Eating and eating, Zhao Zhengxu's tears fell uncontrollably.

He buried his head low, his black hair hanging down to cover half of his face.

It's just that the more depressed the emotion, the easier it is to collapse.

Yun Yi, who was having fun with his senior brother, noticed that something was wrong with him and looked over.

Sensing Yun Yi's gaze on his body, Zhao Zhengxu's whole body stiffened, and then he suddenly got up and ran out.

Seeing this, Ah Yun wanted to get up and chase after him, Yun Yi grabbed his sleeve and shook his head gently.

"Sometimes, emotions need to be vented, let him be alone."

Ah Yun sat back in silence.

Yun Yi sighed when he saw this, but it was really a mess.

After Zhao Zhengxu ran to the garden rockery, his suppressed emotions finally broke out.

Since he was a child, his parents told him that boys should not cry and cry, because they would be laughed at because he was a man.

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When he was a child, he lost a fight with a girl at the same table, and his classmates and teachers laughed at him, and a boy couldn't even beat a girl, so he was embarrassed to sue.

Slowly, he learned how to be a qualified man.

Studying is stressful, and he numbs himself with games;

Being bullied at school, he learns to smoke and disguises himself as a bad student so that others are afraid of him and dare not approach him.

After graduating, he couldn't find a suitable job, so he went around blindly submitting resumes, and at most, he had to interview six companies a day.

In the end, with the help of relatives and friends, I entered a private enterprise meteorological research institute.

Although it is a job related to his major, this kind of industry relies on seniority.

People with average ability and a good background will climb the fastest.

Those with outstanding abilities and strong backgrounds can climb up quickly, or they will be suppressed and gone.

He belongs to the average ability and background, so he spends his days in the mess and gets some dead wages and subsidies.

After not working for two years, his parents urged him to find a girlfriend and a blind date.

Raising money to buy a house, the down payment on the house emptied his parents' life savings, and also saddled him with a heavy mortgage for the next 30 years.

He originally thought that he would be like many house slaves, working mediocre every day, saving money to pay off the mortgage, and maybe he would have to do a micro-business.

It wasn't until a company physical examination that he was diagnosed with a malignant tumor in the lungs.

Before he could react, his parents rushed straight away.

Yes, they have exhausted their whole lives to raise only such a child.

smashed the pot and sold iron to make a down payment and bought him a house of more than 80 square meters in the city.

originally thought that the task of their life had been completed, and then as long as they watched their son marry a wife and have children, and the old couple occasionally helped to bring their grandchildren, then their life would be completely complete.

Who would have expected.

What came was that the white-haired man sent the black-haired man.

His parents are old, and he is an only child.

Before he died, his parents also sold his small three-bedroom to raise money for his surgery.

He knew his family too well, and after his death, although his family was not in debt, it did not have any savings.

The two elders have also reached retirement age, their mother has high blood pressure, and their father has rheumatism.

If one person falls ill, the family is gone.

……

Zhao Zhengxu has never felt that he is the kind of man who can break teeth and swallow blood, and bled without tears, he will be weak, scared, and fragile, he is just an ordinary person.

His biggest hobby is to fantasize that he can live a smooth or exciting life like the protagonist in it.

It took him more than 20 years to learn how to be a man.

Who knew that after crossing life and death, she turned out to be a woman.

Yun Yi stood quietly behind Zhao Zhengxu, looking at the originally tall figure, curled up in a ball, like a lonely little beast, the only son licking his wounds.

When she first came here, because of this small body, she could use the help of crying when she was sick to vent her hesitation and sadness.

But he could only hide and cry silently secretly.

So what about men?

It's just ordinary people.

After he finished venting, Yun Yi found a flat stone beside him and sat down cross-legged silently.

Zhao Zhengxu watched Yun Yi's movements, did not say a word, and quietly looked at the withered lotus branches in the lotus pond in front of him.

“…… I'm not going to comfort people, but don't we have a famous quote over there? Yun Yi picked up a small round stone and threw it towards the calm lotus pond, causing a splash of water. It's coming. ”

After speaking, he turned his head to look at Zhao Zhengxu.

Seeing that his face was dry with tears, he took out his handkerchief from his purse, moistened it with the water of the pond, and handed it to him.

"Let's wipe it."

Zhao Zhengxu took the wet handkerchief handed over by Yun Yi, pinched it in his hand, and did not use it to wipe his face.

"I envy you."

Yun Yi paused when he heard this, and then said softly, "I know." ”

Zhao Zhengxu also had the desire to talk, he glanced at Yun Yi, pulled the corners of his mouth and said, "You don't know, I really want to save them." ”

Save them?

Yun Yi was only puzzled for a moment, and then realized that he was talking about the villagers who opened the mountain road.

Don't?

Zhao Zhengxu smiled bitterly and said in a dumb voice: "Well, it's all gone." ”

Her eyes widened in horror, and she stared at him intently, hoping to see a hint of banter on his face.

But no, he said really.

That's more than a hundred people.

"I tried my best, I ......" Zhao Zhengxu looked at the frightened Yun Yi, pulled the corners of his mouth several times, and didn't finish what he wanted to say.

A few days after he escaped from the mountain road, he heard the news that a village in the mountains had been buried by a flash flood.

Because the flash flood fell at night, no one in the entire village survived, except for him.

When he heard the news at that time, he still thought with a fluke mentality, maybe it was fake, after all, there are too many modern news in order to attract people's attention.

It wasn't until he came back a few days later that he told him that his village was gone.

He saw it well at the time, during that time, it had been rainy and sunny, especially on the day of the sacrifice, the heat was unbearable, and people felt a little uncomfortable breathing. The clouds in the sky are thick and low, and the humidity in the air is extremely high.

These are all signs of impending heavy rain.

The location of the road is really bad, and every year there are a few times when the walls of the villagers living on the side of the mountain are washed down by the torrent.

Slowly, the villagers who originally lived on the side of the mountain moved to the middle of the village, and there was really no way to continue to live on the side of the mountain.

The main thing is that there is a fluke mentality, and I feel that my family can't be so unlucky.

After Zhao Zhengxu learned that the mountain road was buried by the torrent, he began to sleep all night long, and every day when he closed his eyes, he was familiar with the villagers in the village.

They wanted to tie him up and give him to the mountain god as his wife.

Now it hovers in his dreams, asking him why he doesn't try harder.

Even if it's ...... Even if it is in the name of the mountain god, let them go out and hide for a while?

Questioned him, why do you have to guard the so-called godless Buddha in front of science, and watch them go to death.

Question him, is it really useful to use his power?

Isn't it because I resent them that I want them all to die?

When he was immersed in a nightmare and couldn't extricate himself, it was the Taoist chief who stayed by the bedside every day to take care of him, and relieved him when he was awake.