All the clouds gathered together were dark blue, black and oppressive, and there was a corner of the west that was left dusk, and the weather was not good today, the wind was not strong but it was very cold, and I shivered.

I sat at the door with a small stool, staring at the sky in a daze, thinking about something, and suddenly realized that it was already dark, and I couldn't find the moon or starlight in my small courtyard.

Yesterday I stared at Yun'er, to see what she had done all night, but she lit the lamp and then went out in the middle of the night, I looked at her shadow reflected in the window, she held her cheek and did not move, and then played with the flute.

In fact, I like to listen to the sound of the flute, but I always feel that this flute as a musical instrument is particularly disadvantageous, compared to others, because the flute can only be a companion is a foil. The other instruments can be played and sung at the same time, and I feel that the flute is the loneliest.

I stood in front of her door and window and listened to her sing one of these songs in the middle of the night. I don't know what it's called, it's just a lonely and sad song in the middle of the night.

It's not often that we can't party all night, but I can grieve all night and grieve as much as I want. How many times have I tried to knock on her window and tell her to come out or me in, but I really can't, it's rude.

I have something in my heart, I can't express it, I can only force myself to let go again and again, because I really can't go back, I and him, he stood on the opposite side of me and found that person, I still have to have face.

I envy the mortal world, melting snow and white heads, eyebrows together, red threads, green silk knots, ten fingers interlocked, although it must be a moment, but you can go through this life.

And even if I live a little longer, I will still be a lonely old goblin for many years.

I watched the girls in the mortal world hook their eyebrows and lips in the mirror, and if they didn't have jewelry, they found some flowers to wear, they smiled delicately, and this red dress explained their whole life. Their green silk covers the snow, and the corners of their eyes are wrinkled, but these ten fingers are still the same person at the beginning.

It's just that it's because of love.

I heard a group of enchantresses passing by outside the door of the courtyard, and they were talking.

"Hey, it looks like it's raining somewhere, and it's cold even on our side."

"yes, it's really cold."

"Hey, this black cloud looks so scary."

"What are you afraid of, is there still a heavenly soldier and a heavenly general who can't catch you?"

I hugged myself a little tighter and buried my head between my knees. See if anyone else will pass by, and then listen to something, and you won't feel lonely.

In fact, there is a reason for being sad, not without a reason.

I hope Zhong Kui is ruthless just like the underworld, so that I won't be unable to let go. It's better to scold me, and it's okay to get bloody, because then I'm sad, but I can at least die.

I told Hu Ying about this, and she said that you are not cheap? You have to tear your face and scold you.

She didn't know, she really had to be scolded a few times. I knew I was cheap enough in his eyes, at least to prove that I liked the wrong person. I won't say much about him, but he can taunt me.

I told Wu Ran about this, she said, oh, the world is so big, looking back, it's not a long-term solution, go meet new people, and meet slowly.

The old things that I put aside in my heart suddenly picked up and told me that there was another possibility, but that possibility might as well not be said, we were born at the wrong time, looking at each other in pairs, but we couldn't look back frequently.

Because that's called incorruptibility, and he's not alone.

When I was a child, I thought it was simple, I thought I liked it, there was no need to be really together, in fact, I had no intention of staying together for the rest of my life, even if I saw him with someone else, I was not very intense. But then it was different, I actually thought it was that person.

In fact, it's just a set, you get into the set, and then it gets deeper and deeper, and you like it more and more.

A momentary favor can't support the likes of mountains and rivers. I wish I had forgotten, but by chance I remembered it, and it was a great torture. Maybe God doesn't want to end it, so he has to ask me to finish it.

Yun'er and I haven't said it yet.

I think she'll encourage me to give it a try.

But often it's useless to ask others about this kind of thing, because it's always yourself who makes the decision. I know I'm sensible and I'm not going to bother someone who already has someone else, even if we're really sorry.

In fact, if there is no love, then forgetting is enough to be simple, but if you miss it, you really can't accept it for a while.

But now this thought really puts me in a dilemma.

Suddenly, the kaolin flower appeared, and I almost fell off the bench in fright, her eyes were cold, she was tall, and she was very temperamental, but it made me feel very distant, not because of her poison, but actually a feeling.

I feel that in my heart, I can't get close to it.

Her eyes are big, the eyes under the long eyelashes are shining with cold light, her nose is high, and she looks particularly atmospheric under the combination of facial features.

She leaned down and asked me, "What are you doing?" ”

I replied in a moment's surprise: "If you don't do anything, you're just in a daze." ”

She handed me an invitation and said, "Tomorrow is the time for you to compete, and you will fight with the fox elite."

I looked at the invitation, in fact, I was proud, since I felt that there was more than half of the immortal power in my body, although it was not so much that no one else paid attention to it, but I always felt that I was quite remarkable.

So the slap was naturally going to fall on my face.

My heart is messy, so what I do will be messy. It's very 'witty' to be in a hurry, and it doesn't mean anything good here.

I wasn't in the mood to hear what she had to say, I just knew I had to read the invitation.

She curled Nana, graceful and graceful, the veil on her body fluttered with her steps, very light and beautiful, and the person who looked at the skirt that was flying backwards wanted to pull her and not let her go.

It's just that I'm not a man, and I guess a man must think so.

It's strange, tomorrow is obviously the moment for me to win or lose, but I don't worry, I still think that I can definitely win, my blind self-confidence will become ironclad evidence that I will slap my face in the future, this ironclad evidence is like a mountain.

The more pride you have, the more your cheeks hurt.

……

The mountain was towering, and a little green cloud was around it. The sun was obscured by clouds, but it wasn't dark, it was just not hot, and it was indeed a good day, a good day for the Fa.

This field is strange, on the flat ground at the top of this mountain.

Wu Ran pulled me to talk a lot, she leaned over my ear, and pulled me very tightly for fear that I would run away: "Listen to me on the other side, do you see that one over there?" It's ......"

I was in a trance, I didn't pay attention to it, because I was in a trance with other things in my heart, you said that I was so useless, and other people's words messed up my mind, and I didn't have any position.

You said that I was fine to be developing in a good direction, but I just stuck in my own steps.

The bun I had coiled around my head was cut off as I was gaming, and it suddenly became loose, half long and half short. Before I could start, the vajra in my hand fell by itself.

The elders said, "You lost. ”

This is the real me, I thought I was very good, but it turned out to be nothing.

After the end, Wu Ran hated iron and said: "That girl has worked hard, what she does in a day is better than you for several months." ”

I actually panicked inside, it was terrible.

Suddenly thought of an old thing before, my mother taught me to embroidery, I picked up the needle and embroidered a pair of mandarin ducks for a while, the people around me praised me a few words, I was proud, I felt very powerful.

I put it down and said: slow work makes fine work.

At this time, the girl next to her had already embroidered dozens of pieces.

I looked at her stitches, and I was disdainful: "What is this, if I don't pay attention to the careful embroidery, I can also have dozens of yuan, isn't this blind embroidery." ”

But when I fell silent and picked up my embroidered handkerchief and compared it with hers, I suddenly realized that it was actually quite similar.

The slap in the face is that she can make the same thing as me in minutes.

I felt uncomfortable and asked my mother, "Am I stupid?" ”

She was a little angry: "Did it really take you a long time to do things, but people kept embroidering, and you kept resting." ”

In fact, what is still full of loss and what I am proud of is nothing.

In fact, qualifications belong to qualifications, there is a difference between hard work and hard work and quick casual after all, I was ashamed all of a sudden, and now I am even more ashamed: why should I say that a person who works so hard.

Spiritually I am inferior to hers, nor as good as those who are very serious.

In fact, there has never been casual success, only earnest efforts.

Today is another lesson, give me a lesson.

It's really just that if you talk too much, you will lose your voice.

I said she's embroidering, but don't I do the same? I'm not as good as her. I always felt that I had the securities in my hands, and the self-confidence that I had born out of nowhere eventually became my own ghost.

I raised my eyes and asked Wu Ran, my eyes full of questions: "Am I really rubbish?" ”

She didn't speak, just patted me on the shoulder.

In fact, what I am most afraid of at this time is her silence, which is a tacit feeling.

I didn't speak, but I secretly rode the clouds to the sky and lay down.

I crossed Erlang's legs, I didn't have the feeling of leisurely wandering, my heart was heavy, it was deep self-doubt.

It's just that I'm naturally rebellious, and I can't allow others to force me to give up.

I'm going to be rotten even if I'm rotten! So I went back to that contest and waited for the next one, and I held my vajra tightly, not necessarily winning, but I would never surrender.

Wu Ran looked at my swollen hand and said, "Don't compare." ”

"No, since the first thing has been decided, there is no reason to back down, if you ask me why, I say that it is called dignity."

Hu Ying smiled: "Hey, you seem to be different." ”

I didn't laugh and replied coldly, "Me! It's always been like this!"

I can lose, but never disarm. The whole world wants me to give up, but I don't, just because I am my own, I don't care about the doubts of the outside world, I am afraid that I will admit defeat first.

The vajra in my hand, it was hoarse, and I suddenly remembered what the master who made the weapon said: This weapon is glorified because of its master.

It's a complementary relationship, my weapon is a good weapon, but I'm going to try to be a good master and make it glorious because of me!

I caressed it, tears fell inadvertently, and I whispered, "I'm sorry."

I'm sorry, first, I'm sorry for the good craftsman's generous gift, second, I'm sorry for Lu Juan to accompany me all the way, they spent time with me because they had expectations for me, and third, I'm sorry for myself.

You said that a soldier went to the battlefield and didn't want to fight well, did she deserve to win? Not worthy, because it should be done one line and one line.

It's just that I should think about myself, always talking about some grand blueprints, but not doing a good job in the present.

I cast a spell to tie up my loose hair again, my eyes firm, and I clenched the vajra in conviction: I must win this time!