Yu Xinyao was born in a small county town in Province A, and since she was a child, she watched her parents worry about giving birth to a boy, hiding in Tibet because of family planning, and finally got what she wanted after going through a lot of hardships, but because of the fact that the life after giving birth to a child is always tight, the so-called tight is not the same as an ordinary family, but all year round working in the family farm or doing temporary work to earn money only enough to maintain a basic livelihood for a year, and even the child's tuition is a little tight, But no matter how big the burden is on the family, they still do everything for the boy, especially because when they caught up with family planning, one or two girls were born in the family, and the last one was a boy, of course, the price of getting what he wanted was to face a huge fine.

But when the only boy was born, the age of the parents was about to enter middle age, and for the child who had been asking for a long time, they were very tight in terms of raising and living, but they were still very spoiled by this hard-won child, because to spoil their son, they would eventually ignore the cultivation and education of their daughter, in fact, it was not neglect but insufficient funds.

If you want to raise three children at the same time, can you earn that little money by the father alone, after paying the daughter's tuition, all the people in the family will be tight, not to mention that in the 21st century, all the monthly income of the entire family cannot even reach the per capita salary in this small county, let alone raise three children. In the end, in order to reduce the burden on the family, he could only drop out of school early, but he was really too young and naïve, and dropping out early was only a short period of relaxation, and later with the rapid development of this society, he was soon to be eliminated by this society, and every time he had to worry about work, not that he was too picky, but he hoped that he would change his parents' lives at a certain time, so that his family could live better, but these were very difficult, It's not wrong to think about these things every day and every night, which leads to insomnia at a young age.

Thinking about it at that time, he didn't even dare to talk about love, just because he knew that even if his other half accepted his family, his parents might not be able to accept his family, not that he thought too much, but the fact and reality were like this, because his parents were really incomprehensible for their son, and his only brother was very different from himself, so in the face of having such a family, basically many people would not consider letting themselves be their daughters-in-law, Because this society is so realistic, no one will want to cause trouble on themselves.

People are such a reality that there is no way, and they will not force anyone to help them clean up these, because people do not have this obligation, these are their own responsibilities in this life, parents have always been as long as they are fed and clothed, and there is no special pursuit of life, even if a few children are in such a competitive society, they also think that as long as they give a few children enough food and clothing, there is no need to compare anything with others, This is because of the concept that people who have lived in this small county town for generations, and even wandered around the town when they rarely entered the county town in their lives.

But for a person in the 21st century, the conditions given by parents are very limited, although they are young, there are many differences between themselves and those peers, in fact, there are shortcuts to make money, for the face of their parents and their last self-esteem, they have never touched the bottom line of morality. Although the environment in which I was a child was limited, my parents quarreled for a few dollars and a few cents from childhood to adulthood, but I would not easily do things that I regret for a little benefit.

When I was a child, there was only one child in the family.,Since I was a child, my mother didn't like me to go out to play.,Every time I have a holiday or something, I'm staying at home.,At that time, it wasn't that I watched TV every day.,Sometimes the mother who watched TV for a while had to say for a long time.,There's no way to play with ants and chickens and ducks raised at home.。 Go out and play with the children, and when you get dirty and go back, your mother will scold herself, and your grandmother doesn't like her very much, even if there was only one child in the family at that time, but she was not very popular, just because she was a girl, so she was not likable.

It is because of this that I desire to be free and to be cared for, but these things are very easy for some people, but they are very far away from themselves, sometimes even if he is in front of him, he still can't firmly grasp it, just because he thinks too much about things, and he is always thinking about how hard he wants to be a good child in front of his family, but he doesn't know that no matter what he does, he can't meet their needs, no matter how hard he tries, he can't get it.

If you can start over, you will definitely not live for other people's ideas, because that life is very tiring, not to mention, there is no way to help the people around you, so only if you are strong, can you bring help to your family and the people around you, this world is a money society, money is not a problem, no money is difficult to move an inch, nothing can be done, sometimes it is a little bit of money, you can only look at it in your eyes but there is no way to change or give help, I could only watch the tragedy happen.

God may be fair, although it was after I completed the last journey of my life, it gave me a chance to go back to the past, let me go back to the time when I was young, and slowly I realized with the change of time how stupid what I did at that time, and I would be naïve to think that everything I did could be changed, but I never expected that it was just my wishful thinking, and it did not represent everyone's thoughts.

So now when I go back to the first turning point in my life, I didn't have a child to play with me since I was a child, and I watched my mother suffer for a boy, after I was born, I beat a child for my son, in fact, because others said it was a girl, so I brutally beat the child.

I didn't expect that I would be able to go back to when I was ten years old, this is my mother's second child after me, because I saw my mother beat a child before, and I felt sorry for my mother's physical damage, so I cried and shouted for my grandmother to keep this child. This also determines that my sister and I have to be talked about by others because of girls since we were young. But now I have returned to before my sister was born, and after crying to keep my sister, I made a decision to change my current life.

Although I knew that the birth of my sister was not popular with everyone, I still decided that I would not let the previous things happen again. I will definitely do my best to change these. I will no longer let my sister be the same as myself, because of family limitations, I will lose a lot of opportunities to compete or learn with others. I will no longer make my parents tired for the rest of my life, and I can only see it in my eyes but there is no way to change it. I also have to suffer from the strange eyes of relatives and friends, in fact, it is very simple because there is no money at home, and there are so many children, who wants to associate with such a family, I am afraid that we will be entangled, remember who has nothing to do when the father will never contact the father, as long as there is something happening in the family, will say to the father, in fact, it is for those little gifts, is it ridiculous to say it, and I am afraid that we will be entangled but will still be worried about our family's little bit of gift money, hehe, people are really greedy.