When I looked for it again, I was gone.

Song Huanian reached out and touched his cheek, which was already wet.

She couldn't imagine what kind of mood Song Ci was in writing these diaries, and the word miss was completely displayed in those words.

Like her, she always feels guilty in the face of Lin Qiuling and Song Zhongchen's meticulous care, because she has a Song Xiaoqiao locked in her heart.

It's a person who doesn't want to see him for a long time, but when he closes his eyes, the outline automatically appears in his mind.

Hers, Master Song.

Song Huanian flipped over the diary and looked at the back, there was a word "year" written with a brush, looking at the font, it was Song Ci's handwriting.

She flipped the back to reveal a letter.

Year after year:

Long time no see.

Today is the 25th of July, the 577th day of separation from you.

I fell off the list, three points short.

Am I stupid? I can't even get into a university.

The distance between us seems to be a little farther away.

The day I was taken to the hospital, I was judged by the doctor to be mentally impaired and later experienced three months of blindness.

Without you by my side, those three months were the most painful days of my life, whether I opened or closed my eyes, my eyes were full of dust, and I couldn't see the light at all.

During these three months, my mood continued to be low, so Tang Sinian and Xu Xu would come over after school, they treated me like a child, coaxed me to rest, made me happy, and the key thing was that they would tell me stories before going to bed, and describe to me what happened at school every day, and they felt that they acted more like a child than me.

I would occasionally go crazy and break things in the hospital room because I couldn't see you, I couldn't hear you, and it was certainly not torture for a person who missed me so much.

Both the doctor and Song Tianlin said that they would transfer me to the psychiatric department, after all, I was a delirious person, and I might do something out of the ordinary one day.

But Tang Sinian, that stupid boy, he actually went to beg Song Tianlin, begged him not to do this, begged him to let me continue to stay in the ward as a normal person, do you think he is stupid?

He was stupid, not only did he go to intercede, he also called me brother.

He said: "Brother, the squad leader is waiting for you, you must obediently cooperate with the treatment, you are well, the squad leader will come back, you don't want the squad leader to wait too long, right?" ”

I was silent.

I listened to him, obediently cooperated with the treatment, ate obediently, obediently listened to them tell me about the anger that happened at school, whether it was raining or sunny today, and how many flowers bloomed outside today...... Wait a minute.

Look, kid, how well-behaved I am, right?

yes, I'm waiting for you to come back!

I have been obedient until the day the eye gauze was removed, I obediently ......

But he lied to me......

I didn't see you after the gauze was removed, and I knew at that moment I had been deceived......

I thought you didn't want to see the people who cheated on me in front of me, so I dropped everything in the room and blasted them out one by one, but you still didn't show up.

I realized that in the days when I couldn't see, they told me many people, except for you, every word has nothing to do with you, they are using this way to make me forget you, but what they didn't expect is that you have been engraved into my heart, no accident, I am afraid that I will not be able to forget it in this life.

Even if I can't meet you again and marry another wife, you're still my heart, not Cinderella.

Then one day, I went crazy again.

Tang Sinian came in and said: "Brother, Song Huanian has a congenital heart disease, and she had a heart recurrence that day and was sent to Beijing for a heart transplant. ”

I was silent again.

Since that day, I'm no longer crazy, I've figured out what I'm going to do in the future. Book every day

I told Mr. Zhao that I wanted to be a famous doctor, so when I returned to school, I switched from liberal arts to science, but Tang Sinian didn't know what to smoke and went to science.

I started studying like crazy because I found a goal that would keep me going.

Admission to the best medical school in China and becoming the best surgeon is nothing else but you.

In your name, save lives.

Because I didn't have a foundation, it was very difficult for me to study, but I didn't give up, I made progress little by little, and I asked others if I couldn't, and finally I was able to pass the score line of the Birch University School of Medicine in the mock exam, and I knew at that moment that my efforts were not in vain.

I often go to Beijing once when I can't get through it, and you don't know about it, because every time I see it, it's your back, and you never look back at me.

The first time I went to Beijing, I stayed there for ten days, and without your WeChat contact, the phone number was empty, I searched through the schools in Beijing where you will appear.

I searched for nine days, and I finally found you.

At that moment, I didn't want to do anything but rush up and hug you into my arms.

However, I didn't have the courage.

I panicked when I saw a boy who was somewhat similar to me confessing to you.

I'm afraid that you forgot about your boyfriend in Birch City because of his appearance.

You reject him, saying that your boyfriend's name is Song Ci and he is your hero.

But the big hero in your mouth who is not afraid of anything, doesn't even have the courage to take you into his arms, he is a coward.

You left, I rushed over and beat the boy, told him that I was your boyfriend, told him to stay away from you, I don't know if you were harassed by him again.

Later, I took advantage of the half-day break on the weekend to buy a plane ticket to the city where you were there, and then watched you get on the bus and go home, and then take the latest flight back to Huacheng.

I know when your school's bell rings, when you leave the school gate, count your steps from the school gate to get on the bus, and see if you've been fat or thin lately.

You'll be happy at times, lost at times, and calm at night.

I don't know if you are happy and remembered Song Ci, is it because you are disappointed because you didn't see him, and is it because you are calm because you didn't come to see you?

I do not know.

After the college entrance examination, I went to Beijing again, but I still didn't find you.

Today, I learned from Mr. Zhao that I could not be admitted to the medical school of Birch University, and I was three points short.

That's three points......

It is often said that one point can kill tens of thousands of people.

Three points, ruining the efforts of a boy who never wanted to study actively.

three points, so that two people who have been separated for five hundred and seventy-seven days cannot see each other.

Three points, he couldn't be admitted to the medical school of Birch University, couldn't become a doctor who saved lives, and couldn't face the girl he loved the most.

I chose to repeat the ......

So, little friend, please wait a little longer for me, and I'll be soon.

This time, there is only success and no failure.

After all, I'm going to stay in Birch City and marry you.

- Song Ci, written on a rainy night on July 25, 2018.

Song Huanian couldn't hold back any longer, and tears kept dripping on the letter, smudging the font.

Footsteps can be heard in the hallway.

-- Click--

Someone pushed the door in, Song Huanian raised his eyes, and saw the young man in the white shirt who was thinking about him day and night.