Fu Gan drove home, parked the car at the mouth of the alley, and planned to take a walk and walk back to the courtyard house.

He lit a cigarette and walked slowly.

Today's day, at night, is actually very cold. The weather in Beijing is not good these days, and it is cloudy and sunny. He paused.

Just sent An Zhijia on the plane. Jiajia couldn't help crying again before leaving.

Fu Gan took a puff of his cigarette.

Is there always a stage before marriage when a woman is particularly emotionally unstable?

Or, not only women.

Fu Gan felt that when he was facing Zhijia these days, his chest was also stuffy - is that it? It's going to be her for the rest of her life, is that her?

He took a deep breath.

Yes. It should be her.

But it was as if he had walked into a long, dark tunnel, and he didn't know what would lie ahead of him if he walked past it like this. But he's already walked in.

Just had a phone call with my good brother Luo Tongjun, Tongjun said, isn't it a big deal to postpone the wedding. Although it is said that in these years, everyone is shouting that marriage is the grave of love, but it is better to be buried in the earth than to expose the corpse on the street, right? ! Dude tells you as a person who has come over, it is definitely like this.

He chuckled. How does this mean?

Luo Tongjun was silent for a while, and said, Fu Gan, buddy, I'm afraid you won't be able to think about it. Fu Gan, Cheng Zhijia is a good girl. Cherish the people in front of you.

Luo Tongjun is his good friend. Coupled with Wade, who is far away in Canada, the three of them were inseparable when they were studying. He never hid anything from them. Later, after graduation, he and Luo Tongjun were stationed abroad, and Wade chose the Aerospace Academy, and Tiannan and Haibei. But the relationship is still good. The indiscriminate kind is good.

Wade has Wade's ambitions. He's not the same as them.

Fu Gan thought of Wade, and those beautiful eyes with the characteristics of the Li family immediately appeared in front of him. His good friend and good brother are the only peers who have a heart-to-heart relationship with him in the Li family. He is also the only one who clearly knows about his affair with Ziduan, and is the only one who has clearly expressed his support. He went on a date with Tang Tang for the first time, and used the only four hours of vacation a week to giggle at Li Yaotang - such an embarrassing thing was used by Wade to laugh at for a few years. Under heavy pressure, he decided to "elope" with Li Yaotang, and Wade also supported it.

But what about then?

Fu Gan stood next to the trash can, took two puffs of cigarette, snuffed it out, and threw the cigarette butt into the trash can.

Afterward...... Wade is afraid that he really hates him, Xi Fugan. Wade only called him once, and he said Xi Fugan, we are no longer brothers.

Fu Gan lit another cigarette. Just stand there and suck it up, because, once he recalls the past, he doesn't know when he can stop thinking about it......

That day, after Aunt Bai left, he stood alone by the moat, holding the envelope containing the ticket in his hand. At that moment, he felt that what he was holding in his hand was not an envelope, but his own life.

He understood, and ran home like crazy, and he asked his mother, is it true, is what Aunt Bai said true?! You tell me!

He could clearly see his mother nodding.

Yes, his eyes are fine, his mother is nodding.

He was completely speechless.

All he remembered was the feeling of coldness and despair. It's dark. He couldn't see a glimmer of light. What is he going to do? What could he do?

The mother left his luggage and passport in front of him. Say to him, Fu Gan, you go. Forget everything that ever happened. Everything will pass.

He looked at his mother.

For more than 20 years, no matter how far away he was from his mother, as long as he thought of his mother, he felt that his mother was close in front of him. This is his dear, dear mother...... Yes. My grandfather hated my mother, my grandmother complained about my mother, and some people hated my mother, and now, some people are jealous of my mother, but as a son, he has always stood behind his mother. He trusts her and loves her. Because it's his mother. He knew how much she loved "that person". Yes, that person is handsome, well-educated, courageous, and personable, and he is a dragon among men, worthy of his mother's love, worthy of his mother, etc. However, "that man" ...... Is it his father?!

He was really hard to accept. No, it's completely unacceptable.

He...... What has become?

His mother tried to explain something to him, but he couldn't stop for a moment. He didn't know what would happen if he stayed in that house for a second longer.

He rushed out of the house. Running aimlessly on the road until his strength was exhausted, he lay on the curb like a fish thrown on the beach, with only the air coming out, not the air coming in...... The cold ground is colder without his heart and his blood.

In the end, he went somewhere.

He didn't know what was guiding him in the dark, so he walked there and saw his Tangtang.

Tang Tang sitting on the steps. Burying her little head between her arms, it seemed to shrink into a ball, like a wounded little beast.

His heart hurts, as if it is being torn and bitten by something.

Hold your mouth fiercely, fiercely, and don't let yourself make a sound. But tears poured out of his eyes.

Crying all the time, in the cold wind, looking at her.

He thought that all the tears of his life had been shed on this day, and the blood in his body had been gone.

This is the person he loves, and he is willing to give his life for her.

He does. However, there is no point in this.

He leaned against the thick tree, pulled out his phone, and called Wade.

Wade was there trying to ask him in a very calm tone how was it, and everything was going well?

He was silent for a long, long time, and said, Wade, I have thought about it, I still don't have the courage, I ...... now I'm about to get on the plane. I'll be back in Tokyo tonight.

Wade was furious on the other end of the phone: Fu Gan, you son of a bitch, what are you talking about? What do you do if you let Tang Tang go? You bastard......

Although Wade had a hot temper, he never used foul language, and he was obviously so angry that he lost his mind that day.

How much he wanted to tell Wade that even if he died ten thousand times, he was not willing to give up Tang Tang, how much he wanted. But he couldn't say it.

He just said Wade, please bring Tang Tang home.

Wade called Xi Fugan, you tell me clearly, you love Tangtang so much, how can you be willing?!

Is he willing? How could he be willing?!

The back of his head, slamming against the hard trunk.

He said Wade, hurry up, Tang Tang must still be waiting for me at the Civil Affairs Bureau...... It's cold outside, you bring her a piece of clothing......

He pressed the phone and held it tightly in his hand. The phone barked again, and he unplugged the battery and threw it on the floor. He couldn't, and wouldn't dare to answer any more calls. He knew he had no choice but to make it this far.

He hid in the shadows and looked at his Tangtang.

She didn't move.

He looked at her figure so greedily, desperately looking at ...... He knew that he could only love her like this in his life. Hide in the shadows and love her. Cursed, but also loved.

I love her like this and avoid her...... Only, she doesn't know the truth; As long as she is not hurt by such truth.

It's good that he's gone.

He's gone, and she'll be fine.

As Mother said, everything will pass.

When everything passes, she will find another love, another happiness - the kind of love and happiness that he can't give Li Yaotang in this life and this life.

Twenty minutes later, Wade arrived.

He yelled and scolded.

Fu Gan saw Li Yaotang crying.

She cried so sadly.

When had he ever seen her cry like that?

When did he ever make her cry like that?

No.

He hated himself. If he hadn't followed his mother into the door of Li's house, if he hadn't seen her beautiful back by the lotus pond, if he hadn't ...... If he had never come to this world, Tang Tang, she would not have suffered like this. Absolutely not.

It was Wade who took away the crying delirious Tangtang.

Gone, they went.

Fu Gan felt that he seemed to have walked on the Nai He Bridge, and it was time to drink a bowl of Meng Po soup.

He looked around, not knowing which direction to take.

It was at that moment that he heard a car horn. A car slowly drove towards him, closer, closer, closer to his eyes, and stopped. Fu Gan looked at the black car and the familiar number on the car.

At that moment, his brain "buzzed".

The front door opened, and it was Secretary Zhang who came out. He asked Fu Gan to get into the car.

Fu Gan felt that his legs were no longer good.

Even if he was never afraid of "that person". Never. At that moment, there was a deep sense of fear......

Unconsciously, Fu Gan had already stood by the trash can and finished smoking the third cigarette. There was no one around. It's such a quiet place.

Fu Gan felt a little pain in his throat.

Maybe it's because I've been smoking too much these days.

He looked at the familiar alley in front of him—it was not wide, and it was lined with ancient trees on both sides. No new sprouts have yet to emerge. The branches of the trees danced in the wind, like elves dancing in the night, with graceful postures and fluttering clothes, as if if they were not careful, they would hook someone's soul...... There was the sound of waves in his ears, and he listened intently. Actually, I can't hear it. Although it is not far away, it is Zhonghai.

When I think of Zhonghai, it seems that there are rippling blue waves in front of me.

In a small boat, only he and her sat quietly, and in their eyes, there was only each other. The oars don't move, and the boat doesn't move. The surroundings are quiet, only the sound of the wind blowing through the water, like the willow whistle on the mouth of a child, softly, slightly, twisting the strings of the heart one by two, humming and sounding, so that the heart trembles leisurely with the natural rhyme.

Tomei ...... What a beautiful time, and what a short time.

He smiled wryly.

Never again.

Fu Gan continued to walk forward. The next T-junction, turn in, and it will be the courtyard. Not far off.

Because of the many branches of the ancient trees and the street lamps, the light in the alley is not very good.

Fu Gan enjoyed the feeling of walking between half light and half darkness.

He heard the sound of neat steps and concise commands, and turned around, and at the other end of the alley, there were patrolling soldiers.

At this moment, he saw a black shadow, cowering on the edge of the road.

His heart shrank sharply, and his throat tightened.

Somehow, the eye sockets were hot, sour, and swollen.

"Tang Tang ......"