I began to be unable to accept the information and not be able to digest it.

When Na Jintang said those words, I really had an indescribable feeling of suffocation, I really didn't believe it, I never felt that the old man really had the spirit to leave us, his body was so good, how could he leave us so easily, I never felt that these things didn't exist at all, didn't he recover well during this time? How could such a possible thing suddenly appear?

I don't know why, but I think things really happened too suddenly, and the sudden dignitaries were just caught off guard, so I asked eagerly.

"How sure is this matter, has Mr. John officially informed us? Does he really think so? Will he have some misunderstandings in the process, thinking that maybe the old man's body may recover later, and maybe, I also promised him to take him to various places to have a good time? You promised him that we would go to the orphanage together, and he told me that we would go to the orphanage when he was better and our factory was on the right track, didn't you say that? ”

I've asked this question a lot.

It was that Jintang didn't answer any of my questions, and that Jintang still looked at me with his most silent eyes, which were deep, and he felt the meaning in them, maybe some things really didn't speak, maybe some things really couldn't be told in words, maybe they were true, maybe they were false, I really didn't know.

"Tell me, tell me exactly what happened, will the old man really not be able to hold on for three months? Was there a miscalculation in this matter?? ”

Na Jintang hugged me tightly, and his eyes also contained tears, which made people feel a kind of panic and desolation in his tears.

"Mr. John has been diagnosed again and again, because after the last time the old man was kidnapped, his body has been in a very difficult period, and during this time, the stomach pain relief has been taking coffee to control his pain in this way, but such a thing will deeply hurt his body, and a skill that appeases the whole body, there may be a large area of atrophy, so it is very possible in the current situation, there should be a great chance, just within this few months......"

I couldn't control it anymore, the tears were dripping down, I hadn't cried like this for a long time, I really felt like I couldn't control the emotions in my heart.

Gripping his hand tightly, he howled unspeakably.

I don't know why, I used to be at odds with the old man, and the two of us didn't have a good impression at all, both of us couldn't get used to each other, but why were they crying for each other at this time.

After some contact with each other in the past two years, I have completely helped him as a very important family member of mine.

His role in my life is becoming more and more important, and when I gradually get used to this kind of life, and gradually feel that this is the most beautiful state of life, but suddenly a loved one leaves me again, will I be able to accept this kind of thing from you?

I cried tears and snot from my nose, and it was an indescribable, very, very painful feeling.

The brocade clasped me tightly and patted me on the back.

Na Jintang didn't say a word, because there were no words that could replace this feeling at this time, and all the freshmen were silent at this time.

This is a rare tacit understanding, this is something that cannot be spoken, so I will be more determined about this matter, tomorrow must be a good scenery to do a good job, there should be many things and many opportunities to deal with in this three months, in these three months, no matter what, we must not let this factory have any crisis, and we must not let the old man look at this matter with any regrets.

Long.

Looking up at the starry sky in the sky, the starry sky in the sky is dotted with stars, tomorrow must be a big sunny day, but my mood is really like dark clouds, I really can't be happy, but what to do, tomorrow is the most important day, it is very important for everyone.

Na Jintang held my face in both hands.

The eyes are deep.

"Thousands of miles to build a long tent, there is no banquet in the world, some things are a development and evolution of nature, we just care about the scenery we see in the process, what we once had, we cherish the things of the present, one day we will be like the old man one day gradually grow old, our next generation will gradually inherit all of our now, so we must cherish and have all the things that should be cherished now, and don't be afraid or afraid, all this is natural……”

I cried, "But I really don't want to, the old man is so miserable, the old man is not yet 100 years old, and he promised me that we will take him to the orphanage to see, to see what happened to us in the past, I promised him that there are still many places he has not been to, at least I should take him to the hospital, this is what he has always wanted to see, I want to take him to see!" ”

Na Jintang, gently wiped the tears from my eyes with his handkerchief.

"It's fast, let's wait for the crisis of the factory to pass, and after this matter is on the right track, we should have less than a month, and after everything is resolved, we will go to the orphanage and take the old man to have a look, so that he can fulfill his wish, okay?" I promise you! ”

I was crying so fast, I couldn't breathe, I couldn't get the principle at all, and sometimes the whole thought couldn't be gathered normally, I just knew that now my thinking was completely on the verge of collapse, and all my true reserve and all my courage and all my strength today collapsed in an instant.

"Maomao, when all these things are over, we will plan more for the future, but you must promise me, today I tell you about this matter must not let the old man know, I don't want the old man to have too much pressure, I hope the old man in the next few months, he is happy, he can use the best way to complete the best journey in his life."

The brocade paused and continued,

"And Mr. John has told me again that I can give up some radical treatment, and now I only do some conservative treatment, and conservative treatment, there may be a kind of sleeping effect in it, Suihua will unconsciously relieve a lot of pressure, will relieve him a lot of discomfort, of course, already in this world, I need to tell you, because after all, you are also his relative, do you think you agree to do a conservative treatment? When all this is over, the old man will slowly fall asleep like a sleeping state, nothing will happen, which may reduce the pain, but if you give up these radical treatments, then the old man's life will slowly wither like a withered flower, are you willing to do this? ”

I looked up at him, I was very entangled, I was sure that it was impossible that I couldn't accept this way, I thought that way was too cruel, very cruel, could it really be like a flower slowly withering.

"Isn't Jintang's way too cruel, if we use a better scientific way, can we let the elderly prolong his life, we can arrange to go abroad, for example, foreign medical technology will be more developed? We can't learn better things abroad, and we can't give up any ...... in this regard."

The more I say this, the more I have no strength, the less confidence I have, and the more I know how I should understand these things, because for me, I would not be willing to do such a thing at all.

That Jintang didn't deny my words, and at the same time he didn't affirm them, he asked me lightly.

"If one day I were like the old man, would you be willing to let me give up conservative treatment? I am, which choice would you be willing to make? ”

The problem is that I figure it out, and I don't really know how to say it, how you shouldn't do it, because it's really hard for me to choose.

The old man is frank and open, and he has lived a heroic life for most of his life, if he is allowed to lie down and live in it every day, the old man must be unwilling.

Forever standing to live, unwilling to lie down and die.

Who would be willing, when birth, old age, sickness and death, whoever is willing to be tortured and die like that again, no one is willing, everyone is willing to have a beautiful life.

I can't answer him this question, because it's too difficult for me, if it were me, I could have unplugged all the infusion tubes on my body without hesitation, and I would rather die alone than live so miserably.

That's the old man, how can the old man be treated in this way, but the old man is a generation of heroes, do you want him to be at the most critical time of his life, or make people feel that he is just a bad old man?

I know, I really don't know, but I think this kind of thing should have its own decision, Suihua I saw that Jintang.

A very resolute tone, or a very affirmative tone.

"If it's really that day, whether you tell me, if you really go out in that state that can't save my life, I hope you don't let me stay in the ward anymore, I want to go outside to breathe fresh air, I feel that I want to shrink my life in nature, I really don't want to be in the ward, miserable."

That Jintang smiled, smiled softly, a rare smile today, as if he was a gentle smile from the heart.

"Cat, you have finally grown up, you know that some people have a lot of things in their hearts that you are not completely willing to fight for, the life of life it is a continuous process of inheritance from generation to generation, Suihua we have to be in awe of our own life, when my heart really wants to come to the end, don't fight, sometimes you go with the flow, let your life get a very natural end, that's the best thing."

This nodded, I roughly understood what he meant, I knew that he meant this is a very open-minded idea, and if I had this situation with him, maybe I might have done something like this.

However, I really can't ...... old man