We have probably all faced such a moment, before making a difficult and important decision, there will always be a lot of hesitation, even if we already have the answer in our hearts, but we feel inexplicably unbearable.

Just like Feng Qiaoqiao, she looked at the dress in the packaging bag, and her heart was mixed for a while. was supposed to go home directly, but after thinking about it, she turned around and went to the market, and took the general manager's clothes, she always felt a little unable to face the horses.

She passed by the fish stall, there was a mother and daughter picking fish, the woman was very thin and looked very vicissitudes, the little girl also had yellow hair, as if she was malnourished, she held her mother's hand on one side, and pointed to the fish in the fish pond, a fish that was swimming very much, and shouted, "Mom, just buy this"

The vicissitudes of life dragged her daughter back to her side and said, "This fish is expensive, we have to save a little, be obedient, don't eat that, let's eat the small fish here, this fish is the same, it's delicious." ”

Feng Qiaoqiao looked over and saw that there was a bunch of very small wilted fish on the ground, which were not fresh for a long time, and their eyes were pinched into a pile, pitifully placed on the ground, and sold cheaply.

The child muttered dissatisfiedly, "Liar, this fish is not delicious at all, you just want to be cheap." ”

Her mother was a little angry and yelled at her, "What's the trouble, it's good to eat." ”

The child was reprimanded by his mother and began to cry. She cried louder and louder, and the angry young mother slapped her ass a few times. He also raised his voice and shouted at the child, "Why are you so ignorant, don't you know what the conditions of our family are?" Every penny has to be broken into two flowers, and I also want you to eat and dress well, but I don't have that ability, I can't help it. ”

The people around showed sympathetic looks, but no one stepped forward to comfort them, everyone just shook their heads and sighed, stopped to watch for a while, and then walked away to continue their lives. The grief of the mother and daughter is known only to them.

Feng Qiaoqiao looked at this scene and was a little scared, she was afraid that she would be as poor as this mother and daughter in the future, and she couldn't imagine a life that she couldn't even afford a fish, and such a miserable and embarrassing life was really not what she wanted. The words of a gossip female colleague suddenly popped up in my mind: "Do you want your children to suffer together in the future, and let your children live that kind of life without enough food and clothing, are you really willing to live so suffocated and aggrieved for the rest of your life?" ”

She pondered the question as she carried the two fish she had bought and the clothes into the house.

When I entered the door, the TV was on, the computer was on, and the horse, lying on his back on the small bed, fell asleep, snoring and snoring.

Feng Qiaoqiao couldn't get angry, threw the things in his hand on the table, and slapped at the person who was sleeping soundly.

Ma Biao was slapped coldly, and woke up slowly, still a little dazed.

"You have such a big heart, can you still sleep?" Feng Qiaoqiao scolded him with a slap in the face.

Ma Biao obviously didn't understand the meaning of her words: "What's wrong with sleeping for a while." ”

"What's wrong? Big brother, please figure out the situation, you are unemployed, if you don't go out to find a job quickly, you can still sleep leisurely at home. You're not in a hurry at all, are you? ”

"It's useless to be in a hurry, I've looked for a job, I haven't found a suitable one yet, and I can't be in a hurry, I have to consider it comprehensively." The horse took out the fish and squatted at the doorway to scrape the scales.

"Considering a fart, what kind of thing is appropriate, I don't know you yet, are you looking for the kind with a high salary, no pressure, simple work content, relaxed atmosphere, and close to home, right? Why do you think so well, dreaming about you, is it possible, how can there be such a perfect thing in this world, the company is opened by your family, you can do what you say, can you be realistic, any industry is stressful, put down your bullshit self-esteem, don't take yourself too seriously, you are just a part-time worker, people didn't reach out to beat you, just criticized you a few words, what can't bear it, you will encounter this situation in any company, why are you special, you are not in your own home and your family let you, When you enter society, you learn to endure, and when you should bow your head, you have to bow your head. ”

"But those who work also have dignity," Ma Biao retorted unconvinced.

"Huh, dignity?" Feng Qiaoqiao smiled sarcastically, "Your dignity is worth a few dollars, you are so poor that you can't even eat, what kind of dignity do you talk about, if you can find a way for your family to live a good life, then it is called dignity." ”

"What are you talking about, people can't be short-minded," Ma Biao was a little unhappy.

"Come on, why don't you be ambitious when it's time to be ambitious, what kind of fame have you made after so many years in Beijing; A big man, not too young, no house, no car, no money, no savings, don't you feel ashamed, compare people of the same age, you see, who is not better than you. ”

"What's there to compare with this," Ma Biao finished washing the fish and prepared to put it in the pot to steam. "I don't envy them at all, everyone's experience is different, I am not happy now, it doesn't mean that I can't get ahead in the future"

"Pull it down, if you are not happy to pick on someone who doesn't do it after being said a few words by your boss, you still get ahead" Feng Qiaoqiao glanced at the dress that was thrown aside and the general manager gave her, and muttered, "What kind of life am I living with you?"

Ma Biao didn't hear this sentence, and after a while, the prepared fish was brought to the table, and the two of them ate slowly, each with something on their minds, and they were both thinking about how to speak, Ma Biao sandwiched a chopstick fish meat to Feng Qiaoqiao, "Don't you like to eat the steamed fish I make the most, come, eat more." ”

Feng Qiaoqiao looked at the fish meat that had been picked out in his bowl, and he couldn't get off the chopsticks, and his heart began to get upset again.

"That" Ma Biao peeked at her expression, and said in a whisper, "The landlord just came, saying that the rent will be raised from next month, you see, my salary is not going to come out......"

"So" Feng Qiaoqiao dropped her chopsticks, and the hesitation in her heart quickly turned into annoyance, "You mean, I still have to pay the rent, what is this, you can't even earn the rent as a man, and I have to pay for you as a woman, is there a difference between you and eating soft rice?"

Feng Qiaoqiao was really angry, and laughed angrily, "Heh, other people's boyfriends are no longer good, and they didn't say anything to let the woman pay for it, don't you feel like a nest, why don't you pay attention to your self-esteem at this time; As for me, I've been upside down, and I think I'm cheap. ”

Ma Biao's face was also very ugly, put down the bowl and said, "You are here again, what is it called eating soft rice, isn't this a special period, when my work is stable and I earn money, I will definitely pay you back everything I owe you, to put it bluntly, you just think I'm poor, right, why are you women so vain." ”

Feng Qiaoqiao looked at him indifferently, then looked down at the fish in the bowl, and then spoke in a cold and terrifying voice, "That's right, I'm so vain, I'm really fed up with you, break up." ”

Ma Biao slapped the table, "Don't keep threatening me with breakups"

"It's not a threat," Feng Qiaoqiao felt a trace of bitterness oozing from her mouth, "It may have been angry before, but this time I was serious." ”

That night, they had a big fight. In the end, Ma Biao slammed the door and walked out, which also cut off Feng Qiaoqiao's only remaining nostalgia.