The environment is good, so I have developed the habit of loving clean things.

Better.. Today's events ...

Turn off the lights and want to warm them. Only to find out that the phone case was lost. The emotions I had been maintaining collapsed in an instant, why did this happen to me. The last time I left, I found that I vaguely felt that the phone case was somewhere, but I didn't turn over the quilt. It's not comfortable to hold it now. I throw a phone case littering by charging. I also told the kids. My heart hurts. It feels like a rollercoaster ride today. I don't like roller coasters for construction anymore. Today the crook asks about the favorite building in the resume. The roller coaster I wrote. Today's mood is really good.

When I come back in the future, no matter how tired I am, I will write down my feelings for today. Because the more tired I get, the more I don't want to write, the more chaotic my heart becomes. I don't know what to do with it.

I found that I came back and wiped things clean. I've been trying to sort out what happened today. But me. It's really a mess of minds. It really is.

Actually, I don't want to tell others that my life is very bad and panicked. But also see it as a kind of thing, a kind of sharing with others, others know, I won't be so helpless and panicked.

Today, I found the liquid foundation at noon and lost it, so I called for compensation. As a result, I was asked to eat and compensated, mainly because I wanted to pay for it, but it turned out to be too messy. He even invited me to eat and lent me money. I didn't even lend me borrowing, money-saving software, and Meituan's living expenses, and a person of the opposite sex could actually lend me these things. I really think it's amazing ...

I don't want other people's help.,It's really hard to do it.,How can someone else help me all the time?,Wouldn't it be a big psychological gap if others don't help me.,Absolutely not.。。 How so? When I was at my most vulnerable. Shouldn't I have agreed to go to the appointment, I just want someone to compensate me for the foundation... But no one else should pay for my recklessness. I just feel bad about losing something. And it's because I can't afford to buy liquid foundation. Am I really guilty of a terrible crime?

I felt a little uneasy. Very unsettling. There are too many socials today, and I can't turn it around. It's a hotel, it's a supermarket, it's an interview, it's an invitation, it's a meal. Everyone in the restaurant seemed to be listening to me, and they were always looking at me. I think they're all ugly. There is no northern look. And I didn't have it myself. But I don't have a sense of superiority at all, because I just feel good to be cherished again. Because when I was a child, everyone cherished me. Not when it's big. So I cut back on going out and hope that people will not despise me so much and cherish me. I don't think you should blame too much for other people's actions because there are many aspects of other people's thoughts.

There are 3 boys on the innermost table.,But only one of them saw the face facing me.,I think he's the kind of pampered boy.,I hope he can add me to WeChat.,But he didn't.,He's replying to messages.,There must be an object at least someone who likes it.。 And I'm clearly not the better of that. The man was obviously trying to chase me, but I had to refuse. I looked at him, I saw his lips as soon as I met, they were too thick, and I swore not to kiss thick lips anymore because I was quite thick, and it wasn't thick before, all because I kissed thick lips to become like this, so every step of life must be carefully considered. Just now he asked me if I was short of daily necessities, I said coarse and salt asked why I said to wash my face and smiled and said no wonder white, but at night I really opened my eyes and said nonsense. I also told the young lady of the convenience store that I wanted to use this to wash my face and brush my teeth, and when others asked, I said that I had seen a real person, a real show, and a real person, so I felt like I was an Internet celebrity. I'm really embarrassed but enjoying it, but it's all about feeling like being a girlfriend. The clerk asked if it was his girlfriend, and he said that he didn't just know him, and he didn't know it yet. I'm embarrassed, really embarrassed, but I don't know what to say.

Actually, because I didn't go out, I went in if I wanted to, and I didn't think about who would pay for it. Why is it so coincidental that he actually has cash, and he has to lend it to me. A big hand was going to give it to me, but I was sure to back off. I must no longer be a person who sees money and dies for money. He said that he was worried that I would take the wrong path and commit suicide, that he was really a good friend, and that others would care about this, and that it would be true. mmp。 But I'm not going to make friends. Exercise. Shouldn't I ask for this foundation? I'm really stunned. Greedy and cheap, suffer a big loss. Breaking his own principles again. I feel like he buys me daily necessities and borrows money like giving to me, I really hate it, this feeling of being charity, and it's also based on the feeling of a future object, I don't want to accept help from others because of the relationship between men and women. Not really. This money can't be collected wow. After accepting it, I'm going to be his girlfriend. Gotta go out and play with him every week, me. ,,Because I've asked many times it's a weekend.。。。 When he ate fish, he also said many times that he wanted to rest, asking me how long it would be to rest, and I also said that he should take a long vacation, so as not to rest in his heart. Ha ha. He said he hadn't taken a break for 1 year. I'm amazing, if I open a shop at home, I'll rest. I feel sorry for him to complain about him like this, although it may not have much impact. But I really don't want to. Didn't want to be with him. I'm going to be lonely and single. At the time, I thought that the meal could be returned, but as soon as I said that my situation was not suitable for dinner, please eat. Because others won't let you please.。。 You have to worry about it, please don't move. You have to have at least 3.4 months of salary to pay it back. Exercise. You must no longer accept alms and help from others. Hey, I shouldn't have to let you lose, right?,The main thing is that I was very angry at the time.。。。。 Impulsiveness is the devil. The good song cycle is half a day before I get tired and want to vomit, and the bad song I want to vomit after listening to it twice, and I think about it too much.

I suddenly remembered that this was because I lived here.,Remember the boy who handed out flyers that day, and that lived opposite.。。 I have a lot of temperament to see that I also have a feeling, and I feel it, but then I don't go down. I want to see him. Alas, some people really think about what it looks like to be in love..?

I'm still left alone. For what he was worried about would go the wrong way, I said that I would talk about it in a year, at least to finish the contract, and it would take more than half a year to sign it tomorrow.

3 shifts can be changed to haha said let me go to the front desk, I thought about it, just when I paid the rent. He said that he would give 4,600 a month and include food and lodging. But what's the matter. I'm short of money. But with such an opportunity to exchange energy, I must give it a try. Money is also so much money. Although it's hard, at least you can at least enter this industry. Like the engineer said ... If I'm looking for it, I'm definitely going to find a handsome programmer.,,I feel like there's a lot of style to learn together and learn anything quickly.。 Although I didn't look at the face, I had to look at other people's fast learning. Code really is a no-brainer, every bit counts. Sometimes it's a whole morning. It's stupid to ask someone. So you can't finish all the pages? Come back 1 no computer 2 no energy. So be sure to cherish the opportunity to have a computer. Now everyone is questioning whether I may or not learn, including myself, so sad, I want to see if I should enter this industry, and then go... I'm going to take good notes, and review. Really he said it was a promise, and if he didn't work in 3 months, he would go back to his current stage, my God. 1How did I mix it up like this2It's too warm, I actually guaranteed that I would leave a place for me and then replace 2 shifts with 3 shifts, one shift per person, oh my God, these people's brains are too flexible.

As soon as he asked me about the money, I told me all the numbers. This is going to be replaced by the fact that I would definitely be confused and won't answer before.,It's also a good opportunity to catch up.?

The truth is precious, and before the experience is important, I would never believe in the so-called promises, thinking that everything would change just words, but not now, because I want to be a different person, every drop of rain and dew is the gift of life...

The equivalent of 4500 money I already owe, the overdraft amount. Credit card 3000 Huabei 1500... But in fact, this is just right, my confidence may be financial management, the school gave me no tuition and charity, I really can't ask for someone else's, because fate will change, if I don't have the confidence of more than 6,000 yuan, I will definitely not stay at home for so long, because for me I can spend a long time at home, and I don't have to come out to accept the beating of society. So don't accept other people's gifts easily, everything will change, people like me.

The stomach is so uncomfortable.,I don't know if it's because of the grilled fish or the stomach that just vomited.。。。。

There is also a reminder effect on this friend,,, I said that I should read the contract carefully, and the contract must be written in the contract, and the basic salary must be so much, yes, this friend can play a reminder role at a critical moment, and play a role in helping to rescue and borrow money in difficult moments, and all this is only the first day of acquaintance.

Do you want to give up this person, but people have helped me so much, how can I pay it back. I still shouldn't have eaten this, but I really ... It was heart-wrenching at the time. But unfortunately I experienced it again at night.,,The phone case was lost again.,Although I've always wanted to change to a new one but I like the warm light very much.,Today I also saw in the supermarket that people use that kind of yellow transparent phone case.,Turn on the flashlight is the warm light.。。 It's so sad...

I'm going to set up a notepad to write about what people give me and what people ask me for.

There is also the man I met and what happened. It's true. How long will it take. It's really hard to give up my hobby, and it's very tiring every day. It really is.

The engineer teacher scolded me for being monkeys. Oh my God. I'm absolutely gone, and I can't scold it back. Wipe.

It's so heavy, it's so heavy, it's so uncomfortable, it's stomach. Life really can't go on.

It's all because you have to be decent, or what is life. What is there to say.

I said don't mention life, it's too heavy. Stopped talking. Definitely. Why don't I say that everyone else has an opinion? Wipe.