive, doomed torture?
Why couldn't she, like the other priests, be faithful to Gala?
Chen Xinlan's insoluble head was sunk in the liquid, as if with a hint of a smile, it seemed that she was still full of unwillingness, she died so deliberately, as if it was a sacrifice for her daughter.