I was in a bad mood and couldn't help but laugh when I heard his words.

"What are you laughing at?" He let go of me and looked at me seriously, "By the way, how are you and Ling Yuqian?" ”

I stopped laughing and leaned back on the soft couch with a glazed gaze, "I won't see him again." ”

"Why?" He asked.

"There's no why, it's just tired." I closed my eyes, and my mind was Ling Yuqian's figure, his indifference, rudeness, and gloom had been firmly engraved in my heart. I was tired and didn't want to torture him anymore, let alone myself. It was because of Li Shiran that I came back to get close to him before, but when I learned that it was Jiang Siyun who killed my parents, I chose to let go. ”

Hua Xuan listened to me and didn't say anything more.

Hua Xuan said that she could help me check the whereabouts of the mother and son, so that I could wait with peace of mind. After two days with him, I went back to City A, because my body had not fully recovered, and I started to get dizzy again when I got home. I took the medicine and slept to feel better.

I got up and was ready to get some food, but I didn't come back to my senses until the water in the pot was boiling, and when I went inside, I accidentally touched the boiling water, and I was so hot that I was excited. Looking at the hot spots, I just want to slap myself again. Why is his mind full of him, why is he so cheap, why is he in love with him!

I ate this meal tastelessly, remembering the noodles that Ling Yuqian once cooked for me, and I didn't notice that tears fell unconsciously. At that time, he was really gentle and took care of me as if I was the woman he loved deeply. But it was just a dream, and when I woke up, I realized how ridiculous it was.

I didn't tell anyone when I went back to City A, I ate and slept at home, and I slept and ate until a week later I felt more depressed. I often stare at something in a daze for a long time, and I will think crankily, and sometimes I want to die of anxiety. I don't know what's going on, all of a sudden I'm scared, but I don't want to go out.

Xue Zimo and He Wanwan have called me these days, I have been lying to them that I am in S City, they don't suspect anything, they just call every day to greet me.

The moon is round tonight, and it hangs high in the sky white and flawless, as if there is no blemish at all. I didn't know what was going on, I felt bad, but I didn't want to cry. His eyes fell on the fruit knife on the table, and the ghost sent the god to walk over and pick it up, the knife was very sharp, and I didn't know if the blood would flow quickly.

Thinking of this, I stretched out my wrist and slashed down, it hurt, but I didn't stop.

Drops of blood fell on the floor to form bright red flowers, walked to the edge of the bed, lay down and quietly closed his eyes. I'm really tired, I don't want to think about it anymore, I don't want to fight anymore, I just want to leave so quietly.

The moment Ling Yuqian's shadow appeared in my mind, I opened my eyes, took the mobile phone on the side, and flipped out the phone number He Wanwan had helped me get before, looking at this number, I hesitated for a long time before dialing out.

My heart is at peace, I just want to say "I love you" to him before I die, just one sentence.

"Hey." His magnetic voice came from the other end of the phone when the phone was answered.

I didn't rush to speak, I felt the blood flowing out of my body little by little, my voice became hoarse again, and I struggled to say "I" when my dizziness was getting worse and worse...... Love...... You ......"

"Who are you?" The other end was silent for a moment and asked.

I didn't answer, my hand was no longer strong, and my phone fell to my side and closed my eyes.

I don't know how long it took, but while I was still conscious, I faintly heard the sound of a door banging. I glanced at my left hand, where the sheets were covered in blood and looked horrible.

The movement outside grew louder and louder, until the sound of the door being slammed open and the sound of footsteps was heard.

My vision was blurry, and I couldn't see anyone coming. I just felt my body being picked up, followed by a familiar smell. Unable to pull at the placket of his clothes, he looked at the blurred outline in front of him, "Don't ......... Save...... I ......"

He heard my voice, and his otherwise fast pace stopped, and I knew he was watching me, and continued to say with difficulty: "I...... Spare you...... Finish...... No more ...... Pestering ...... You ......"

"Shut up." He rebuked and continued to walk briskly forward. I leaned against his chest, one hand hanging limply, and I gradually lost consciousness.

I thought I would really die this time, but I was wrong and opened my eyes to find myself in the hospital. He Wanwan next to the bed seemed to have just cried, her eyes were red and swollen, and she was immediately happy when she saw me wake up, "Xiaoqian, you woke up, you scared me to death, why are you so stupid?" You actually committed suicide, you want to be angry with me, aren't you? ”

I watched her babble and didn't speak.

"Xiaoqian, don't you want to be like this, okay? I felt distressed when I saw it. When she saw me staring out the window, she cried again.

I didn't know how to comfort her, I didn't know what was wrong with me, I was so uncomfortable that I just wanted to end this, including my life.

At this time, Xue Zimo and Hua Xuan walked in, and they were relieved to see that I was awake. Hua Xuan asked me what I wanted to eat, but I ignored it. Seeing this, Xue Zimo said, "What made you think of suicide?" Ling Yuqian? ”

Hearing the name Ling Yuqian, I thought of the feeling he had hugged me tightly before I lost consciousness, and there was a slight change in my eyes.

"At that time, the situation was urgent, you lost too much blood, he gave you 800 milliliters of blood, and now you are in the next ward." After Xue Zimo finished speaking, I was stunned. Ling Yuqian transfused me 800 ml of blood? Isn't he going to die? Are the doctors confused too? How can you draw so much blood.

I pulled out the needle in my hand and wanted to get out of bed but was stopped by Xue Zimo, he said, "Let's go see him again at night, now Li Shiran is here." ”

I froze, glanced at the way they looked at me, and then sat down.

"You'll only react when you mention him." Hua Xuan pursed his lips like a teasing.

Xue Zimo looked at me and didn't say anything, his eyes were full of mixed emotions, and he seemed to be worried about me.

In the evening, accompanied by He Wanwan, I came to the next room. She said she was waiting for me at the door, but she didn't come in.

Ling Yuqian was lying on the hospital bed, seemingly asleep. I approached the chair next to the bed and stared at him in silence. His face was pale after so much blood, and it was the first time I had seen him so vulnerable.

Can't help but reach out and caress his pale face, then chapped lips. The ghost made a god lean over and put his lips on his lips, loving someone is irrational, and I lost myself again.

When Ling Yuqian opened his eyes, the moment we looked at each other, I didn't even see indifference and disgust in his eyes.

I jerked to my feet to leave, but he grabbed my hand. His body stiffened, not daring to look into his eyes.

"Why kill yourself." He asked calmly.

I don't answer the rhetorical question, "Why did you save me?" ”

As if I had been asked, he let go of my hand and sat up from the bed, "Didn't you call me at that time to ask me to save you?" ”

How could some things change in such a short period of time, was it really that I was naïve?

"I just don't want to die." After saying that, I ignored his deep eyes and turned to go out.