Chapter 103: If you can control yourself

That location?

Which location?

Zhao Yan lowered his eyes, his heart was turbulent, but his face was not visible at all.

Originally, he was just pretending to deceive the middle-aged man opposite, he didn't know that his father had someone else, and for the question thrown by Duan Qingshu, he just had a gambling mind, betting that he would continue to talk.

Now when you hear such words, what else is there not to understand?

In the sixteenth year of Changyou, Emperor Changyou died, and the first emperor who was the crown prince at that time ascended the throne, with the year name Youhe, but just five years later, the current saint launched a mutiny, slashed and killed Emperor Youhe, and established himself as emperor. The Manchu dynasty was in an uproar, but it was confined to the hundreds of thousands of Janissaries in its hands, and few people raised objections.

According to Duan Qingshu, his father was actually Emperor Youhe, who had reigned for less than five years?

Zhao Yan sat down slowly, his clenched fists were suddenly covered by a delicate little hand, and he raised his eyes to meet the deep eyes of Huaiyu with a face of encouragement and care.

Zhao Yan smiled at her, patted Huaiyu's hand with the other hand, and then said to Duan Qingshu

"The position of power, Zhao has no intention of fighting for."

"What about the revenge of killing my father?"

There was a long silence.

For a while, it seemed that the world was quiet, only the sound of snow outside the window.

Emperor Youhe, Emperor Youqing and the Eight Princes are the three half-brothers, when Emperor Changyou was alive, he favored the Eight Princes the most, and he admired Ji Chen, who won all battles, so he gave it to the Eight Princes.

Zhao Jin, who was still the crown prince at the time, could only hide his anger in his heart, and after he ascended the throne, he immediately summoned Ji Chen into the palace and put the eighth prince Zhao Ke under house arrest.

After that, Emperor Youhe borrowed wine all day long to eliminate his sorrows, ignored the government and politics, and finally was pushed down from that position by the fourth prince Zhao Zhuo at that time, that is, the current Emperor Youqing in the fifth year of Youhe, and sent to the guillotine.

"In all fairness, the two years of Yuhe's reign were a good emperor." Duan Qingshu opened his mouth to break the silence and recalled, "Love is deep and longevity, and wisdom will hurt." Zhao Jin is a dragon, phoenix, wise and martial, quite an imperial person, and he can't complain that people like Ah Chen will also be tempted by him. ”

Duan Qingshu said, laughing at himself, "However, the word 'love', no matter how wise and wise a monarch is, he can't control himself. ”

Hearing his words, Huaiyu's heart moved, and he turned his head to look at Zhao Yan, but when he saw that Zhao Yan was also looking at him, Huaiyu's earlobes were hot, and he pretended to look away.

I only listened to Zhao Yan and said, "Thank you for telling me about the past, as for the revenge of killing my father, I think this is Zhao's own business, and it is not the turn of the Duan Alliance Master to point fingers." It's not early, Lord Duan, please go back. ”

Changing his words to call the other party Duan Alliance Leader is what it means to soften his attitude.

Duan Qingshu smiled, "Duan just wants the little boy to know that the Eagle Seeking Alliance is definitely not the enemy of Xunyan Tower. He said to Pei Ji'an, who was silent, and said, "Don't you take me to watch your Yanlou?" ”

Huaiyu rolled her eyes.

Not an enemy? Isn't it the enemy, you cut off Brother Yun's right arm so cruelly?

Isn't that a bright challenge?

was about to ridicule each other, but Duan Qingshu seemed to know Huaiyu's thoughts, and said shallowly, "The people under him are not serious, Duan Mou will personally come to the door to apologize to Yun Gongzi another day." ”

Scold!

I cut off your arm, and then I said that I came to the door to make amends, do you agree?

Ignoring Huaiyu's coldness, Duan Qingshu took the lead in walking out of the study, Pei Ji'an looked at Zhao Yan and Huaiyu, and after getting Zhao Yan's nod and approval, he chased out.

Huaiyu was full of hatred and had nowhere to vent, but when he raised his eyes, he saw Zhao Yan's tired face and tears in his eyes, Huaiyu was shocked, and hurriedly moved over and held Zhao Yan in his arms.

At first glance, I heard that my father, who had been called for many years, was not my biological father, and I learned that my father had already died, and this kind of blow was fatal to anyone.

Zhao Yan sent Duan Qingshu away strongly, and only Huaiyu was left here at this time, revealing his weak side.

Huaiyu patted him on the shoulder and whispered, "Feast." ”

Zhao Yan hugged Huaiyu, buried his whole head in Huaiyu's neck, sniffed the faint cold fragrance on her body, Zhao Yan muttered, "Huaiyu, I only have you, you can't leave me anymore." ”

Huaiyu mourned in his heart, "I'm here, I've always been, and I will never leave the feast." ”

In the past, Zhao Yan pestered her, and she couldn't wait to stay in front of her all the time, but Huaiyu only said that Zhao Yan was a little sticky.

Seeing his trembling appearance at this moment, Huaiyu realized that Zhao Yan, who usually looked light and confident, also had such a weak moment at this moment.

Because I'm too afraid of losing, I'm always thinking about it.

Zhao Yan in his arms was quiet, Huaiyu felt the wetness on his shoulders, and couldn't help crying for a while.

In the past, Zhao Yan at least had a father, although he was a father who didn't care about his life or death, but he also occupied the position of his father, and when he wanted to call his father, he had a place to call him.

Now, where should I go to call my father?

Huaiyu thought so, and remembered that she was also lonely, and her parents were not there, so she couldn't help but feel sad, and tears fell down.

Xu felt Huaiyu's sobbing, Zhao Yan raised his head, there was still a string of tears on his handsome face, Huaiyu suddenly smiled, took out a handkerchief and wiped Zhao Yan's tears, "What are we doing here?" ”

Zhao Yan also reached out to wipe the teardrops from her cheeks, and said in a low voice, "What?" Don't even cry anymore? ”

"Promise, promise." Huaiyu cleaned up his emotions, "In my place, I can cry when I want to cry at the banquet, and laugh when I want to laugh." ”

"Don't call me a feast."

"What's that called?"

Zhao Yan smiled, "It's called Brother Yan." ”

"But I think the feast is more intimate. Feast, feast, feast, feast ......"

Huaiyu didn't let Zhao Yan wish, and called a series of "banquets", until the other party's sword eyebrows gathered, and the corners of his mouth pursed, before he stopped, and approached Zhao Yan's ear, "Brother Yan." ”

Zhao Yan blushed, this was the second time she had called it that.

"Brother Yan, are you still sad?"

For the third time, Zhao Yan counted silently in his heart, and slowly reached out to hug the person in front of him, covering her lips one by one.

Saddened.

But with her, it seems that no matter how sad it is, she can get through it.

Zhao Yan closed his eyes and poured out all his love and anxiety in this kiss, she was there, she had always been there, the stars were moving, the vicissitudes of life, and she would not change in this life.

Zhao Yan remembered the more than 1,800 days and nights that the two of them were far away, and after he finished handling official business, his favorite thing to do was to stay in front of the window, expecting her to suddenly appear on the banyan tree outside the wall.

Yet day after day, year after year, she never appeared.

What does it feel like to miss someone?

Zhao Yan thinks that it is probably because you know why you don't like to laugh, and you also know why you are unhappy, all emotions are tied to that person, and only she can fill in the blank in your heart.

Since then, I am happy because of her, and sad because of her.

Zhao Yan remembered what Duan Qingshu said, "The word 'love', no matter how wise and wise a monarch is, he can't control himself. ”

He bit Huaiyu's lip lightly, opened his eyes, and looked at the person in front of him up close.

If you can control your feelings, unless you haven't loved them deeply in the first place.