"Why don't we go in and have a while?" Gu Ze's inopportune voice interrupted my train of thought.

"What nonsense are you talking about?" My face turned red for a moment, and I didn't understand why he was making such a joke at this time, so I took his hand and prepared to leave here.

"I'm not kidding, Qingqing, or you won't go back tonight." Gu Ze grabbed my hand and looked at me deeply without moving, and the seriousness in his expression made me panic inexplicably.

"I..."

"Anyway, there's no one at home now, so you can find an excuse and say that you're going to the same school, so you won't go back today, okay?" Gu Ze persuaded me softly.

“………”

I felt very sudden at this moment, we have been dating for so long, Gu Ze would never make such an unreasonable request, and I always thought that he was different from others.

Although we kissed and hugged each other when we were in love, I never thought of giving myself up in high school, so the first thought in my mind when I faced his request was to refuse, but when I looked at him with serious and begging eyes, I didn't know how to refuse.

"I... I'm not ready. I lowered my head and didn't dare to look at his expression, and whispered.

Hearing this, Gu Ze took my hand and let go: "Do you like me?" His words came with deep suspicion and undisguised disappointment.

"Of course I like you." I didn't want to blurt it out, of course I liked him, he was my first boyfriend, and the first kiss was given to him.

"Then why don't you want to give yourself to me?" Gu Ze took my hand again and asked.

"I... I just think we're young. I muttered.

"Small?" Gu Ze suddenly smiled: "We are already 18 years old, adults, are we still young?" ”

"I... I'm just..."I looked at Gu Ze, moved my mouth, and couldn't speak for a long time.

"Okay, even if we're still young, just now, it was your classmate just now, people just brought their girlfriends in, aren't they small, I don't understand, are you too conservative, or you don't like me at all." Gu Ze said in a cold tone.

When I heard this, my heart felt like it had been frozen by something, and I was so good just now, but why did it suddenly become like this?

"We are who we are, so why bother with others." I said with some hurt in my heart, I felt very wronged and wronged, was it just because I was unwilling to give myself to him, he denied me everything to him.

"I'm not involved with anyone else, I just don't understand, I want to ask if you think the time is wrong, or the person is wrong, or... You have someone else in your heart. ”

I pushed him away in shock: "How can you say that, how can you doubt me, you know that I only have you in my heart." ”

"If you have me in your heart, why wouldn't you." Gu Ze looked at me and said aggressively.

"......" I watched in disbelief as he took a few steps back.

Gu Ze looked at my backward steps, and injuries flashed in his eyes: "You don't want to say anything..."

"Is it that heavy?"

"Isn't it important? Maybe you don't know yourself, do you really have me in your heart? If so, would you blurt out a rejection after I finished speaking? Gu Ze's voice revealed a faint sense of loss.

"I ......"

I wanted to tell him out loud that I had him in my heart and I wanted to explain, but I couldn't move my mouth to say it, because this sentence was too pale and too weak for him now.

We were relatively silent for a while, Gu Ze kept the distance I had just pushed away from him, stood there with his eyebrows lowered, reached out and took out a cigarette from his trouser pocket and slowly lit it, I watched him swallow the smoke ring from time to time in his mouth, a cigarette quickly shortened at a speed visible to the naked eye, and finally disappeared completely, leaving only a small piece of red cigarette holder that was ruthlessly thrown to the ground, and the blue-black sneakers on his feet stepped on it and lightly crushed his feet, this action was skillful and natural, but it made me feel a little bitter in my heart.

In the past, Gu Ze didn't have the habit of smoking, and even when he drank, he only ordered it at occasional parties.

At this time, I suddenly realized that I had never known him, and all I knew was what he said, and he was willing to tell me, and if he didn't say it, and he didn't want to, then it was like smoking, because he had never done it in front of me, so I never knew.

Maybe Jiajia is wrong, it's not that he doesn't care about me, but that I don't care enough about him.

"Aze..."Looking at his somewhat lonely back, my heart was sour.

Hearing me call him, Gu Ze raised his head, and I couldn't understand the emotion in his eyes.

"I'll send you back." He said in a calm tone, so calm that I mistakenly thought that everything I had just done was just my fantasy.

Gu Ze came over to take my hand, I didn't resist, I followed him obediently, his hand was still warm, but it was different from the feeling I had before, I thought funny, maybe it was because the two of them had just been cold, so the temperature also spread to the palm.

Along the way, he didn't speak, and I didn't say much, so I walked silently downstairs to my house.

"Let's go up." Aze spoke.

"I'll watch you go, I'll go again." I said persistently.

"Okay."

"Go home and send me a message to say you're safe."

"Hmm."

We said goodbye to each other as usual, but we felt that today was different from the past.

I watched Gu Ze walk out of the community, then stopped the oncoming taxi, got in, closed the door, and drove away.

He didn't look back at me the whole time, and after the car left, a tear welled out of the corner of my eye, glad he hadn't seen it, and sad that he didn't want to see it.

Because on the way back, his silence was like a blunt knife silently cutting my heart, and my tears kept rolling in my eyes, but he never noticed.

"Hey, what do you want?" An eye-catching slender jade hand shook in front of my eyes.