"Once, I thought I could live a better life with my dreams."

Lan Beichen's hand holding Xia Jinse tighter, "But the dream realm is fragmented, not everything I know, and even sometimes I can't change it if I know it, I can only make up for it afterwards and save it." Jinse, can you imagine this feeling? ”

His voice was low, pouring out his daily life, thoughts and thoughts over the years that she had not appeared, and even the incomprehensible sense of powerlessness caused by various events......

"I knew that something was going to happen, and I tried to prepare as much as possible in advance, thinking that I could stop it, but in the end it happened. Time and time again, piece by piece, I tried to control, to redeem, to remedy, there was no rest, there was no way, there was no help, everything had to be carried by me alone. ”

"Sometimes when I succeed, I take it for granted and I don't have any luck. But once I fail, I will doubt myself, and I feel that God has told me the answer, but I still can't do the best, why is this happening? No one knows about this powerlessness, and no one can tell it. The imperial brother and I are the closest, but he will only let me solve all kinds of things, and the queen mother can't tell me, she will only think that I am delusional, and I am enchanted, and saying it will only make her worry. ”

"I suppressed that I didn't say anything to anyone, I didn't even know that Shattered Star Cold Ink, and sometimes after being powerless to change and could only barely remedy it, I hated this feeling more and more. No one can understand, they won't know how I feel, that feeling of powerlessness, as if watching the most precious thing slip out of my hands. ”

The needles in the room could be heard, only the voice of Lan Beichen speaking, Xia Jinse looked at him for a moment, and knew that everyone admired and admired and even feared the Nine Princes of the Daqing Dynasty, this unparalleled man, also had unknown loneliness and pressure.

When he talked about the death of his father, he had expected it, but he still couldn't change it.

"Although the first emperor died of illness, the cause was that he was attacked by someone, and he injured his heart and intestines so that he became terminally ill, which dragged on for three years."

Lan Beichen seemed to open the conversation, his eyes were dark, and he recalled the past that had passed for more than 20 years: "The first emperor liked to eat puffer fish, and it had to be carefully cooked by the imperial kitchen to remove its toxins and turn it into delicious. Someone took advantage of this to bribe the little eunuch next to his father, and secretly changed the silver needle when he tested the poison. ”

"This is what I saw in my dream, so I wanted to stop my father that day, but I was too young at that time, and I had homework every day, and there was the supervision of the Taifu. Although I tried my best, I even broke into my father's palace in the end, but in the end I couldn't completely stop it. ”

That bowl of poisonous puffer fish has changed from three mouthfuls to one mouthful, but it is still poisonous!

"The first emperor was poisoned and was rescued by the imperial doctor, so he was fundamentally injured. From then on, the imperial brother and other brothers began to compete for the throne. I was only twelve years old, and no one took me seriously, so I escaped. In the end, the imperial brother stood out and was made the crown prince by the first emperor, and escaped an arrow from the third brother in the hunting ground, and was saved by your grandfather, and there has been no opponent since then. ”

Speaking of this, Lan Beichen stopped, and a look of solemnity flashed on his face: "I've been thinking,

If the first emperor could have stopped eating the puffer fish, would everything have been different in the future? ”

Xia Jinse didn't know that this kind of thing that involved the whole body could only produce countless unknowns, who could have predicted it?

"Maybe there is no pufferfish, and there will be assassination, and if there is no assassination, it may also become a fall or a wind chill......" Xia Jinse seemed to have a mess in his heart, which he couldn't sort out or say.

She knew what the butterfly effect was and what the multiverse was, but she couldn't explain it to Lan Beichen. Maybe there are countless possibilities in everyone's life, and each choice extends to countless different futures, but so what?

All everyone can feel is now, this life, this life!

"Lan Beichen, don't be sad, these things can't be changed by man, the death of the first emperor is not your responsibility, and it's not that you didn't save him. Some things are predestined, and when the first emperor liked to eat puffer fish, the consequences were doomed. Earlier, why the first emperor liked to eat puffer fish may be his preference, but how this preference was cultivated, there is no end to it. ”

Xia Jinse swept all kinds of things on the couch, and put them back with a thought, she panicked because these things were caught between the two. When he took it out, Lan Beichen was stunned, but when he took it back, Lan Beichen's eyes only lit up slightly, and a faint surprise flashed in his eyes.

She leaned over again and snuggled up to Lan Beichen's side: "I always thought that your personality was cultivated since childhood, and you were naturally introverted. Now I know that if you don't bear so much, maybe you are a cheerful and laughing person like the Five Princes. ”

"Perhaps......" he said silently.

Arms wrapped around and hugged Xia Jinse, Lan Beichen gently hugged the woman in his arms, and there was an imperceptible drift in his tone: "I have always felt that I am an anomaly, and I don't want to get too close to others, even if after knowing you, you say that you want to treat me, I will shirk it several times." It's ridiculous, I'm afraid you'll find out something. ”

knew that Xia Jinse would not check it out, but he just refused, perhaps he was worried from the bottom of his heart.

He couldn't say what he was worried about.

Xia Jinse looked up at his face, his face was calm, his eyes were deep, and as usual, he couldn't see anything abnormal.

"Lan Beichen, now that you know that I am different from ordinary people, do you also think that I am an outlier? I'm not a god at all, maybe I'm a ghost! Who said that only immortals can change things, ghosts can do the same, are you afraid of me? Xia Jinse seemed to be smiling, saying half-truths and half-truths.

She was originally a soul, what is the difference between her and a ghost?

Lan Beichen frowned, and hugged her slender waist hard: "What nonsense!" You're a vixen at best, how can you be a ghost? The ghosts are cold, but you are very hot......"

He leaned into her neck, sniffed the smell of her hair, and his voice had a hint of charm: "If it weren't for the vixen, how could I be fascinated to death?" ”

There was an itchy feeling in her neck, Xia Jinse just wanted to scratch it, but Lan Beichen had already kissed her on the lips.

This kiss was different from the usual passion, with all his enthusiasm, will her

Entangled on the couch. The warm breath intertwined, she closed her eyes and responded unwillingly.

At some point, he liked her more and more, and loved her deeply.

Now that he knew that she was as special as him, a sense of belonging to his own kind suddenly made him feel lonely in an instant. It turns out that the identity he is looking for has always been by his side, it is this woman who inexplicably broke into his life, there is no him in his dreams, so he has been sick all his life, in reality she is, maybe his future in this life and this life can really be different.

The enthusiasm of his whole body was aroused, Lan Beichen looked at Xia Jinse, and there seemed to be a fire burning in his eyes.

She felt it, blushed with shame, just turned her head, hooked his neck and said, "You want to kill me cold......"

As soon as the words fell, Lan Beichen had already picked her up and strode towards the bedroom inside, Xia Jinse seemed to have a premonition of something, leaning against his chest, and the whole person trembled slightly.

The winter sun shines through the crystal window lattice, there are no lights and candles in the room, and the temperature of the earth dragon makes the room warm. I don't know how long it took, but the slightly light and dark room seemed to bloom a tree of heather, accompanied by a small sound, making the afternoon time more peaceful.

During dinner in the evening, Xia Jinse didn't go to the flower hall because she was still in bed and couldn't get up.

Lan Beichen fed her spoonful by spoon like a child, and there was only comfortable satisfaction in his stretched eyebrows: "Be good, open your mouth...... If you don't eat it anymore, it's going to be cold. ”

"Humph!" Xia Jinse turned his head away, and huffed: "I'm not feeling well, I can't eat." ”

"I know you're tired, that's why this king fed you." Lan Beichen was extremely gentle and patient: "Anyway, you have to finish this bowl, and there is a bowl of chicken soup, otherwise what if you are hungry when you sleep?" ”

As soon as she heard Lan Beichen say that she was tired, Xia Jinse blushed, why did this man be in a hurry to act like an African refugee, living like he had been fed all his life? It's not like nothing before, I've never seen him like this.

After all, he was hungry, Xia Jinse took the bowl and ate it by himself, Lan Beichen served him thoughtfully throughout the whole process, and didn't even let Chasing Yun and the Moon enter the room. The two waited at the door and whispered timidly, with an indescribable smile and smile in their eyes.

"I guess, it won't be long before the princess will have a little son." Chasing Cloud blinked.

"Maybe it's the little princess?" Shooting Moon laughed too.

It just so happened that Broken Star came, and when he heard the last two sentences, he asked them suspiciously: "What little prince and little county lord?" Is the princess pregnant? ”

Chasing Yun wrinkled his nose: "If I don't tell you, what are you doing here?" The prince is now accompanying the princess to dinner, and he has no time to pay attention to you. ”

"I'm not free now, I'll always be free, I'll just wait." Shattered Star doesn't mind, it's not an important matter anyway, and it doesn't hurt to delay for a while.

He leaned over, stood beside Chasing Cloud, and whispered, "Hey, I'll be free later, right?" I've booked my spot. ”

The voice was not loud or small, and the shooting moon glanced at it, and said preemptively: "Free, of course." ”

"Sister Shooting Moon!" Chasing Yun suddenly blushed, and pretended to say, "Who said I was free!" I don't have time, and I'll have to help Aunt Yao clean up later, so I don't have time to pay attention to him. ”

Shattered Star is in a hurry,

Go and pull her: "You obviously said you were free yesterday, why are you not free now?" Aunt Yao wants you to clean up something, won't you let the girl help? ”

Shooting Moon winked at him and said, "It's okay, I'll go to Aunt Yao and ask later, and I'll take care of it if there's something." Anyway, I don't think the princess needs us to serve for the time being, with the prince here, if you go to play, remember to come back early. ”

Shattered Star was overjoyed, and directly dragged the chasing clouds to leave: "Shoot the moon, thank you!" Don't go yet! He urged to chase the clouds.

The two of them pulled and pulled, chasing the clouds was ashamed and embarrassed, pinched his arm, and the broken star grinned in pain, but he didn't let go. Seeing that the two of them were half-welcoming and half-refusing to go away, Sheyue couldn't help but shake her head, only to feel that the good things for these two people were also close.

At night, Lan Beichen and Xia Jinse lay in the bed, listening to the faint sound of firecrackers in the distance, and talked about Chinese New Year's Eve.

"You've been at the border in previous years, and this is the first time you've been in the capital this year, you'll definitely like it." Lan Beichen hugged Xia Jinse and told her about this year's Chinese New Year's Eve palace banquet, afraid that it would be a big event.

The eldest prince of Aesop will stay in Daqing for the New Year, and will return to Aesop after the year to discuss the matter of peace and marriage.

Moreover, several princes are also engaged, and there are more people at the palace banquet than in previous years, and the queen mother will be happier. The urgent government affairs have also been dealt with, and when the old is said and the new is welcomed, everyone is looking forward to it, and the Ministry of Rites allocated 300,000 taels of silver for this palace banquet, which was mainly organized by the Jade Concubine. In addition to the royal family having a lively reunion dinner, there is also a fireworks celebration that the people are looking forward to, which is even more lively.

Lan Beichen hugged Xia Jinse into his arms and said in her ear: "At this year's palace banquet, maybe the Queen Mother will urge you to give birth to a little son quickly, Jinse, do you think we should come on?" ”

(End of chapter)

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