Shen Linglong didn't quite understand what it meant to not want Chen Chi, that is, she didn't want them.

Shen Linglong, who was confused by Erfu's attitude, didn't have the heart to lie on the bed at this time, she lifted the quilt and sat up, and beckoned to Erfu and said, "Come here, let's talk." ”

Erfu did not hesitate, he also followed Shen Linglong's example and sat cross-legged on the bed, facing Shen Linglong.

Shen Linglong couldn't see Erfu's expression, she fumbled and lit the candle, she didn't know how obvious the tears on her face were after lighting the candle, Erfu glanced at it and lowered her head again.

This behavior was caught by Shen Linglong, and she asked, "What's wrong with you?" I've never been so low, has something happened? ”

Erfu replied differently: "Mother, even if you quarrel with your father, you are also our mother, right?" Wouldn't leave, would it? ”

Shen Linglong was silent, she couldn't answer Erfu's question. There are too many uncertainties in life, and because of her original family, Shen Linglong doesn't trust her family very much, and she doesn't trust her marriage much. She likes children and raises these five children as her own.

But Chen Chi knew that she was not the biological mother of her five children.

If Chen Chi really can't accept her behavior, and really feels that the Tao is different, and wants to part ways with her, then how can Chen Chi give her a parenting of these five children?

Chen Chi will not.

Shen Linglong felt sad when she thought of this.

Her heart felt as if it had been pierced by a sharp needle, and there was no pain in her heart, but the pain showed its presence all the time.

"Mother, when Dad didn't come back, you clearly said it, you said it clearly, and you won't leave us." Erfu didn't know why, he choked up, subtlely, gently, if you don't listen to it, you can't find it at all.

Shen Linglong heard it, she suddenly looked up at her smartest son, sitting cross-legged and bowing her head opposite her, the dim candle flame flickering, she saw two swirling whirlpools above Erfu's head, and the other black hairs were soft on the door of her head, except for some black hair on the whirlpool, standing stubbornly.

In a trance, she seemed to see her once lonely and helpless self, and she was unable to stabilize herself so she was drifting.

Tick –

Tick –

Shen Linglong suddenly woke up in her memory, she saw tears falling on the back of the child's hand, because the hand was as far as the calf, those tears slipped from the back of the hand to the calf, and in the silent night, these tears smashed clearly.

"You ......" Shen Linglong could vaguely hear Erfu's choked voice just now, and now the tears were inaudible at all, silent tears, pain pressed in his heart, this was exactly the same as himself in the previous life.

Because she understood the loneliness of being in the abyss and no one could save her, Shen Linglong couldn't help but touch Erfu, she couldn't wait to promise him everything, just like she hoped that whoever she wanted would be able to pull her.

But before she met Erfu, this smart and clear child said: "I know, mother, you, you are not my mother, right?" ”

Shen Linglong was shocked, the door was suddenly pushed open, Chen Chi didn't know when he arrived at the door, he stared at Erfu and said, "She is!" She will always be my wife, your mother! ”

The sudden appearance of Chen Chi shocked both Erfu and Shen Linglong.

Of course, the most surprising thing was Shen Linglong, after all, she was first smashed by Erfu's earth-shattering thunder, and then by Chen Chi's scorching oath, and she was stunned.

Fortunately, her strong psychological quality made her calm down quickly, and after glancing at Chen Chi, they unanimously decided to deal with the problem of Erfu first.

Chen Chi also sat down on the edge of the bed, and Shen Linglong and Shen Linglong were both cautious about the smartest and most difficult child in the family.

Shen Linglong pondered for a moment and said, "Erfu, I don't know why you have such an idea, but you are a little strange, do you know?" Leng Buding said that I am not your mother, you are like this, it makes me feel sad, do you know? ”

Erfu was silent, he still kept his head down, as if no one could change what he had identified.

Chen Chi was much more straightforward: "You have been brought by your mother since birth, you don't know what she looks like?" ”

In fact, Shen Linglong didn't dare to agree with this, other children may not know, but Erfu is different, he is no less smart than adults, Chen Chi can keenly discover, this child may not be.

Shen Linglong thought that her changes during this period of time were quite big, because it was gradual, and other children may not be clear, but Erfu is different.

It is one thing to know that Erfu is smart, if he can, Shen Linglong still doesn't want this child to think that she is not his mother.

She pondered for a moment and said, "I think you may have a point in thinking so, but let me assure you this, if my father and I are really divorced-"

"Impossible!" Before he finished speaking, Chen Chi vetoed it, as if he had completely forgotten his quarrel with Shen Linglong not long ago.

Shen Linglong glanced at Chen Chi.

Chen Chi's anger hadn't gone down yet, and his voice was still a little fierce: "What are you looking at?" This matter is not negotiable, I didn't commit any of the good things we talked about before. ”

He promised Shen Linglong's conditions, and he always kept them in mind.

Shen Linglong didn't think so, where did she not commit it? It's clear that she has a big opinion on what she does, okay!

But this is not the time to turn over old accounts, Shen Linglong pursed her lips and said to Erfu: "There will always be disagreements and quarrels between husband and wife, and you don't need to care about these as children, because your father and I are a problem between us, and it doesn't involve you." If you really can't get by, because the children are barely together, this is torture, do you know? ”

It was because she knew this very well that Shen Linglong did not hesitate to pierce her own origins, so that Chen Chi could see her new self and talk about her feelings.

Shen Linglong is disgusted by using children as a reason to barely maintain a marital relationship, which will only make the husband and wife's hands tortured endlessly, so that in words and deeds, they will plant the seeds of their resentment in the children.

"I will never be able to promise to reluctantly glue together the precarious marriage relationship for your sake, which is irresponsible to myself and irresponsible to you." Shen Linglong tried to reason with Erfu, "No matter what happens in the future, it's better to divorce or not, you are all my children, even if you follow your father, it doesn't mean that you want to cut off contact with me." ”

Chen Chi wanted to refute, but was directly pressed down by Shen Linglong, and glanced at Chen Chi and said, "You shut up." ”

Chen Chi: "......"

Erfu still lowered his head, his voice was not loud, but it was clear enough: "But we don't live together anymore, Dad will marry again, you will marry again, and then you will both have your own children." ”

Shen Linglong understood the meaning of Erfu, but did not recognize Erfu's words: "Erfu, only cowardly people will deny their past, a truly strong person will not regret any decision he made, even if it is a mistake in the eyes of others, but you are born as a human being, not for whom you live, not to be a person to see, but to make yourself happy, so that you feel that you have walked in the world and are worthy of your heart." ”

"I believe that your father, even if we are separated and he has his own wife, he will still treat you well, because you are also his blood. And I, I never deny my past, let alone whether I will marry or have children, and even if I do, I never deny my own past, nor do I deny your existence. ”

"Feelings are such a thing, because they are suitable, because they like it, because I tolerate you, and you tolerate me, so we form a family, but it doesn't mean that the relationship doesn't exist, because what life and death are not separated. You have to know that the twisted melon is not sweet, you are not responsible for yourself, and you are not responsible for the other party. ”

Erfu is smart, but at the same time ignorant.

He raised his head to look at Shen Linglong and listened to Shen Linglong talk.

Confident and beautiful. How could such a woman be the mother who distorted her appearance because of resentment? How could it be the mother who was tired and tired and planted hatred in their hearts?

Shen Linglong met the child's eyes, and the sadness in it was clearly visible.

The child, she thought, might really know that she existed, and she couldn't justify the change in temperament.

Shen Linglong was silent for a long time, and finally said: "What I said above is that whether I am with your father or not, we will not deny your existence and will not abandon you." The next thing I want to talk about is the mother-son relationship between you and me. ”

Erfu was stunned and looked at Shen Linglong a little nervously.

This kind of nervousness, Shen Linglong understands. He knew that Shen Linglong was still not his mother, but if Shen Linglong admitted it, he would be unwilling.

Shen Linglong smiled, tapped the child's forehead with her finger, and then said, "There are many kinds of mother-child fate. The mother conceived and gave birth to the child in October, not that the mother gave the child a grace, and the child had to be grateful to him for a lifetime. ”

"Because the arrival of this child has given the mother so much satisfaction and happiness in her heart, mother and child are equal, and no one should be grateful to anyone."

"Let's talk about raising grace, let's put aside the word raising children to prevent old age, you will never know how much touch and happiness you have given me in the process of growing up, and I only gave you food, clothing, housing and transportation, not to mention that this kind of food, clothing, housing and transportation will be returned to me when I am old in the future."

As she spoke, Shen Linglong paused, her gentle fingers stroked Erfu's cheek, and she said: "I raised you because you called me a mother, because of the love you gave me for thousands of days and nights after this mother, and love can only be repaid with love." You have to remember that all feelings are equal, not that family affection is noble, if you don't use love to repay feelings, then no matter what feelings will be worn out one day, even if blood is thicker than water, they will part ways. ”

"And the reason why I don't want me to promise you that I will never part with your father is because then I will give you hatred and give you resentment, and I don't want to one day because of these hatreds and resentments to wear out our mother-son relationship."

"I don't want to become a person who makes you feel hateful, a person who makes you want to get rid of the future, so Erfu, don't force it on the surface, you think that the divorce of your parents will lead to our separation and make you homeless, which actually does not exist with me, I promise you, even if the vicissitudes of life and the stars change, my heart of love for you will never change, and I will never deny your existence."

The child's concern is never that his parents are divorced, but that his love has changed.

Just as it is easy to go from simplicity to luxury, it is difficult to move from luxury to frugality. How can a person who has enjoyed love be willing to be withdrawn from love?

Shen Linglong explained the child to him as a mature individual, guiding him to understand the truth in his own heart. And this child did not disappoint her, Erfu was rarely excited and threw himself into Shen Linglong's arms, he hugged Shen Linglong's waist tightly, but did not say a word.

But Shen Linglong could feel that the thin clothes around her waist were soaked with tears.

Shen Linglong stroked the back of the child's head and said softly, "Don't be afraid, child." I am always with you, no matter where you are. ”