Many things can often only see a vague result when people perceive that they are happening, and the cause is easy to be covered up layer by layer by overlapping changes in mood and sudden changes in the trajectory of life, and finally forgotten.

The tragedy of Wang Chengnan can be traced back to when his mother Yang Ling was still a daughter.

Jiaojiao's daughter's family has lived in the deep gate for a long time, and one day I occasionally saw my father's subordinates striding through the Fuzhong Garden, walking through the purple and red, not contaminated with a little greasy floral fragrance, the young Langjun, peep and please.

Yang Ling was pampered and grew up in the end, and he fell in love with the person he liked, so he was not timid at all, and he sent letters and objects to Yu Xia. Lang had the intention of having a concubine, and it didn't take long for the two to rely on the errands of loyal servants, across the deep compound, to promise each other their hearts together.

Yang Ling has done many bold things, including going out of Yang's mansion in the middle of the night to have a tryst with his lover, and even playing around with his lover in disguise as a woman, and also followed him into the other party's mansion.

At that time, the man told her that as long as she married in, she would be the best hostess in the house.

His mansion is really small, it can't be compared with the Yang Mansion at all, but in the eyes of the girl who was in love at that time, it was the most luxurious, warm, and sweet place in the world.

She often wonders, do the people in the house like me? Will his mother like me?

If she gets married, will she be able to manage a family well? Can you give the best help to your loved one?

On those nights when she read her lover's letters repeatedly, the girl smiled lowly, buried her head in the crook of her arm because of shyness, and continued to read word by word with an unrelenting flush on her cheeks out of curiosity.

In her dazzling dream-like romance, she unreservedly entrusted everything. It seems that all the days in the future are preparing for marrying a wife.

She handed over all the information about herself and all the information she could have about the Yang family as the daughter of the Yang Mansion. Yang Ling even got pregnant before marriage, and in order to marry her sweetheart, she had a lot of trouble with her family, and the scandal quickly destroyed the reputation she had built up over the years. Yang Ling didn't care about this, she was locked in the attic, and she still had the courage to jump up and down and pry the door.

Until a letter came back from the front line, revealing the fact that her beloved betrayed her boss and the court, and betrayed the military intelligence to the enemy.

Yang's father was imprisoned because of this, and Yang Ling's two elder brothers were also killed and died on the battlefield one after another. As soon as the clan's power plummeted, the man came to her just when she suddenly fell into despair, crying and panicking.

He was still complaining of grievances and admiration in front of him, and then he drugged her on the back foot, trying to use her as a gold medal to avoid death and go out of the city.

When she woke up, she heard Yu Xia arguing with the man. She walked slowly up the hillside to the high cliff, looking at the forest trees below, which continued far away.

Then she turned to the man and said, "Come here." ”

Yu Xia said sharply in the back: "Miss! ”

"You can't go with him! Don't go with him! ”

One after another. At first, it was an all-out dissuasion, and then it was mixed with invish against men.

The man ignored Yu Xia and immediately walked over, he was still weaving sweet and deadly lies, he would constantly have new hardships and new excuses every moment, he was saying that he loved her all the time.

Love her.

Yang Ling lowered his head and laughed, just like he had heard love words countless times before.

She glanced back at Yu Xia, and then suddenly pushed the man down the high cliff in front of her.

It was a long, long time before she heard the sound of a heavy object hitting the ground in the distance below. Because the voice was too small and inconspicuous, she stood there motionless for a long time, slowly turned back, walked down the hill towards Yu Xia, and said, "He's dead." ”

I woke up from a big dream, and my heart was exhausted to death.

Only the bulging lower abdomen is a sign that the remnants of sin still exist, and the bitterness is still there.

Just when the garden was dilapidated and desolate, the new governor came to propose, and she sat in the shadow shrouded by the tall figure of the other party, remembering that there was more than one man in the world.

Rong Xian, the governor of the capital, used to stand behind his father with a subtle smile, and repeatedly invited Miss Yang to become a good person for Qin and Jin. It's just that she couldn't see or hear at that time.

Rong Xian stood in front of her with his hands behind his back, and his voice was deep, which touched her heart and shook with suspicion.

"Long time no see." He said, "Miss...... It's not pretty anymore. ”

It's not pretty anymore.

This is almost the biggest blow to a woman who has nothing but to rely on the remnants of her beauty. Skin was the last bargaining chip she had, and she could only count on Rong Xian to love her radiant girlhood, and to love her pale and haggard after all the torture. Otherwise, she has nothing to rely on, otherwise she has nowhere to go, and if she can't take this opportunity to help her father, then she really has no value at all.

Yu Xia will also comfort Miss: "Lord Rong is talking angrily, didn't he still give Miss a dowry gift, and want to marry Miss in a beautiful way?" ”

The older elders in the family also came to the front one by one, pointing fingers at her, not lifting their eyelids, hanging loosely with old age spots, and said in a long voice: "Look, I am indecent, I am not ashamed, and I have affected the whole family." Originally, it was left to the older generations, and this was all about asking the family to give a poison, and the medicine died to clear the lintel. As a result, I don't know if it's the blessing of several lifetimes, it's all like this, and there are still men who are willing to want you. Don't you hurry up to get married and serve? If Lord Rong has a bad word, don't blame your mother's family for not recognizing you at that time! ”

If he still accepts me...... Yang Ling thought, if he is still willing to want me, I will love him.

On the night of their wedding, Rong Xian stood detached, groping with jade Ruyi in his hand, but he didn't pick off her hijab.

After a while, I only heard Rong Xian say: "If I do this, it can be regarded as repaying Ling Zun's kindness." Forget about this hijab. ”

Yang Ling's hands and feet were suddenly cold.

He was silent for a moment, looked at Yang Ling on his knees, his hands tightly clasped together, and said, "Do you know, eldest miss, the moment I marry you and enter the door, I don't love you anymore." ”

"No man can accept the current eldest lady." The jade Ruyi in his hand fell on the table, walked to the door and added the last sentence: "Don't hang my Rongxian surname when you are born." ”

It was this sentence that made Yang Ling transfer all the unbearable and hatred to Wang Chengnan, who was not born at that time.

She can only do this, shame and hatred of herself almost make her unable to live, she needs someone who can live and hate.

It was at this time that Yang Ling began to go crazy.

She would even grab Yu Xia and ask, "Is it possible that if there is no such child, he will continue to like me?" ”

"Is it true that if I hadn't rejected him so decisively, he would have looked at me more now?"

"If I were born a boy!" Yang Ling turned over in the middle of the night, ran out of the inner room and woke up Yu Xia and asked, "If this is a male fetus, is it possible...... Will I go back to the same as before? ”

How can she go back to the time when she had thousands of favors, and everyone loved her and obeyed her?

The carefree girl's time passed so quickly, and it was gone, without giving anyone who was still in the dream any chance to notice and warn.

She longed for Wang Chengnan to die, in her womb, in every scene that appeared in front of her, and when she looked at the innocent and immature child countless times, she was suddenly frightened and retracted her hands.

So she vented her anger and resentment on Yu Xia again, and she was stunned at Yu Xia's swollen side face after she woke up, just like she was stunned at Wang Chengnan who fell into the water.

Rong Li'er came at this time.

Rong Li'er is not her own child, it is Rong Xian's daughter born with a concubine outside, and she brought it in to raise Mrs. Zhengfang - lest she have nothing for a long time and it doesn't look good to say it.

She came out of place, but it happened to be very suitable for Yang Ling's long-suppressed and distorted mind.

The old lady of the Rong family didn't even know that the child was not hers, but she still came, and said that the child was not a boy. If Rong Li'er is a boy, then no matter what kind of feelings Rong Xian has for her, her status as an eldest lady and the guarantee of never being abandoned will be stable.

So all the resentment was vented on Rong Li'er.

When Yang Ling was the craziest, he tied Rong Li'er to the horse, forced her to learn, forced her to practice, Rong Li'er screamed and fell off the horse and broke her arm. Yang Ling whipped her with a whip and asked sharply, "Why can't you learn?" How can you not compare to a man?! ”

Rong Li'er was small and weak, holding her head and crying on the ground.

She had been thinking that she had a sister since she was babbling, and she was easy to talk about everything, but as soon as she mentioned that sister, her little head immediately stood up, and her eyes gurgled and rolled.

She gradually learned to sneak away to the side courtyard and meet the little she gave birth to.

Rong Li'er put her head on the dusty dirt and listened to Wang Chengnan babble about the first hare she had hit.

Listening to her say that the eagles flying in the sky, the deer drinking water by the lake, and the bustling crowds of people in the streets, she was free to wander outside all day.

"When you grow up," Wang Chengnan said, "we'll leave here and go to a beautiful place...... Have you ever seen a camel? ”

"Camels are the kind of people who have two big bags on their backs, like horses, but more than horses. They come from the desert, which is big and endless, and you can walk slowly and all the way. ”

They were so close that they could feel each other's breath through the crack in the door, pouring water vapor on each other's faces: "If you grow up, we'll buy a camel and we'll go out into the desert." There was little water and it was hot, but there would be the best eagles circling and flying with us, and circle after circle. We walked slowly along the edge of the desert, no one coming, no one there, just the two of us. ”

Her voice carried the infinite desire for freedom, and beautiful expectations, and Rong Li'er's eyes sparkled, as if she saw the unreachable yellow sand in the northwest in these few sentences, and she was almost fascinated when she heard it: "At dusk, half of the big round and yellow sun will slowly slide down the sand dunes." ”

"If there is wind, we will wrap our faces in kudzu cloth and take the wind to find an inn to live in. Call a plate of mutton, and ask a lot of cakes to dip in soup and eat. We can eat as much as we want, go as far as we want, no one can control us, no one will beat us. ”